From One Twin Mum to Another: An insight into the complexities of multiple birth bereavement
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Nothing can prepare you for being
told that your baby has died.
This is so far removed from a couple's thoughts, hopes and plans for their future. And yet, the death of a baby before birth, during t
Julie Ann Bryant
Julie Ann, together with her husband and their two adult children, lives in the Illawarra NSW Australia - a region traditionally known as Dharawal Country, the land of the Wodi Wodi people. She works from home as a medical transcriptionist in radiology. When her children were young, Julie Ann completed the Advanced Diploma of Applied Social Science. Her studies focused on grief and loss, and she has a specific interest in disenfranchised grief, especially as it relates to multiple birth bereavement. Julie Ann's other interests include listening to music, writingpoetry - a few of her poems are shared in this book - and nature photography. To subscribe to Julie Ann's regular blogs on multiple birth bereavement, visit her website:https://fromonetwinmumtoanother.com/
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From One Twin Mum to Another - Julie Ann Bryant
COPYRIGHT NOTICE
From One Twin Mum To Another: An insight into the complexities of multiple birth bereavement
© Julie Ann Bryant 2022
Cover Image © Julie Ann Bryant 2015
Cover Design: Busybird Publishing 2022
Layout and Typesetting: Busybird Publishing 2022
ISBN
Paperback: 978-1-922954-03-9
Ebook: 978-1-922954-04-6
Except as provided by the Copyright Act 1968, no part of this publication may be reproduced or communicated to the public without the prior written permission of the publisher.
GENRE: Non-fiction. Bereavement, Grief and Loss. Psychology, Self-help.
PERMISSIONS – DISCLAIMER: Written contact was made in 2022 seeking the permission of authors/publishers of other books, together with the organisations mentioned throughout this book. If they do not wish to be included in future editions, then I would welcome contact from them and I will be only too happy to oblige.
Julie Ann Bryant – Email: OzMOST@yahoo.com
Postal: PO Box 246 Unanderra NSW 2526 AUSTRALIA
DEDICATION
This book is dedicated to the memory
of our twin daughter Meggie,
whose tiny footprints have left
an indelible imprint on our hearts.
Contents
Foreword
Preface
Introduction
Grieving Parents
Social Supports
Professional Supports
Dichotomy
Disenfranchised
Desiderium
Part One
Chapter One: When An Unborn Twin Dies
Julie Ann’s Story
As Time Went On
Helping Others Understand
Birth Plan
Adjusting To The Loss
Making Memories Of Both Twins Together
Other Things To Consider
To the Dad
When Family and Friends Visit
Making Memories While You Are Still Pregnant
Naming Your Twins
Getting Through from One Day to the Next
Support Person
Prenatal Appointments
Culturally Specific Situations
Shock and Making Decisions
Don’t Go Flying Under the Radar
A Note for Health Care Professionals
Chapter Two: Your Grief (Your Love)
The Maze of Emotions – Making Sense of it All
Feeling A Loss Of Status
Feeling A Lack Of Meaning Or Purpose
Feelings Of Anxiety
Feelings Of Failure And Guilt
Feeling Helpless And Vulnerable
Feeling Isolated
Feeling Misunderstood
Feeling Pressured
Feeling Violated
Feeling Anger And Frustration
Your Grief Will Always Be There
Unresolved Grief
Chapter Three: You Are Not Alone
Our Need for People to Gather Around Us
Trust Your Gut Feeling
Feeling Safe Emotionally
Helplines
PANDA (Perinatal Anxiety and Depression Australia)
Red Nose Australia (including SANDS)
Lifeline Australia
Mensline Australia
13YARN
Kids Helpline Australia
Professional Supports
Peer Support
How We Feel about the Support Around Us
The Flip Side
Chapter Four: Grief is Survivable
A Year of Firsts
Your Grief Won’t Always Be This Raw
Keep It Manageable
Self-Care
Mental Well-Being
Physical Well-Being
Social Needs
Spiritual Connection
Memorialising
Memory Box
Creating Something Meaningful
Starting Your Own Traditions
Creating A Legacy
Conclusion
Writing and Discussion Prompts
You and Your Grief
Who You Are Because Of Your Grief
Your Surviving Twin
Your Baby Twin
Their Special Days
Recommended Reading
Twin Loss Support Organisations
Australia
New Zealand
United Kingdom
USA
PART TWO
For Those In a Supportive Role
Close Social Supports
Attending Appointments
The Need To Talk
The Need To Cry
A Loss Is A Loss Is A Loss
Extended Social Circles
When The Supporter Needs Support
Misinterpreting Grief
Grief Misconstrued As Not Coping
Grief Misconstrued As Being Negative
Grief Misconstrued As Jealousy
Minimising Grief
You’re Just Upset
You’re Feeling Sorry For Yourself
You’re Just Being Selfish
Other Things to Be Aware Of
Defaulting To Clichés
Pregnancies Don’t Come With Guarantees
Traditions In The Extended Family Circles
Keep Your Focus On The Relationships
Be the One Who Remembers
Acknowledgements
About The Author
Foreword
The juxtaposition of joy and loss entwined together is difficult to balance and make sense of. A new parent is faced with so much when they bring a new baby home, however, when they were supposed to have two babies and one has died, this brings on a mixed set of emotions.
