Lost in My Soul: Conversations With the Deepest Parts of Me

By SERGIO RIJO

Are you looking for answers to life's big questions? Do you find yourself constantly searching for your sense of purpose? If so, then my book is for you. Hi, my name is Sergio, and I was born on the last day of 1978. Ever since I can remember, I have been seeking the meaning of my existence. Along the way, I have had a journey filled with highs and lows, moments of clarity, and times of confusion.

In my book, I share some of the insights, thoughts, and conscious awareness I have gained throughout my journey. These are fragments of conversations I have had with my soul that I decided to jot down at the time and have now compiled for you. While I may not have found the definitive answer to the reason for my existence, I have come to realize that it's not about the destination but the journey itself.

Through my book, I invite you to embark on your own journey of self-discovery. Let my experiences and reflections inspire you to explore your own sense of being. Discover the power of introspection and the ability to connect with your soul. My hope is that my soul can speak to yours and that we can realize that we are all connected and that we are all one.

So, come along with me on this journey. Let love be the driving force and the objective of our journey, and let's see where this path takes us. I promise it will be a ride that you won't soon forget.
 

• Language: English
• Publisher: SERGIO RIJO
• Release date: Sep 18, 2023
• ISBN: 9798223322474

SERGIO RIJO

Join me on an adventure through captivating stories! I'm Sergio Rijo, a passionate writer with 20 years of experience in crafting books across genres. Let's explore new worlds together and get hooked from start to finish.

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Lost in My Soul:

Conversations With the Deepest Parts of Me

By Sergio Rijo

Introduction

Hi there! My name is Sergio and I was born on the last day of 1978. From as far back as I can remember, I've been on a journey to find the meaning behind my existence. Although I haven't found that answer yet, the journey has been a rollercoaster ride of insights, thoughts, and self-awareness.

In this book, I'm sharing with you some fragments of conversations I had with my soul that I decided to jot down and compile. While I could go on and on about myself in this introduction, everything you need to know about me is contained within these pages.

I hope that my soul's voice can speak to yours and touch it in some way. We are all one, and everything I have written here is yours too. May love always be the motive and goal of our journey. Enjoy it.

Chapter 1: Dark Night(s) of the Soul

When everything darkens, it is at night. A cold and lonely night, the sun ceases to rise, everything is blackness, even the air we breathe becomes so dense and black that it is impossible to inhale. The heart contracts, a continuous pain of not being able to break free from the strongest bonds ever created: the bonds of our mind.

In that moment, we feel abandoned by people, by the world, and even by God. Silent screams of pain are often misunderstood, even by themselves. Courage, courage, for the sake of love, courage—these are the words that echo within us amidst so much despair and confusion. The soul hurts, but it makes itself heard, and it is the soul that, amidst the darkness of so much pain, still whispers to you that it is not over yet, that it is not time to give up, that certain souls, even in the abyss, were not created to surrender to darkness.

They say there is a dark night of the soul, and for some souls, these nights are countless. The duality of the universe exists in a perfect balance between opposing forces that balance each other, and only in this way can there be perfect order, a divine unity, where the scale does not weigh more or less for one side.

Whoever has more light also has more darkness. There is no way to live in unity with the divine or with the universe without experiencing the two opposing poles that consciousness will harmonize at some point on the journey. No one is only light, nor is anyone only darkness. As the wise saying goes, the virtue lies in the middle, the virtue of knowing that in the balance of all opposing forces lies the unity of the whole, the God that dwells within us and in everything.

We live trapped in a dome of ego limitation, forgetting so many truths. We are eternal, without time or space, living illusion after illusion, walking in circles of pain and frustration, searching for something that is not tangible, something that we feel exists but do not know what, where, or how to find, only feeling that in that something there may be the piece that can fill the empty space that always seems to be missing in us. From pain to pain, we realize that this something is not anywhere we have ever looked, not in any book we have studied, or even in something we have loved or admired. And in the same way, it is all of that and so much more.

At a certain point, amidst the darkness, a thread of divine light bursts forth, a thread of consciousness that illuminates like never before. In that moment, we feel more than understand; we just feel that there is no emptiness in us or anywhere else. Everything is unity; everything is God; everything is divine. We are divine sparks, created in pure love. The origin and destiny are love—an origin and destiny that mix without reason, because in eternity there are no human conditions or limitations, much less a defined timeline.

Just like the changing seasons, our growth goes through cycles. In the autumn, our illusions fall away; in the winter, the sadness of what we have yet to understand leads us to a long, cold loneliness; and in the spring, with the first warm rays of sun, the first seeds of consciousness sprout so that we may live in an eternal summer of warm and loving sunshine.

Only love is real; pain is a necessary illusion in a universe of duality, and only by touching hell can we reach paradise. From the lowest point to the highest, we are never alone; we never cease to be God, and the love that is... all that it is.

