Wrestling the Ally: An Obsession
By T.A. Tomax
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T.A. Tomax
T.A. Tomax, the author of the novella Wrestling the Ally, chronicles here the journey of a soul to the outer limits of passion – and out of the ashes of absence and despair into the clear light of the love of life in all its particulars: this tree, this dragonfly, this rock, this afternoon walk, and yes, this grief and this joy. It is simply breathtaking to follow Tomax from the starkness of erotic obsession to the wonders of a deeply textured world of light and shadow, leaf and stone; from finding the world in the beloved to finding the beloved in the world itself: splendid, fragrant, sensual, full of sound and form and color, utterly solid and utterly itself. And yet, Tomax transcends the natural world by a deeply felt seriousness and simplicity of tone that ultimately transforms evocation into invocation and worship. Amor Vacui, indeed.
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Wrestling the Ally - T.A. Tomax
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It is not I.
It is you.
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I was in the world.
The world was within me.
I longed for something.
I longed for something that had no name.
I longed without words.
God did not speak to me.
It was you who was my God.
You were a fierce God, remote and terrible, your absence fueling my desire, your silence an agonizing flame, consuming me wholly in an ecstasy of yearning.
Now the skies are empty, and God is not here, and all is vain.
There are no more voices speaking unto me, and the visions have faded.
There is memory only.
And the wish to understand what I cannot understand alone.
The passion of my heart: you.
And through you: myself.
SKU-000418993_TEXT.pdfA man without a past you said you were. Remembering nothing. Revealing nothing. Showing a brilliant surface to the world, jealously guarding the demons within. I did not understand—how could I? Caught by my own demons, struggling to keep them at bay, how could I have understood yours?
I could not.
Like a brilliant streak of light you shot through my life, illuminating the dark reaches briefly, and before I could adjust my eyes you were gone. Then, I was left to wonder: how it was that you permeated my dreams, breathing my blood, taking over my life, all that I knew of the world, all that I knew of myself. Who you are, who I worshipped as a God, slowly, deeply, ceaselessly. On the altar of whose flesh I wanted to sacrifice my soul. Whose heart I tried to swallow, offering you mine.
And it could not be done.
SKU-000418993_TEXT.pdfWhat you took I gave you
What I gave you did not keep
You opened your mouth
I gave you my tongue
It was where it belonged
I gave you my heart
You promised to swallow it whole
I can still feel your teeth biting down
You took my eyes and kept them in a place
Inside yourself among things that sting
When I offered my skin you took that, too
And wrapped it around yourself
You collected my sweat and my blood, my smell
You mixed it well and drained it all
I was stripped to the bone
I wanted your soul
You gave me your sex
You offered what you knew how to give
I devoured it all and reached for your heart
I wanted to give you all that I had
Too much!—you said
And down came the night so
I took back my sight
My tongue, my skin
And all that is mine
As much at a loss as I was before
Maybe more maybe
Less
What I wanted was nothing short of death.
I don’t want that now.
There is nothing to tell.
Other than that I remember you well.
SKU-000418993_TEXT.pdfWhen I met you, I was wholly unprepared and I did not wait for anything. Yet I was ready: life and the future surging towards me as a wall of fire, compelling and deadly.
I was ready to burn to ashes.
SKU-000418993_TEXT.pdf― But do you not fear the pain? Will you be able
to bear it?
― I have no