Silent Orchestra

By Claudia A Krizay

Silent Orchestra is a collection of my newest poetry and artwork, which I have created over the past year. This is my fifth book- I have published four others which are entitled
Take Five Seroquel and Call Me in the Morning, Far Out, Time Lapse and Thought Broadcasting. I am happy to continue to share my journey of self expression with others
who may read this book.

I was born in Washington DC and have lived abroad during many of my childhood years as my father was in the foreign service- now I reside in Silver Spring, Maryland.

Claudia A. Krizay

Silent Orchestra

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Oct 8, 2019
• ISBN: 9781796064292

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Contents

A Constellation of Stars

A Crystalline Palace

A Silent Waterfall

After the Rain Has Fallen…

Alone

Always The Same…

Answer To Our Dreams

Apparitions

Arabesque

At Peace

Aware

Bedlam

Beyond

Black Cloud

Building Bridges

Canvas of my Dreams

Canvas

Choices

Christmas in Carmel (in Memory of my Mother and Father)

Conniving Eyes

Cosmic Light

Cry Out

Despair

Directions

Do Not Reach Out

Faith

Fearless

Figment of my Creation (My Springtime Garden)

Freak Out

Friend

Friends Always

Healing

Her

Hidden

Hope for Spring

I Am Who I Am

I Can Still See You

Imprisoned

Life After Death

Iridescent Pearls

Last Words

Leaves

Life Beyond the Stars

Light Years

Lighted Candle

Listen to the Skies

Listen to the Voices

Loss

Madness and Fear

Mask

Meditation

Mirage

My Own Garden of Eden

My Own Special Universe

Next To Me

Ocean…

Painting

Petals

Plea

Please Don’t Leave This World

Powerless

Prized Possession

Psychosis

Purple Sun

Redemption of Starlight

Sapphire Skies

Saying Goodbye

Secrets

Shadow

Silent Orchestra

Silver Coin

Skies of Fortune

Solitude

Special Moments

Spirit of the Seasons

Spirit

Suicide Watch

Teardrops

The Bus Ride

The Flame of Hope

The Giant Maple Tree

The Good Life

The Illuminating Power of Love

The Jade Tree

The Letter

The Miracle of Light

The Promise of life

The Seclusion of My Imaginings

The Spirit of a Child

The Vibrancy of the Crescent Moon

The Visit

They Don’t Know Me

Thorazine

Through the Rain

Time Is Running Out

Toast

Universal Light

Upon Awakening

Victory

What Do I See? (In memory of my mother who passed December 4, 1992)

When I See The Stars

When the Ocean’s Waves Recede…

When You listen…

Winter’s Demon

Wounded

Serenity

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A Constellation of Stars

A constellation of stars in this vast and endless universe

Could someday become my guiding light

Which could carry my thoughts to another realm, though trillions of miles away.

Beams of light would speak to me in a language of which only I can comprehend-

I have often wondered if there exists a galaxy

Where my spirit could be reborn and enlightened by these constellations of stars?

Everyone dreams of escaping their fears, and my dreams could become reality-

In this place where no darkness exists, as the stars are always present to illuminate

That magical pathway upon which I am walking,

This pathway that leads to the place where my fantasies could come to life.

I can feel the warmth exuded by the stars-

I own a spirit that is a part of me inside, secretly dancing to harmonious tunes,

Perhaps becoming a melodious orchestra playing within this glorious heaven?

I believe that I shall prosper here within this distant galaxy.

I could find myself in touch with my thoughts and feelings

Within that phenomenal paradise where my dreams may carry me far.

Constellations of stars often form patterns in the sky

And have become my guiding illumination shining hope upon

This extraordinarily golden pathway which has been paved before me to travel,

Within all of my fondest reveries.

My thoughts and my dreams within have become my own constellation of stars.

I can sense these thoughts and dreams coming alive inside of me, and about me

While they have become the brightest illuminations in this never abating universe,

Guiding me towards this refuge where my fantasies could come to life.

The world into which I was born is enlightened by a single star we know as the sun-

In that world all I could ever do was hope and dream of better things to come,

But storm clouds would often cover the sun and there all I could ever envision

Were ominous shadows where my dreams would transform to nightmares.

Upon this journey towards rapture I have escaped the reality of fear, dismay and doubt-

Where I have become a spirit dancing amidst a halo of stardust-

Darkening shadows have become enlightened by hope, strength and empowerment.

Beneath constellations of stars above me and those inside of the world of my thoughts

Patterns in the sky have formed illuminating the stage upon which

I can feel that dancing spirit rising within me as I become my own guiding light?

Claudia Krizay

A Crystalline Palace

Locking a barricade to the world outside

I can hear the voices of demons screaming their irate madness-

I see my reflection in an iron door and am searching for light within.

