Unspoken Emotions

By Jayda Addleton

From a child's innocence to the soul-crushing reality of the world, Jayda explores with her own emotions what it is like to grow up in an ever-changing world. Emotions are never black and white, so Jayda explores what it is like to convey emotions through the art of poetry.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Tellwell Talent
• Release date: Feb 27, 2023
• ISBN: 9780228883227

Jayda Addleton

Jayda Addleton is an Australian author who started writing at the age of twelve years old and hasn't stopped. As an aspiring author, her style of writing has been influenced by all that is around her from reading fantasy, romance and poetry to playing Dungeons and Dragons to listening to music and just being present in life. Her writing voice is a bit chaotic but so is her life. When she isn't balancing work, university and some type of a social life, she is sitting in a pile of blankets with a nice cup of chai latte either reading or watching some Dungeons and Dragons.

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Copyright © 2023 by Jayda Addleton

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978-0-2288-8321-0 (Hardcover)

978-0-2288-8320-3 (Paperback)

978-0-2288-8322-7 (eBook)

Table of Contents

Sunny days

In memory of Nunu

Invisible

Chasing the time

For my best friends

This is for you

Live in a castle

My own worst enemy

Habits I won’t miss

For my sisters

Dr Smile

Dreaming

In the end

That’s wrong

One vs enO

Circled talks

Stages of falling out of love

Was the leap of faith worth it?

All the reasons left…

Happiness is a question

Mixed realities

Party for one always

Inner turmoil

Let me into your world

Not enough

In memory of

Invisible armour

Pleasant? surprises

Helping hands

Abuse?

Flicker

Emotional change

Hidden, now returned

What is it you love?

Tinted Reality

Broken endings

J.P.R

After thought

Imploding possibilities

Thorik

Dear Thorik

I love you – Meanings

Simple bliss moments

Party Partner

Aches for what you present

Vines through armour

Woman in Wonder

Finding me

Your beacon of smile

Silent solider

Learned

A meets D

Addicted to better things

Driving to your advice

Ataraxis

Inner battles

Eight Years Later

Awkward people

Ned

Timed therapist

Fading Summers

Acknowledgements

To everyone who has never known what to say or how to feel…

The poems you are about to read discuss the topics of childhood, heartache, breaking up, anxiety, depression, trauma and newfound love. These poems were written between 2013 – 2021.

The first-ever poem was written when I was twelve years old. From then onwards, I used poetry as a way to release all my emotions, mainly negative emotions, into words.

I always found it difficult to say what I was feeling because most (if not all) of the time I didn’t know how to feel, how to speak about my emotions or even if what I felt was ok. Poetry was my escapism, and this was my diary.

Most of these poems came from voice memos I recorded whenever I felt or thought of something that, to me, was worth writing about in some way or another.

We all feel and express our emotions differently, and my means of expression was always in the small details, like taking the time to write poems or listening. When people needed to vent, I was that venting buddy. For a long time, I never had a venting buddy, someone I could 100% rely on to express my feelings, but the older I got, the more I realised that letting people know how you feel can either be the best thing in the world or the biggest struggle.

Some poems may have a warning for depression, anxiety, eating problems, abuse or trauma.

So, these are my feelings, my thoughts and my confusion about feelings…

Enjoy…

Sunny days

This is my first-ever written poem, dating back to 2013. I was roughly twelve years old. I remember writing this on my iPod touch while I was lying on the hood of the car, just after getting out of the ocean. I had such a sudden urge to write my emotion down in my notes, and so I did so.

Little did I know that this would be where it all started.

I was simply a child feeling happiness and wanting to express my emotions but not sure how to.

What a beautiful day.

Sun is shining

While the beach is calling my way.

Laughter.

Music is playing;

People are just relaxing,

Having fun like there is no tomorrow.

In memory of Nunu

When I was around five years old, my grandfather, aka my nunu, passed