Endless Rain 660 Bc Asia: Book One 1St First Life

By Luzidalia Esparza

How would you feel if you knew that someone from before started to breathe the very last breath they will take? That they walked the same path that may or may not be the same as yours? The whole time you live, can it be expressed through the eyes of an angel? Does being an angel really change anything when you’re living a life in the same place?

“I drew a pair of wings as a name. Not having one does seem weird. Perhaps when this is over and I come back, I can write a name” (Yui).

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Aug 16, 2019
• ISBN: 9781543457827

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CHAPTER I

I DON’T FEEL LOVE nor anger I’m not even alive. I’m an angel or so they tell me to protect and defend that’s why I’m here. I stared off into the two worlds that lead my future. I have to choose one or the other not both and not none. The world above is dark and filled with sins and the world below is the same. What’s the difference? I had to choose or so the two men in my life so far have said. I didn’t know them before today or knew anything before today like I had said I was not alive prior to these moments. I didn’t know much but that I had to choose a world that made no sense to me what was an angel? I didn’t know, all I knew was that I was one of them, and that I had a life to run towards a life to choose. I wanted to somehow be somewhere else somewhere where my life was not planed out where I had a choice.

Child choose or do you wish us to do it for you?

I didn’t know I was not alone I hoped that they might have had left me here to choose on my own but I was wrong and didn’t understand what was going on.

Child which ever you choose you will not be alone well you might be alone without the main people who will begin these Journeys with you if you wish it.

I turned to look at them they looked different on the outside, but inside they looked the same, but then again I’m lost I don’t know why I know that or why I cared or anything at all.

Child at least choose a name for yourself.

A name? W….What is that?

The two men looked at each other with wide eyes; then stared at me confused.

Do you know anything prior from today?

No.

The men who was speaking to me was a man with pale white skin and the other had dark black skin making me look at myself lifting my hands in front of me.

I see that this is your first life child, this name will forever follow you, and leave as well. Tell me child will it be alright for us to choose for you?

I nodded and they smiled then glared at me as the men with black skin touched my shoulder and turned me to look ahead once again.

Oh my lord.

Is something wrong?

Child you belong in Earth not in these places.

What is Earth, and where is it?

Earth will forever be your home now I know why you look this way.

Look what way?

I looked at the men with a glare and then turned toward the other as he seemed to show suspense in his eyes then a large smile unlike anything I had ever and will probably ever see. The other men placed a mirror in front of me with a smile.

All I know is that your lives are connected and will be connected the question is…… Are you ready to meet what is in store for you? I want you to think about it because you will never be the same race again one of each a life for each everything comes once in a life time depends on you how you will take that life.

What do you mean?

Once you take a foot on earth and live even for a small amount of time you will know the answer to the question, alright?

I nodded although I had no idea what he meant or where he was going with it.

Alright Earth is your home were you will live as many life’s as are given to you.

CHAPTER II

I WALKED AWAY FROM where I was standing and soon found myself walking down a large amount of stairs that lead down a large ball so called a planet. Planet Earth a home is what they deceived it as even though I still wandered what home meant. I had once thought of life as I walked down the stairs with a smile that was so obliviously fake that it made me think of why I had actually nodded and accepted to be brought this way to be a human. I thought for so long that I felt like the stairs could never end I knew they had but I had kept on walking farther inside with-out knowing that I had to stop. There was a man in the entrance with a large smile in his face that Brock as I passed him and kept walking even after he shouted asking me to go back. I walked through the gate of heaven and somehow graved the attention of many people on the way to the other side of the doors and thought about the mirror and what I had seen. I was indeed a sight I knew that I was very beautiful and attractive and knew that I was right because there were lots of men looking at me in ways that made me think twice about staying to talk to them. I had Black hair and pale skin large eyes or so they seemed then again I truly didn’t know.

Hey kid your Chinese right?

I turned to see a man that was wounded covered with blood that seemed to heal faster and faster as he walked toward me.

Yes.

I didn’t know how I knew that but I did I was Chinese and was going to be born in a place called china.

You know today is not the time.

I looked at him confused and kept walking away as I was then stopped by four Chinese guys.

Hey so you’re the girl?

I looked at them confused not knowing what to say I didn’t know them or knew who or what they were looking for.

I’m sorry you might have the wrong person.

No you’re it…… I mean it is you right you’re the only girl here that has the tattooed wings in her back.

Ha? How would you know that? I didn’t……

Somehow I paused the subject and started to raise my hands on my back and felt something move. Could it be? No of course not then I remembered that I was an angle so having wings would be a huge get away about it but how when I didn’t feel it. The magnitude of people looking at me made me feel straight isolated and somehow seemed to make me feel empty but as I looked at the four guys the feelings left. I looked at each with a smile that made me feel at ease with myself. One was smiling at me with an expression that seemed timeless. The other three seemed to share the same thought they seemed to go over many things in their heads then the silence was forever taken away.

You…. You will be with us forever for every life it’s up to us to see how they will end.

