A Fresh Start: Purpose Plan and Relationship

By Freddie Woods Wilson

Courage during a shutdown, my shutdown ended. There is no dilemma that God has not already supplied, I knew that God was with me He said that He will never leave me nor forsake me. How do you know you have faith if you never went through a storm? "Redeemed from the hands of the Enemy" Psalms 107 (KJV)"Promise of Restoration" Nevertheless, I will bring health and healing Jeremiah 33:6 (NIV)"Led by the Spirit of God" Romans 8: 14 (ESV)"Kept in Safety Wherever I Go" Psalms 91: 11(CEB)"Blessed coming in and Blessed Going out" Duet, 28:6 (NASB)During my trails of negativity thoughts sadness the presence of God was with me I didn't realize it until later when I made up my mind to take care of my children and myself. The Power of God is my strength and my shield, my heart trust in Him.But my God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus (Philippians 4:19) I believe God always provides for us yes, I was afraid to be on my own didn't have any income but because of my faith in Christ I begin to believe in His provision. God provided for thousands of Israelites in a desert I believe if you ask Him, He will provide, and He did for me.I had a purpose, God have a purpose for my life I knew that He had something good for me, I am passionate for people, my relationship with others the purpose of making people happy through my drawing. I'm not fully walking in my purpose, but I am ready and optimistic about doing so much more. Psalm 57: 2 "I cry out to God Most High, to God who fulfills his purpose for me.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Christian Faith Publishing, Inc.
• Release date: Mar 11, 2021
• ISBN: 9781642998603

Freddie Woods Wilson

Mrs. Freddie Woods Wilson grew up in Minden, Louisiana married to US Army SSgt. Cleveland C. Wilson who is now retired from the Army after serving for twenty years. After traveling here and there as a military spouse we now live here in North Carolina, I organized a book club called the Spirit of Unity for the past five years where we read inspirational books I volunteer with the military community, I enjoy singing, reading, and writing this is my first book that I wrote.

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Freddie Woods Wilson

A

Fresh

Start

Purpose Plan and Relationship

ISBN 978-1-64299-859-7 (paperback)

ISBN 978-1-64299-860-3 (digital)

Copyright © 2019 by Freddie Woods Wilson

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Names, characters, places and incidents are either the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously and any resemblance to, actual persons, living or dead, business establishments, events or locales is entirely coincidental.

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Table of Contents

Acknowledgement

Dedications

Preface

Introduction

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Chapter 6

Chapter 7

Chapter 8

Chapter 9

Chapter 10

Chapter 11

Chapter 12

Chapter 13

Chapter 14

Chapter 15

Chapter 16

Chapter 17

Let’s Pray

Comments Review

Thank you Lord for ratifying positive change in my life, even as I was unaware

Acknowledgement

Thank you Helona Wheeler, Thomas Goins and Marilyn Royal for reading over my manuscript giving reviews for my work; I want to give honor to God who put the dream in my heart to write. Thanks to my husband who is always supportive of my writing. Thanks to the Protestant Women of the Chapel Intercessory Prayer Team, Simon Temple AME Zion Church Intercessory Prayer Team, thank you and much love to my sisters in Christ. Angel, Vanessa, Gloria, and Rosa, for your prayers, and getting me out of the house for some quality girlfriend time. That meant so much to me. I want to thank Veronica and Ruby Jones for the blurb you both are kind-hearted, sweet, and remarkable women. Thanks to my book club (Simon Temple) for the amazing Christian books we read they continue to inspire me. Throckmorton Library Writers Group, you find beauty everywhere, I love you! These friends have been very invaluable encouragement to me giving me suggestions, their opinion great loving support and listening to me late nights. Special thanks to Christian Faith Publishing and the editing department. Placing love and righteousness in the present to discover the beauty of life. This book is dedicated to generations to come and I am the finish product. God is Love.

Battered women will find this book A Fresh Start extremely life affirming! All readers will find this story well written by the author, Freddie. She pulls you into the story as you turn the pages. A Fresh Start is a riveting book with compassion and transparency. A powerful story of how one woman’s faith, hope, and close relationship with Christ allowed her to be a survivor of domestic violence. This book is for anyone looking for hope, and in need of a new beginnings. A must read that is sure to be a number one best seller!

