Naked Soul
By Petal Knee
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In this book I have found the courage to to write openly about my childhood abuse and subsequent mental breakdowns, the poems are in narrative form and have no hidden meanings. The reader will find many of them to be gritty with raw emotion.
My hope is that they will help the reader to work through depression and suicidal tendencies either of their own or with those they love.
Petal Knee
I am an ex white Rhodesian now known as Zimbabwean. Now sixty three years of age widowed and residing in London Uk. Despite all the war and terror I lived through in Africa, I pride myself on being not racist. My life for as long as I can remember has been traumatic. I am therefore unable to describe it here. It is within these pages you will learn my life. Take a walk with me.
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Naked Soul - Petal Knee
Copyright © 2015 by Petal Knee.
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Rev. date: 10/05/2015
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Contents
Anniversary
The Lucky Ones
Fears
Unrequited Love
Cancer
Wagon Ride
Alzheimer and Humanity
Drowning
Impending Storm
Quicksand
Do Not Weep
For Jacquie
Dear God
Lady Moon, Mr Black
Infinity
Thoughts
Baby
My Disability, Your Inability
The Slut and I
Round
True Beauty
Blades
Trust
Sat-Nag
Farmhand
Open-Door
Where No Sun Shines
Mother Spawn
A Child's Questions
A New Day Dawns
Agree to Disagree
Bipolar
Daughter
Death Watch
Death
Daybreak
Father's Gift
Filth
Goodbye, Caesar
Ian
Just Me
Lessons
Little Girl
Mr Feral
Phoenix
Rehab
Street People
Surprise
The Final Cut
The Rhino's Tears
Walls
Verbal Abuse
Who Is This Person
Would You?
Living Ghosts
You Just Don't Get It
Five Star
Mind over Matter
Old Lady
Dreams
Stingray
Friends
Warrior
Flashbacks
In the Blood
Misconception
For Darwin, the Cat
Thorns
Voices
Colours of My Life
Cheetah
Dark
My Shoes
Quandary
The Flickering Flame
Demonic Chameleons
Tantrum
Lady Killer
Grandpa's Slippers
Angel
Snap
What Is Love?
Political Agendas
Rest
Spliced
Hello, Hello
Mr Mirror
David (My Rock)
Life Sentence
In Brain Computer
Mustard Seeds
Living Putty
Bail Required
Cutting Edge
Dignity Denied
Butterfly
Expectations
Tiger Dreams
Alpha Cat
Fatal Mistake
Two Little Boys
Rope's End
The Craving
Stranger
Moonlight
Changeling
Chloe
Street Cat Dushi
Gizmo
Rosie
Rob
Jinx
Angus and Seamus
Ruby
The Simba Strut
Time to Go
Final Toast
The Life I Left Behind
Mr Fibromyalgia
Home from Home
Naked Soul
Night
Red
Siblings
Solace
Acknowledgements and thanks
FanStory poetry site
members for their patience and guidance
Katy Steed
for her unfailing encouragement and first edit
David Morisch
the man behind the camera at
Afterthoughts Photography
for allowing me freedom of choice and to utilise the beautiful
photograph on the front cover
Anniversary
Rob, my darling, when your body was cremated,
My heart was left shattered, totally decimated.
Every moment that exists I relive that traumatic night,
Watching your ragged breath as you lost the final fight.
You had softly asked me if I would stay very near
Throughout your last eight hours. I was right there, dear.
I sat crying, holding your limp and soft warm hand,
Trying so very hard to make you understand.
Watching helplessly as you lost your brave battle,
Hearing your final breath wheeze, falter, and rattle.
Forty-five years we loved, you still hold on to my heart.
I felt your pain, and I saw your sweet soul depart.
Half of me died on the night that I lost you
Here I now am, lonely, bewildered, and heartbroken too.
My heart no longer feels; it’s only a lifeless shell
Continuing to exist for me is just traumatic hell.
The Lucky Ones
For the lucky people
Who are basically happy,
Depression is not feeling sad.
It is a certainty of uncertainty
A sense of hopeless failure
An isolation from humanity
To which the brain reacts.
Brains express emotions;
That is just what they do.
Water running on my cheeks
Shows that something’s wrong.
Don’t ask me why I am sad
Or what the matter is
Like a toy without a battery,
My world has ceased to be.
Fears
Though curtains are drawn, there is some light
Highlighting to me it’s daytime, not dark night.
It is so beautiful outside, of that fact I am aware
While it’s true that I yearn badly to be out there,
Some kind of deep inner fear has overtaken me.
I am terrified of all the other people I would see.
When a telephone rings it creates such a panic
I can’t breathe; my mind is in a state of manic.
I hear a sound of knocking from my front door.
My heartbeat races, and my chest becomes sore.
Unexpectedly, without warning, I burst into tears.
It’s a culmination of so many unexplained fears.
Today I understand I have a visit to the doctor; to do
That means a detested wheelchair ride for me is due
Pushed like a child, I am caught helplessly in the glare
Of all the insensitive people who stop and they stare.
The carer tells me gently it’s a phobia and it is not true.
I have these very deep anxieties; I am not just like you.
‘Get counselling,’ I repeatedly hear everyone sigh and say.
They don’t realise it means yet another stranger today.
Illness makes my muscles ache, and my bones are sore.
My neck refuses to stay upright and straight any more.
Yes, I know I look healthy and my face colour is quite fine.
That is because you cannot see these illnesses of mine.
I am diagnosed with PTSD; I also have bi-polar, or so I am told.
Created from all abuses undergone by me from six years old.
Please don’t ask why I daily sit here and I consider suicide –
Because it’s so damned painful and terrifying to be outside.
Unrequited Love
She is surrounded by her crushed-up dreams.
All her trust for love has gone; it has dissipated.
Left alone, never to be loved at all so it seems.
Too many years of ridicule and being berated,
All humans require true love in order to survive.
Or, like a picked flower, they shrivel up and die.
A faded rose, not dead and not completely