In the Silence of Passions

By By the Spirit Schellida and Eliana Machado Coelho

Elma had a lot to teach about HIV and AIDS. This is what this work shows, which was saved for more than a decade, waiting for the right moment to be published.
Instructor Elma, in spirituality, was an experienced and enlightened rescuer. Possessing vast knowledge in various areas, she has now assumed the supervision of a group of very special students: Romildo, Silmara and Álvaro. She was interested in doing a great study on sexuality, behaviors and vices in this area that is so delicate for the emotional development of the incarnated.
Once the work plan has been drawn up, they go out to visit the physical plane and, supervised by the friendly Elma, will closely follow situations in the field of sex that will lead to the observation of a very important topic today: AIDS.
In addition to the exquisite instruction to the students, Elma will have to help Lúcio, who was and still is a very dear soul, her true love who, incarnated, was infected with the HIV virus and, disincarnated, faces difficulties in helping himself in God, as he experienced a life full of lust and many misunderstandings in his faith.
In this richly detailed journey, everyone will follow various characters experiencing trials around HIV and AIDS that will also serve as lessons for learning for students eager for instruction.
Eliana Machado and Schellida, Romances that captivate, teach, move and may change your life!

• Language: English
• Publisher: World Spiritist Institute
• Release date: Dec 5, 2022
• ISBN: 9798201054304

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Prologue

Dear readers:

This book has been filed for over a decade. It was psychographed between 2002 and 2003, waiting for the right moment to be published. And that moment has arrived. Now, Schellida and spiritual leaders have decided to release this edition of the book to reveal useful and very important information about an issue that still shocks thousands of households around the world: AIDS.

And the reason for the publication of the work is now simple: There is still no cure for AIDS. It kills and we are all relaxed regarding prevention and control of this disease as if it no longer exists, as if science has already discovered a vaccine against HIV.

But did not...

Nowadays, despite the huge advances in pharmacological research that allow access to potent drugs, ensuring a reasonably controlled survival or life for patients, the truth is that the number of people infected, especially those between 14 and 25 years old, has increased considerably in the last decade, even in Brazil.

Prevention, with the use of condoms for safe sex, was put on the back burner. Informative advertising campaigns have disappeared from the media. In addition, our behavior, habits, and addictions related to sex expose the emotional imbalance of a society whose moral values are increasingly questionable.

That is why spirituality has now decided to save this work. Before, it was a source of clarification. Now it is necessary information. In this book we will learn about the painful lives of some people who have experienced AIDS on the physical level and how they reached the spiritual plane to recover their weakened energies, mainly because of the presence of hostile spirits.

The main message of this work remains the same: we are all free to do whatever we want in our lives, but it is necessary to know that every attitude has its consequences, whether they are physical or spiritual. The novelty is the mobilization in the face of such a serious problem as AIDS.

The binomial, prevention and clarification, must come back strongly to avoid more suffering. The virus is alive. However, we are strong enough to fight it with information, faith, and balance.

Thank you very much.

Have a good reading!

Eliana Machado Coelho, FEBRUARY 2015

Chapter 1

Fraternal commitment

The human BODY may have reached its final race, but what about the mind?

Everything was confusing, hostile, and strange for Lucio, who a few days ago had closed his body’s eyes to the material world. Now he expanded the spirit´s vision on a completely different plane.

He felt fear, hunger and cold because he was still psychically attached to the physical needs so essential to the human body.

Bitter, he felt lonely and sick. Trapped in an unknown and terrifying world where sinister creatures, who did not even look like human spirits, passed by. They were strange beings. They were coming and going in an amazing landscape. A twinkling, devilish light appeared in the midst of a curtain of thick and cloudy fog, or in complete darkness.

A repulsive and ceaseless smell invaded his nostrils, as if it were burning them. His lungs needed to constantly inhale and exhale.

But how do I need to breathe? he shouted, resigned.

"I died! I died! Don’t we learn from you are dust, and to dust you shall return? What am I doing here in this hell of eternal torture? Let me die, please!"

While Lucio was furious, out of his mind and prostrated on his knees on a disgusting floor; animalized and monstrous beings passed by him mocking and attacking him mercilessly and fleeing immediately.

When he wanted to hear some words of comfort as a revealed help, in the hope of waking up from the dark nightmare, he received, in response, sarcastic laughter from others who mocked him in an insatiably crazy way.

