A Believer's Journey

By Anita M Tucker

Speak life! What we think determines what we say and this refl ects who
we really are for we are exposed by the fruit of our mouths. We must be
able to see Gods kingdom and this is a spiritual endeavor. The kingdom
begins in the spirit and is then made manifest in the natural realm. We lost
sight when Adam abdicated the throne to Satan. A fundamental disconnect
occurred when we exited the Garden of Eden. Revelation provides the
inner sight that Jesus came to restore for he opened blinded eyes.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Apr 11, 2011
• ISBN: 9781469118956

Anita M Tucker

Who I am is unimportant. What I am is kind of interesting if I remain humble for messengers simply represent a superior power. I am from a line of gospel quartet singers. The prophetic reach of my life began before I was born. My grandfather was my first and most prolific pastor. A sponge who consumed and sifted any book that came into the house, the Arnett Branch of the Public Library was my best friend since the age of eight. The accumulation of random knowledge in no way translated into anything tangible. I was just incredibly thirsty.Having to guard my inner life from intrusion, I knew at any point that I attempted to share I would received the “look.” As a child I was often seated under the kitchen table where I could see into multi-dimensions. In my sleep I was always flying. I’ve learned to wear a mask at a very early age for even my parents thought me strange when I told them things I should not have known. I’ve learned to keep quiet until the appointed time.We cannot spend life living inside the mind for it has its own peculiar walls. Throughout my teen years, a series of traumatic events occurred that intended to destroy me but God would not let it be so. I was kidnapped and forced to do unspeakable things that try to haunt me to this day. This is when I became aware of the tri-unity of my being.Fractured in mind and emotions, I would hide my soul sending it within and become another person whose body could do what was necessary to survive. Turning hatred inward, I lost love of self but thank God eventually it came back. I conclude the final series of crushing experiences prepared met to recognize and combat evil. Otherwise how would I know it without having encountered its abuse? Spiritual life is not theory with me but experiential from darkness to light.I know that God is real for he has revealed himself unto me that I, being an unlearned, raggedy and base individual could show forth elements that belong only to him. This revelation knowledge that he has given me is indisputable for I find that somehow I know things without ever having studied them. Yes, the Lord still visits in dreams and visions for he changes not. He gives glimpses of his glory if we dwell in the secret place.It is so not about me. He has revealed himself to me that I may expose his kingdom to you. I have witnessed his Spirit. Now, I know why. I became desperate enough. You see, I am silly enough to believe every word that he says and am overwhelmed at being chosen to show that which only comes from the Creator. Look at my God! He causes to be! Go tell it! I know I will. Here’s the message: God loves you and this is evidenced in his using someone like me to speak to you.

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A Believer’s Journey

Anita M. Tucker

Copyright © 2011 by Anita M. Tucker.

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Contents

Acknowledgments

Foreword

Introduction

CHAPTER ONE

CHAPTER TWO

CHAPTER THREE

CHAPTER FOUR

CHAPTER FIVE

CHAPTER SIX

CHAPTER SEVEN

THE YOKE

CHAPTER EIGHT

Ending Statement

Conclusion

Final Thoughts

Sources

Music in Worship

Attitudes Of Praise

Future Works

Anita Tucker

END NOTES

Dedication

This book is dedicated to my dear friend Chuck Mason. We had many hilarious discussions about the Kingdom of Heaven and the inmates of the Puppet Regime of Earth. We both were confused by the theatre of Christianity.

Much bruised and rejected by people he was persuaded that God loved him regardless. This was evidenced by the genius in his music and laughter in his eyes. Chuck bore the closest resemblance to Christ that I have encountered while on this earth and he wasn’t even trying. He always reminded me to forgive.

Acknowledgments

Of course I thank God for my life. This is not easy to do, since life has not been easy to live and were I not careful, I would fall into the mentality of the victim instead of the victorious. But in his defense God has given me dreams, visions, songs, comfort and the greatest gift of all, His son, Jesus Christ.

