Love and Drugs and Such

By J. C. Godin

Jamie, an innocent 20 something old, has decided to
live a little her first weekend off in months. A simple
birthday party throws her into a world of chaos where
she finds that there is a whole different world out there than
what she has been living. In a blink of an eye, her world
changes by one decision. Is she ready for what happens
after saying Okay? Read her adventure as she finds out
what love and loss both truly feel like and she overcame the
chaos from her made choices.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Dec 9, 2011
• ISBN: 9781465394521

J. C. Godin

J. C. has been writing off and on since early Junior High. Last year she completed her first year of college, to start her career in Business Marketing. Even though she has started a career path towards Business Marketing, her true passion has always been writing. Even though J. C. has completed many short stories and shared them with her colleagues, ‘Love and Drugs and Such’ is her first publication. J. C. is currently residing in Alberta, Canada.

Book preview

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CHAPTER 1 ~

SO WHAT ARE your plans for the weekend? Isn’t it your first off in a few months? asked my manager.

Excitedly I looked behind me from doing my cash out and nodded, Yea it is! Thanks so much for trading! I just plan on celebrating a birthday with a friend and attending our neighbourhood party. It should be a blast!

You’re welcome. And good for you, you deserve it! my boss said as he finished his own closing duty Have fun!

I finished my closing duties and left. I was officially free from work for a complete 72 hours!

I casually walked into the liquor store and chose my poison for the weekend. Once I paid, I was once again on my way. The walk home was short, but I didn’t mind. It was a perfect May evening.

What on earth is vibrating? I thought to myself, quickly realising that it was my phone. Pulling it out of my pocket I excitedly answered Hello?!

Hey! Wh-where are youuuuu?

Laughing out loud I replied I’M ON MY WAY! BRAD!

Goo-good! Because I’m almost drunk and we need you here to finish playing some cards! Hurry up! click; the phone went dead. More excited my saunter turned into a brisk walk.

I was soon at Brad’s house, ready to join the party.

So, what’s the game tonight everyone? Poker? Black-jack? How about Go-Fish!? I asked smirking, sitting down at the table with everyone. Greetings were said as every one was in shock that I actually had a weekend off! Everyone was in agreement that this was going to be an event.

Brad looked at me from across the table with an unknown look on his face. Curiosity got to me, but I just pushed it aside; besides I knew, he’d let me in on the secret when he was ready.

He kept on looking at new guy who just sat there as they kept on saying their remarks quietly back and forth. Brad’s hat was falling off as he fought with my pink lighter to lite his smoke. Actually it was my smoke, since he also took those from purse. It didn’t bother me too much tonight though; it was the start to hopefully kick ass weekend!

The new mystery man had caught my eye though. I had noticed that he drove up on a cherry red crotch-rocket. Man am I ever a sucker for those! He was casually riding up on his bike; and ‘accidently’ revved it up in front of me before he got off. I just stood their staring at him like an idiot; more like gawking with my mouth wide open, as he sauntered by. He appeared to be 6ft, a slender build, and had these mesmerizing chocolate eyes. When he looked at me it was like his eyes poured into my soul, stripping me bare. Shaking my head I quickly pulled my eyes and mind away from the memory to my nearing empty drink.

Jamie! Brad had yelled, snapping me completely back to reality. So your checking out my roommate Adam he smirked He’s got a HUGE penis! It easily makes a horse jealous! the whole room erupted into laughter as I started to choke on air at his remark. Thank God I didn’t take a sip of drink just then!

I was blushing as I quickly got up to refill my drink and grab the new bottle of Rye for Brad. I should be used to this, but unfortunately I’m not. In all of the years I’ve known Brad, he never fails to make me blush or choke on something; no matter the situation. I didn’t have time for a man, but it had been a long time… But that’s okay! I’m here for a good time! It’s my weekend! Thus, anything goes!

As I was lighting my smoke and grabbing a pen and paper I said What’s the rules for Socialables tonight boys? I came here to have a good time!

