A Light from Within: Inspirational Poems of a Child’s Struggle Through Trauma
By Nikki Kelly
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In a compilation of poetry shared to inspire those who can relate and open the eyes of those who cannot, Nikki reflects on the struggles, frustrations, and ups and downs of her childhood trauma that included adoption, dyslexia, sexual assault, and PTSD. Each of her poems express a child’s desire to belong, to be heard, and most importantly, to succeed despite her seemingly insurmountable obstacles.
A Light from Within is a raw volume of poems that explores the journey of an adoptee as she navigates through a variety of challenges that test her courage, strength, and perseverance.
Nikki Kelly
Author Bio Nikki Kelly was born and adopted in the early 70’s. During a time when adoption was not only rarely talked about, but also very misunderstood. Though growing up in a loving family Nikki struggled to belong. The internal conflict between biological and adopted families left Nikki with a plethora of emotions and an inability to trust. In school Nikki struggled with reading, writing, comprehension and focus. At a very young age she learned to compensate, just to get by. However, as time went on hiding and compensating became a challenge, so she started to act out. Then just as she felt all hope was lost, that she’d never succeed a teacher took an interest. At 17, Nikki had had enough, it was finally time to come forward. Secrets that she had been keeping for years, she finally had the strength to release. She struggled with what to say, how to tell and who, but ultimately knew what she needed to do. She gathered everything she possibly could, afraid she wouldn’t be believed, and went to the police to make a report. While her friends sat in High School Government, she sat in a courtroom learning first hand about the law. She missed homecoming, many parties and senior prom. She may not know who was crowned king or queen that year, but she will never forget the pride she had, getting justice for her violent sexual assault. Nikki is a “tomboy”, fun-loving, outgoing and always laughing, joking and smiling. She knows she is who she is because of the struggles that she has been through, and though she would never choose to do them again, she wouldn’t change them either. It is her struggle that make her strong. Nikki is a USN Seabee disabled Veteran. After, her discharge from the Navy she returned to school earning a degree in interpreting for the hearing impaired. Nikki lives in Michigan with her husband of 26 years and two adult daughters. Nikki loves spending time with her friends and family and she loves the water.
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A Light from Within - Nikki Kelly
© 2021 Nikki Kelly. All rights reserved.
No part of this book may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted by any means without the written permission of the author.
Published by AuthorHouse 10/05/2021
ISBN: 978-1-6655-2357-8 (sc)
ISBN: 978-1-6655-2360-8 (hc)
ISBN: 978-1-6655-2361-5 (e)
Library of Congress Control Number: 2021920690
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Contents
Adoption
Perspectives
Through Adopted Eyes
A Not so Happy Birthday
Explanations
A Bond That Can’t Be Severed
Not the Same
Hole in My Heart
Something’s Missing
Searching to Belong
Missing Pieces
Identity Search
Wondering
Adopted Confusion
The Adoption Gap
Growing Up and Moving On
A Book of Confusion
The Adoption Puzzle
School
Mistaken Assumptions
Unseen Struggles
Getting By
Challenges
Falling through the Cracks
If They Only Knew
A Teacher Who Cared
School Dazed
Dyslexia
Dyslexic Pride
A Look into Me
A Challenging Path to Success
A Rise through Guided Failure
My Keeper
A Guiding Light
Sexual Assault
A Pedophile’s Deception
Awake in the Night
Lost and Confused
Secret Scars
Stolen Innocence
Night Creeper
A Lost Little Girl
The Wrong Kid
Rooming with Monsters
Misunderstanding Why
Moving On
Breaking Free
Finding Fault
Victim Talk
It’s Time
Listen
You Were Wrong Too
My Story
The Light within a Pedophile’s Storm
A Survivor’s Story
PTSD and Miscellaneous Emotions
The Tour
If Anyone Cares
Misdirected Apologies
K. A. R.
The Me No One Can See
Never Enough
Pain Reliever
Dreaming
Forgotten
A PTSD Wonderland
Help!
Changing History
A Toy Box of Emotions
Trash Day
Looking Back
Healing
Undefined
To Kathy Ryan
For seeing in me what no one
else did. For believing in me
and teaching me to believe in myself. For showing me the
strength I had inside and how to properly direct it. For the
countless talks and lessons learned, and for always being my
Keeper.
Adoption
If my life was a book, it would have the wrong
cover and start with chapter 2.
Perspectives
Today is so hard for me,
Just having to let you go.
It is the best choice, you see,
Made from love, I hope you know.
A part of me I can’t keep.
Loving, missing, mourning you.
Nights, crying myself to sleep,
Questioning What did I do?
I love and miss you so.
This time has been a pleasure.
They will tell you so you know.
Now you are theirs to treasure.
*
Today’s a great day for me,
Finally bringing you home.
We’ve waited so long, you see.
Now you’re here, we’re not alone.
We have tried and tried to conceive.
Depressed, looking for options,
Then it’s you we receive.
A precious gift, adoption.
We will love you, hold you tight,
This special gift from above.
We will teach you wrong from right,
Show you how much you are loved.
*
Today’s confusing to me.
I don’t know where I belong.
One mom full of joy I see.
For the other I still long.
I know I’m