Thanks to my grandfather and first pastor the late Rev. William Asberry, Sr., who listened to me and to my mother, Katie Ruth Singletary who prayed always and anointed my forehead to bless me. I understand now.

Thanks to my well beloved daughter, Felicia who believes that I am more special than I care to think. She too prays for me and I am grateful.

Thanks to my grandson Demetrius the Gladiator for in him is added a new depth of thanksgiving, grace and life. He cracks me up when he talks about Jesus as if he were his personal friend. To hear him pray is one of the largest joys of my life. He is five years old and reminds me to redeem the time.

Special thanks to a gentleman and scholar, the Rev. John R. Miller, Ph.D. who was kind enough to help me edit this book. Special blessings to you and Jenny and this will manifest as your heart’s desire.

I cannot neglect to give thanks to the many people who caused me to grow up, either by great kindness or extreme malice. Having always lived in extremes, the fact that I am greatly loved or intensely hated fails to disturb me. It is the gray areas that I find unsettling. Lackluster does not compliment me for I am puzzled by it, halted in motion, not knowing whether to bestow love, strike out or walk away. After much thought I conclude that I owe nothing but love.

Foreword

This book is humbly intended to be provocative and to compel others to read the Bible for themselves. It is not intended to claim superior knowledge but rather to display a personal journey of growth and enlightenment. I offer this book as a practical guide to studying the Bible and then, living it.

Encompassed in this study are my thoughts and observations derived from life, research and study of the Bible and other biblical sources. There will be those who wish to debate and refute. I will not defend this offering for the sake of vanity. By this I mean that I do not contend for or compete with God regarding the content of this book. Having no ego in this I am resigned to a position of humble obedience. God has blessed me with wisdom far beyond my own capability of acquiring. For this I am humbly grateful, but not confused as to his purpose. It is so not about me nor is this gift intended to be hoarded.

Throughout this book I speak in conversational tones, mainly because in my mind’s eye we have entered into personal dialogue. There is no disrespect intended. Since our Bibles have been translated from Hebrew and Greek, I thought it worthy to include simple translations and definitions on variations of key words. As the Bible has many layers, it seemed a good thing to offer the option of certain words so that our understanding might also be increased. The intention is not to patronize but to broaden. Be not offended in little things that seek to give increase.

Nevertheless, do your own study. Experience the Lord for yourself. Do not rely on the critical thinking of any other person, but instead, develop your own relationship with God the Father and his son, Yeshua Messiah. I speak blessings into your life! Receive them.

Moreover He said to me: Son of man, receive into your heart all My words that I speak to you, and hear with your ears. And go, get to the captives, to the children of your people, and speak to them and tell them, ‘Thus says the Lord God,’ whether they hear, or whether they refuse. Ezek 3:10-11 (NKJV)

Introduction

Over a series of months in 1998 I spoke with the Lord who since childhood has visited me in dreams and visions. There had been a large gap of time since our last conversation which I recalled as sound bites rather than coherent, connected speech.

This particular night was spent entirely with Jesus. It is significant because I do not recall ever being with him for the whole night. Each time as I’d awakened I had the lingering impression of an ongoing conversation and throughout that day I couldn’t wait to go to sleep again to continue.

That night he sat higher than me; I was seated at his feet. Speaking of many things to come, his voice sounded like music of a kind that I’ve never heard. I do not remember the details of his face. This time when I awoke I was speaking out loud, Let there be light. Struggling to remember our conversation I wasn’t distressed because I knew the rest would come to me at the necessary times. There was a sense of urgency.

His visitations do not appear to be random. During one season we communed almost nightly. I do not speak of my dreams and visions but I do write them down and most often I record them as songs. The Lord actually speaks to me by his Word and I mean pure scripture.

