It's Not Just You: Making sense of life and thriving after growing up in an emotionally dysfunctional family
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- Are you someone who tries hard to please others?
- Are you always trying to prove your worth?
- Do
Victoria Matthews-Patel
Victoria Matthews-Patel is a Compassionate Coach, Mentor, Mental Health First Aider and is a Co-Author of the Amazon bestseller, My Voice, Journeys of Survival, Empowerment and Self-Compassion. She is also a trauma survivor and thriver. After years of ill mental and physical health, Victoria had a breakdown in 2018. With professional help, she uncovered layers of hidden trauma and writes about her healing in her book, It's Not Just You, Making Sense of Life and Thriving After Growing Up in an Emotionally Dysfunctional Family.Victoria runs a coaching and mentoring business, With Compassion, empowering people who grew up in emotionally dysfunctional families to truly value themselves and live life their way. She brings understanding, lived experience, and insight to her work. Compassion is at the heart of everything she does.You can find out more about Victoria through her website https://www.withcompassion.co.uk and on Facebook, Instagram, Linkedin and YouTube.
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It's Not Just You - Victoria Matthews-Patel
It’s Not Just You
Making Sense Of Life And Thriving After Growing Up In An Emotionally Dysfunctional Family
Victoria Matthews-Patel
First published in 2022 by Putting Words.
© Victoria Matthews-Patel, 2022
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ISBN: 978-0-6454591-9-7 (eBook)
ISBN: 978-0-6456666-1-8 (Paperback)
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Edited by Anna Von Zinner
Photos of Victoria taken by Kier Adair
It’s Not Just You
Making Sense of Life and Thriving After Growing Up in an Emotionally Dysfunctional Family
"This is a must-read book for anyone who’s at the beginning of their healing from emotional trauma, written by someone with immense insight, wisdom and compassion, who has found the route out of her complex PTSD, and wants to shine the light for others.
It’s packed with excellent tips and tools from someone who really knows personally, the impact a lack of emotional attachment in childhood has on all aspects of life, and how to navigate successful recovery.
I wouldn’t hesitate in recommending it. It’s a fantastic addition to the emerging world of people starting to recognise and realise the widespread impact of trauma."
Lou Lebentz, Therapist, Trauma Specialist, EMDR Clinician, Transformational Speaker and Founder of Trauma Thrivers
"It’s Not Just You is a book filled with hope and shame reducing strategies. Matthews-Patel’s book is a must read for anyone looking to find their way through recovery from trauma after growing up in an emotionally dysfunctional family.
Bookstore shelves are filled with books written by clinicians on research and therapeutic tools to manage life after trauma. However, there are very few books written by life coaches who are also survivors themselves!
It’s Not Just You is a guide that survivors of emotional trauma can incorporate into their therapy.
Matthews-Patel wrote a book that will leave readers feeling heard, seen and understood. I will be sharing this title with colleagues and clients for sure!"
Shari Botwin, LCSW author of Thriving After Trauma: Stories of Living and Healing
For Ella.
I could not love you more
Acknowledgements
To Bups for supporting me in every way on my path to health and happiness. For your understanding, patience, and encouragement when I didn’t think I could or would get better. For believing in me when I didn’t. For your never-ending quest for tidiness. And for making me laugh. Laughter (and swearing!) has really helped me through. You rock.
To Ella. My wonderful, creative, adventurous and strong Ella. My inspiration to keep going every day. You lit up my world from the moment you were born. I am blessed to be your Mum.
To Murphy, my gorgeous dog, who witnessed more of my ill health than anyone. What a comfort and joy you are. A true companion and my little shadow.
To my beloved and much missed Uncle James who had love and joy oozing from him. I adored you. My memories of you will always make me smile.
To my Gran. My no-nonsense, strong Gran with her wicked sense of humour and her love of cake.
Sometimes we need guides in life. People to help us through. People who see in us the things we can’t see in ourselves. People who give us hope and direction.