Hey don’t change the subject! And make the 5 card rule ‘Girls lose an article of clothing’ Brad’s house, Brad’s rules I thought to myself as I quickly wrote down the rules being shouted out.

The game was soon underway.

It wasn’t long before everyone was half naked and shots were being poured. Loose tongues and thoughts were floating about. Cat calls where being made across the table to one another. Some of them were about the hairy chests, or the paleness of each other’s bodies. Winter just ended who cared? Or so I thought.

Jamie! You lost your bra cards ago! Let me see you naked! shouted Brad as he slapped another’s bare ass. ‘There was NO WAY I was going to let myself show all’ I thought to myself as I pulled the pillow closer.

Sorry boys! I replied pulling on my skirt I need smokes, because some random people, I jokingly accused the table as I looked around at them, "Smoked my last few cigarettes. So before I get too drunk, I’m going to the store. Do we need more mix?" it was a stupid question, we always needed more.

You’re sure as fuck ain’t going alone! Not in this damn neighbourhood! shouted Brad’s girlfriend at me. You may be able to defend yourself, but not after you’ve been drinking. Take somebody with you!

Sigh, why does she care now?

I’ll go with her. I need smokes and some minutes for my phone replied the new roommate. ‘Huh? New guy wants to walk me? Is he safe? He should be if Brad trusts him’ I thought to myself in a mix of awe and shock. Is that okay with you? he asked looking at me trying to make it sound like a question and not a demand.

Oh! For sure! I don’t mind, it’ll help put everyone to ease I shrugged and started for the door. My hands were sweaty and my heart started racing. I hoped that I didn’t have to talk him into walking and not riding his bike; for that’d be a hard task. I am a sucker and all.

We were out the door and there was no inkling to ride the bike. I said a silent thank-you prayer as we walked.

Hey can I make a quick call to a friend? came this voice interrupting my thoughts.

Ya sure, is it local? Am I serious? I just asked if it’s local! I mentally smacked my forehead as I handed him my phone.

Ya, it’s just a friend I want to get some stuff off of

God he looked good! I hoped it wasn’t me being under the influence that made me think this way. Drunken goggles were the worst; hence the reason why I stopped having sex with my ‘play-time’ friends months ago. He quickly dialed a number, from what I presumed, memory.

Hey, it’s Adam… Good you? You up and running tonight? Cool, uh – could I get three hours? Ok cool… McDonalds? Ok. I have a friend with me, can she come? . . . Ya man, she’s cool… okay, bye and at that the phone was back in my hand. Our hands brushed briefly, leaving me feeling a little pleasant shock that went up my arms and excited through my toes.

Puzzled, I looked at him and asked So, where are we going? as I paid for my smokes and started to exit the store.

Oh, I have to go and pick something up from a friend. You okay with that? We can drop you back off at the house if you want he seemed to quickly add as an afterthought.

Oh, I need a new adventure I laughed nervously, Is your friend cool with it? I don’t want to get you into trouble or be a third wheel I asked as we entered McDonalds

Adelle! You got a smoke? asked a man in the doorway as he eyed me up and down and winked

Uhh no, but if you ask Jamie she might he answered gesturing towards me as we walked to the lonely jeep in the parking lot.

Adelle? That’s his nickname? And I wanted a Big Mac Damnit! Oh well I guess. Smokes! I want a smoke! I had thought grabbing my new pack of smokes. I wonder how long these will last . . . I asked myself as I handed each of the two men around me one as well.

So how long have you known Adam for? asked the guy we had to meet up with as we started to walk.

Oh, Jamie- Adam moved his arm indicating this is Big D. Big D, this is Jamie. We just met tonight at Brad’s house

I made a meek smile and nodded politely as I finished my cigarette and flicked the butt out of the window. Looking up again I saw the new pair of eyes winking at me as their owners mouth started to speak again So have you ever taken a ride on ‘The Train’?