An overwhelming discouragement wiped out the few superhuman forces he had left, throwing him definitively into the repulsive and fetid garbage. Exhausted, he began to weep copiously.

What did I do? What did I do to deserve this? he asked himself, shocked by the misery.

I’m in hell! There is no salvation… only torments and pains… cruel pains that tear the body and soul apart now he was shouting, furious. Still weeping, he gathered every last ounce of strength he had left to say: Liars! Bunch of wretches! You fucking liars who made me believe there was salvation! Bastards! He cried out using other unseemly words. Where is the heaven that I was promised?"

Lying amid extreme pain, Lucio called for a revolt. He minimized and distanced himself even more from any possible help since he turned the tiny faith he once experienced into rebellion and incomprehension, showing a pitiful ignorance when he blasphemed.

Heartbreaking moans filled the air with intense wailing. There were thousands of spirits. Spirits unable to rise from the same silt that Lucio threw himself into in a depressing manner, but without overcoming his pride. That suffering was due to the sum of all the lascivious actions, thoughts and words in harmony with the evil practiced, even without thinking about it, when they were incarnated. Now, without the garments of the flesh, those spirits felt the moral effect of their actions and experienced the evils of an improper, frivolous, and irresponsible life. Perispirit, the garment of the spirit, reflected its addictions, molding horrendous and deplorable animalistic deformations caused by the acts imagined and practiced, especially those related to sex.

The selfless entities of an indescribably high level, compared to the ones who suffer, observed the desolate scene of that region destined for those dedicated to evil and the unbalance of sex.

Sharing a touching glance with the others, Elma kindly explained:

- We were born with a commitment to evolve morally and spiritually. Unfortunately, some of us let ourselves be overcome by the important conquests of matter, of lust, of abusive sexual pleasures. Now, prematurely disincarnated by unconscious suicide, each of these spirits in this dark pond created by their own conscience, is the living history of the past they have experienced without consequences.

- How sad - lamented Gisela, a bright spirit who always accompanied her friend Elma on her pilgrimages through that place of pain -. Whoever has no knowledge, wonders why the Father of Life allows so much pain.

Soon, another partner, Elma's student, who did not allow himself to be beaten, despite being moved, responded:

- God cannot annihilate free will. If he interferes with our choices, freeing us from the pains we need to suffer through our own fault, the Father of Life would no longer be a good and fair God. If we do not allow God to interfere with our temporary happiness, neither is it right for Him to interrupt our intimate torments that will correct us for the mistakes we have made. When we look for lustful and unseemly pleasures, we never think of God or wonder whether we are right or wrong - Romildo explained with words, perhaps not very delicate, but very conscious.

- We cannot criticize, upset our brethren or feel fear or indifference - reminded Elma, gently and wisely -. We no longer identify or harmonize with these creatures of God, yet, my dear, how many of us, in the distant past, have already wandered into this place of pain or similar places, for having celebrated the irresponsibility of human beings, sex, vanity and pride?

- I don't criticize it, much less condemn it, dear Elma. Pardon me for the way I speak - said Romildo, explaining with kindness and some embarrassment -. I am aware of the life lessons I had experienced by myself because of my dark past. I know how pride and vanity keep us from seeing our own mistakes and we end up blaming others and God for the difficulties we face. And it is this same pride that keeps us from seeing how much we waste, how indifferent we were when life was abundant...

-... and we always point to the free will of others as the sole guilty for our miseries - interrupted Gisela, who added in a sweet way: - I know what that is too.

- I think we all know that - Elma reiterated with thoughtfulness and kindness -. While we are caught up in the vices of pride and vanity, we never admit our own guilt. For this reason, we must be very attentive to this feeling.

Caressing her partner's shoulder and realizing that she had a deep bitterness, Gisela said kindly:

- Perhaps today is not the day when Lucio will understand the true power of repentance and prayer. We'd better go back.

- You’re right my friend. Soon, a thick darkness will cover this valley and it will bring countless difficulties.

With bitterness and resignation, Elma forced herself to smile after her last words and stood beside her partners who went ahead to leave that place. Very affectionate, she couldn't help but look back, after walking away a little, wanting to see Lucio beg for real help.