Julie invites the reader to slip down into the well of these mixed emotions. As a psychologist for over 20 years, I had not encountered this complexity until I met Julie. Her book has provided a poignant consideration of a unique side of grief and has taught me so much.
Friends and loved ones don’t always know how to reconcile this dichotomy of sad yearning with joy of a new life, or what to say or how to best support grieving parents. This book offers insight and awareness. Reading Julie’s work had me reflecting on past miscarriages I had experienced and wishing I had the resource of her insights for my own loss, though different.
With her creativity and easy writing style, Julie’s work delicately portrays the dilemma of life and death side-by-side. Julie shares her own poetry and reflections to engage the reader. Her book is beautifully written, practical, easy to read and educational.
Speaking from her lived experience the reader can feel her wisdom and take in the knowledge of someone who has spent a long time reflecting and assisting others who find themselves in the same situation. As an expert with experience, Julie generously and graciously shares all her perspectives and understandings. Her book offers hope, provides writing prompts for journalling one’s own story and gives information of where to find support and more resources.
As someone who comes across grief and loss in many forms each day, the worth of this book is immeasurable and I look forward to sharing and recommending the book to those grieving and their families, friends, and professional colleagues.
Julie-Anne Geddes
Psychologist NSW
and author of Acts of Love
Preface
Have you ever noticed the language that we use around death? There are so many colloquial terms that we use, perhaps without even giving them a second thought. Terms like passed away
, gone to heaven
and gone to sleep
are commonplace. In grief and loss circles, born sleeping
and baby born still
are often used to describe miscarriage and stillbirth. Babies who have died are often referred to as angels
or as having gone to be with the angels
. In multiple birth bereavement, angel twin
is a very common colloquial term.
I think there are many reasons why we use such language. We may want to soften the blow of the reality by using words that are kind and gentle. Furthermore, we may have anxiety around having such conversations and that’s understandable. Talking about death can make us feel uncomfortable, so we will tend to use words that help us have those difficult conversations. However, I can’t help but wonder if the language we use around death helps maintain the stigma around losses such as the death of a baby.
If you are at all familiar with the writings of J William Worden, you will likely have read about the Mediators of Mourning
and the four Tasks of Mourning
. The very first task of mourning that a newly bereaved person goes through is to accept the reality of the death and the second task is to experience the pain of that realisation. The sad reality is that death isn’t just for the weekend, it is forever. Whilst we may want to soften the blow with our words, it doesn’t change the fact that someone we loved dearly has died and somehow, we have to adjust to living our life without them (the third task) and eventually, we need to create something meaningful out of our loss (the fourth task).
We tend to tiptoe around the reality of death and the language we use reflects that. This is not to say that the language we use should be blunt and insensitive. Rather, it is about being aware that the bereaved person you are talking to is the one who has to do the hard work of grieving and they need to do so in a way that comes naturally to them. Personally, I like to think of it as making your words a hug for the heart. That’s exactly what a grieving person needs. What they need is to be heard, to know you understand that they are in deep emotional pain, to be validated in their loss, supported as they grieve and loved the whole way through.
Above all, with this book I want to create a safe place where we can look together at the complex issues of multiple birth bereavement. Together, we can help break the stigma that has surrounded pregnancy loss and infant death for way too long.
With warm regards,
Julie Ann
Introduction
This book is written with a very specific audience in mind and targeted at a very specific, traumatic time in their lives. For these people, what should be a wonderfully happy experience of a twin pregnancy and parenthood becomes fraught with the uncertainty of what lies ahead. Instead of planning for everything in two’s, life begins to be taken one tentative step at a time. This is a long, emotional journey and whether you are the expectant parents or