Now I know why I was compelled to study the Bible intensely. For one full year it was all that I could do from morning until night. Without warning, my company had shut down so I was between jobs. I would rise in the morning and pick up the Bible and sit on the sofa and read. I don’t remember eating or anything else but I must have.

When my daughter came home from school I was still reading. I couldn’t stop. I was not myself and I cannot explain it except to say that I did not operate in time as we know it. This gap in time lasted for over a year. It was also a time of profound and ferocious spiritual warfare. He was teaching me how to fight. I do not speak of it. I remember once answering the phone and a friend asked me what I was doing and I said without even knowing why I’m dying. The Lord wanted to communicate with me, but I had to learn his language.

I rest in him for he has shown me wonderful things beyond my human expression. I rest in him because I know beyond doubt that he is real and I am so humbled because he visits me. How awesome a God that he would care for me in this way, love me in this way. I would ask Him the question, who am I Lord that you would come to me?

Having sinned against him in unspeakable ways he forgave me, yeah—forgives me. He gave me a new name and then he told me who I am: what I am. I will not speak of it to anyone but I’m aware! I know! I am so grateful and awed. I am blessed beyond measure.

The only thing that can prevent my destiny is me. The enemy has desired to sift me, but Jesus keeps fighting for me. I know that there is no failure in God and if he has ordained a thing, then it must be. I must remember to walk in power and authority and to speak his Word at all times, at all seasons and not to be swayed by what is occurring at any given time.

This is hard because I have to remember whose I am. Such times as these that I am currently facing are designed to complicate my life; distract me from the straight and narrow way but it’s not a mountain, just a pebble that I step over and keep moving. Let God be true and every man a liar. He is Lord of my life and therefore the author of my faith. I will trust in him.

Prayer,

Father, your name is greatly to be praised. Yes, he who makes righteous, he who sanctifies shall keep me. You are my destiny and I will fulfill the righteousness that you have ordained for such a time as this. You have healed me, weighed my heart and measured my steps and yet you still love me, still call upon me, still deliver me. You are my God and I love you. Keep me humble, meek, loving and kind. Let me not be puffed up by the abundance of your revelation, visitation, and love for me. I am yours oh Lord and you are mine! I bless your name. In Jesus’ mighty name. Amen.

CHAPTER ONE

THE KINGDOM

And I sat at Jesus’ feet, and he began to teach me, saying…

Repent, the Kingdom of Heaven is at hand . . ., Matt 3:2

The expression of sorrow comes when we realize that our imperfections contrast starkly to the perfection and beauty of Heaven and this knowing presses deeply upon us. And so we weep first in pain then in joy for at last we glimpse the marvelous light that is the Kingdom of God. We begin to greatly anticipate joining him. Darkness and its forces no longer have dominion as the paradigm has shifted.

The reality of the kingdom arrives when we view and then respect the political structure of the confines of heaven. The view leads to conformity and only through this revelation can we be governed by the principles while acknowledging the sovereignty of God.

Having entered into life we begin to see into eternity and the view is stunning, beyond human comprehension and expression. The light that is eternity springs forth illuminating the error of our ways and the futility of greedy, grasping lives.

And so we turn away from sin and toward our God, seeking his ways, commandments and statutes for in this manner we activate the blessings from heaven. To articulate Heaven is to speak in a language that no one on this earth knows, thus we are given the gift of tongues that we might speak heavenly things.

KINGDOM VS. KINGDOM—

Light vs. Darkness—Concept versus reality

In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. He used his mouth and spoke things into existence. He separated the land from the water and placed the stars in the sky and called it good. God created all the beasts and creeping things, the fish the fowl of the air and he called it good. He created man in his image and likeness and gave him dominion. Male and female made he them and yet he called them Adam. He charged man to name all things of the earth of which he had dominion.

