Broken Words: Pelicans Don’T Live for Ever!

By Brian Gorman

This is about Love, falling in love, being in love, being abandoned by love. Perhaps there are parts of this journey with which you can or will identify. This book is raw, full of moments, photographs of those moments in words. Inside my head I am still that 17 year boy consumed by immature teenage angst and confusion, the certainty of uncertainty. It will, for me, probably always be the same. If you are young, if you are old, come and visit the joys and tribulations of love but most of all of Katrina and me my bittersweet journey with her.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris UK
• Release date: Jun 20, 2014
• ISBN: 9781493194148

Brian Gorman

Brian was born in Nairn, a small town in the North East of Scotland. Life thereafter became something of a nomadic adventure living in various parts of Scotland, Singapore and England. He finally settled in Aberdeen at the age of 11 where he continues to live. Brian married, divorced and has a wonderful son and Godson. Due to his travels, Brian attended 15 schools, nowhere is home. Brian tells us that he continues to try his best in life, in his own peculiar way, searching for his dolphin and freedom.

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Copyright © 2014 by Brian Gorman. 612414

Library of Congress Control Number:   2014907180

ISBN:   Softcover     978-1-4931-9413-1

             Hardcover   978-1-4931-9415-5

             EBook         978-1-4931-9414-8

All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic or mechanical, including photocopying, recording, or by any information storage and retrieval system, without permission in writing from the copyright owner.

This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places and incidents either are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously, and any resemblance to any actual persons, living or dead, events, or locales is entirely coincidental.

Rev. date: 07/09/2014

Xlibris LLC

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CONTENTS

Introduction

About Me

HUMBLY BUMBLY

Our day

The Child

Me and My Dad

Story

I WORRY

Skin Thin

CHORUS

My Brother

This is not good

A Dragons Tale

I Am

No More

Judgement

Circle of the Year

Untitled

The leaving of some other place

A Prayer for You

The Russian Doll

How many Times

Welcome

Victory Calls

Speaking Chinese

Halloweeeeen!!!

Comfort

Winter Sun

Humbled

Italian Restaurant

No Limits

Just Me

The Ferryman

Today and Yesterday

Heroin

Prince of Wales

Betrayal

Autumn

Ode to Mr Cohen

My Madonna

The Shadow of You

Confused Air

Count!

In Line

A Star Around Me

Diamonds

One Bag

My Pet Moth George

Peace and Silence

The Cats Tale

I Doff my Cap

Zombie

Butterfly. (1)

Mercy

Blue Iris

My Room

Why?

Caw, Caw, Laughing

Exorcism

Paper Trail

Katrina

Larry

Butterfly (#2)

The Old Fire Station

I am

Turning

Dolphins Farewell

Midnight

A Truth (1)

Limousine

Sunflowers

Suicide by Default

Walking

Sirens Song

Coffee and Cigarettes

Banquet for One

Asleep

Lyndsey

Words

Write Me

She Said

We Met

Touch

Robins

Awesome!

Steal from Me

Unfulfilled

What of You and Heroin

Me and Alcohol

Clay

Blue Skies

Closure

The Movies

Web

Redemption

Tried, I Failed, Even though

My Mother.

Hermit crab.

STANDING

See Me.

Graduation Day!!!

Broken Words

This Year

St. Machar Cathedral

Alone, (#2)

It Seemed

My Mum

My mate Mick!

’Take Care’

A Final Truth

Endings

How Many?

Tribute to demise

The Rose

On the bus

The Words.

Goodbye

ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

Front cover

Auguste Rodin: ‘Burghers of Calais.’ (1889).

Victoria Tower Gardens, London, UK, recast (1908).

Original photograph, the author,

adapted by Jonathon Shearer, artist.

‘Tribute to Demise’

Stevie Smith: ‘Not waving but Drowning.’ (1957)

Victoria Lucas (Sylvia Plath), ‘The Bell Jar.’ (1963)

‘My Madonna’

Jean Dominque Bauby,

‘The Diving Bell and the Butterfly.’ (1997).

Thanks to my sister Theresa for all of her help and support in putting this work together,

I could not have done this without her help.

INTRODUCTION

This, a gathering of words with some meaning, depending on how you choose to read the words that follow. They are meant to be simple, no secrets, no hidden meanings, only raw words. Your approval is always welcome, though this is a work of the heart and not the intellect. Most have been written over recent months, some are relics from days past, retrieved from scraps of pages that have slept in dust.

These are words from moments of days and nights, of being in and out of Love, unfortunately mostly out. Words, I hope, that reveal the emotions that Love can bring or leave behind for those of us who have Loved then lost that person who was so precious. Sadness, loss, anger, bitterness, longing, yearning, guilt and joy. All of those emotions are in here, I think, each one a passing moment of my night, my day. Bitterness better out than in perhaps, nevertheless the intention is not