Walking through this vast place of sorrows, the three entities, who passed almost unnoticed, could not but observe in that pond, hundreds of miserable deformed spirits. Some, even with their faces showing a clear aspect of suffering, were aggressive in the face of the horrendous situation and did not turn to humility. Others, unbalanced supplicants, prayed to God, but they did not bring, in the depths of their souls, a single drop of repentance.

The collective experience they all had, no doubt, was the result of immoral actions.

Many of us have a vague notion of spirituality when we are incarnated and forget that, at the end of the earthly life, the illusion of the material is shattered, leaving only what has been cultivated in morality.

The unknown powers of the mind always drag us into the dark spheres if we do not pay attention to high moral concepts. We will limit ourselves to areas of torment and reparation until repentance, humility, and true faith expressed in prayer and constant hope for an uncountable time, can attract help and support from heaven.

* * *

The journey to that vast lowland region ended and Elma, Gisela and Romildo arrived at the Colonia de la Paz, which, as a sacred sanctuary, welcomed selfless creatures committed to constantly helping and constantly learning from the brethren on the road and the disadvantaged ones.

It was a place of indescribable beauty, the Colony of Peace was established in spheres of spirituality. Rather, it was an elegant corner dedicated to sublime entities.

The high vibrations could be felt as an exceptionally noble participation, as constant prayers poured sanctifying blessings throughout its whole enchanted domain.

The heavenly melody composed by a delicate golden arrangement of pleasant calm could be enjoyed everywhere.

Shortly after returning to that sweet spot, Elma, now with an outward appearance composed of a bright uplift, knew that someone was waiting for her.

At this point, a special and serene luminosity invaded the room used as a reception area, surrounding it with a bright heavenly light. There, she waited, almost impatiently, for a dear and esteemed acquaintance.

Entering the serene atmosphere, Elma smiled and, before the usual greetings, gave her great friend a long and loving fraternal embrace.

Then, taking her hands and looking at her with a generous smile, Elma asked:

Lisete, my old friend! How are you? It's been a long time!

Spontaneously and with a gentle inflection, Lisete said:

-Long nostalgia tears the heart, yet it never doubts a true friendship, which always stands the test of time despite the distance.

As she smiled lovingly, Elma led her to settle in and, at her side, still holding her delicate hands, asked her:

I feel like you’re upset. I even know the reason: Lucio.

– Only you understand me so well, dear Elma.

They looked at each other in tears, this emotion did not mean disappointment or loss, but rather a high shock.

Silence reigned for seconds until Elma explained with intense emotion:

- I have just came back from the place of pain. I was able to find our dear Lucio there, still in a state of extreme disturbance and great suffering. So sad...

– I know that you, Elma and many other friends spend constant efforts on Lucio. I also know how fair and good God, the Father of Life, is. However, my tight little heart, once again makes me ask or even beg, if necessary, to help my dear spiritual son who is wandering nowadays in that pond of misery.. I nourish myself with hope every day, renewing myself in prayer.. I vibrate for my dear one to discover the value of prayer and the power we have when we recognize that God sends us His emissaries of Light according to our faith and our repentance of the lost past, but...

Lisete's eyes shed discreet tears and she, very moved, asked almost timidly:

- What else can I do for my child? I would like you to know that I have a break from the work developed in spirituality and I want, with all my strength, to devote myself intensely to Lucio, who certainly needs me very much.

Oh, Lisete! What can I tell you… lamented Elma. I know you can imagine how much I work for him... how much I suffer…

After an embarrassed cry, she continued, hiding her face in tears:

- I was surprised to go beyond the limits trying to touch the hardened heart of Lucio, who has no remorse, no faith, and no love.

- I die every day when I think of all that Lucio still is, all that he did… Despite my faith, there are times when I shake it off. I believe that evil is being stronger or very lasting.

– No! Never think that way! You know the consequences - he warned firmly but calmly - God is fair and good. Remember that our Master Jesus bequeathed to us that we are the salt of the earth, but if the salt has lost his savor, wherewith shall it be salted? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled by men. My dear friend, do not become useless with these thoughts - she asked, almost imploring, such emotion -. You know that you can disable your positive and loving vibrations with Lucio if you doubt about what you are doing. If we believe in a good God, we must also believe that He will show us a solution, but we cannot sit idly by. Remember, do your part and I will help you. Please don't despair, I will do my best for him.