—Ruby L. Jones,

Family Development Consultant, Professional Storyteller, Civil Service Education, Technician (retired) of Fort Bragg, North Carolina

Every woman who has left an abusive man, every woman who has yet to leave will find the book, A Fresh Start, an intriguing story full of encouragement in the voice of the main female’s character (a victim of domestic violence) who finds the courage to finally break free, a woman who reclaims her dignity and rediscovers her dignity and rediscovers self, peace, and happiness away from her abuser! This book will motivate anyone reading it to keep going through all situations and challenges and to never give up!

—Veronica B. Jones,

Evangelist, Motivational Speaker, Radio Personality, and President of Ruby Rose Heart Foundation

Dedications

Friends, family, baby boomers, millennials and generations to come.

And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for you; for my strength is made perfect in weakness.

—2 Corinthians 12:9 NKJV

In Loving memories of my mother who told me so much about God, life, guidance and prayers her beautiful memories are here in my heart.

Preface

After the publication of my first book, A Divine Connection: Experiencing a Moment Keep Pushing Forward, I was uncertain as to whether or not my time as an author would continue. However, if you are reading this current book, God has extended the time of my authorship, and to Him I give limitless thanks.

God called me that first time to share the contents of my heart and mind and the joys and trials of being a teacher in the academic arena in the school system. It was healing for my mind and heart.

After enduring the unlawful termination of employment, I became very emotional and later more anxiety by that situation, I was emotionally delicate; and although I did as God instructed and had my testimony published, I was afraid that I failed to write anything worth reading. So I avoided checking reviews and continued my busy life as a wife, mother, and grandmother, community volunteer, and helping with taking care of my sick parents. I was almost certain my career as an author was short-lived, but I was glad to have survived the process with my dignity intact.

Some may believe that one book leads to another, and that the need to write and is a passion of yours and you may want to become a published author to me my writing has becomes an infectious and effortless process. Once again, I cannot take that credit for what I produce, I share what God has given to me and this story is about abusive relationship not one but several as you begin to read I’m sure you can relate. Women go through life with low self-esteem, unhappy, always doubting themselves worrying about what if I say this or that. This story is all about shifting from unloved to being loved. When you find forgiveness, there is survival, hope, peace, and unspeakable joy.

Genesis Walsh Blanchard, nickname Lady G. is loving, compassionate person who talks about life being strange, difficulties that were painful devastating, abusive and at times controlling. Genesis was twenty-one years old when her journey begins and the mother of three beautiful children. But looking for a loving relationship that would last a lifetime. She finds the love of Jesus.

True love comes quickly, without banners of flashing lights. If you hear bell, get your ears checked.

Erich Segal

Introduction

This is my starting place when looking at circumstances of pains, hurt feelings, lies and abusive relationships. Breaking free is wonderful when you find love unconditionally God step in and give me strength that is unbelievable to me. This strength helps me consider good things God might be doing even when realities don’t feel at all good. This bring me back to just how good God is to me as the starting place for me to continue to trust in Him. His calmness and His presence help settles my fears, chaos, and crazy emotions when my feelings want to question God and ask why you let this happen to me? God answered, I love you you belong to me. I will never leave you or forsake you.

Moving back to Washington D.C. area is a beautiful place to live and moving back home is a good place to be where family is close. When moving to Birmingham five years ago the Rock Creek Park was always packed, beautiful and amazing. From the beginning Genesis Walsh Blanchard had planned her life. After High School graduation the plan was to go off to college, get the best job, marry and start her family, Her life is going to be lovely and she is going to be happy. Genesis story talks about life challenge and how it is interrupted by abusive life, self-blame, betrayal. Finding contentment with love and who you are, in a world filled difficulties with an abusive relationships, complex, family drama, depression and hurtful feelings. Genesis said, hum…I must find my purpose in life. The woman is fabulous and has three gorgeous children. At this moment I can only think on this Bible Verse. Don’t love the way of the world and don’t love the world’s good. Love of the world squeezes out love for the Father. 1 John 2:15 (MSG)

Everyone goes through a test from our spiritual Father, but my struggles in this season was relationships ongoing from abusive boyfriends to husbands. Men just wanted to torment me. Not everybody’s marriage is the way God intends, but what I wanted was love and respect. When I was alone, feeling really frustrated and distraught, I would hear Momma’s voice. Love never fails, love never hurts.

