Crush Under the Starry Night: The First Chinese Christian Novel

By Sui Lin Gan

The very first Chinese Christian novel now is appeared. This is a romantic story happens in both Tibet and Shanghai which can deeply touch your heart. You will see how God is leading these people’s way to heaven. God still exists and never leaves us. She went to Tibet in the year 2013 and came back with lots of creative art resource. Tibet trip has changed her life because God is using it to produce the first Christian romance novel. After she became a Christian in the year 2018, she started rewriting her novel books, so this book came back to life with God’s spirit inside of it. This is the second novel that she has finished, she has more novels to meet you in the future. She spent three months translating the novel from Chinese to English alone with God in the year 2019. She also does all kinds of painting and Christian music, you will see some of her paintings on her website: www.roseceline.com. The cover page is her Christian oil painting which is a precious gift from our Heavenly Father.

• Language: English
• Publisher: WestBow Press
• Release date: Dec 5, 2019
• ISBN: 9781973680550

Sui Lin Gan

Chinese Christian artist born after 1980. She has finished her seven years study in Shanghai Nan Yang Model Middle school and four years study at Chinese Journalism Majoy in Hong Kong Baptist University. She is now studying in Bethesda University pursuing music master degree in California. Gan Sui Lin has been fully trained in media creativity, all kinds of paintings, Chinese calligraphy skills, script creation, novel creation, music creation and other aspect. She will continue to fulfill our Heavenly Father’s will walking on the path of spreading the Gospel all over the world by creating art. All her life is for the purpose of glorifying our Lord Yeshua Messiah. If you ask her what God is, she will tell you that God is love, and He loves us first!

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CHAPTER 1

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Can’t forget the moment

U nder the quiet starry sky, little stars in the sky were like bright lamps which were lighting up the firmament. The moon was full like a round plate and bright as crystal. Suddenly everyone shouted as if angels blew the horn in the dark night sky. In an instant, there was a rainbow appearing on the sea level with whirring sound. Unlike the rainbow of the day, it tended to be a more gentle curve, but the blinking of diamonds shone through its glow which amazed everyone who saw the moonbow. The moon didn’t shine as bright as the sun, but it was the most gentle light in the darkness, like a woman dressed in a white royal dress, preparing for a perfect wed ding.

In this noisy world, it seems that you are always bothered by endless impurity. Will you desire to sit under the starry night, longing for someone concerning you at the other side of the sky, looking at the stars above your head together with you?

When your frail heart surrenders to the vast universe, are you able to seek tranquility? Are you able to humble your heart to the world instead of thinking yourself as your own master?

There are always some people who don’t care about love or don’t even understand what is loving. However, there are also some people who believe the numbers will be lost and years will no longer be beneficial if marriage is without love. If you keep the faith in love all the time, you will live in the imperfect real world happily forever. Spiritual happiness probably doesn’t bring the pleasant sense of eating abalone, but it will give you the true smile on your face and stop you have the impulse of eating abalone.

In the heavy traffic age of pursuing material desire, the real life has already taken away many people’s original holy souls, some even just want to go after wild beast’s tusks after they have gained the satisfaction with the material. It seems that the sense of stimulation is the only way to remind themselves that they are still alive, just like walking dead with flesh and blood. They get abundant of material but lose pure beautiful hearts, so they start to pursue the holiness of the spiritual world. But eventually, people what linger on the material desire will die in the struggling of reality and die in hell with sin, forever and ever.

At the gate of Ci Zhong Church in Tibet, a woman wearing white linen clothes looked up at the cross on top of the church. Her hair was wrapped in a red and white silk scarf. The scarf was soft and light, you could see bright black hair covering on her shoulders neatly. She had Tibet altiplano red on her cheeks, and her eyes moistened slightly. Her thirsty eyes stared at the cross, she opened her lips slightly and closed her eyes gently. A tear fell onto the silk scarf before the chest which dyed a red area. Ten seconds passed, she opened her eyes. The cross seemed to become clearer. She took a deep breath and took a step towards the church. Her swaying skirt brought the time back to the year 2008 which was like a lifetime had passed.

You Yi Qin, who was called Yi Qin and was very fanciful about love. She liked pink particularly since she was a child. But she was forced to grow up to be a strong female in a city called Shanghai. It seemed that she was a combination of pink and leopard. She was eager to learn, victorious, strong, and liked eating, but she was gentle, delicate, long-lasting and affectionate. The city’s concrete did not penetrate into the heart of this gentle girl. Looking at the people who came in and out of the city, she could not help but imagine their destination and her own final destination: Who am I? Where do I come from? Where am I going?

It was another scorching summer, the air conditioner in the subway was a bit as cold as ice cellar. You Yi Qin wore a long red slip dress, walking back and forth in the subway station. The glass door reflected the shadow of her red dress, but her grinning face could not be seen. Purple high-heeled shoes made a sound on the floor tiles, hitting each beat crisply. Finally, a subway came over. The crowd was so turbulent that she could not help but stepped back a few steps. She was the last person to slowly step on the subway. The crowd in the carriage made her almost unable to stand. The sweltering air came to make people feel a little nauseous. She stretched her hand to hold the handrail, closed her eyes, and fell into her own inner world.