- I do not want to abuse your generosity or our old friendship, but I would like to ask you. If it is possible, whenever you go on a relief mission to the lower regions near Lucio and go to see him, take me with you.

- Yes, of course, Lisete. Your elevation and control of emotions allow you to join us, but, in spite of being prepared and even used to cross these lower vibratory limits, I would like to remind you that when we find a beloved soul in such a difficult condition, pain touches us inexpressibly… So, be prepared.

- Elma, you are an angel of love and kindness. I never thought you would allow me…

– Who am I to allow you anything, dear Lisete? You are the one who, with your high morals and intense true love, allows you to perform noble tasks.

- Don't say that, venerable partner. God knows I'm right, that's why I'm here. I feel that, if it is not you, no one else will be able to help me with my Lucio, because I know about your love. And only those who know how to love in a true and unconditional way get the result of all they embrace as a victory.

Elma's sweet eyes sparkled and a shy smile spread over her angelic and surprisingly beautiful face. Then she pledged:

– We will work ceaselessly, my friend, until we obtain a promising result, because for true love there are no unbreakable barriers of evil. Love, a noble feeling, is the emanation of God Himself. Let's trust Him. No suffering is eternal. We are the only ones who are able to determine how long it will last.

Lisete, moved and hopeful by those inspiring words, embraced her friend and offered herself to the prayer in gratitude for her great help.

It was impossible to hold the tears as the commitment to friendship was strengthened by bonds of unconditional love.

Chapter 2

Reason of afflictions

THE FOLLOWING DAYS, after permission and proper instructions to work in lower regions, a small excursion departed from the Colony of Peace to analyze plans to help Lucio.

The benefactress Elma and a small group of friendly and benevolent spirits made a stopover, after a considerable journey in the place of pain where countless spirits suffered painful and indescribable torments, forming a huge group of mentally alienated by the suffering experienced.

A deep emotion touched everyone when Lisete, lying on her knees beside Lucio, cried copiously when she saw him in such a degrading state.

- Dear son, how I regret... - he mumbled, overflowing her words.

Elma approached and touched her shoulder with immense affection, warning her:

- We need your strength now, dear Lisete. Unfortunately, Lucio cannot perceive it because of the involvement with immense afflictions, pointed out by his own consciousness.

– I realize that it is not just the conscience that charges you for wrong actions. I see my beloved son surrounded by the disastrous vibrations of incarnates with whom he shared lustful acts, causing in him a nefarious psychic atmosphere attracting similar disincarnate spirits who, like him, did not control their intense sexual desires and experienced painful expiations for not mastering such addiction.

–Only with our vibrations of love it will be difficult to separate Lucio from this chain - recalled the noble spirit Gisela, who accompanied the excursion -. It would be important to detach him, in some way, from those who enslave him in so heavy vengeful vibrations, materialized in miasmas, a rotten matter, which wrap him up and take him away to those purgatory depths of shadow, fear and pain, consuming his forces and faith.

Elma picked up her friend Lisete and, embracing her in an emotional way, said moved:

- What good is heaven to us if we know that someone we love is trapped in a valley of pain?

Looking now into Lisete's eyes, Elma promised:

- Let's pull him out of this stormy abyss, but first we will have to bring understanding and kindness to those who wish him revenge or have hurt him, as only then our vibrations of love can reach him as voices of lofty feelings of faith and echo in his mind.

The spirits Silmara, Romildo and Alvaro, apprentices who accompanied them, remained in silence, but attentive.

- Thank you, Elma - she expressed her gratitude to Lisete, who was bathed in tears. I will always be grateful to you. I don't think I can ever repay you...

- Thank God, the Father of Life, who strengthens our faith with His generous love, by offering conditions to serve and help those we love and are in need.

Planning to visit the earth's crust as soon as possible, along with the incarnates, Elma and the others returned to the Colonia de la Paz.

In the colony, after justifying the request, Elma received due permission and guidance that the mission would be not only for the help of Lucio, but also for the learning of a group of spirits that should be aware of the challenges and silent passions that seem arduous during earthly tests of harmonization.

* * *

In a few days, Elma and Lisete were in the earthly house where Lucio lived.

The extremely luxurious mansion, exquisitely decorated, did not reveal, on the physical plane perceptible to the incarnate, the horrors that could be registered on the plane of the spirits.