I am searching for light to illuminate my destiny where I can be a solitary dancer,

Barred from the demons that shine their toxic flames

Upon the pathway that may lie before me,

That would leave none but ashes to be carried away by a forceful windstorm.

I am building a palace from crystalline glass- a palace that shall be free of lethal flames.

Inside of this phantasmal palace I have created for myself

Where my wish is to dwell eternally, my companions shall be

Those who speak to me only- I can lock that barricade that leads to the world outside.

Inside of this tranquil chamber I am in control of my fate.

At the moment when I awaken inside this world of my thoughts

I know I shall be blessed with a window of tranquility

Opening to a new world where there is nothing to fear.

I can become the person I wish to be- perhaps a joyous dancer

Upon a stage that shines light through the walls of my dream state?

I can see my reflection in every wall of this crystalline palace

Where there exists no wildfire, or no toxic illumination.

I search for the light that shall comfort me with its warmth and clarity

And mystical rainbows shall surround me with peacefulness and serenity,

Setting a stage upon which I can dance with pride.

I can open my eyes at the peak of the morning’s sunrise,

And I can feel that magical warmth of the sun’s rays caressing me,

As it glistens through the crystalline glass walls of my sanctuary,

Where moonlight, starlight and sunlight can freely shine through.

I have become a dancer inside of this symphonic world

Choreographed for me alone, where I have no reason to be fearful.

I have found my guiding light within the world of my fantasies,

Where light can become as subtle as candlelight or stardust,

Harmonious and exquisitely beautiful.

Here I know I am safe as a dancer upon the stage of light,

With all of its radiant glory where my thoughts are always in control.

While there shall be a time when the world shall vanish in the midst of a wildfire,

Fantasy can last for an eternity.

Claudia Krizay

A Silent Waterfall

Rushing water gathers within a clearing pond

After a late summer’s tempest…

Rain droplets settle upon weathered stones as tiny gemstones

Would reflect a fair blue sky-

Sunlight would peek through slate gray clouds after the storm subsides.

A stream crawls over stones of granite- ever so gracefully

As it whispers to me hidden secrets reminiscent of past moments.

Fawns are tiptoeing through high grasses,

Coming together to forage at the base of a newly formed waterfall-

Secrets of my distant past I have held within

Were of times when storms were threatening-

However now I think of survival and of the doors

That have opened up my eyes to the wonders of days to come.

Do I hear rain falling now or that irate thunder clapping?

Do I feel my soul being carried away by the roaring of the wind?

I believe I have, but only for a brief instance in passing?

Silence rules now as water flows through a nearby creek calmly at dusk-

Could this be none but an illusion?

Stars scintillate and burst through patches of darkness.

While quiescence rules the twilight- I believe this world is at peace,

As more soothing memories are chanting melodies inside the world of my thoughts.

I feel myself drifting off to sleep-

Comforted by a mystically restful lullaby,

One that has been created by the serene enchantment

Of that silent waterfall…

Claudia Krizay

After the Rain Has Fallen…

Saturn glimmers brightly as would a distant star

Hidden behind a rainbow of promises after the rain has fallen-

The enchantment of the sun would break through massive clouds of misfortune-

Trees that arabesque within a serene and silent gust of wind

Would for the moment rescue me from all that I fear.

After the rain has fallen and in the special moment that the wind subsides,

Slate-gray clouds are drifting away beyond our horizons

While wild geese in flight would decorate the now clearing skies

I recall the days when my tears would fall

With the deluge of rain- although after the rain had fallen

And after the tears had vanished, my aching heart would heal.

When I hear the thunder and feel raindrops forcefully striking me

I would wonder if demons in the sky are angry and wishing me ill fate?

After that anger subsides, tranquility would settle over grassy fields of peacefulness.

After the rain has fallen I would feel a miraculous revival of a new day’s beginning.

After tears have fallen I can see the world in a different light

And I feel a softening of my madness within none but a brief instant-

After the rain has fallen there exists clarity of fortune to be felt

With a chance for a newer and brighter future appearing

Within a discernible distance ahead…

Many brilliant stars shine down upon us all with brightening rays of serenity-

I do believe that fears and apprehensions in time shall vanish.

After the rain has fallen and after our tears have settled as crystalline dewdrops

Encircling the sanctuaries of our lives inside which we have chosen to freely dwell,

Enlightened by the stars above us….

Claudia Krizay

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Alone

Solitude is a gift as is a river flowing,

Never abating- or as a golden tree

Growing alone upon a deserted island,

Somewhere amidst the vast, blue sea.

So blessed it is to own this island, seeing its transcendent reflection

Amongst the waters, as its branches would embrace the sunlight

At every dawning and upon every moonlit night-

Solitude is soothing and calming as is the silence

Of the very early morning hours sailing alone

With the