A train? Like cocaine train? No, sorry I’m a ‘goodie-goodie’. Or so I’m told I replied now extremely curious. Thoughts went through my head, questioning if I wanted to do this, was I prepared to say no? Or did I want to enter this new world that was knocking at my life door?

You interested? asked the man again as he looked at me through the mirror.

Na man, she’s just here. The order is for me answered Adam quickly before I could answer.

Is he protecting me? I asked myself before saying Actually, I kinda am. What do I have to pitch? Shocked at what I said I quickly started a new smoke. I was nervous. Adam glanced back at me with an unknown look. His eyes looked puzzled. Pushing the look aside I paid attention to what the driver said next.

What the hell was I saying? I’m not sure if I should be drinking anymore tonight when we get back to Brad’s house. But still, I am really curious! But would it be a good idea to go through with this? Well I can still stop anytime I want. I do have my own self-control! Yes I will rely on my self-control.

For a pretty little red head like you, nothing; in fact, I’ll give Adelle his order free he winked again and turned into a drive way.

Damn his wink was starting to creep me out. Was I too drunk? Tonight was the first night I drank anything in quite some time, so perhaps. What am I getting into? Who cares! It’s your weekend! The door opened abruptly beside me, it was Adam; his voice now soft as he said You don’t have to do this to impress me. You already have

Huh? I asked silently as I got out.

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CHAPTER 2 ~

ODDLY ENOUGH, THE drive-way we drove into was familiar, way too familiar. I had lived at this house once before. Mentally I started to visualize every scratch on the floor, flat spot on the stairs, and every scruff on the wall. I could hear every creak on floors and door hinges. I even remembered which windows you had to move just right to open. Being here again was going to be an interesting experience; especially tonight.

Hey, you got a smoke? We’re not allowed to smoke inside. House rules asked Adam as he gave me another quick look over.

I reached into my purse and started to look for my smokes as I watched Adam looking at me. He seemed to be having a mental argument with himself from what I saw flashing through his eyes. I pushed the thought away as I found my smokes.

As casually as I could, I handed him another one saying You mind sharing? I want to make these last longer than a few hours

Yeah, sure. Here you light it

He moved so easily, with not a worry in the world. Why was I so nervous? It’s not like it’s my first time around a hot man alone. And I’m pretty sure it won’t be my last either. Wow, I just made myself sound like a whore… good job Jamie! NOT! Sigh so I lit the smoke and inhaled slowly, forcing myself to calm down, and start taking it easy. It’s my weekend off, what more can I expect?

So, will you help me take care of me if I actually do this? I don’t mean babysit me, but, well… . You know, make sure I stay ok? I asked nervously as I passed the smoke to him. A small shiver went through me as our fingers briefly touched again as he took the cigarette away.

Yea sure. You know you don’t have to right? There is no need to impress; you already have, he replied back as he quickly finished the cigarette.

So you’ve said… . Already impressed? But I’m curious; I guess I have always been curious. I hope I don’t regret this by Monday haha I laughed nervously.

The room we ended up in was my old room. Irony eh? I had many good, old memories in this room. How couldn’t I? I had lived in this house for my whole childhood! The walls stayed the same faint green, but the floor was freshly replaced with what appeared to be oak; and the best part was, it still smelled the same. Zoning back into what was going at hand I saw that a mirror had appeared out of nowhere and was beside me on the bed. There were already some neat little lines ready to go, but Big D was starting to prepare some more. As I absorbed the actions that were being performed, I suddenly had two pairs of eyes on me and a tightly rolled billed handed to me.

Adam’s brown eyes peered into mine, stripping my insides naked as he said Ladies first. Your pick which one you want with a smirk.

Not sure as to what he had meant I looked down at the three lines that were now thicker and longer, all equally spaced apart. Abruptly nervous all I could say ways I need elastic or pony tail please, so I don’t get my hair in it. And as if on cue the door opened and a girl came in with a phone and an extra ponytail. I took it looking at her with some sort of curiosity as she quickly left. Alright, bottoms up! and down I went.