With their particular attributes, Elma and Lisete, able to change the outer perispyritic luminescence to camouflage themselves, as they were used to missions of anguish in lower areas, were now passing through insignificant spirits, mixing together, almost unnoticed by others.

The atmosphere was heavy and excessively unpleasant. The vision one could have on the spiritual plane was depressing, sad and aggressive.

The spirits, incarnated, turned sex into a sea of pleasures and sensations, without love or affection. They were there as true mental debilitators, moaning unbalanced, throwing themselves upon each other, forming a real sea of human spirits. They hardly looked like a man or a woman, since they were very deformed and showed animal forms, macabre, altered ones and wrapped in a repulsive substance.

Some others, less enthusiastic, were naked. Their faces were horrified with vivid malice and bulging eyes. They lurked in any situation of sexual pleasure with which they could identify.

In their reproductive parts, the area of sexual organs, there were perispiritual deformations of the most horrible kind, along with constant fetid and sometimes painful purulences.

In the face of this vision, Lisete spoke to her partner:

- Everyone here, without exception, were victims of their own acts when they were incarnated and ended up acquiring the HIV virus.

-Absolutely - Elma agreed very calmly -.

Due to sexual irresponsibility, they were attracted to the acquisition of this nefarious virus. Unable to overcome the desires of sex, looking for momentary pleasure, they gave themselves to a promiscuous life without vigilance in indiscriminate acts and without responsibility regarding sex such as prostitution, debauchery, easy life, sex without commitment and everything else related to imbalance, vulgar sexual practices, regardless of whether they are heterosexual, homosexual, transsexual or other orientations.

Based on what she observed on the spiritual plane, Lisete deduced what happened to the incarnate and then asked:

–What Lucio did still remains in this house, doesn't it?

–Yes, it does. Here, the incarnate ones are still throwing parties with sex and drugs, despicable and disgusting orgies, ephemeral acts...

- Look, an incarnate is coming - warned Lisete calmly

It was a beautifully and elegantly dressed young woman who walked into the great hall, whose large and transparent glass allowed the view of a beautiful garden and a lush pool.

In quick steps, the beautiful girl ran from one end of the room to the other, headed for the wide stairs and hurried up them.

Once in her luxurious suite, Rejane threw the bag aside and threw herself on the bed.

Facedown, feeling depressed, she cried a little and, again and again, she hit the bed with blows while moaning in anger.

– Goddamn it, I hate it! - Rejane shouted angrily -. I hope the wretch burns in the depths of hell. You ruined my life, Lucio. You made me dependent... you finished me off.

– Elma - asked Lisete, very surprised by what she saw -. Do you know the relationship between her and Lucio?

- Yes, I do - she answered, sadly -. But it's not convenient to talk about that right now. Look.

Elma pointed out a corner of the luxurious suite, where she found a spirit that was fond of Rejane, as if he were her owner , enslaving her by inducing her to certain practices to exchange energies with the incarnate.

The creature showed abnormalities in his spiritual body, in view of the imbalance of desires and emotions. Lying down beside Rejane, the spirit embraced her with lustful and intense desires, enveloping her as if she were incarnated, while other spirits, of the same psychic level, looked at him.

Rejane began to feel sexual desires and, unable to control her compulsion, immediately put on a pornographic movie and began watching it. Once she had objects that could satisfy her desires, she tried to provoke an orgasmic discharge in herself. At that moment, the incarnate saw the movie and concentrated excessively on Lucio, as if he were there satisfying his vices and pleasures.

She was physically alone, but in spirituality she was already surrounded by four spiritual companions who, with the authorization of the first one, were satisfied with her imbalance, thus reinforcing the miserable ties that left her addicted to momentary pleasures, wasting the creative energy she had and deforming herself as a spirit.

Showing great respect for the free will of the incarnate and disincarnate, Elma decided:

- We have nothing to do here yet. We must look for other partners.

- Does Lucio receive the full range of negative vibrations only from Rejane? - asked Romildo.

- Not only from her. Now let's go - said the mentor.

* * *

Far away from there, the group was staying in a residence that served as a spiritual relief place. Observing Lisete's discouragement, Elma, as soon as she felt more comfortable with her friend and other partners, explained:

- I promised to tell the story of Lucio and Rejane.

