No One Gives A F*ck About Your Health

By Jordyn Kidd

No one gives a f*ck about your health. Never have and never will. Everyone wants to be skinny. Any deviation from the beauty standard is fair game for shame and humiliation. Weight is the most prominent factor in beauty standards. In recent years, the push for body positivity has resulted in beauty rebranded as health. Diet culture has long ruled over our society. If the beauty and diet industries have influenced society for so long, why is obesity worse? Socially, no one benefits from being overweight. Why would someone want to live their life feeling unworthy of love? Or, be the butt of every joke? Eating disorders run rampant, eating too little or too much. It is one extreme or the other. In this book, my goal is to share my health journey and explore the causes of obesity. And how we can do more than lose weight. We should strive to thrive in life. Heal our minds and develop a healthy relationship with food in the "real" name of health.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Jordyn Kidd
• Release date: Aug 22, 2023
• ISBN: 9798223669265

Book preview

My Journey 2020-2021. 8

My Journey 2022-2023. 10

Nutrition. 11

Diets. 28

Exercise. 40

Mental Health. 52

Habits. 64

Nature V. Nurture. 69

Health & Wealth. 75

Fat V. Society. 80

Eating Disorders. 85

Post-Weight Loss Problems. 90

Three Keys To Weight Loss Journeys. 94

Consistency. 96

Motivation. 100

Accountability. 104

Balance. 108

Preface



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No one gives a fuck about your health. Never have and never will. Everyone wants to be skinny. Any deviation from the beauty standard is fair game for shame and humiliation. Weight is the most prominent factor in beauty standards. In recent years, the push for body positivity has resulted in beauty rebranded as health. Diet culture has long ruled over our society. If the beauty and diet industries have influenced society for so long, why is obesity worse? Socially, no one benefits from being overweight. Why would someone want to live their life feeling unworthy of love? Or, be the butt of every joke? Eating disorders run rampant, eating too little or too much. It is one extreme or the other. In this book, my goal is to share my health journey and explore the causes of obesity. And how we can do more than lose weight. We should strive to thrive in life. Heal our minds and develop a healthy relationship with food in the real name of health.

When I began writing this book in 2020, my initial purpose was to help people lose weight. While writing this book, I had to sort through my fatphobia. There are more significant issues in life than being fat. My focus has shifted to mental and physical health. The Irony is the more focus I put on mental health, the more weight I have been able to lose. Letting go of fatphobia and putting all that energy into health and happiness will take you further.  Shame and fear will not heal you. Only love for yourself can do that. It isn’t an easy process, and it will take time. What you believe will change as you grow. I’ve wrestled with what was written early on in this book and have had to make many changes. However, I’ve kept some of it to demonstrate how your mind can change throughout your health journey.

This book is not a weight loss book. It focuses heavily on issues concerning obesity, weight loss, and health. The causes of obesity are complex, and I don’t claim to have the answers. In this book, I will attempt to explore them. I hope that this book offers some new perspectives. I question whether my experience, voice, and opinions are necessary. I’m a perfectionist and want everything I say and do to be factually and morally correct. That is unrealistic, but I will try my best. If anything, this book is for me. To honor and document everything I have learned and experienced. I owe it to myself. If my writing helps just one person, all my hard work will have been worth it.

My Journey: Beginnings



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Like many, I have struggled with obesity for most of my life. The last time I was at a healthy weight was when I was seven years old. My struggle with weight has a significant connection to my mental health. Throughout this journey, I’ve learned that more than one factor contributes to my weight. I have learned that the causes of obesity are multifaceted and different for each person. I do not claim to have the answers. The purpose of this book is to share what I have learned, observed, and experienced. I hope to inspire others to live healthier, both physically and mentally. While also enlightening those who think negatively of those who struggle with obesity.

Before I dive into the multifaceted issues leading to obesity, I will share a bit of an overview of my health journey. My weight issues began after I experienced trauma. At a very young age, I preferred sugary foods and fast food. I also was not a very active child. By the time I was eight years old, I was about 140 to 150 pounds. That year my mother and I left my hometown of Escanaba, Michigan, moving to Denver, Colorado, to be closer to my nana. Around nine years old, I became extremely anxious, depressed, and suicidal. That has continued to be a struggle for me to this day. I was bullied quite a bit for my weight, and I’ve always hated my appearance. Besides my weight, my racial identity has been a constant struggle. Being bi-racial is challenging because It’s difficult to fit in. I’m not white, but I’m not black. Don’t forget beauty standards typically are not chubby brown girls with short curly hair. On a positive note, I can tell you I am at peace with my race today. Not everyone is a blue-eyed blonde, and that’s okay. My weight, however, is not, and I fear it may always be a struggle for me. Some people radiate confidence. I am not one of those people.

For most teens, struggling with their identity is normal.  Starting middle school was too much for me. After another suicide attempt, my mom decided to homeschool me and focus on getting me help for my depression and post-traumatic stress disorder. However, I’m unsure how beneficial that was. I was at home all day overeating. I was on some serious medication that contributed to weight gain as well. I would end up gaining over a hundred pounds. Luckily my family would make a change that I believe saved my life.



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In the summer of 2008, my family moved to Katy, Texas, so my stepdad could work at his father’s shop. I hated moving because I couldn’t see my nana as often. I wouldn’t continue with homeschooling in seventh grade. I was still suicidal, and my anxiety made it difficult to attend school full-time. We found a transition school to help ease me back into public school. In the morning, I would take math and theater arts at my junior high school. Then a bus would take me to the transitional school, where I would take the rest of my courses. It was beneficial because it helped me finish eighth grade full-time at the junior high. After all, I was acquainted with the school. It would end up being the best year of school I experienced.



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Moving to Texas was great because I met my best friend. For most of my life, I never really had any friends. I met Tobin in seventh grade, and we remained close friends until he passed away from cancer in 2017. My relationship with Tobin and his family helped me in so many ways. I wouldn’t have had a social life if not for him. He would also support me when I had gastric-by-pass in July of 2013.

While the school systems in Texas were better than in Colorado, struggling with mental illness and weight issues proved too much to complete high school. I would end up homeschooled once again. Only this time, I received extraordinary care at Texas Children’s Hospital in Houston, Texas. The healthcare system in Houston is truly one of the best in the country. Unfortunately, the healthcare providers I encountered in Colorado seem to lack the bedside manner and tools that the doctors that treated me in Texas had. Now, it is not like I’m saying the Physicians that treated me weren’t blunt about my weight because they were.

The first doctor I met in Texas told me that I had a body of a forty-year-old, and hearing that at fifteen hurt. But I understood she was right about my health. The difference was that she took steps to help me with my health and referred me to specialists to help me even more.



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I would see another doctor and a therapist and begin attending a support group. At this time, I was over 300 pounds and was diagnosed with insulin resistance and polycystic ovary syndrome. The PCOS diagnosis was the most devastating because one of my biggest dreams is to be a mother. I rarely had periods because of my weight. To lose weight, I started running around my neighborhood.  It wasn’t very long or far, but it was a step in the right direction. Unfortunately, one morning a day following a run, I awoke to intense throbbing pain and began vomiting. I went to the emergency room, and they discovered a large cyst