An Ocean of Wine

By Tarryn Lea

Written over a period of six years, branching between adolescence and adulthood, An Ocean of Wine is a collection of modern young adult poetry with over 200 poems split into four chapters covering contemporary sentiments on relationships, grief, loss, sex, love, body image, relationships and self-healing. It is everything individuals of the new generation wanted to say but didn't; everything we want to feel and everything we wish we didn't have to feel.

 

• Language: English
• Publisher: Squirrel House Publishing
• Release date: Sep 20, 2022
• ISBN: 9781951882235

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An Ocean of Wine

An Ocean of Wine

By Tarryn Lea

An Ocean of Wine by Tarryn Lea

ISBN: 978-1-951882-23-5

Copyright © 2022 Tarryn Lea

Cover design by Tarryn Lea

Illustrations by AC Bennett @acbennettart

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Contents                                                                 

Crying….………………………………………….. 3

Loving….………………………………………….. 63

Bleeding………………………………………….... 117

Breathing……………………………….................. 157

Crying

I dulled the incessant pounding

Of your name in my head

By carving it into my pillowy flesh

With the piercing shards

Of the heart you left me with

I had a heart like a box

Filled with fireworks

You had hands

That played thoughtlessly

With matches

Tell me we weren’t

Just friends

Tell me the city of roses

You got me so blissfully lost in

Wasn’t just a graveyard

Disguised as a garden

Tell me

Even if it was just for a moment

In its smallest measurement

That you cared

I’m the girl

Who lets others eat from her garden

But quietly starves herself to death

The girl

Who is drowning in her own issues

Yet stops and saves

The drowning man beside her

She tells me her secrets

Her wildest dreams

Her passions and gifts

Dancing and cloud watching

Then abruptly stops

And tells me she’s sorry

She said anything at all

Our bodies

Are too young

To be the hosts

Of such withered

Jaded

Monochromatic

Minds

I still can’t find it in me

To go back

And reread my old chapters

Without wanting to rip

Every single soiled page to pieces

And feed them to the flames

Hungrily lapping in the fireplace

Our toes lightly touched

And the waves in the sheets rolled

Showing we were alive

Only you knew we would die

Because you couldn’t keep

Waking each morning

And dressing yourself in lies

If our stars

Ever cross once more

I hope we’re

Not too proud

To admit that we made a

Mistake

When we both walked

The other way

I’m scared of getting lost

Because I’m scared

You won’t try to find me.

You’ll let me roam too far

Into such thick, wild labyrinths

And you won’t run