Nuerotic Memories

By Dominic Reed

The stories you are about to read are fictional and made-up character names. Mostly written in the era of 2009, the time my whole life was ripped apart, backlash of an ugly 2006 divorce, causing a multitude of back taxes. This is when I learned the meaning of California being a “no contest” state. To my “X”, I wish you nothing more than happiness and success. The struggle is real as long as you forgive and move on. At a time when the world is full of so much hatred and discontent, I wanted to try and create some kind of positive change. Everyone deserves a second chance, and we should all live in peace and tranquility! I’ve always thought with the mind frame of, “If you’re at the bottom, you’ve got no place but to go up.” Remember, every time you think you have life figured out, it will punch you in the face for figuring. “Keep your hands up and protect yourself at all times!”

• Language: English
• Publisher: Newman Springs Publishing, Inc.
• Release date: Jan 31, 2020
• ISBN: 9781645315803

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Neurotic

Memories

Dominic W. Reed

Copyright © 2019 Dominic W. Reed

All rights reserved

First Edition

NEWMAN SPRINGS PUBLISHING

320 Broad Street

Red Bank, NJ 07701

First originally published by Newman Springs Publishing 2019

ISBN 978-1-64531-579-7 (Paperback)

ISBN 978-1-64531-580-3 (Digital)

Printed in the United States of America

Table of Contents

Acknowledgments

Lord, I Thank You

Part II

From Prison to Celebrity Montwon Greenwood

Seclusion: Buster Tangelo Grizwald

The Lost Woman

Aim High: Jewels Legion Higginbeatem

Sweet Cheeks: Irene Katrice Aguila

Momma: Geneva P. Mays

I’m So Broke

Ruler and Controller of All: Micromanager

A Brighter Day

The Simple Servant vs. a Blessed Man

The Distrustful Lady: Hillary Janelle Donaldson

Suicidal Tendencies

False Alarm: A Family Affair

Big Bank Takes Little Bank: Hiyo Bernard Welton

Status Quo: Mr. Aurthur Dodger Ruth

Nature’s Best

Back in the Day

Windows of Trouble: Raymond Martinez

Let the Past Be the Past

Prison Is a Form of Slavery: Eric Gravity

The Media Thinks I’m a Man: Sheila Spokane Wannamaker

Mr. Bigshot

Baby Daddy Number 3

Even a Pimp Has to Answer to God: Farmer Fred Joe Buckley

Best of Both Worlds: Kevin Lamont Rigmaiden

Guess Who?

White Sandy Beaches, Crystal Blue Waters: Proderma Halex

The Great Expedition

The Valley of the Unknown

Just Another Number

I Will Not Fear: Ufallah Darnell Lang

Memory in the Wind

Where Would I Be?

Pieces of a Puzzle: Dedicated to Post-911

Something to Think About

Flex December

Shadow Walking

Desolate Confusion: Sureeta Candell Ball

Poetry in Motion: Mr. and Mrs. Cupid

Silent Partner

Good Girl: Marvetta Juliet

Fortunate Freedom

Gravitational Limelight: Johnquisha Maree Stanley

Every Pilot Needs a Copilot

Midwestern Skies: Ana Cervantes

My Sinner’s Prayer

In the Joint: Guillard Peidmont Eggleston

What If America Was Haiti?

The Key to Forgiveness

The Key to Forgiveness: Samuel James Jenkins

Behind Closed Doors: Mr. D and Mrs. X

Who’s Watching Who: Dodger C. Templar

Delusional Thoughts

No Christmas This Year

Imagine: Roybean

Six Days and Counting till Eviction Day: Jax Rivers

Image of U

Too Sad, Too Late: Andreya Cheri Latoon

Life Is but a Vapor

Lord, I Pray: Sherwood Backspoon

Shawty Moeteeh

Greater Power than God: Master Ebell Woodruff

How Would You Feel?

Persistence of Existence

In God’s World

Tulsa, Oklahoma

Bleeding Heart

Inclination for Confirmation

Golden Years

Ask and Ye Shall Receive

I Been There Too

Ordinary Becomes Extraordinary

A Sad Day in America

Young Folks Genocide: Renaissance Kaos Garrett

It Bothers Me to See

The White Sheet

After the Rain, before the Pain: Gladyis Danette Bridgestone

Facebook Apology: Dominic Wayne Reed

Sensibility

Wish upon a Falling Star: D. W. Reed

Bad Credit: Jenna Plunett

From Ballin’ to a Higher Callin’: Estrada Dee Knightengale

Mental Disposition

Understanding the Realities of Life: Carmela Joann

Lawd, Have Mercy on Me: Chloereen Alltree

Quality Time Equals Devoted Sunshine: Dana Troost

Enchanted Secrets: November Trenton

You Don’t Gotta Be So Mean: Sis. Beesting Ling

Behind These Prison Walls: Dedicated to All Fallen Correctional Staff

Weight Loss: Douglas Delbert Detwillers

Everyday Life, Everyone Needs Prayer

If We Had

Autumn Magnitude: How Sweet the Sound

Resentment Equals Retaliation: Mr. Robert Jacquez Singleterry

Possibilities: Soledad Urethia Sisk

A Vigilant Child

A Valuable Chevy Caprice Classic: Berlynn Maefoot

Florida Keys: Michael Sealy

Sinful Love Affair: Undercover Lover

Life in a Bag: Juice Cauliflower

Grown Man Name: Bartholimeu Lapell Heinzryder

My Place Is Right beside You: Wayne and Lashone

Nobody: Jack Price

Hollywood: Joedean Limousine Grit

Learn to Earn: Londale Peanut

Death Is Imminent

Negotiable Fairytale Love

No Time for Me

Brothas and Sistas

My Wedding Day

Kalifornia Prison: Critical Watch

My Beautiful Destiny

Brotherhood: Bro. D. W. Reed

Going through the Motions

Pessimistic Bob vs. Optimistic Sam

My Beautiful Destiny

Google Eyes on the Prize: Tica Underlaw

Down to Your Last

The Righteous Way: Ysidro Porter

Footprints across the Heart

Tears in a Bucket

Nobody’s Business

Destruction of the Tangible Soul

That Innocent Child

An Ear to Listen

Should I Feel Guilty?

