Beautifully Sinful Lips

By J. Pushkarna

I could never describe the pain men have caused me
Until one day I took a pen to a paper
And the pain flowed
I want you to know I can relate to numbness
Not having worth, waking up next to different men
I survived self sabotage
I didn’t do it by loving myself or knowing I was worth it
I did it by writing
Writing my pain
Writing about the devil
Writing about the woman in the mirror
Writing about my haunting shadows
The devil for me was always a man
The women in the mirror is my choices
And my shadows are my consequences
These realizations of my life and myself
Helped me heal of a pain
I had hidden
A pain of a toxic relationship
That almost killed me
This is how healed
It’s a journey and I know now it’s never ending

• Language: English
• Publisher: AuthorHouse
• Release date: May 20, 2020
• ISBN: 9781728346120

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Published by AuthorHouse  02/04/2020

ISBN: 978-1-7283-4613-7 (sc)

ISBN: 978-1-7283-4611-3 (hc)

ISBN: 978-1-7283-4612-0 (e)

Library of Congress Control Number: 2020902347

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Even the devil liked the taste of her

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He would always cum while he ate her

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I can’t tell the truth

I have to look at many

And lie

I say I’m ok

When I’m drowning

Doesn’t anybody see

I grew

The demons

Well they changed me

Don’t worry I’ll be the one laughing

I’m not giving up

I can handle the pain

I can handle the stares

I’m covered in a story

I told

Stop staring at me

Men fucked me up

When they thought they would own me

Not a father brother husband or friend

Can tell me

You don’t want my opinion

Life changed me

I’m no longer innocent

Sex made me

Broke me

I fixed me

I made many mistakes

Silencing myself

For the sake of hurting others

You all deserve the truth

Your mistakes aren’t on me

Truth is you can’t face honesty

So in a world of lies

One more lie won’t hurt

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Too opinionated

She is just too much

Not enough

She is what others think of her

Her words are poetic

They don’t need to believe

Just wait and see

Is all