Poetry Can Kill U

By urfavgod

this is me. this is all of me in just about a hundred something pages. all my emotions and all my experiences are all here.

• Language: English
• Publisher: AuthorHouse UK
• Release date: Oct 27, 2017
• ISBN: 9781546283522

Book preview

oh, what a hopeless world

you talk about demons

satan is so terrible

but what you don’t realize

is that you’ve formed the worst of legions

there’s no satan, there’s you

you say you have no clue

as to why there’s so much hate

but something you never raise

is the fact that you’re the one not making a change

what happened to years ago

when you helped the poor?

how weak did it make your bones

when you realized that your pride was the cure

instead of innocent living beings

that starve to death every second

because you just won’t get off your own ceiling?

you’re so high, so on top

that you can’t see what’s more important

marching about the real issues of this world

or dedicating a whole month to your

divided sexuality

i have nothing against your liking towards another human

but take a second to think about it

is your gay pride really so important

that you don’t spend your time and money

on the women and children

that have nothing to feed themselves

every day and night?

i wish i could wipe out this piece of paper

that has everyone on their knees

and has me make an effort to even have a sip

of water

march for women

march for your pride

but please

try your hardest to

march for all the people

and animals

that don’t have a home

all the trees that get taken down

without any mercy

so please, hurry

there should’ve never been

anyone going so far

to label love

and divide it into different communities

you can love whoever you want to love

you’re not gay, or bisexual

you’re just human

a living being

loving another soul

but think about it

is that really your goal?

is marching about sexuality pride really more important

than helping someone not starve themselves

because of the horrific position

the world has put them in?

think about it.

insecurity: nurtured, not natural

dear everyone

i’ve been told all my life

that having insecurities is okay

that not loving myself is perfectly fine

everyone around me would throw pity at me

for being who i was

they made me believe

that it was okay to cry

every negative emotion i had was stamped

as being normal

i would look at myself in the mirror

in the midst of studying

after i got out of the shower

basically, every hour

i’d ask myself

what was so wrong about my body?

why do they not like how i appear?

why are my eyes always shedding tears?

then several hours later

i ended up becoming a hater

a hater of myself

i was fat and they didn’t like it

so i lost weight

then they brought in a new trend

so i changed the length of my hair

then one day, they wanted someone to care

so i poured my heart out

but it was never enough

i’d cover my eyebrows

because they were too thick

so i shaved them off

i made myself feel like shit

and it wasn’t enough

i’d wear baggy shirts to cover my fat belly

i ate so much oily food that they nicknamed me smelly

there was never an end

it felt impossible to just blend

with people that kept changing every day

i slapped my face with tons of make up

i starved myself so that someone would fuck me

so that they didn’t keep making fun of me

for still being a virgin

but i realized something

no matter how fat i got

no matter how skinny i got

no matter how much make up i abused myself with

no matter how much i killed myself to please them

nothing would please them

so i stopped

and i dropped

everything that i was holding onto

i’m done pleasing you

i want to stand in front of the mirror

and smile as i twirl around naked

as i feel sexy in my own body for once

fuck your standards

the truth is

everyone is fat

without fat, we’re basically just flesh and bones

fat isn’t an insult

and having an active sex life with multiple people

doesn’t make me a slut

maybe i just like sex

did you ever take a second

to think about how your words

would just burn off on me?

and cause me to melt into nothing?

we’re functioned from the day we’re born

to be insecure

to be jealous of others

because they’re way better

but that’s one of the biggest lies

everyone’s been feeding you and i

fuck people.

ruined for good

3 am, my time

you were