My First Fifty Years

By Doe Doe

I waited a long time for this day to come—a day when I would be able to share with other suffering and recovering addicts the days of my despair and saving grace. The conformation that, yes, there is hope and relief from a disease that is so debilitating and so sadly shuned and looked down upon that only denial and hiding was acceptable for us in today’s society. This book, although small in stature, is a powerful read and gives the reader some insight on how things can go so very wrong so easily. There are parts that are sad, inspirational, loving, identifiable, and just downright insane.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Apr 28, 2020
• ISBN: 9781524571252

Doe Doe

Doe Doe was born in the first phases of winter in a fairly large city of Akron, Ohio, in 1964. She lost her father to the legal authorities there when she was only two—her first resentment. Doe Doe’s mother was all she had, and she took her back to her home in Princeton, West Virginia. She went to school there, a new place to act out in. In the meantime, her mom remarried, and today, she thanks God for her dad. He’s always been there even when he didn’t want to be. She has never seen her father again till she turned fourteen, when they met again. It was only for a brief moment in time, and she lost him again to fear. She knows that sounds strange and hard to believe, but her father has seen the signs. A short time thereafter, the hopelessness and the bitterness set in. There, her journey began. Neither Doe Doe nor her parents thought she’d live to see thirty; she believes that only her higher power carried her through. She survived like so many of us have, like a perpetual wind in dysfunctional and painful growth. She learned to accept life for what it is and to never take anything for granted and always be willing to change, for isn’t that what life’s about? Evolving. Doe Doe was twenty-five when her father committed suicide. There are twenty years between her and her mom, there are twenty years between her and her daughter, there are ten years between her daughter and her brother, there are ten years between her brothers, and there are sixteen years between herself and a sister she’s only seen once. Are there coinkydinks? She doesn’t think so. God plans everything!

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My First Fifty Years

Doe Doe

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CONTENTS

LIFE IN ADDICTION

Secrets

A Child On My Mind

To Mine, Thine Own Enemy

LIFE’S HOPES

The Key

Changes

Making Friends

LIFE’S EXPERIENCE

Proof Of A Promise

Time And Again

Humanity Restored

LIFE ON LIFE’S TERMS

Life

Desperation

Resposibility

LIFE’S LESSONS

Inocence Lost

Hurt And Hurting

The Past, The Futuer, Your Today

DREAM A DREAM

Choosen

In God’s Time

In God’s Name

LIFE IN LOVE

Rowena

Not Just A Dream

Raggedy Ann And Andy

LIFE’S REGRETS

Yester Year

Things That Never Die

Marriage

LIFE IN DEATH

The Vixen And The Devil

Casanova

Betrayal

LIFE IN RECOVERY

A Recovering Addict

Freedom

A Sinners Psalm

SELF

TO: The readers of, My first fifty years;

This is a composition of trials and tribulations in a life lived

hard and fast. Too soon, to much, to late.

Many may need introduction, yet if yourself or someone you love

has walked this path you will know and understand.

SUMMARY OF SUBJECTS

Life in addiction:

Secrets,

A child on my mind,

To mine, thine own enemy.

Life’s hopes:

The key,

Changes,

Making friends.

Life’s experiences:

Proof of a promise,

Time and again,

Humanity restored.

Life on