Uzay: * the Memory of a Hidden Soul

By Rud.SG

*Uzay
“Are we gonna be all right?”
A star once asked the moon.
“You made it every day in this dark space all alone. So yes, my little star.”
The moon answered.
Uzay was the moon and I was the star.
Uzay was a soul who hugged my heart but I never got the chance to huge him, or even to touch him in the real world. Uzay is a soul buried so deep inside of you, who needs to be found.
Sometimes you just need to look closely at your soul. Each one of us has a different way to find it. And trust me, it will be the most beautiful thing in your life.
I was that miserable human who didn’t want or know what she wanted to do. But suddenly it all made sense to me after a night that changed my whole life.

“May I see you among the stars.”

• Language: English
• Publisher: Partridge Publishing Singapore
• Release date: Jul 13, 2020
• ISBN: 9781543759105

Rud.SG

Rud.SG believes that every word she has written was from my heart to the reader's heart. She wants her books to have meanings, to be able to help people. Yet this is her first novel to be published, but she hopes this is a great start to get to know her.

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CONTENTS

Preface

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Chapter 6

Chapter 7

Chapter 8

Chapter 9

Chapter 10

Chapter 11

Chapter 12

Chapter 13

Chapter 14

Chapter 15

Chapter 16

Chapter 17

Chapter 18

Chapter 19

Chapter 20

Chapter 21

Chapter 22

Uzay

Preface

I believe that every word I wrote was from my heart to the reader’s heart. I want my books to have meaning, to be able to help people. This is my first novel to be published, but I hope this is a great start for the reader to get to know me.

For you

To the person who will never be found on earth. To the person who the stars will never stop talking about. To the person who I will never forget.

Since the day I met you on the rooftop for the first time, you thought I was the one who was making it better, but it was you who was making it better.

Since that day, you thought I was the one who was changing you, but it was you who was changing me.

You changed me into a person that I could never have changed into. When I came back home after your seventeenth birthday, the stars were shocked by the person I’d become.

I can see you now, the stars whispered that day.

I never told you that, and I wish I had told you. Every day, you were coming to me because you needed me, and you thought I came to you because of that. But I came because I was the one who needed you.

The way you changed made me change with you. The inspiration you said I had, it was all from you.

The first day I met you, many things were going on in your mind. But all of a sudden, I got to know you more and more. Your heart was just full of love, love that could cover the whole universe.

You used to get mad, sad, and desperate so fast.

I don’t know what I could have done without you, you used to say.

You would do the same thing because I did nothing. I just heard your heart and replied to what it said to you.

You used to see life in a way that half of the people see it. But after that, you saw life as a different kind of thing. You saw it as if it’s a game you will finish playing.

Life is a game, you once said.

You start with easy. Then it gets harder and harder. Eventually, we all win in the end. But if you left the game, you won’t be able to see the end of it.

Everything mattered to you back then. But after seeing life as a game, nothing mattered to you. And that’s what made you reach the top.

You need to see life in the eyes of the person who you want to be, you once said.

I never understood what you meant and acted as I did. Until now, I finally understand what you mean.

She had changed into a person who you don’t want to talk to, into a person who you want to turn yourself into. She changed me into a person that the stars are jealous of, so maybe this will change you too.

May I see you among the stars.

—Uzay

Chapter 1

Living your whole life in your world outside your real life was sometimes miserable and helpless. Living your entire life in your world was my life, or I should say, it was only a way to get out of my reality. I was born with it. I think it was a gift from God.

Sometimes I get really angry because no one understands me at all. No one is in my world, so they couldn’t understand me. I don’t blame them at all. Sometimes I am the one who should be blamed. I don’t let anyone to even sneak into my world, and I still don’t know why, whenever I try, I just can’t. There is something inside me that keeps me from sharing my world with others. It was always a big mystery to me that I couldn’t solve.

I needed help, but I couldn’t realize it until one big thing just crashed as it fell from the roof. I didn’t know that this thing would change my whole life and even my world.

Five Years Old

One time, I was waiting for my sister Awan, who was in the bathroom. So I just sat down on the floor upstairs in front of my mom’s room. The dim room’s door was opened. Looking at it, I wondered, When is Awan coming out?

Suddenly, I stopped wondering when I saw the shadow of a big, tall man walking inside Mom’s room. He took three steps then stopped for a while. He turned his head toward me for a moment then continued walking until he disappeared. I couldn’t think or move. I was so scared. My heart was beating out of my chest.

I stood up and started walking toward the room just to see. I felt my sweat running down my back. I wasn’t conscious of what I was doing at that time. I placed my palm on the door and pushed it further open then turned on the light as fast as I could to confront what I saw. But no one was in the room. I walked further in