Neerja: An Indian Woman’s Spiritual Odyssey
By Namta Yadav
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Grappling with childhood issues; grieving the loss of a dead brother; fighting to erase the scars of domestic violence; struggling as a single parent in a man’s world; Neerja finally resolves to end her suffering...
How? Only her tale will tell...
Neerja is the evolution – the new face, voice and genre of Indian spirituality. Neerja invites every individual to own their soul space. Her message anchors the readers who are on their tumultuous odysseys during these unprecedented times.
Perhaps hand in hand with Neerja, they can find a solution to their travails...
Namta Yadav
A nature lover and romantic at heart, Namta discovered her affinity for a spiritual life rising to meet the demands of a stressful, modern life. Namta leads a happy, balanced and fulfilled life which she strove to achieve all these years and holds sacred. She aspires to be a spiritual teacher and share her spiritual practice with the rest of the world.
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Neerja - Namta Yadav
NEERJA
An Indian Woman’s Spiritual Odyssey
NAMTA YADAV
ISBN 978-93-5559-059-6
Copyright © Namta Yadav, 2022
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Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction. All the names, characters, businesses, places, events and incidents in this book are either the product of the author’s imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.
The views expressed in this book are those of the Author and do not pertain to be held by the Publisher.
Editor: Shayoni Mitra
Cover: Komal Kohok
Layouts: Ashwini Rane
CONTENTS
PART ONE
A COMPLEX MIND
A DETERIORATING BODY
A WOUNDED SOUL
PART TWO
SANGAM
SANCTUM SANCTORUM
POWER OF KNOWING
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
A nature lover and romantic at heart, Namta discovered her affinity for a spiritual life rising to meet the demands of a stressful, modern life. Namta leads a happy, balanced and fulfilled life which she strove to achieve all these years and holds sacred. She aspires to be a spiritual teacher and share her spiritual practice with the rest of the world.
PART ONE
A COMPLEX MIND
Chapter 1
Dusk settled and the clouds parted ways. Clouds never stay in one place for long... if they do, they lose themselves. Amidst the hustle of a small town in India, stood a house surrounded by a few others. Hiding behind this house, a young girl would often converse with some mysterious force! She had visions of Lord Shiva when she was younger and secretly performed the Tandava when no one was watching. Neerja was one of a kind; the entertainer in a family of four. Their lives were a perfect blend of ups and downs, just like the waves.
Neerja’s beauty was noticed right at her birth, she had big almond-shaped eyes, soft pink lips, a sharp nose and long fingers. She was unbelievably quiet, so her existence had to be announced to the neighbours. The seeds of reflection were planted early in her. She had an affinity for nature and cold weather and would fall ill every time the family moved to a hot place. Neerja grew up in the shadow of her virtuous brother Varun, building her own world in her room and in her head. Neither she nor her family knew that this trajectory that she was creating for herself, would lead her to encounters that would jolt them out of their normal lives.
On the surface, her childhood was the easiest part of her life. Beneath the stillness of a lake dwells an entire ecosystem. The glamour of a bureaucratic household, the troupe of servants, a convent school education, and the protective campus life could not stop the winds blowing in her direction. When refused anything, she would throw a tantrum and knew that daddy would come to her rescue. She stayed locked up alone at home one night just because she was not allowed to wear a particular dress to a party. She was wearing a lovely jumpsuit but had seen another girl twirling in her frock downstairs. Her parents pleaded but she did not relent. Stiff branches often break when the winds are strong. Neerja put her foot into the wheel of the bicycle to punish a servant who refused to stop for ice cream on the way back from school; the bone in her tiny ankle cracked. Neerja did not know that when you decide to punish others, you also hurt yourself.
In a middle-class nuclear family, with an ever-expanding circle of relatives, she started struggling to be herself. The constant comparisons with a fairer, taller or brighter cousin left her feeling inadequate. She would often entertain her family post dinner by jumping from one sofa to another like Hanuman. They would be delirious with laughter and she would enjoy being the centre of attention before receding to her room where unbeknownst to all, she had been slowly adding another layer of complexity to her mind. Like sedimentary rocks, our minds are shaped by the collection of experiences over the years.
Neerja had already accumulated a few fears of her own along the way. She hated to share anything that she truly loved. She ran with tears rolling down her cheeks when the cameraman took birthday pictures of Neerja’s cousin, posing with Neerja’s teddy. Neerja had been gifted this teddy by her mother for standing first in her class. Neerja’s parents had handed over the teddy to her cousin to please Neerja’s uncle. The cousin’s birthday was always a grand affair. This incident and the countless others that followed in her childhood broke her heart. She would despise it when her mom would share the design or pattern of Neerja’s dresses with her friends who had daughters. Neerja would throw a fit and if she was not obliged, that dress or doll would lose its significance for her. Exclusivity became a norm for her. She either loved someone extremely or they ceased to exist. Nature has shades of light and dark, but Neerja only saw in absolutes.
She shared a deep bond with Varun, they found solace in each other’s company during the loud fights at home. They both had their own ways of ignoring the cacophony. Varun burnt the midnight lamp to excel in academics which promised him the golden path to a career in India and a few pats on the back from his Indian parents who believe that children come to this world to fulfil the dreams of their parents. Neerja’s vision was blotchy just like her artwork. Neerja’s favourite colour was black, her wardrobe always had black. She would protest wildly every time her mom forced her to wear a pink or a yellow dress, she felt that those colours made her look darker.
She was a daredevil; you mess with her brother and she would pick knitting needles to pull out your eyeballs. She would jump