No one knows that in fact, Yi Qin’s world had always been very lonely, but also very rich that even surprised her. She never knew where these lives came from. Yi Qin believed in a soulmate, which was a topic she and Yiyi often discussed. She always wanted to marry love which was the illusory feeling that others despised. If marriage to the eyes of the world is a combination of sexuality and money, then what is love? Love is even without sex and money, but I still have the idea of loving you. Loving you means I want you to live well, and I am willing to pay for you. I am the bone in your bones, the flesh in the flesh. The true combination of two was the love in the eyes of Yi Qin. But in this worldly world, it was sold by weight and changed into a smother sour smell that caused a headache. Yi Qin grew up in a protected status, so she didn’t know much about the inclemency of reality. Those scheming people would never become her close friends. She seemed to be a girl who lived very purely, but she couldn’t escape from being a hostage by sin.

The gentle Yi Qin liked watching romantic novels. Every time she started to cry as soon as she read it. She was often laughed by her mother as a fool. Her mother said, How old are you? Do you still feel sad for fictions? Aren’t you stupid? Dad smiled helplessly. They didn’t know who the child was like.

Every time when she faced such an embarrassment, Yi Qin smiled and turned around timidly. She seemed to especially understand the feeling of heartbroken which was the difference from Yi Yi. Yi Qin admired Yi Yi’s simple-minded. There was a sentence that deeply touched Yi Qin: The most beautiful love is that when I fall in love with you, I still have a feeling of loneliness. You can never fill this feeling of loneliness, so I will never get bored of you. Like is impudicity, but love is restraint, restraining the impulse to you, and all the damage caused by the impulse.

In the spring of 2008, Yi Qin graduated from university. When she first entered the workplace, she was somewhat uncomfortable. The interpersonal relationships that needed to be studied were not easier than the courses in the school. If your performance is below standard, you will be looked down upon; if your performance exceeds the standard, you will be crowded out. Yi Qin has always resisted the helpless mood, taking the subway from Shanghai South Mall every day to Huaihai Road. In fact, she was tireless for the work itself. She enjoyed the sense of accomplishment of creating self-worth, but making money did not bring her happiness, and too much attaching to the materialistic life made her more tired of the complexity of reality. Every time after work, she strolled around the mall and watched the lipsticks and costumes of the famous brands. She aroused in them for some interest, but she would turn to think that they had no relationship with her. The cotton fabric on her body was more secure.

Next, I want to introduce Yi Yi, the best friend of Yi Qin, the alumni of the university and the girlfriend of the same company, and the colleagues of the same company, so the level of intimacy is almost the same as that of the sisters. Yi Yi’s character was much more cheerful than Yi Qin. Her jokes quickly became her privilege. The extraordinarily large nerves had given her a good name and she was also the company’s super radio station. Sometimes it was late after work, the two sisters had dinner together, and then watched movies together. It was usually after ten o’clock, so Yi Qin slept in the house of Yi Yi in the downtown. Yi Qin was especially fond of watching movies. She had watched all the classic romantic movies in the world. Yi Yi once said to Yi Qin that what she desired most was to open a company doing business with the loved one; while Yi Qin said to Yi Yi that what she desired most was to have a lovely child with the loved one.

There are always some sorrows in the only child. There are no relatives and sisters to accompany each other, so gradually, classmates, colleagues, and friends around them will become as close as their loved ones. Even people who like being lonely so much, they need to live together sometimes. The two lonely souls are together, they snuggle with each other, but the emptiness of the souls are not cured. So where is the medicine? The answer is still not found. The road is still far away, and the direction is unknown.

This night, Yi Qin lived in Yi Yi’s home. The night soon came, and it was difficult for Yi Qin to fall asleep. Yi Qin looked down at the mobile phone. The program on the TV was like a background wall, and there was no line coming into Yi Qin’s ear. Yi Yi was wearing Hello Kitty’s big red pajamas who noticed that. Yi Yi was always well aware of Yi Qin’s heart, so she whispered to Yi Qin who was sitting on the sofa: Labor Day is coming, have you received the notice of class reunion?

Yes, I received it. Yi Qin sighed. She closed the phone and turned to look out the window. Under the Curled eyelashes was a pair of disappointing big eyes.

How come you sigh again? Sighing will make you become ugly, don’t you know that? Do you dare not go? Yi Yi looked at the side of Yi Qin.

The expression of Yi Qin suddenly became astonished. She replied with a bit helpless tone: Hey… Yi Yi, is it that whatever I am thinking can never escape your eyes forever?

Of course! We’ve been sisters for so many years. Is it fruitless? The only thing that can make you so struggled is him. You have little courage and you are always escaping! The person who is afraid to meet each other is him. It shouldn’t be you. You and I dress up beautifully with dignity to attend a class reunion. Isn’t it good? Are you being autistic? Yi Yi pointed out Yi Qin’s thought.

I don’t know how to face him… Yi Qin bowed her head and murmured.

