Exploding Transistor
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The collapse has already begun.
And all of our reflections are about to change...
Chad M. Zaputil
Chad M. Zaputil is the author of two other previously released poetry books. The subjects of his poems draw heavily from his personal life. Often cited as confessional or narrative poetry, Chad prefers to just call his works "Poetry Stories".
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Exploding Transistor - Chad M. Zaputil
Copyright © 2015 by Chad M. Zaputil.
ISBN: Softcover 978-1-5035-3908-2
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Rev. date: 01/26/2015
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CONTENTS
INTRODUCTION
ACT 1: The Night the Transistor Exploded
Exploding Transistor
See What I See
Cigarettes & Whiskey Flavored Coffee
Cold, Cold Cynical Writer
They Always Tell Me
Mother Of Lies (Pt. 1 of 2)
Murder In Our Earholes
Brain Vomit (Pt. 1 of 4)
Turn Down Your Transistor, Sir (Pt. 1 of 2)
With A Sincere Tear
Illusion In Seclusion
The Shiver
Story of The 3 Serenades
Runaway Believer (Pt. 1 of 3)
ACT 2: The Journey To a State of Mind
Haircuts For Kisses
Memories of My Memoirs
The End of All Things
Turn Down Your Transistor, Sir (Pt. 2 of 2)
Jim Bookie’s Magic Wine
The Last Standing Door
The Old Times Have Passed
Brain Vomit (Pt. 2 of 4)
Population Zero
Heartbroken Valentine’s Day
Part 2 OF ACT 2: Digging Deeper Into My Thoughts
Committing To My Tears
The Collapse
Brain Vomit (Pt. 3 of 4)
My Day of Birth
Knowing & Understanding
An American Wedding (Pt. 1 of 2)
Piranha
To My True Love
Runaway Believer (Pt. 2 of 3)
ACT 3: World In Flames
The Little Last of Me
Sent Me A Notice
The Day You Relapse
Hoops and Ladders
Justin Goodwill
An American Wedding (Pt. 2 of 2)
Brain Vomit (Pt. 4 of 4)
Mother of Lies (Pt. 2 of 2)
ASSASSINATION!
A Child’s Observation
Do I Understand Life?
The End Approaches
Justin Illwill
WAR! (Bullets Have No Sympathy)
RUN, RUNAWAY, RUN!
Runaway Believer (Pt. 3 of 3)
ENCORE! MY 50 STATES OF MIND: Insane Man In The Rain
INTRODUCTION
In December 2011, I was pretty much self-destructing through drugs and alcohol. The experiences that inspired me to write my previous book about being heartbroken had taken a heavy toll on me mentally and emotionally. Was I giving up? I already had. What was my purpose? Nothing, really. Just to get drunk and high as much as possible. Why? Well, maybe it was because I felt like I had nothing better to do. Truth is, when you get to feeling the way I was feeling, and then are given a lot of time to think and dwell on it, you begin to just not care about anything. Memories can be a dangerous thing, especially if they’re bad ones because they can alter the personality in one’s mind. Have you ever been told not to lean on your own experiences? Yeah, so have I. And that’s bullshit because if you don’t learn from the experiences and events that occur in your life…you aren’t going to make it here very long. This world will chew you up and spit you out if you let it. But it will, whether you let it or not. I figure that’s why this world is the way it is. Anyways, my point is that bad memories can be dangerous to a mind and heart that has been beaten and broken to the extent that no amount of therapy or encouragement can restore it. And I think that’s why so many people turn to religion and God; because they don’t want to believe that all of their suffering and heartache will go unrewarded or unappreciated. The truth is, in my opinion, regarding heartache and suffering: that’s just life. Shit happens. We all deal with it in our own ways. For me, I dealt with it by getting wasted. And there was one night in particular in December of 2011 where I had an odd dream. A dream I believe I died in, actually.
What I recall about that night before I passed out on the couch, was the incense I had burning in the flower pot that was sitting on the coffee table in front of the couch. The smoke coming from the incense stick was making all these really unique patterns and shapes as it slowly lifted into the air. (Now remember, before you read this next part, note that I was under the influence when I was seeing this) And as I stared into the patterns the incense smoke was making, it seemed to be taking the shape of a dragon’s head. I was fascinated by it, but it was only there for a couple of seconds and the pattern faded out. Not long after that, I faded out…and passed out.
Now the dream. Also note that as soon as I awoke from this dream, I took the nearest pen and scrap of paper and wrote the dream down before I forgot it. But anyways, this is what I wrote:
"I was sitting on the couch drinking a beer, and I looked over to where the stereo system was supposed to be, but it wasn’t there. I then looked over to the window and standing no more than three feet away from me, was a Native American woman. She was wearing fur and feathers. And I saw that she was holding the missing stereo system by its handle. I didn’t feel like there was any threat in the dream, nor did I find it strange that there was a Native American woman in full blown