Embracing the Heartbeat of God: My Second Book

By Pastor Annie S. Blackwell

This book is an inspirational book to those that are determined to hold on to God. It’s not a fictional book. But everything that has been written in this book is truly an experience and encounter that has really happened in my life. The Lord has allowed me by my faith to walk through every page of this book. And the only reason that I have conquered the things that has happened in my life is because of the relationship that I have created and developed with my God, who is my personal savior and keeper of my soul.

I pray that this book will encourage somebody else to never give up on God! No matter what your life might look like, there is always hope and restoration in him! If you know God personally, it will be your faith in him that will establish you. In your relationship with God, learning and knowing the Lord Jesus in the real sense of knowing him will make a difference in your life completely. Taking God at his word is the first step to real peace in your soul, mind, and spirit. When you allow the Lord Jesus Christ to be the priority in your life, there is nothing that God won’t and can’t walk you through in life. He has truly been a healer and a doctor to me! In fact, I can honestly say as God told Moses to say. When he sent Moses to Pharoah to tell him to let his people go, he told Moses to tell Pharoah that his name is “I am that I am.” This means that God can be anything that you want him to be to you. So I can say the same thing about God in my life because I have tried him. Because he has been an “I am that I am” to me! Everything that I needed him to be in my life. There is no doubt in my mind or heart that my God is real!

I pray that this book will minister to your soul, spirit, mind, and heart as you read it. So open your “spiritual ear” to the voice of God and hear him speak to you.

• Language: English
• Publisher: WestBow Press
• Release date: Apr 8, 2019
• ISBN: 9781973655428

Pastor Annie S. Blackwell

She felt her life didn’t even start off right. My life became a nightmare at the age of twelve. I thought that I would never fit into anyone’s life. But God had a place and a destiny for me. But I had no hope within me.I saw my life as a great big N...negative disaster.” from the beginning. I was searching for security and love from material things. But it wasn’t there where in found it. I found it when I met Jesus! When I turned my life over to the Lord and let Him became my king and Lord of my life. Then He made me who I am today. Because I didn’t give up on myself nor God! I am now recently the pastor of the New Church of Deliverance. 6102 Stein Hwy. in Seaford, Delaware

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Library of Congress Control Number: 2019902488

WestBow Press rev. date: 04/04/2019

Contents

Chapter 1 I’m Starting All Over Again

Chapter 2 The Sign God Showed Me in the Church

Chapter 3 Fear of the Lord Gripped My Heart

Chapter 4 God Approved Our Building

Chapter 5 Learning How to Stay Focused on Jesus

Chapter 6 Listen to God with Your Spiritual Ear

Chapter 1

I’m Starting All Over Again

E leven years have passed since I was in the hospital for lupus. I’ve had no flare-ups that have caused me to be admitted to the hospital. I have now been a survivor of SLE lupus for forty years and four months, and I’m now taking two pills instead of eighteen, and those two are a blood thinner and a blood pressure pill.

I praise God for all He has brought me through. Having had to go through terrible side effects was mind-boggling and an awful thing to live with every day. I have had to learn how to walk all over again twice in my struggle with lupus. I had to take therapy after my last flare-up. I have had two strokes, but they told me about only one of them, which happened sometime in 1993 or 1994; the doctor never explained the other one to me.

That stroke happened in 2006 as I woke up one morning and went downstairs; I realized something was wrong with me. I staggered to the stairs. As I stood at the top of the stairs, I began to feel dizzy. The room started swirling around, so I knelt to keep myself from falling down the stairs. I waited for a while before I began to walk downstairs. I felt worse with each step, and there were thirteen of them. I finally made it to the bottom; the room was still spinning around. I was sweaty, and I felt I was passing out. There was no one in the house with me.

I walked around the sides of the walls grasping them until I reached the door that went into the living room. I fell on the sofa, which was near the door. The room was still spinning. I was frightened and did not know what I was going to do. I closed my eyes as tight as I could hoping this feeling would soon go away. But it didn’t. It got worse.

I somehow fell asleep again, and as I woke up, my husband was standing in the doorway looking at me. He asked me if I was all right. I could hardly speak; my mouth just twitched as I tried to say something. He was about to go back outside because he was fixing something on the car. He asked me again whether I was all right. I nodded knowing very well that my whole body was feeling terrible. I thought I might feel better if I just tried to rest and take it easy. My head felt as if it would burst open.

I think I took three pain pills, and I somehow fell back to sleep. I was still in the house by myself. All I could do was pray that God would touch my body—that whatever was happening to me would be gone when I woke up. I had the most painful headache going down my neck, but I still wasn’t thinking I should get up and go to the ER. I guess I had lain there about half the day before I woke up again. I had to go to the bathroom. I staggered there gripping every wall and calling on the name of Jesus every step.

The room was spinning faster than before, and my headache had gotten worse. I felt pain in my eyes, but I trusted God to touch my body. I never liked going to the hospital; I was trying to tough it out. I hoped my faith would kick in because I wholeheartedly believed in God first.

I took some more pain pills, and before I knew it, I had drifted back to sleep as the room was still spinning even when my eyes were closed. I felt something going around in my body as I became very weak.

At about three, the grandchildren came home from school and saw me on the sofa crying. I asked them where was my husband, and they said he was outside working. I told them to tell him to come in. They went and got him, and when he came in the room, he asked me what was wrong. I told him to get me out of here. He asked whether I wanted to go to the hospital. I said yes because