- Please tell me. I need to know everything in detail if I want to help him. I know what happened, because I identify in the composition of Lucio's spiritual body what that beloved son practiced. I know of its imbalance due to the external deformations, but I want details.

– Lucio was born with a silver spoon in his mouth - said Elma patiently to update the others as well -. He was rich and spoiled in every way. His parents gave him everything he wanted, even illegally. They did not set limits, on the contrary, if they could, they would buy everything their son wanted.

– Mostly - she continued after a brief pause - due to a lack of limits, education, morals and even psychological guidance, Lucio was inclined to countless compulsions, including sexual ones. None of his impulses were rebuked by those who had assumed responsibility, in the spiritual spheres, by their guidance, accepting him in carnal bonds as a son or close relative. Lucio reincarnated with the objective of re-educating himself, of overcoming sexual compulsivity, of creating limits to passions, preferences, but he failed in his objectives.

– I don't want to interrupt you - Alvaro spoke respectfully and attentively - but I understood, with this explanation, that those who surround us, especially in childhood, are also responsible for our development or moral elevation.

- Yes, of course - answered Elma, affectionately and with a slight smile -. Parents, especially, or those who have a legal or spiritual responsibility to protect a child, owe a child protection, defense, and guidance. They are responsible for the failure of a spirit during its journey if they have not constantly offered valuable moral principles so that the protégé entrusted to them can see, distinguish and evaluate well when he is trained.

– If this protégé - Alvaro continued with curiosity - or if this child, who is already capable of distinguishing and evaluating, does not want to follow the good path he was thought, will his parents or guardians be responsible for his moral failure?

– If they offered him a high moral teaching in a tireless and loving way, then they will not - Elma replied. They cannot be blamed, blamed for the pains and tortuous paths that the other has taken. But, if parents or guardians are not attentive and neglect the conditions, moral and spiritual practices of those entrusted to them, they will have a great burden of responsibility in lower tendencies, devastating passions, ruthless and cruel spirit, and in the choice of degrading labyrinths and path of afflictions.

- Those who do not perfectly fulfill the task of moralizing the child God has entrusted to them because of irresponsibility or laziness - Romildo intervened, very directly in his explanations - will regret it in a valley of tears. If someone has been entrusted to your care, it is because you are obligated to improve that person. Time is infinite, but we cannot waste the blessed opportunities. Instead of postponing it for the next reincarnation, we should take advantage of the blessed conditions, because we do not know how many difficulties will come in our way in the next ones. Lord Jesus said: No law or title of law shall be abolished until all is accomplished". The work is ours and will remain so until we do it well.

–Returning to Lucio's story, - said Elma, with an explicit generosity - we know that he became possessive, dominating everything he could with purchasing power -.

She paused briefly and continued:

– He worked for his father's company. He was the absolute master. Handsome and in his prime, he presented himself as an outstanding conqueror. We like to remember that sex, with its sacred purposes, is not meant for a pleasure market, such as prostitution or the carnal sensations of illicit, ephemeral, loveless pleasures. However, despite not being paid, men and women often prostitute themselves when there is some interest, even if it is a matter of self-affirmation.

– Ephemeral? How so? - Alvaro asked.

– The sexual act should not happen only by an intense and momentary force, which we know is transitory and passing. It involves an indescribable responsibility, as well as a great spiritual commitment. When sexual energies are exchanged, they make connections that, if they do not have high and worthy purposes, will commit us to a great deal of rescue, because the fluid exchange can and will be used as creative energy of good or evil. If sex is only for momentary, useless, and fleeting pleasure, surely the sexual energy will not generate any good - explained Elma with her particular kindness -. Unfortunately, we will only learn how much this affects us in the hard moral and spiritual development once we find ourselves in the ponds of afflictions with perispiritual deformations, that is, in the most horrendous spiritual body, for having abused the carnal pleasures of sex.

After a brief pause for reflection, she continued:

–It happened to Lucio and many other partners. Taking advantage of his beautiful appearance and social position, Lucio was sexually related for pure pleasure in order to get different experiences and even to have something to tell his friends.

–It is good to remember - said Romildo, almost impatiently - that whoever boasts about his sex life is deeply disturbed and perhaps is a failure in the matter, since he needs constant self-affirmation.

And, immediately looking at mentor Elma who seemed to alert him somehow with