Shhhh . . . S = Sad, H = Hurt, H = Helpless, H = Hopeless, H = Humble, a Suitable Title for All My Life Secrets.
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Umnia de Amaani
This book is about a hard working, married, mother of two. She was born into a dysfunctional family, which left her dealing with many difficulties and challenges throughout her upbringing. She found herself stuck in a hole of emotional darkness. However, she was determine to pull herself through her hard times by finding her self worth with dedication and learned to move forward in a positive direction. Filled with despair, tears in eyes and pain in her heart, she was able to achieve some of her highest goals.
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Shhhh . . . S = Sad, H = Hurt, H = Helpless, H = Hopeless, H = Humble, a Suitable Title for All My Life Secrets. - Umnia de Amaani
SHHHH …
S = Sad,
H = Hurt,
H = Helpless,
H = Hopeless,
H = Humble,
a Suitable Title
for All My Life
Secrets.
Umnia de Amaani
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ISBN: 978-1-9822-0226-2 (sc)
ISBN: 978-1-9822-0227-9 (e)
Balboa Press rev. date: 04/13/2018
Contents
Chapter 1 The Beginning
Chapter 2 Setting the affect
Chapter 3 Fighting Consequences
Chapter 4 Poor Decisions
Chapter 5 Deepening the Wounds
Chapter 6 Feeling the Hatred
Chapter 7 Unwanted
Chapter 8 Numbing Effects
Chapter 9 Beaten, Battered and Bruised
Chapter 10 A Sign of Light
Chapter 11 Working towards the goals
Chapter 12 Finding My Path
Chapter 13 All for Something
Judge life by the life in front of you, not by what you have been through or have dealt with in the past.
This book is dedicated to the individuals that stop and realize life in front of them. There is still time to be more than a victim.
Chapter One
The Beginning
Get started. That’s what the front of a composition book said. A gift from a co-worker, as I expressed my interest in telling my story. Still, I contemplated on whether I should. If I shared my story that meant that I had to be open and honest about things that I had spent my whole life storing away. It meant that I had to find the light I needed to shed into the darkness of my past. I had to really think about the things that I wanted to share and how I or others in my life would feel about me sharing my past. How hard would it be to relive the nights filled with fear and cries for help. Was it time to place my mind back on the fights, screaming, yelling, struggling days and pain that it all brought into my life? Do I want to bring it all back? Do I really, want to bring back the memories of some of the innocent, weak willed days of my life? The answer was Yes! It is time to let it go. Let it go for good. So, here it go’s…………………..
It was June 1, 1984 at approximately 2:40am, when I was born. A light skin baby girl, with brown eyes and no hair at the time. Six pounds, eight ounces and 19 ½ inches long. With the sound of a new born baby’s cry’s filling the room, I was handed to my mother (19) and father (16) to begin with the path that I was meant for. My parents had met a few years prior to my birth at a local park. They were introduced to each other through a mutual friend.
Their love was strong, but over the years, their young immature partying days had become a strain on their relationship. Lust turned into infidelities, which then led to the on again, off again couple. My father spent his time working, when he wasn’t at home with us. I had an older brother, from a past relationship of my mothers and a sister that was two years younger. My brother spent a lot of time with my grandmother (my mother’s mom), so it was often just my sister and I.
Memories fill my head of times spent with my father’s side of the family. Love, music and good old Puerto Rican food were often the comforts there. They were good people that not only knew, but understood the definition of family. My father had two brothers and a sister that was about my age. A close Puerto Rican Family, that came to the United States trying to live a good life. The thrill of new possibilities was on the fore front of their minds. Their love for each other was seen easily in their eyes and words towards each other.
Unfortunately for them, they had no idea and could not prepare enough for the type of negativity that one person would bring into their lives. My father was the type of guy that everyone wanted to be around. Sweet, funny and charming with the ladies. He loved playing the guitar and Bruce Lee was one of his ideals, but most of all he loved his family. He would do anything for them, as they would