I am blessed to have truly wonderful women as my guides.
To Abi Briant-Smith, Lori Fitzgerald, Katharine Haworth, Shushana Smith and Michelle Taylor-Ward. Your impact on my life has been incredible. I would not be the person I am today without you all. Keep shining.
To Lou Lebentz and Mel Curtis of Trauma Thrivers for your kindness, passion and inspiration. For spreading the word about trauma and its impact.
I am grateful to all who have been friends at different ages and stages of my life.
To the Awesome Women
who I am blessed to have as friends – Jayne Holliday, Nicki Margand, Nicki Mitchinson, Sarah Owen-Hughes, Janey Sharp and Louise Thatch. Our weekend together, beautifully organised by Lou, was very special. You raise me up.
To friends Caron Page, Clare Sewell and Clare Waterer, for your care and your compassion.
To the Safe Space
women who got me through the darkest times. You know who you are. I will be forever grateful to you.
To Lorna Dunning, my cousin and coach, who helped me navigate my way from a feeling of hopelessness to this exciting new chapter in my life. You helped me see my value again. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
To my writing cheerleader and book cover consultant, Nicki Mitchinson. Thank you for encouraging me to speak up, share my story and write. From being inspired to being inspiring……
To Anna Von Zinner, my writing coach and editor, for guiding me through the book mapping and writing process. This book would not have been written without your direction and encouragement.
To Andrea Putting for guiding me through the publishing process and keeping me motivated when my confidence wavered.
Empowered women empower women.
I am so proud of this book.
Thank you to everyone who played a part in inspiring me and encouraging me to write it.
With Compassion,
Victoria xx
Contents
Introduction
Eight Tips for It’s Not Just You.
Chapter One
Something’s Not Right
My Breakdown
Depressive Illness – The Curse of the Strong
The Joy of Burnout
Dodging Energy Vampires
Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents
Your Experience
Start to Share, Read and Explore
Starting to Feel Connected Through Books
Seven Tips for Making Sense of Things When Reading
Chapter Two
The Power of Writing
Getting Support
Why Write?
Journalling
Your Inner Voice
Your Story
Writing
Nine Tips for Writing
Chapter Three
Reaching Out and Connecting on Social Media
What is Emotional Safety?
Engaging on Social Media
Toxic Positivity
Rest and Relaxation
The Golden Questions
The Power of Connection
Reaching Out
Eight Tips for Reaching Out and Connecting on Social Media
Chapter Four
Starting with a Whisper
Self-Invalidation
The Power of Language
Invalidation
Advice for Preparing to Speak Up for the First Time
Eight Tips for Reaching Out and Connecting on Social Media
Chapter Five
Connecting with Your
People
Are You Connecting with Your People?
Drains
Radiators
Knowing Who Your People Are
Friendships
Six Tips for Connecting with Your People
Chapter Six
Seeking Professional Help
What is Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) and Complex PTSD (CPTSD)?
What are the Three Stages of Trauma Healing?
What is Psychotherapy?
What is Homeopathy?
What is Reiki?
What is Shamanic Healing?
What is Emotional Freedom Technique (EFT) Tapping?
Ten Tips for Reaching Out for Professional Help
Chapter Seven
An Introduction to the Mind-Body Connection and the Nervous System
Establishing a Relationship with Your Body
Listen to Your Body
The Nervous System
What is the Nervous System?
1. The Ventral Vagal State – I feel connected, I can.
2. Sympathetic Activation – I’m in danger, so I must……
3. The Dorsal Vagal Shutdown – I can’t cope.
How Do You Regulate Your Nervous System?
Breathwork
Nine Tips for Starting to Connect Your Mind and Your Body
Chapter Eight
Learning How to Feel
Why Do People Ignore Their Feelings?
Are You Protecting Yourself by Pretending You Don’t Have Feelings?
The Range of Emotions
Starting to Feel
Suppressed Emotions
Anger
Seven Tips for Learning How to Feel
Chapter Nine
Moving from People-Pleasing to Setting Boundaries
What is People-Pleasing?
