That's Deep!: Reflections on the Afterlife of a Black Student
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This book is all about reflections of the writers experiences in America. The seven REFLECTIONS and BONUS CHAPTER, discuss in turn - pain, promise, and evolution in its:
Reflections on Youth,
Reflections on Black Men and Black Women,
Reflections on Self-Determination,
Reflections on Community and Self-hatred,
Reflections on Black Life in America,
Reflections on Family,
Reflections on God and Religion, and
Five Bullets and a Blessing (Bonus Chapter).
While these reflections and bonus chapter are written from the viewpoints of the Authors empirical knowledge, many who have experienced his lifes journey will understand and strongly relate, while others who are open to walking in anothers shoes will learn and be transformed.
The notes (thoughts) herein can be described as a serious, urban, social commentary written in a poetic format. It is a journey from a valley of pain and desolation to the heights of promise and ultimate potential. Thats Deep!: Reflections on the Afterlife of a Black Student is simply a MUST-READ BOOK!!! It is a sociological work that will teach others and remind those who have felt the sting firsthand of the devastating impact of Americas separate and unequal treatment of many of its voiceless citizenry. It is a history lesson to people of all races and nationalities of the matchless, resilient and soulful spirit of Africa and all of her outreached descendants. It is also a powerful message that without Gods love, mercy and grace, ones life is purposeless, empty and unprotected.
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That's Deep! - Kevin L. Moore
That’s Deep!
Reflections on the Afterlife of a Black Student
Kevin L. Moore
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Copyright © 2013 by Kevin L. Moore.
Editor: Abiola A. Animashaun
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Contents
Dedication
Preface
Acknowledgments
CHAPTER I
REFLECTIONS ON YOUTH
Unblossomed Youth
Molested Masculinity
Aborted Black Youth
Young Girl Lost
Young Man Lost
I Once, But Now, I Am…
Up From Special Education
Love Don’t Live Here No More!
I Hate You, I Love You
Ghetto Conversation
Why I Do What I Do?
Baby Boy
As A Child
Only Two Years
The Proof Is In The Put-In
CHAPTER II
REFLECTIONS ON BLACK MEN AND BLACK WOMEN
To The Black Man Or Motherfucker
Angel Of Anger
There’s So Much Love Here!!!
Love Doesn’t Hurt
Love Deprivation
Exclusively My Brother…
Exclusively My Sister…
Unappreciative Child
My Black Queen
Call Them By Name
Ms. Black Hollywood
CHAPTER III
REFLECTIONS ON SELF-DETERMINATION
Do You Remember?
Professional Black Man
Half-Black, Half-Indian Grandmother
Get Your Foot Off Our Throat!
Recipe For Black Failure
Kwanzaa, The Destined Objective
60/40, The White Man Is Still Ahead
Emancipation Procrastination
You Can, You Must, You Will
Slavery Is Back Into Effect
Black Barbershop
Let Your Ghetto Go!
Black Thought
CHAPTER IV
REFLECTIONS ON COMMUNITYAND SELF-HATE
Your Hurt Hurts Us Bad
Dead Before Dying
Crabs In The Bucket
Different Journeys
You Think You’re Better Than Me?
Corporate Negro
It Seems Like You Work For The Klan
Nigger
Dialogue
Black Drug Dealers
Weed Hug
That’s Deep!
Sitting On The Porch
CHAPTER V
REFLECTIONS ON BLACK LIFE IN AMERICA
Race Matters In Black & White
Disorderly Conduct
Quicksand In The Black Ghetto
I Witnessed
Black Abortion
America’s Most Wanted
This Very Slanted Tree
I Reject You Not
Warehoused Potential
My Response To 911 (9/11/01)
Black Police State
CHAPTER VI
REFLECTIONS ON FAMILY
It Takes A Man To Raise A Man
All By Myself!
Where Are You, Dad!?
Fruitless Black Fathers
Mother Of Many
I’m Sorry, Mama
Oh, Hindered, Sheltered Child
This Kitchen
Our Dad’s Mighty Shoulders
A Black Mother’s Cry
To The Absentee Parent
CHAPTER VII
REFLECTIONS ON GOD AND RELIGION
The Diabolical Side Of Christmas
His Final Obituary
When Mama Died
My Ghetto Prayer
For Thou Art With Us…
We Were Born To Be More
It Was God That Brought Us Through
Go Back To Hell!
Forgive Us, Lord…
BONUS CHAPTER
FIVE BULLETS AND A BLESSING
Five Bullets And A Blessing
Homeless Heart
Clipped Wings
Because He’s Cute
Give Me Back My Stuff
Satan Is Busy…
I Have No One To Bury Me!