I know it hurts, but you know what?

It's not real and it will pass; spring has arrived and summer is not far behind!

Chapter 2: Accept what you cannot change, change what you cannot accept

The lack of acceptance is one of the main factors in human suffering. When we fail to accept what happens to us, we miss the chance to understand the true meaning of those events. When we resist, we give so much energy to that resistance that we lose the opportunity to use it in understanding why these things arise in our lives.

When we accept the flow of things with naturalness, we enter a state of consciousness that leads us to faith. Faith is nothing more than acceptance in action.

Acceptance is one of the most powerful actions we can take because it allows us to grow and move forward like few things can. Acceptance knocks down countless struggles and futile resistances to things we want to change but which are impossible because they are outside of our control. The only thing we can change is ourselves. We must always be the change we want to see in our external world.

Acceptance is often seen as passivity or even a lack of interest. However, on the contrary, it is the only way to transform or change something that we cannot control. Resisting is never a solution, as this will only bring us more and more of the same! Furthermore, it will only bring us suffering and frustration.

When we accept, we cease to be victims of what happens to us and start looking at things with a realistic perspective of the power to change that lies within us. After all, change is a natural condition of the universe and, consequently, of us. When we do not accept, we are only trying desperately to return to a condition that seemed comfortable and safe for our ego.

When we start to accept everything with naturalness, everything becomes perfect because everything is as it should be at a particular moment. When we accept, we are open to receiving what the universe has to offer, giving us the opportunity to act.

Life is full of challenges, delivered by the universe with the sole purpose of helping us heal and grow. We spend a lot of time trying to play God, deluded by the idea that we can control everything that happens to us, when in reality, we can only control our reaction to what happens to us.

Therefore, the best thing we can do is accept what we cannot change and change what we cannot accept.

Chapter 3: Love me when I least deserve it, because that's when I need it the most

It's so easy to love when everything is perfect, when we feel eternal, when we look at life without time or space. Everything we see is love, and all that love is reflected in any angle or perspective of an eternal infinity of situations and dreams repressed by innate desires to live that ideal romantic love story, which even before all the Hollywood movies and novels shaped that concept, seems to have already been born within us.

So many times I questioned what true love would be like; what kind of love was I searching for, filled with expectations and preconceived beliefs? Understanding without words, communication without time or space, all senses filled with comfort and peace, without repairs or desired changes, not even in a small detail, just a perfect fit in everything, without discomfort, without wear and tear, with freedom, trust, and above all, a loyal partnership, where one would not be two, not even two would be one, but hand in hand they would walk in the same direction.

I grew up hearing that everything is a trade, that relationships are a trade, that there must be reciprocity, that everything we give we should receive, and so many other things that reinforce this idea. Even the word relationship itself has in its genesis the idea that love between two beings is just a relationship, something that happens when one gives something to receive something back from the other. The very synonyms of the word relationship (relation, adventure, case, connection) show the sporadic nature of something that can only happen on an egocentric basis of exchange.

In a partnership, people come together for a common interest. It doesn't matter who gives more; it doesn't matter if one can't give more at a certain time because there is certainty that the other will multiply efforts to ensure that the common interest is always achieved. In a partnership, there is no I or you, there is only we, which, despite being formed by an I and you, lives on the trust that when two people truly love each other, they won't let go of each other's hand because there is no exchange or expectation of receiving anything. Synonyms for partnership show just that (society, agreement, union, connection, association); in this type of romantic agreement, there is a common objective, where the heart commands, because it doesn't see the egoistic need for exchange, only the objective of continuing the path without judging the other's moment.

Truly loving someone is for the strong; the weak hide in a relational hopscotch because enduring a partnership is much more complicated than jumping from one exchange to another. It's almost like going to the market to buy bread and leaving the money behind—you eat the bread, I'll keep the money. Next customer, there's still bread; who has money to exchange?" Bellies to fill, minds to deceive Time passes, and there is more hunger and less money.

Those who are in a relationship cannot love when the other deserves it least, because at that moment there is nothing to be exchanged; the other can only receive because they have nothing to give at that moment.

In a partnership, which functions like a union, those who cannot give end up being even more compensated, supported, and helped. Because the other person understands that their momentary compensation is for the common good and not just a sporadic exchange that can only last for a while. Above all else, the one who gives the most in that moment knows that one day they too may need to be carried for a while. Partnerships thrive on trust and loyalty, and no matter what, no one will be left behind. The pace may slow down, the goals may become a bit more difficult to achieve at times, but one thing is certain: the one who loves when the other person deserves it the least but needs it the most will always be more confident because they know that, whether on one side or the other, their hands will never let go and their journey will never stagnate.