I Prayed to Die
By Sasha Meggie
()
About this ebook
Sasha Meggie
My name is Sasha Meggie, and I was born and raised in St. Catherine Jamaica.
Related to I Prayed to Die
Related ebooks
Testimony Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsYou Can't Have My Pearls Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsBattered but Not Broken: It's the Possibilities That Kept Her Going Not the Grantees Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsYeah, Though I Walk... A Journey of Survival and Deliverance Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsMy Journey to Self-Love Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsAdoption Is Not a Bad Word Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsSilent Cries of a Military Wife Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsThe Sun Is Always Shining: A Story of Adversity Turned to Triumph Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsCindy's Story Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsThe Secret Life of a Preacher's Wife Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsWho's Gonna Love Me Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsLife Is What You Make of It Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsMy Story: The Best Is Yet to Come Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsGirl Interrupted Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Inner Peace is WORLD PEACE Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsFrom Wrags to Ritches Cycles Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsSearching for Love: True Story Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsConquering Life Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsThe Great Awakening Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsFear and Hope Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsAbused But Not Defeated Rating: 2 out of 5 stars2/5Finally Free: Dying to Live Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsCaptivity or Freedom Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsFruit of the Womb Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsHidden Scars: Tattoos on the Soul Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsDear Journal Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsThank You For Making Me Better Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsYour Only Loyalty Is to the Truth Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsLove Devotion Hell Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratings
General Fiction For You
The Covenant of Water (Oprah's Book Club) Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5A Man Called Ove: A Novel Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Fellowship Of The Ring: Being the First Part of The Lord of the Rings Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The City of Dreaming Books Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Pet Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5It Ends with Us: A Novel Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Unhoneymooners Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Shantaram: A Novel Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Life of Pi: A Novel Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Priory of the Orange Tree Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Cloud Cuckoo Land: A Novel Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Mythos Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Silmarillion Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Dante's Divine Comedy: Inferno Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Nettle & Bone Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Cabin at the End of the World: A Novel Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Ulysses: With linked Table of Contents Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Meditations: Complete and Unabridged Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Lost Flowers of Alice Hart Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Jackal, Jackal: Tales of the Dark and Fantastic Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5You: A Novel Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Labyrinth of Dreaming Books: A Novel Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The King James Version of the Bible Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Babel: Or the Necessity of Violence: An Arcane History of the Oxford Translators' Revolution Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Outsider: A Novel Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Alchemist: A Graphic Novel Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Princess Bride: S. Morgenstern's Classic Tale of True Love and High Adventure Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Beartown: A Novel Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Canterbury Tales Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Anonymous Sex Rating: 2 out of 5 stars2/5
Reviews for I Prayed to Die
0 ratings0 reviews
Book preview
I Prayed to Die - Sasha Meggie
Copyright © 2013 by Sasha Meggie.
Library of Congress Control Number: 2013918536
ISBN: Softcover 978-1-4931-1325-5
eBook 978-1-4931-1326-2
All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic or mechanical, including photocopying, recording, or by any information storage and retrieval system, without permission in writing from the copyright owner.
This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places and incidents either are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Some parts of the story may be based from true events.
Rev. date: 01/15/2014
Xlibris
1-888-795-4274
www.Xlibris.com
142508
CONTENTS
Carmen Arace Middle School
My Grandparent’s House
Carmen Arace Middle School
Latoya’s House
Grandparent’s House
Carmen Arace Middle School
My Grandparent’s House
Carmen Arace Middle School
My Grandparent’s House
Carmen Arace Middle School
My Grandparent’s House
Carmen Arace Middle School
My Grandparent’s House
Carmen Arace Middle School
My Grandparent’s House
At My Father’s House
Sage Park High School
My Father’s House
The Park
Latoya’s House
My Father’s House
The Doctor’s Office
My Father’s House
Sage Park High School
My Father’s House
Sage Park High School
My Father’s House
Sage Park High School
My Father’s House
While every little girl prayed for their fathers to come home after a long work trip, I prayed mine never did. Early in the month of 2002 was when I first got off the plane and viewed the beautiful streets of America. I was twelve years old at the time and I was very impatient to meeting new friends. Excitement covered me as I rolled around in the beautiful white snow flakes. My brother Jerome, from my father’s side of family had come to visit me. He had just moved to America too, but he was living with my father’s ex-girlfriend Isola. Everything around me had a story to tell, and it was so exciting. But a few weeks later my story took a different turn, and it turn for the worst. I was clueless to what was going on in my life; I didn’t have the ability to understand at the time. A few weeks later my virginity was taken away from me, my body was in pain and my virgina hurts me for days. The only person I knew and could cry to was the man who took my pride away, my father
at the time I didn’t know that what my father was going to me was wrong. All that I cared about was feeling better and going outside to meet new friends. I started school when I was thirteen and up until that time my father still continued to molest me. I cried every day because of the constant pain that I was feeling.
I complained to my father about the constant pain that I was feeling, he kept on saying; you’ll soon feel better baby, don’t worry
those were my fathers comforting words to me every time that I tell him I am not feeling well. At school I didn’t have any friends I kept to myself, I no longer wanted any friends. And besides they all thought that I was ugly and weird. I went home one day feeling very sick to my stomach. I had never felt this kind of sickness before.
I was throwing up everything that I ate, shortly after my dad came home from work I told him exactly how I was feeling. I had to skip school the next day because my dad took me to the doctor. The doctor asked me a bunch of questions such as: if I am sexually active, how long have I been sexually active. These questions that the doctor was asking me I had no idea what he was talking about. He sent me to the bathroom to pee into the cup that he gave to me. Then shortly after he came back to the room and told my father and I that I was one months pregnant. After he said that I was pregnant he was saying some other things, and I didn’t hear not one more word my mind was completely blank.
My mother had called me from my home town in Jamaica and for the first time in over a year I really wanted to go home. But I knew I couldn’t; my mother have six kids and I am the eldest of the six. She couldn’t afford to take care of all of us. My dad said he was planning on taking my other sister, but he wasn’t ready to do so. I didn’t tell my mother anything about what was happening to me I was afraid of what might happen. I talked to all of my family back home and they all sounded so happy on the phone, but only if they knew how unhappy I was living in America. Their credit ran out so I hang up the phone and immediately went to bed. I woke up the next morning thinking that I was going to school but instead my dad drove me to the doctor to get an abortion. My father told me to tell the doctors that I had a boyfriend and if I didn’t tell them he would send me back home to my mother with nothing. I didn’t want to go home just like that to my mother; so I lied. I sat there in front of the doctor and listen to her lecturing me about using a condom every time, and learning how to protect myself when I am with my boyfriend. A boyfriend I didn’t even know I had; minutes later the doctor told me to lie down on the bed and spread my legs apart. The doctor stick a needle in my hand and told me to count back wards from a hundred, by the time I reached to ninety five I was seeing nothing but pure darkness. Num, weak, and drossy was how I woke up feeling what felt like hours later. To the right of the bed was Isola. She told me that she was here to help me out until I got better. Now Isola was a beautiful woman, I wondered if my daddy did to her what he was doing to me. After we got home Isola asked me the name of the boy who