And God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he him; male and female created he them. And God blessed them: and God said unto them, Be fruitful, and multiply, and replenish the earth, and subdue it; and have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the birds of the heavens, and over every living thing that moveth upon the earth. Gen 1:27-28 (ASV)

The Lord instructed Adam to partake of all that was in the Garden but to not eat of the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil. God told Adam to be fruitful and multiply. The enemy (Satan) enticed the woman Eve to eat of the tree and she gave of the tree to Adam, her husband who also ate of it. This gross disobedience on Adam’s part caused him to have to leave the Garden of Eden. Not because of God’s anger but because located in the Garden was the Tree of Life.

Because of Adam’s disobedience to God, we were kicked out of the Garden of Eden, which is the place that we ultimately seek to return; our place of destiny. This was the foreordained Kingdom of Light in which the Garden dwelled. Because of the initial deception in the Garden the enemy has conditioned us to consider evil good and right, wrong.

We are now born into the kingdom of darkness by virtue of our Adamic nature; the fallen nature of man now impure because Adam ate from the table that was forbidden. Because of this inherent failure of birth, our lives are spent walking in darkness and confusion until we enter into the light through Jesus Christ.

Consider the plan. God lost his man, Adam, so he rerouted the strategy. Plan B. The earth had become contaminated by Adam’s disobedience and was ultimately remedied by Jesus’ obedience. The drops from the blood of Jesus were deposited into the Holy of Holies to cleanse the earth.

This prepared the way for all men to be restored to the Father and his original plan for man’s dwelling in the Garden of Eden to eat from the Tree of Life, the result of which is everlasting life. Adam had to be removed from the Garden for if he had eaten from the Tree of Life after eating from the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil, he would have forever remained, producing contaminated offspring and duplicating evil.

This was Satan’s plan to annul the original plan of God. Remember that Adam was given dominion over all things of the earth and was commanded to be fruitful and multiply. Adam, God’s first man was now impure and any seed after him would also be infected. Thus, he was forced to leave the Garden. But God promised that the women’s seed would bruise the head of the serpent. (Virgin Mary)

The Lord God gave the law through Moses to Israel to reveal to her the difference between his nature of holiness and her Adamic nature of darkness. He wanted her to know him. The law was intended to be transient. It was instituted with the knowledge that it could not be adhered to but was a fore shadow of the pattern of things to come so that grace, through Jesus Christ could abound.

The purpose of man’s life in Christ is conflicted and hidden. Abraham, a descendant of Noah who was a descendent of Adam was chosen as the friend of God for his belief in him. At this time there were certain angels who looked upon the women of the earth and desired to mate with them, Gen 6:4. These angels left their first estate and the offspring of the angels and women produced giants on this earth. Consider the giant Goliath whom David slew.

This was Plan B of the enemy (Satan) to pollute the earth’s seed and obstruct the coming of the Messiah. Notice that in the book of Genesis there was a re-creation so that the earth which had previously been populated needed replenishing. (This is a side note and not intended to distract.) Noah, of the eighth generation was the only man found whose genealogy had not been contaminated by the fornication between angels and women. Thus the flood and cleansing of the earth by water: Plan B of God in action.

Through Abraham, a direct descendant of Noah, and Jesus Christ, a direct descendant of Abraham, all nations would be blessed, receiving access to return to the Garden. The genealogy of Abraham is specifically traced back to Adam, the first man created in the image (mirror) and likeness (imprint) of God.

The connection between Adam and Jesus the Christ is two-fold; through the strands of genealogy (human DNA) and covenant (spiritual DNA). They both divinely carry the blue print of God’s family. Who else could embody the architect of this mystery but the creator (Jesus) of the created (man)?

Since our physiological composition has been compromised we must be born again. We enter into the Kingdom of Heaven via spiritual rebirth thus the consolidation of flesh and spirit is once again re-imaged into the likeness of God. Unification is almost complete, but not quite. Our physical death is required so that there be no co-mingling of the contaminated with our glorified bodies. This new compilation encompasses spirit and flesh which will ultimately take on immortality to reign in the eternal Kingdom of God.