It’s been so long. Let it go. Don’t put bitterness in your heart. Yi Yi stretched out her hand and pet Yi Qin’s shoulder. Yi Qin turned to look at Yi Yi. Her eyes were wet.

Do you know? He has completely destroyed my pure longing for love. I don’t know how to forgive him. Yi Qin pushed away Yi Yi’s hand. She left the living room, entered her room.

Every time Yi Qin thought of him, she always felt scalp tingling. His name was like a poison. Once it was mentioned, the devil’s thorn was deeply imprinted on the body of Yi Qin. His face couldn’t even be remembered, especially the scene of humiliation, making that summer the biggest stain in Yi Qin’s life. It was like a thorn in her heart which was cursed as forever pain in her life.

CHAPTER 2

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Decide to Escape

H is name was Hao Nan, Zheng, who had a very handsome face. From head to toe, he was as perfect as Absalom. Since the first day of college, he had attracted the attention of all the girls in the school, which made Yi Qin very worried. The two of them were together from high school. Hao Nan had many girls admiring him in high school. Yi Qin once gave up the acceptance letter of Tsinghua University for Hao Nan, so as to study with Hao Nan. When they went to university, Yi Qin worried more about Hao Nan.

Yi Qin was frantically in love with Hao Nan. She listened to every Hao Nan’s word, which was like she was addicted to drugs. In fact, Yi Qin was very clear about the temptations around Hao Nan, but she still accepted all the difficulties, giving him enough freedom and obedience with her silence. Meanwhile, her soul was entrusted to the wrong person. Little girls always open their hearts for love. They are always naive enough to give up everything for love, but in the end, they can’t escape the destiny of being betrayed.

In the hot summer of 2007, the glare of the sun made the vertigo impact on her brain. The pain was stuck in every pore of her body. Pins and needles made her fearful which was like after being anesthetized and propelled into the operating room.

In Hao Nan’s messy boy’s dormitory, Yi Qin wore high-heeled shoes and stepped into the room. On the bed above the desk of Hao Nan’s dormitory, she saw Hao Nan was kneeling on a sexy woman. The two naked people were not ashamed at all. satisfaction was clearly written on their faces. The bag in Yi Qin’s hand fell to the ground. She wanted to turn her head, but she didn’t even have the strength to twist her neck. She could only look at the dirty scene in front of her. Hao Nan heard the sound of footsteps and turned to see Yi Qin. He quickly picked up his clothes and covered his lower body. He yelled at the woman on the bed and shouted: How do you do things so careless? Why didn’t you lock the door? Hurry up! Get out of my bed! Get dressed and go!

At this time, Yi Qin looked at them. This woman was actually Xu Wen Yun, whom Yi Qin knew. Wen Yun was panic, and she tried to find her clothes. She noticed that her underwear and bra were thrown under the bed when Hao Nan was excited. She could only climb down from the stairs of the bed. Yi Qin looked at Wen Yun’s plump body. A strong sense of inferiority arose spontaneously. Two people rushed to find clothes, the ugly humanity was exposed completely in front of Yi Qin. Yi Qin turned around and closed the door. She went to the window to close the curtains, leaving the last dignity to the three people. In the afternoon of midsummer, the glare of the sun finally converged. After a deep breath, Yi Qin turned around and looked at the two people.

Before, every time you and I had this, you still knew what was a shame. You closed all the doors and windows carefully. I didn’t expect you and her… Hao Nan, Zheng, I remember correctly, last week we just went to the hotel next door to the school, I didn’t expect that me, this first-handed private car couldn’t reach to the famous bus in the department! Yi Qin shook her head helplessly. Her falling tear dropped from the corner of her eyes were no longer warm. She beat her heart and roared to Hao Nan powerlessly. Her expression turned from calm to collapse. The long hair was scattered on her shoulders, blocking her eyes, and her eye make-up was damaged.

This famous public bus was named Wen Yun, Xu. She had a body that all girls would dream of. She had a face that looked like a mixed girl. She came from a small city in the north. Compared with delicate and sensitive Yi Qin, her bright personality was even more popular to men. Many boys in the school fell down under her pomegranate skirt. For Wen Yun, there was no love, instead was only cool or not. Love was the pursuit of human beings at the bottom of the food chain to her. In her world, the satisfaction brought by sex and the satisfaction of money could make her feel confident forever. The man who pursued her really only wanted to get her body. No one had ever thought about being with her for a long time. If she didn’t have this striking looking, maybe she was worth nothing. She and Hao Nan were classmates in the same major. They were not familiar with each other until this semester, two people were familiar with each other when they were in the same group doing a presentation. They got to know each other quickly and crossed the boundaries of friends in less than one week. Wen Yun really liked Hao Nan. She was somewhat serious, but Hao Nan was always reluctant to disclose their relationship. Hao Nan originally thought that this was only one or two times because his heart loved Yi Qin. He admitted that his soul belonged to Yi Qin, but the body told him honestly that he longed for each approach of Wen Yun.

Wen Yun dressed up quickly and looked at Yi Qin fiercely. She shouted to Hao Nan loudly: "Tell her, what did you say to me