To Be Held by the Light: A Lenten Journey
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Ariana D. Den Bleyker
Ariana D. Den Bleyker is a Pittsburgh native currently residing in New York’s Hudson Valley where she is a wife and mother of two. She is the author of three collections and twenty chapbooks, among others. She is the founder and publisher of ELJ Editions, Ltd., a 501(c)(3) literary nonprofit. She currently serves as a deacon for The First Reformed Church of Walden, New York. She hopes you'll fall in love with her words.
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To Be Held by the Light - Ariana D. Den Bleyker
Ash Wednesday,
in the gray weight of its hours extends within the quiet a grittiness—ashes made from last year’s palm branches forming a rough & imperfect symbol upon our foreheads. Let me receive this cross of ash upon my brow until the forests of my body burn & I make late repentance of loss while the trees of God clap their hands, the thick smoke soot of palm deepening the peace of a hand extended within the quiet. You are dust and to dust you shall return—a beginning & a consummation for all the days I’ve felt like dust, like dirt, scattered or swept away by the smallest breath. Cover me with ashes, bring me to my knees, so that in my weakness I see Your strength, the reflection of Your eyes in my brokenness. Scorched & marked, I’ve made it through the burning, asked for blessing in the shame & sorrow, the oily smear of ash bearing my sin, my need for grace echoing how well I know it. I want to gather the ash from my face & raise my hands—an offering, an apology. Remember you are dust. & so I am. & so I lift my head to meet those words, pardoned, standing in their forgiveness, in the grace of being named. & in my frailty, I am known.
I Will Eat
John 6:48
I’ve searched the world but it hasn’t filled me, & starving in my abundance, I am broken, hungry, & incomplete. I’ve spilled myself onto the floor of this sanctuary, have grown here as God commands, swelling dark red against the pregnant sea, confessing sin until I’ve drawn nearer to Christ calling to me until I take the bread & eat & eat of it—this bread hunger in a distended belly’s curve, starvation when even the sunrise feels uncertain & everything tastes of bitterness in the wilderness. When darkness clothes my dreams & I tread life waiting for the sea to subside, my repentance now a reflex, a sleepless place where I break Him open & eat again, taste wine so supple I can dip half my fingers in & pull out beautiful fish, sing psalms so sweetly I begin to cry, hold up my hands, palms up, capturing Heaven in both manna & leaven, a body made for everything but itself—in Eucharist, wafer thin, provision like dew every morning feeding me one moment at a time in this space where my emptiness cries out as I boil & bake what is given to me, tasting the sweetness of it all, both held & raised up among a pillar of cloud, weighed down with the rain, & then, snow.
On the Water
Matthew 14:22–36
& I alone, surrounded by hills in the darkness, struggle against the water, boat pitching at 3 a.m. in the midnight blue, & when the winds pick up & the dark water rises, Fear not becoming the most spoken imperative but doubt comfort in this wild, untamed life, my basic biology betrays me: racing heart, sweat, breathlessness, a brokenness devoid of God—me, over my head in this world, terrified in the turbulence, the danger despite Christ perpetually moving toward me. & for a moment, I step out in faith, dazzled out of doubt for a beautiful, flickering instant until I stumble into the darkness, until I pull my eyes from Him & drown in all the what-ifs leaving me flailing again & again & again. But when he meets