I looked at him he was the oldest of them and seemed to want to speak more but then relaxed and nodded taking in a deep breath. Then letting it out as if relive was the main point of it. The walk we took together seemed endless and I wanted to sit but my body could keep on going without a single problem. The way he spoke since he was the only one speaking at the moment seemed to become a slow and deep beat to the air as if the air had created a melody with his voice a voice that my ears could get used to. The words what they meant was different though they were serious and took a point of extreme peace and approval the approval an adult give’s her or his child that many seemed to be afraid of. The people around us where all looking at him as he spoke in ways that I felt lost in a crowd and wanted to cry I didn’t know why but I was afraid of what he said he had said it with a sinister voice, a voice that gave me fear through my spin that made my wings just fall. Their weight made me want to rest and yet my body was alright. The thought of it being true made me want to curl up on the edge of the cloud but then again if I fell I didn’t know what could happen.

Kid?

I turned and looked at him with tears in my eyes and pretended like I didn’t see the tear in his left eye that seemed to fall with weights attached to it on both sides. I felt like telling him that it was alright it was true everything that he had said was true and I knew it very well for some reason.

Don’t you think it’s strange that we know what everything is and have no recognition of knowing why?

I nodded this time it was not the oldest who spoke but the one that was in the middle in age he spoke in a tone that made me wonder if their voices had been made by music its self and if mine sounded close to there’s or if they even noticed their voices. He spoke so calmly as if what the words meant was supposed to be taken with pure maturity and complete seriousness as if a joke would bring them shame. I wanted to tell them to stop but then I wanted them to talk but didn’t like the word’s they used I felt as if I was walking with the most loquacious people that will ever walk the Earth at some point. I stopped walking as I felt hands touch my feet and looked down to see an old woman looking up at me with fear, anger, pain and loneliness. I thought to some extent that being in heaven meant peace and comfort and here I was looking down at a woman that screamed suffer through her line of sight. I wanted to help but then in a matter of seconds she smiled at me and she became to lose age not old but young again as she stood up. I realized just how beautiful she was. I was young I knew that because I was not tall and my body spelled child with every bone. I was so young I felt out of place as I started to see old age disappear out of all of their faces.

I have a question. How long have we spoken at least you guys?

They stopped walking and looked at me with wide eyes and I glared at them then looked at the floor as I realized that a tears had fallen. The tear that was once in my eye then in my cheek had fallen from my lips once I spoke and dropped into the cloud I stood on.

Has anyone told you so far how sweet your voice sounds it comes out like a delicate beat that must not be disturbed because if it is the music might stop.

I tilted my head to the side confused as he then smiled and laughed making me wonder why he said that when his laugh made me want to turn it into a song. Must this really be the beginning?

I don’t have a name and well do any of you have one?

No in fact we were told that we wouldn’t until we are born.

Born?

Yes given life you know existence?

But we do exist the fact that we are her talking proves it? And none of you answered my question.

Oh yes that question forgot…. Ah…. to be honest we have no idea they told us that time here runs differently and that it doesn’t go the way that it would normally.

Why?

They all looked at each other and lifted their shoulders up as to say they didn’t know anything different then what he had just said.

…. Now as for existence that your right but isn’t existence the prove that we are breathing not the fact that we are walking I had said that before had I not.

I nodded it was true he had even after the lecture and all its deeds that made me feel like nothing was worth that much and yet that it was worth more than air to live. I wanted to know more to experience to have a life but what he said made me fear what I had to overcome the small words that he seemed to carry more as his lecture went on was love, hope and peace was that he was saying but that made no since after the words before it, broken, lose, pain and un-existence. The last one made me feel a large amount of pain in my chest as if he had taken my soul and placed it in cage.

How is it that one life has so much and so little knowledge?

To be honest I don’t know.

Can’t we just begin were we left off in another life re-live it?

It’s like saying you can change the past but that can’t be changed it can be repeated once again by another who was not there the first time.

….

I opened my mouth but silence fell upon us suddenly I had no questions and was locked in an untouchable floor. I looked down below and took a step back we had walked for who knows how long and reached the end of the cloud and was now floating on top. What I heard what I saw was beautiful and suddenly…. I understood why hope meant so much there in the bottom where it belongs and still wandered with deep understanding of nothing that made me laugh. What was love that one word that seemed to carry more weight than the last even after hearing pain they seemed to contract to be one of the same. Had they been created to show more of life? I didn’t understand but together they scared me deep inside they scared me.

Kid…

I turned to look at the youngest that seemed to carry on the lullaby that his older brothers had started but not finished. He looked at me and pulled me away from the ending placing me in the cloud once again.

You still haven’t lived a life shouldn’t let yourself fall.

Fall? I thought we couldn’t fall.

We both turned to see the middle brother stare at us with wide eyes confused. He seemed to be lost as he heard what his brother had to say I couldn’t think about it to be honest not for a second not for a moment and felt lost.

What do you mean?

Here you can just fall down there without being born the problem is that there is nothing you do after your there….

I looked at him confused without understanding anything then he took a deep breath, closed his eyes and spoke once again.

What I mean is that you can fall from this cloud but if you do you’re just a roaming soul that had no life ever… there is no way to come back here. No way to come back no way to exist again since you didn’t in the first place.

……I might be……

Kid?

I turned to look at the oldest one and smiled as he walked in front of me and placed his foot at the edge of the cloud and pointed down into the Earth.

"Time might be different here and they might not ever be able to see us but we can see them and it shows me that there not alone and neither are we to be honest I know that…. That might be enough for them to know as well as it is for us. Think about it when we decide to be born there will be someone up here looking down at us and saying that were not alone when we feel alone if we ever do. I might be the oldest here and you might think that I am but I’m not in fact there is another Angle who is older