Because I Was Hardheaded…
Get Off Of Crack, Mama!
Just Hangin’ Out…
Peach & Pine…
Labor Pool
The Potential Of An Educated Mind…
Even A Flower Must Grow Through The Dirt
Afterword
About The Author
DEDICATION
To my amazing, matchless mother,
Charity A. Moore.
Your example and dedication to the six of us—
despite enduring a fatherless home, various social and financial pressures,
family and community hate, and health conditions—
will always be the necessary torch that allows us all to win.
To the social symbol of Trayvon Martin.
Your case has forced racial injustice to rear its ugly head and convinced
America—as well as the world—that our relevance and truth has a voice and divine purpose.
We are and will continue to be a part of the New America
. . .
God’s divine order is a standard of that.
PREFACE
Writing this book, That’s Deep! Reflections on the Afterlife of a Black Student, has been cathartic as it has allowed me to release years of tears, pain, and anger. It is also reflective of the hope and current optimism that I feel in my joy and love for Africa’s outreached descendants.
Sometimes raw, but always truthful, I have traveled an emotional and empowering journey through these written notes. These writings have helped me to reflect and recognize the importance and the distinct features of different people in my life and throughout black America. My spirit has been exercised. My soul has cried, and through it all, I feel miraculously transformed. I can now see and express freely the love, gratitude, and compassion for my mother and the countless others that reflected her matchless fortitude in what must have been times of insurmountable doubt. Many complex, problematic issues (especially within the African American communities) have planted in me a seed of discontent; thus, my solution is my written voice. The perceived shouts of our loud yet unheard and misrepresented youth have been exclaimed and are no longer silent. I truly see and feel God in them. My passion and unconditional love for Africa and black folk—the Earth’s firstborn and the resilient survivors of oppression, seen and unseen—resounds throughout my meager attempt to wake up the silent majority. More importantly, this book shows a newly discovered truth. God, family, and community—all are, in fact, synonymous.
While I put pen to paper to document the following notes, I am not embarrassed or reluctant to state that I am a product of my environment. Hence, my writings are a product and self-reflection of my gifts and personal journey that has cultivated me. I am hoping that my unique personal thoughts can act as a literary catalyst that will allow social change.
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
God’s extended mercy and grace upon my life.
G. and K. Robinson for their incredible care and support.
My son, Zakee Jones-Moore, for loving me even when he had to live in lack.
Melissa Burgman for being there with me during the good and bad times.
My brothers and sisters: Jackie, Leroy, Latisha, Paul, Shyquan Moore,
Natasha Ragland, Gina Bowser, and Porchia Brown for being true friends.
CHAPTER I
Image%203.JPGREFLECTIONS ON YOUTH
Unblossomed Youth
Like a diamond in the rough, I am an unblossomed youth.
I am young, bright, and gifted—but I search for the truth.
I am unborn… yet I am dying through drugs, stress, and strife
because my mommy and daddy are already destroying my life.
I am one, two, and three—my most important developmental years—
but it is hard for me to learn because it seems that no one cares.
I am four, five, six… and I yearn for love and attention,
but my dad rolled away; thus, my mind is in detention.
Oh, people around me, where are my hugs?Please replace my sad reality that has crime, hate, and drugs.
For I am seven, eight, and nine, and I do not feel proud;
therefore I am an impressionable follower, following the bad crowd.
I am ten and eleven… my life seems unnatural and odd—
that’s why I question my poverty and ask, Is there really a God?
I am twelve years old, and all I do is dream, dream, dream—
but I know I won’t go far with my low self-esteem.
Now I am thirteen, fourteen, fifteen—desperately looking for lost love…
that’s why I am searching for someone whom I can be a part of.
I am finally sixteen, out of school with a baby on the way…
I was halfway taught, so I thought it was okay.
At seventeen years old, I am staring at my adulthood—
yet all I see is jail… and a future that’s no good.
Hence, refine our rough diamonds, for we are the unblossomed youth—
so that we can grow to great heights and exemplify the truth.
Molested Masculinity
Like a scattered and ripped Bible, I feel torn and void of joy,
for I was molested multiple times as a young and impressionable black boy.
Inside, I was twisted, scarred, and broken long before I became a man
by unprincipled, ill men that disrupted my soul and psychological plan.
For those distorted acts of sickness have left my inner child exposed and arrested
all because my youthful masculinity has been diabolically molested.
Now I navigate this troubled world with distrust and extra trepidation
because if my innocence was snatched as a child, what else will I be facing?