Genesis shows us that being a woman in an abusive relationships invites prayer into her life after she realize that through prayer with God all things are possible. I’m surrendering and trusting the struggles is over God is going to do it. It’s going to get better and I know that my life will be better. I gave everything to the Lord in prayer. I’m free from the abuse. Where would I be? if I did not trust God. Genesis finds love, hope, faith, forgiveness, and grateful and thankful to Mother, Momma Gail, Grand Mommy, and Grand Mommy’s friend’s for their advice and prayers.

I found love unconditionally with Keith after I had the first child. He is a good boyfriend and his mood was contagious and he had eyes for me. He is handsome very attractive six feet dark chocolate man. After living with Keith we never married, but we often talked about doing it in our future. We were a family and that was so much more meaningful to us. A marriage certificate was not important to neither one of us because we loved each other and frankly we didn’t think that no one could love us more. Keith and I lived together for many years after I got pregnant with the third child, he would became controlling and abusive. At times however, having a gregarious day with friends. Out of nowhere he would say harsh words and his temper would rise. I’m terrified at the words he would say. So I’m standing here glad that you waited until our friends left our home. He would say "Bewitch, don’t open the darn door using foul language. I mean it, you are not going no darn where." He was vituperative harsh and abusive His mannerism was boorish. With that kind of behavior I didn’t have expectations about marrying him anymore. He drank alcohol daily, but on the weekends, it was just too much alcohol.

When Keith gets drunk, he would be accused me of saying things like, I saw him looking at you cross-eyed, and then he would begins to curse all the while pushing me against the wall. I had some nasty words for him but—

I silent myself for a minute then she said, "Look, man, you are the one who brought these guys over and you know I’m not going with them. Stop pushing on me, stop it."

At times, I felt pain in what I thought was love. I thought I just had to have Keith. I hated my life and wanted to be free from the pain. Fear of losing Keith and all the promises we had made to each other really pushed me into the relationship with Anthony.

I thought I was ready for a whole new life dating Anthony, but this marriage turned out to be a marriage from hell. At times, I could feel the knots in my heart tighten up as confusion, disappointment, and sadness set in. My voice trembled and I became shaky from anxiety. The relationship was totally abusive and had no foundation and no boundaries. I felt like the relationship was unredeemed, because we both became each other’s enemy. My relationship was an unloving relationship of mistrust and infidelity. With Anthony, it was so much chaos, turbulence, trials, and rocky roads.

Fighting, having black eyes and bruises on my back, arms, and legs—most days, I was a bewitch or a mammy jammie to him. Every day I tried to fix my marriage, Anthony didn’t want to talk about any problems. He would say, Leave me the hell alone! I was making sure the kids were taken care of, but at the end of the day, only the arguments and fighting remained.

The struggles were real and long-suffering. The police came to our apartment, and my neighbors came into and out of my home and testified to my emotional, physical, stressful, and abusive marriage. Family members and friends said that I didn’t love myself or my children, but really, that’s what they said to the neighbors and others. With all the gossip in my apartment area it didn’t help my stress at all. I just didn’t know what to do but stay in the home with Anthony and fight back because I didn’t think I should leave. I couldn’t trust my neighbors whom I thought had my back. I was just too afraid; I just didn’t know what direction to go except move back to Washington, however I was not ready to make that move yet.

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Wow! Who said this about the battlefield of the mind. So many things travel in your mind such as fearful and bewilderment this not only happen to grownups but also children and teens. We all battle with being anxious, afraid and what if’s… You just can’t stay focus all the time. I was growing up fast now in high school the world does not stand still. I had a car wreck at sixteen, a car went straight through the stop sign when I woke up, I was in the emergency room. Happy to be alive but man! I was sore. I met my first crush at sixteen and I was in love. Life gets messy as I get older. Mom said sure everybody’s life get messy that’s why we need Jesus daily. Oh Lord, she always talked about God.

It all started at this place Washington D.C. It was rough at first. To be honest I was at times angry about moving here being so young it was not for me to decide where I would live. My feeling was all ball up inside of me. I have always wanted to visit Washington but not to live