What are the Consequences of People-Pleasing?
Time Wealth
The Importance of Rest
What are Boundaries?
Why Do People Struggle with Boundaries?
The Word NO
How to Say No
Without Saying the Word No!
Do You Overexplain?
When Someone Asks You to Do Something
Why Boundaries are Important
Seven Tips for Starting to Move from People-Pleasing to Setting Boundaries
Chapter Ten
Opening your Heart to Self-Compassion
Needs and Values
What are Values?
Discovering Your Values
Why Do I Find it Hard to be Caring and Compassionate with Myself?
What is Compassion?
What is Self-Compassion?
Self-Compassion is Life-Changing.
Compassionate Self-Talk
Prioritise You and Your Wellbeing
What are the Benefits of Self-Compassion?
Ten Tips for Opening Your Heart to Self-Compassion
Chapter Eleven
Getting to Know Yourself
How Do You See Yourself?
Developing a Relationship with Yourself
Getting Support for Doing This Work
People Change and Evolve – It’s Okay for You to Do This Too
Self-Discovery Led to My New Career
Ten Tips for Getting to Know Yourself
Chapter Twelve
Healing Not Healed
What is Black and White Thinking?
How to Move Away from Black and White Thinking
What is the Difference Between Reacting and Responding?
Healing is a Lifelong Journey
Living Life in Colour
The Me I Always Wanted to Be
Triggers and Challenges
Activities that Support Healing
Your Healing
Nine Tips for Supporting You on Your Lifelong Healing Journey
Afterword
References and Additional Resources
About the Author
Introduction
Thank God for books, for validating your feelings, and letting you know you’re not alone.
Paula Gruben, Umbilicus
No-one gets it
.
You try to talk to people about it
but no-one has experienced it
.
You feel bad.
You can’t make sense of it
.
You retreat.
You hide.
Life feels painful.
You bring up memories with your childhood family and your reality is questioned or dismissed. They can’t understand why you are bringing up past events.
You go inside your head to try to make sense of things, but the pain is too much.
You try to put it
to the back of your mind and get on with your life, but it
keeps resurfacing.
You don’t know what to do.
You can’t seem to move on, to let it
go. Those memories won’t go away.
You are in a never-ending cycle of confusion, emptiness, and shame.
It starts to tear you apart.
You feel like you are breaking from the inside out.
I didn’t know exactly what it
was, but I knew that something was wrong.
I felt like I was the only one who had gone through it
.
Thinking that you are the only one is lonely. Very lonely.
It can feel like you’re in the wrong, that you are imagining it, that it wasn’t that bad, that you are being oversensitive, that you deserved what happened, that it happened because there is something wrong with you.
The sense of confusion can be overwhelming.
Maybe there were happy times in the family. Maybe you had a good education, holidays etc. But there were distressing and confusing times too. Times that made you change who you were to keep the peace. Times that made you question yourself. Times that were never talked about or explained. Times where you needed comfort, reassurance and emotional support, but they were not forthcoming. Times that left you feeling lonely and confused.
My definition of an emotionally dysfunctional family is one in which:
Belittling, criticism, and control are seen as an acceptable part of the family dynamic.
Difficult events aren’t talked about.
There is a sense of unease or of walking on eggshells.
Emotions aren’t welcomed or acknowledged.
You find it hard to speak freely.
There is a lack of unconditional love and emotional support.
Family members have roles – black sheep, golden child, enabler etc.
Family members are seen as responsible for the happiness of others within the family.
Family members are expected to follow family norms.
Being ‘different’ to the family norm is not acceptable and is seen as a threat to the family dynamic.
You hear judgement and criticism of other people – the narrative that ‘they’ are all wrong and ‘we’ are right.
You are fed the narrative that you are from a ‘good’ and ‘close’ family.
In this book I want you to know that you are not alone. That "It’s Not