Who else will hurt me if I don’t keep my guard all the way up?
For mankind has continued to be detached as Satan deceives and corrupts.
Now in my strengths and weaknesses, I silently scream to God and life, Why?
for I was ushered into a vulnerability before I could believe, balance, then fly.
Was it in God’s plan to add weakness in my already stacked, impoverished deck,
where uncertainty coupled with self-rejection would be the inevitable effect?
Why my father didn’t bother providing the necessary direction and protection,
and Mama was too stretched and stressed to exude real affection?
How, with precision, I guarded my veiled secrets because I knew of others that were ostracized,
thus I half-bandaged my fractured spirit so my social life could not be compromised.
How, like others, I overcompensated by fighting, being comedic, and relieving grief through sex,
all evident by-products of overflow and my thoughts being too complex.
How drinking was my thinking when I felt thoroughly abandoned and misunderstood,
when as a lonely child, I literally cried deeply in unfamiliar locals and woods.
How I became different by default because I didn’t pay attention;
now my misdirected ignorance is absorbed with anger and suspension.
I understood and felt for homosexuals because of their inner story and plight,
but I too hated them for not fighting temptation and giving Satan their birthright.
How I overprotect my children with consistent warnings and loving reassurance
because being violated as a child can affect one’s positive outlook and spiritual endurance.
Therefore, allow me to be clear, for I am not crying out, Why me?
I just must make my spirit, soul, and body aligned straight with the Triune three.
You see, my innocence was raped as an impressionable, unprotected child;
thus, my masculinity was stabbed when my whole essence was young and infantile
I pointed fingers at God and life for leaving me confused and in constant retrospection,
but the gem I’ve discovered is that there is power in personal death and spiritual resurrection.
Again, even a flower has to grow through the dirt,
so who are we not to endure life’s adversity and hurt?
The blessing is getting back up and facing your fears
and being a living testimony of what you once had to bear.
Remember, no cross, no crown,
because in life we’ll all be tested—
now I’m a God-fearing man despite my masculinity being molested.
Aborted Black Youth
If you can’t justify the uprooting of an unborn black seed,
then explain the aborting of black youth that are in serious, desperate need.
Explain how our rejected black children are taught to self-hate and fail
and to die before their time or to populate money-making jails.
Explain why sports and entertainment are significantly promoted,
and culturally biased curriculums make young black minds confused and eroded.
Why is black inferiority subliminally taught to black and white youth?
And why is white superiority an established, dominant truth?
Why is fearing black boys a major societal lesson—
then that same fear is quickly manifested into avenues of oppression?
Why does today’s society claim that black girls are non-threatening, useful prey—
who are simply just sexual creatures with nothing valuable to say?
Oh, young descendants of greatness… how dare they slowly dig your graves!
And how dare they support discouragement to keep your minds enslaved!
How dare they recycle black self-hatred and manufacture your deep, hidden pain—
and how dare they kill your minds when science and knowledge came from your brains!
Black youth are in a vicious cycle of contradiction… the first teaches them to lead—
as the second endorses ambivalent thinking so that black children will not succeed.
Too many ignorant black parents constantly put their children down
and discourage guidance counselors that keep them from obtaining their crowns.
Most white children are pushed with a lot of parental and general support,
but most black youth are mentally aborted; thus, in life, they come up short.
Whites and some privileged are expected to go to Ivy Leagues after their high school diplomas—
and most black youth are expected to get GEDs, local jobs, while lying in mental comas.
Observe how subjugated, profiled black youth are living in urban police states—
and the words I love you
are never expressed until it’s definitely too late.
Countless black youth have it so bad; they desire to be white…
so they self-hate, rebel, commit crimes, and are ready to hurt and fight.
The once I have a dream
to many is now a dream deferred
because many young children are hopeless and their vision has been blurred.
They’re deemed physical, not intellectual like the worldwide rest—
and the received unspoken message is that they are far from the best.
Black, versatile, and beautiful was once their proud reality;
now the media and miseducation dictate self-fulfilling prophecy.
Therefore, let God’s freedom ring, and reject society’s views that are distorted,
and educate your promising, blessed minds from being young, black, and aborted.
Young Girl Lost
Like a rose without petals—your essence is other than yourself;
hence, you choose to live a lifestyle that is harmful to your health.
Oh beautiful, young sistah… you’re searching for love in all the wrong places,
but under your many masks, I see the etched pain on your different faces.
Too often, you’re called a whore, bitch, and slut—to your face and behind your back.
Sadly, those words are too common because of how you’ve learned to act.
Your reasons