In the background I heard Adam saying something, but his voice was soon drowned out by the sensation of a new feeling taking over my senses.

I positioned myself for easy access to the mirror and I simultaneously put the bill to a nostril and plugged the other with my free hand. Making sure my breathing didn’t disturb the other lines on the mirror, I connected the rolled up bill with the start of my chosen line. Then I started to suck in through the rolled bill and moved upwards towards the other end.

Immediately my nostril started to burn, as if there was thousands upon thousands of tiny knives stabbing as the substance entered into my system. My throat quickly felt as if it was cut off, all air seemed to seize going through my system, causing me to briefly cough and choke. My sinus’ immediately became stuffed up as the numbness in my throat no longer was a seemed threat, but a pleasure. Then, out of nowhere, came this drip, from the back of my nose, to the back of my throat. Drip, drip, drip, was the only thing I felt as I sat back looking around the room. Without knowing it, I was hooked; and there was absolutely nothing that I was willing to do about it.

I had left a triumphant ‘I did it’ smile on my face.

Shocked and finishing his line Adam looked at me and asked How was that? What do you think? with a crooked smile, that I would learn soon, he did often.

Yes Little Red, how was that? asked Big D as well with a giant grin on his face.

Put on the spot I wasn’t so sure anymore. The joyous numbness had cleared up my stuffed nose. Surprisingly it had seemed like it was clearer than before. Keeping that as a mental note for next time I hoped there was a next time and responded, Actually, it wasn’t too bad. So ummm… what now? Do- and my phone rang.

Oh shit! Brad!

Hello?

Where the fuck did you go? You and Adelle are fucking like rabbits aren’t you? How is his horse cock feeling? Is he balls deep? Remember, if they aren’t touching your anus, it’s not deep enough! said very drunk Brad. Surprisingly he wasn’t slurring much anymore. I wondered why.

Oh, I had to run home real quick. We are just having a smoke then leaving. Why? I asked smirking. This high was feeling way too good.

You need to hurry up and sing Happy Birthday to me!! Damnit! (A smack or something came from the background) I want to blow out a candle! then there was nothing. Once again he had hung up on me.

Well Little Red, you are going to take your pretty tight bill and finish the last line; while Adelle here and I go outside and wait for you Big D answered my previous question.

I did what he asked with little hesitation. It didn’t burn as much this time; but it still burned. Instead of using my right side, I switched and used my left. Again the numbing sensation took over. I was expecting it, but it still surprised me, sort of knocking me back a little. Sniffing through my nostrils to make sure it was all consumed; I got up and left the room as I reached for a much needed smoke.

Still not quite used to the feeling of being strangled, I coughed as I inhaled my smoke. The cool air through the open car window felt good on my face.

What do you think you’re doing!? First pot, now blow?! How are you going to hide this from everyone? You’re a shitty liar and you know it! The arguing with me had started. But I pushed it aside and looked out the window. In what felt like seconds, and two more cigarettes later, we were back at Brad’s house.

The door beside me opened again as Adam stood there looking at me. I wonder what he was thinking about… Just act normal is all he said.

Have a good night Little Red! yelled Big D as he drove off.

Oddly there wasn’t any noise coming from the direction of Brad’s house as we walked to the door. Wondering if I should go home or find somewhere else to go until my high was gone, the door was opened for me. The house was quiet; the only sound was the neighbour’s dog outside barking.

Where did they all go? I asked following Adam up the stairs. Realizing what I was doing I quickly added I’ll wait down here as I started to turn around.

They probably went to the bar or to the store. They’ll be back. You might as well come with me. I’m not doing this entire ball of blow by myself is all he said going around the stair bend.

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CHAPTER 3 ~

I AM NOT entirely sure of what I was expecting of Adam’s room, but it most definitely shocked me. The walls were pretty bare, minus a two flags and a poster. He had a queen size bed that looked pretty comfortable (most guys’ beds are, aren’t they?), he had a simple T.V. on a stand and his clothes were neatly folded/hung up in his closet. On the side of