THE KINGDOM OF DARKNESS

If we expand the scope of our thought-life we can then think in terms of heaven and earth being parallel worlds. Because they are cross impactual, whatever has bearing in heaven impacts the earth realm and vice versa. This is evidenced when the Archangel Gabriel was delayed in assisting the prophet Daniel on earth. The Prince of Persia was fighting the archangel in the heavenlies trying to delay the deliverance of Daniel’s blessing. Remember that the Archangel Gabriel reported that Daniel’s voice had been heard the first time he prayed, but forces sought to block his assistance from heaven.

Then said he unto me, Fear not, Daniel; for from the first day that thou didst set thy heart to understand, and to humble thyself before thy God, thy words were heard: and I am come for thy words’ sake. Dan 10:12 (ASV)

And, since the days of John the Baptist, the kingdom has suffered violence and the violent take it by force. Our (gentiles) access to heaven came when John the Baptist, a man, who from conception possessed a certain divine nature, preached repentance and announced the coming of the Christ, the King of Heaven. This was the initial straitening of the path of righteousness. This is he, of whom it is written, Behold, I send my messenger before thy face, Who shall prepare thy way before thee. Matt 11:10 (ASV)

The announcement to the world was first made in the spirit when Mary saluted (greeted) Elizabeth and John the Baptist, in vitro celebrated Christ by a holy dance in her womb Luke 1:41. John’s sole purpose from conception to birth was to be used as a servant of the Most High God as the forerunner to re-establish for mankind, entrée into the Garden of Eden, the Kingdom of God. John the Baptist said, I am not that light, but the trumpet that announces his coming, thus the forerunner.

The greatest trick of all universal time is the mastery that the enemy has over the world without revealing himself as the puppet master. Again, the greatest scam in the history of the world is the sleight of hand that the devil employs to keep mankind in the shadow of darkness without his ever knowing it. And so we are conditioned and indoctrinated into Satan’s world without perceiving it. For as all things begin in the spirit, so does evil.

Consequently we are taught to despise one another, to walk on and step over each other, climbing our neighbor’s back in order to get what we want. Another option is to live in the kingdom of heaven, by which we remove obstacles by speaking to them, not doubting and believing. We bless and curse not for we use the language of God. The language of God is the word of God and it culminates in Jesus Christ.

Walking in envy and jealousy we refuse to rejoice in each other’s accomplishments. We want you to stumble and fall in order to laugh at you. This behavior is taught to us as being competitive. So we forever strive with one another, fighting, clawing and scratching. Woven into the very fabric of our social interactions is the belief that right is wrong and that wrong is right.

Consider the parable of the sower and the seed, where Jesus teaches about the seed which is fallen by the wayside. The fowls of the air (Satan) came and devoured it before it could take root. Jesus explains later in the parable that when the word of God is heard, Satan comes immediately and takes it away before it is sown into the heart.

He further notes that if the seed had the opportunity to be planted then they (the children of darkness) would see, perceive, understand and repent, then their sins would be forgiven and Satan would lose a child. They would be converted, changed and the darkness would recede and the mysteries of the Kingdom of God would be revealed to them so that they could now walk in the light. The true mystery of the Kingdom of God is given to saints, only. It cannot be perceived by the lost for darkness comprehends it not.

As a child I read everything I could get my hands on. In Marvel’s Superman comic books there is a place called Bizarro World, where up is down, black is white, good is evil, etc. This world was parallel to earth and operated in synchronization with the physical activities of humanity on Earth. The kingdom of darkness operates on the principle of the ignorance of negative impact of the spiritual and physical activities of mankind. It is a cloak of darkness that hides itself.

If we cannot perceive the duality of truth we are forever slaves to the shadow of an outside influence. This concept is prophetic, true and obscure to most people. How can we fight a war when we are not even aware of it? The gravity of deception has placed us, our children and future in grave and imminent danger. We have been poisoned and the evidence of this is the silent misery and despair that we walk in and then, proliferate.