Gift of Life

A Millionaire Next Door

The Kid in Me: Jim Socket

Tears and Fears of Deception: Jennifer Monae Caution

Expectation of Revelations

Hypothetical Visions

To anyone in the world seeking change. I believe in second chances and together with positivity at the wheel, destinations are unlimited!

All the effort in the world won’t matter if you’re not inspired.

—Chuck Palahniuk

Acknowledgments

First and foremost, I thank my mother and father, whom both rest in heaven. Mrs. Geneva P. Mays and Mr. Alvin Reed Sr., thank you for giving me life.

Second, one of the strongest black educators in the history of Oklahoma in my opinion, Ms. Mary P. Walker, whom I have the pleasure to call Little Auntie!

Third, one of the baddest band directors in the land, Mr. Elmer Lee Davis, the greatest mentor any person can have. A very special thank you, Mr. D. You taught me to be a man and to believe anything in life is attainable if you set your mind to it.

Last but not least, my beautiful wife Mrs. Tonya M. Reed. August 31, 2018 as I laid lifelessly on the floor in our bedroom, you summoned medical aide. I am alive today because of you. I say thank you and I love you.

Part 1

Lord, I Thank You

Part II

Lord Jesus, help me to face an uphill battle and carry on another day.

I was covered and bound in sin, I knew it was your blood that got me on my way!

I could bear no more and my days became dark.

Lord, I thank you for giving me the same vision you gave Noah, as he built the ark!

When my burdens were heavy, I carried them to the altar, my strength exactly the right amount.

When I didn’t have a dime, several times you have blessed my bank account!

For the times Daddy didn’t have time to play catch, and when I felt Momma didn’t want to be bothered with me.

I fell gravely behind in all my classes, the other kids snickered and shouted stupid; teachers didn’t care, but it was you, Oh Lord, that told Grandma, maybe I needed glasses to see!

Lord, I thank you, commanding me not to pull that trigger, the semiautomatic was fully loaded, the barrel forcefully jammed into my mouth.

Lord, I thank you, cleansing me of all iniquities, freeing me like a baby bird learning to fly south!

Lord, I thank you, allowing the ability to walk with my head up, back straight, and my chest out.

Lord, I thank you, for placing many obstacles in my life, as I continued to maneuver around them relinquishing any further doubt!

Lord, I thank you, several nights of confusion, strength barely enough to cry and quiver.

Lord, I thank you, when all the utilities were shut off in the coldest winter months; you provided warmth when my teenage daughter and I began to scream and shiver!

Lord, I thank you, for the little divine light you have given me to shine.

Lord, I thank you, for watching over my youngest daughter reassuring me your word, not the doctors, She’ll be fine!

Lord, I thank you, possessing me with the Holy Ghost’s power of tongues to pray for and bless others.

Lord, I thank you, converting me into a role model for all young and old brothers!

There is victory in the Holy Name of Jesus; I proudly lift my hands today, no matter where I will go.

It’s because of you, Lord, for the true and mighty Bible continues to tell me so!

From Prison to Celebrity Montwon Greenwood

Like Petey Pablo in Diary of a Sinner, my momma told me something, too. She said, They will never know how dumb you are until you open your mouth.

I should’ve listened, but the only thing I was thinking ’bout was how much alcohol I could put in my mouth!

Maybe if I had of paid more attention in Sunday school, I wouldn’t have done wrong.

Sixteen-month SHU term (Segregated Housing Unit) to become army strong!

I should’ve learned from Youth Authority that crime never pays.

Lord, please change me from my wicked ways so that I may increase my days.

From high fives to drive-bys, a new streetwalker for Christ; in my heart, I keep a pre-praise!

It’s funny I couldn’t listen to my momma, but I let another inmate tell me what to do.

Taking orders from somebody that’s younger, dumber, and hasn’t been through half of what I’ve been through!

Now you know, it’s a crying shame when inmates in California request an out-of-state transfer with a phone call.

I got two strikes against me, and you know what happens on number three in the game of baseball!

Mr. Kanye West, it is amazing to see how the world has fallen apart.

Disrespecting one another; in fact, causing burdens for retired grandparents to bear; all the while, with the absence of God’s Love in their heart!

I have watched people walk right past each other and not even think to speak.

When that very same person blows up and becomes rich and famous; all of sudden, he’s the guy they used to work with once his picture is featured on the cover of Newsweek!

From Prison to Celebrity, Montwon Greenwood; just like Mike Jones’s Back Then, now all my haters tell me I look good!

Seclusion

Buster Tangelo Grizwald

Seclusion: Buster Tangelo Grizwald

One night of passion turned into a lifetime of forbidden love.

What was I thinking of?

Taking something that didn’t belong to me.

I blame my dad. They say the only thing that repeats itself is history!

Named by one of my great cousins, Buster Tangelo Grizwald, seeking a life of seclusion.

She loves me, she loves me not; my world