I Deserve This: Affair, Divorce, Regret

By Sean Dalton

"I deserve this" is the mantra Marissa uses to justify her affair. "I deserve this" is the belief that helps Marissa accept the consequences of her actions.

A fateful encounter leads Marissa, a devoted housewife, back into the workforce

• Language: English
• Publisher: Sean Dalton Erotic
• Release date: Mar 21, 2024
• ISBN: 9781738579204

Sean Dalton

Sean Dalton is an erotic romance writer who likes to write romance novels with sex and drama in them wanting to get as much emotion from the characters as possible but his stories always finish with a happy ending. He is a sucker for a happy ending. Sean mostly writes short stories and novellas.Discovered his love of writing whilst finding himself unemployed during the pandemic he desires to be able to write full-time.When not writing Sean loves to cook and trains in martial arts and has a black belt in Ju Jitsu.

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I DESERVE THIS

Contents

Affair

Divorce

Regret

Reconcile

Moving on

Affair

So, how was your first day? Jason McIntyre smiled at Marissa, his new assistant. Jason’s smile was charming and would make anyone who it was aimed at feel like they were the only person in the room. It was the same smile he used when he offered Marissa her job and with that one smile, it made it impossible for Marissa to turn it down.

Marissa spent her career working in the literary world, working her way up, proofreading, liaising with publishers, and now was working as the assistant to one of the most important literary agents in the industry. That Jason McIntyre was handsome and charming, his soft Scottish lilt adding to it, was a perk. Marissa was over forty now, though, and thought herself immune to falling for such charms.

Fascinating! Marissa replied excitedly. I knew you represented many famous authors but I had no idea how many!"

That is because we do not interfere in their artistic process or demand unreasonable changes, Jason explained. We just tell them what sells. Why don’t you go home? It’s getting late. Tomorrow we can start planning your duties, Jason said with a wink which Marissa saw through the reflection of her monitor, prompting her to give a girlish giggle. He gently massaged Marissa’s shoulders as he spoke. Marissa had to stifle a moan; his strong hands felt so good on her shoulders. There was something about Jason, he just made the world appear so much more exciting.

Marissa’s job was a huge and unexpected advancement in her career. She was to liaise with the authors Jason currently represented and try to persuade other authors to come to them on Jason’s behalf. It was a cutthroat world, and with it came a big salary.

Marissa lived a comfortable and happy suburban life with her husband, Mike, and two children, Izzy, twelve, and Jack, 10. Mike had a well-paid and secure job as a team leader in an IT department, so money was never an issue. The children saw friends and did activities in their free time. However, Izzy and Jack just didn’t need their mother’s time anymore and she had begun to get bored and lonely at home so Marissa agreed with her husband that she could return to work and focus on her career.

A chance meeting with Jason McIntyre himself at a literary conference led to the job offer. The job was a dream come true and it significantly boosted her and Mike’s household income. Their future now looked bright and full of possibilities.

Marissa settled into her job quickly and she was enthusiastic in her duties. When on conference calls she marvelled at how smooth Jason was and how at ease he made her feel in his company. Assistant and boss exchanged phone numbers and began to regularly message each other in the evenings and on weekends which would always bring an excited smile to her face.

Who’re you messaging? Mike would ask, irritated that his wife’s attention was focused elsewhere.

Jason, Marissa replied off-handedly as she focused on her messages. He is chasing Margaret Earlwood, the author of the Debbie Walsh Mysteries books.

Impressive, but does he have to message you when you’re at home? Also, I don’t like how secretive you are when you do it. Why do you always hide your phone when I look at it?

Because discretion is part of the job. I do it to protect you from seeing something you shouldn’t. I don’t want you to mention something private by accident. To be successful in the literary world, you often have to work out of hours in case you miss your chance! You sometimes have to work out of hours and so do I, Marissa explained to her husband more irritably than she meant to. Besides it’s exciting to talk to a successful man.

That last comment stung Mike hard. Marissa had always been proud of his achievements, at least he thought she had.

You don’t think I’m successful? Mike asked sounding hurt.

I’m sorry, Mike. That was uncalled for, Marissa apologised guiltily. I shouldn’t have said that. It was wrong of me but you have to admit his International Literary Agent of the Year Award is a bit more impressive than an Employee of the Month award and a £50 Amazon voucher.

I made sure employees on low wages got paid on time for that award. Does a literary agent do that?

Mike, you need to understand that what Jason does is a bigger deal! Working for Jason is an amazing opportunity for me and, for us! Marissa told him firmly shutting down their argument.

Marissa’s constant messaging with Jason became a rift between her and Mike. All Mike wanted was an evening as a family or just the two of them without Marissa’s phone interrupting them. They began to argue about it constantly and neither of them would back down.

Are you okay, Marissa? Jason asked on seeing his new assistant staring into space pensively. His charming smile made her feel happy as it always did, his silvery hair reflecting the sunlight coming through the window made him appear to almost have a halo.

Marissa smiled weakly, "I’m fine, Jason. It’s just that Mike doesn’t appreciate the demands of the job. He just doesn’t get how big a deal