Now let’s talk about the cross impactual status of earth vs. heaven. Jesus said whatever you bind on earth is bound in heaven and whatever you loose in earth is loosed in heaven. What does that mean? It means that just as in Bizarro world, there is impact and effect in all that we do on this earth.

We can bind the spirit of hatred on earth and in heaven and loose the spirit of love on the earth. What if we bind the spirit of infirmity on earth and in heaven and loose the spirit of health on earth? Or we can bind the spirit of poverty on earth and in heaven and loose the spirit of abundance on earth. Also the spirit of ignorance can be bound on earth and in heaven while we loose the spirit of revelation knowledge on this earth.

The origin of all of our resources remains in heaven. How do we access heaven? And you shall have what you say, as a man thinks in his heart, so is he, speak life, bless and do not curse. The word of God, in conjunction with the spirit of Faith gives proper access to the Kingdom of Heaven. Therefore I say unto you, All things whatsoever ye pray and ask for, believe that ye receive them, and ye shall have them. Mark 11:24 (ASV)

What if an act of kindness on earth produces a rainbow in the heavens and a new song of praise is implanted into the mind of one of the saints of God on earth. Consider that our thoughts and deeds on this earth cause someone to be propelled toward light or recede into darkness. This process of thought will cause us to walk in circumspection, wisdom and harmony. We are interconnected whether we know it or not. Ignorance is no excuse because the residual effect remains the same; the downfall of mankind.

THE RESULT

Because we walk in obscurity our confusion is increased by the illusion of life which is in fact a sub-life. We live beneath our intended privilege. This is the gift of Satan and he laughingly watches us flounder about, deceived and lost. Because we are unable to discern truth, we call good evil and call evil, good. Confusion is enhanced by the invisible dominion of the evil one and his emissaries. The prince of this world is alive and ruling.

He speaks to and guides us; a master manipulator, while most are not even aware of his existence. This is the greatest bit of trickery employed in the history of mankind. The illusion of life as we know it is in reality death that separates us from God and his vision for our lives. Our critical goal is to return to God and his Garden. As long as we remain confused in the direction of our journey, destiny is deferred, (delayed) and possibly never realized.

THE ILLUSION

The war is fought in the spirit for we wrestle not against flesh and blood, Ephesians 6:12. Consequently the majority of mankind walks this earth in total ignorance of the truth, wrestling with the manifestation of the flesh instead of recognizing the forces of the spirit. We never accept dominion to bind the powers that influence life on earth and in heavenly places. The realization that the forces of darkness have influence and dominion over our lives is never addressed. Authority that has been given to us is ignored.

People belong to Satan and don’t even know it. Imagine being born a king and not knowing your royal status. We would walk this earth as a commoner not sharing in our inheritance or having dominion over our surroundings. The land belongs to us, and yet we live the life of a beggar instead of living in abundance.

This is the hidden and true estate of the fallen man. He sinks into complicity with the evil one, not even knowing his allegiance and philosophy of life is a lie. Secret agents complicit in our own demise, we defend our right to destroy and be destroyed. And the angels weep in frustration as Jesus wept in sorrow for we do not employ the angelic hosts and until we speak the word of Faith, they are unable to assist us. Angels respond only to mankind via the word of God. We stop fighting people and take the fight to the spirit, the place where it belongs. We had better suit up and equip ourselves first.

They said that if we had enough money we would be happy but we’re not. They said that if we lived in big enough houses in the right neighborhood we would find peace, but that was a lie. They said it was a matter of education, if we just could get our master’s degree we would be all right, but it really didn’t count, did it? They said that the color of our skin would give preeminence, but it doesn’t. They said that the right husband or wife would solve the problem, but it didn’t. 2.3 children, yes, that’s