The Bipolar Chronicles...

By Stephanie Florano

"The Bipolar Chronicles" is a book about Stephanie's journey through life as a bipolar woman. She writes about love, heartbreak, life, rape, and what it's like to be bipolar. Get a first hand experience of what it's like to live with the disorder.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Stephanie Florano
• Release date: Nov 17, 2021
• ISBN: 9781088004562

Book preview

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Phase 1: Depression

Depression

Depression.

Or simply a lack of most expression

Emptiness

Except the sadness that remains

I cannot breathe

Instead instant suffocation from these chains

I sleep all day

Cannot seem to get out of bed

Negative thoughts continuously

racing through my head

I wish I could turn

My brain off for a while

A millions reasons to be happy

But I’ve forgotten how to smile

Everything is dark

Everything is dull

Mental exhaustion

Resulting in my mind

And body

Paying the toll.

Heartbreak

The things about heartbreak that no one tells you,

are how much it hurts to leave the one you love,

to let them love someone else.

Or how much it hurts to hear I love you, but not in the same way,

that you love me.

How about the PTSD that comes along afterwards?

No one talks about the flashbacks you get of all

The memories you’ve created with this person.

Or how bad all of the nightmares are, of you gasping for air

because you’ve forgotten how to breathe.

All of the chest pains that randomly come about,

during the most inconvenient of times.

Oh and let’s not forget the random outburst of tears,

that cloud your vision and soak your pillowcases.

This is the heartbreak we don’t talk about.

This is the heartbreak we tend to ignore because it’s too painful.

Too painful to bear on our own so we just act

as if it never happened.

But this is the heartbreak we need to acknowledge.

We need to face it.

We need to accept it.

We need to embrace it.

We need to experience it all.

Because this is the heartbreak that we will vow,

to never experience again once it’s all over.

This is heartbreak.

I'm not ok

I told you I was ok with all of this,

but the truth is,

I’m not ok.

Every time I talk to you,

my heart skips a beat.