Docile

By Paula Marie Beard

This is a true experience that God took me to and brought me through. As frightening and horrible as it was, I would not change a thing because this is what caused me to search for God. It took time to overcome the fear, and I did this by studying Gods Word and worshiping him. The more I got to know God and trusted him, the more I grew spiritually in his word. I have had some of the most amazing experiences because I believed. Is that something that you think you can do is believe?

How God loves you so much. He would get you out of your sin too. Jesus is calling for you. Are you listening?

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: May 11, 2016
• ISBN: 9781514491812

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Docile

easily taught, led, or controlled

PAULA MARIE BEARD

Copyright © 2016 by Paula Marie Beard.

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Rev. date: 05/10/2016

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Contents

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Chapter 6

Chapter 7

Chapter 8

Chapter 9

Chapter 10

Chapter 11

Chapter 12

Chapter 13

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Ephesians 3:9–13: ⁹ And to make all men see what is the fellowship of the mystery, which from the beginning of the world hath been hid in God, who created all things by Jesus Christ: ¹⁰ To the intent that now unto the principalities and powers in heavenly places might be known by the church the manifold wisdom of God, ¹¹ According to the eternal purpose which he purposed in Christ Jesus our Lord: ¹² In whom we have boldness and access with confidence by the faith of him. ¹³ Wherefore I desire that ye faint not at my tribulations for you, which is your glory. To the intent that now unto the principalities and powers in heavenly places might be known by the church the manifold wisdom of God…

I do want to acknowledge a few people.

My children, I hope your experience with God is awesome and he uses you powerfully and that your faith not fail you. God bless each one of you.

To my sister and my brother-in-law; thank you for praying for me.

Most of all, I want to thank God. Thank you for saving me and not leaving me, for giving me courage even though I am still a work in progress. Thank you for opening my eyes to the spirit world and confirming that my whole life has not been in vain and for being the daddy that I never had and making it possible for me to climb up into your lap for you to comfort me and kiss all my boo-boos. Thank you for taking care of my children and for saving their souls. Thank you for our hope… for our future.

My father God is the one that gave me the desire to write this book. He also gave me the title docile.

I was lying in bed one day and thinking about what was my purpose for being here. I started thinking about my road to salvation and my journals that I used to keep. Surely I did not go through all this in vain, and suddenly in the Holy Spirit still small voice, God gave me the title "docile. I thought, That wasn’t me that said that." I didn’t even know what it meant. I was excited, and I immediately looked it up on the Internet. Wow, when it popped up and I saw the meaning, I was speechless. I was tickled. God is so smart and eavesdropped on my thoughts. It suited my situation. Can you imagine the creator of the sun, moon, and stars just gave me the title of my book?

docile - adjective : easily taught, led, or controlled

God, you are so awesome… Have I told you today that I love you, Lord? I do always.

I do understand there will be quite a few people, saved or unsaved, who will not believe me and will say that I am bipolar or manic depressive or just insane. I experienced people’s unbelief while going through this, even now. I could not understand how someone can believe some of the Bible but not all of it.

It’s okay because one day, no matter where you end up, in heaven or hell, you will believe. I just hope that it is not too late for you.

My hope for writing this book is that it will open someone’s eyes. There are people out there who need the information and experiences that I have been collecting. When I look through my spiritual eyes, I am thankful that God trusted me and chose me for this, but when I am in the flesh, it is hard for me to understand why. This would have not been the road or life that I would have chosen. I would have chosen a normal life, growing up in church and having a good upbringing, never feeling lost, alone, and highly unusual (different).

This did not come at a small price, so please don’t take it lightly. If God can get me out, he can get you out. God is bigger than any situation. He is the God for the job. Seek Jesus!

All the events are true. They are not made up or written just to make this book interesting.

Although I was not led to put everything that happened in this book, some things are so out there only the fully mature would be able to partake of it.

Psalm 139: 13-17: ¹³For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother’s womb. ¹⁴I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well. ¹⁵My substance was not hid from thee, when I was made in secret, and curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. ¹⁶Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect; and in thy book all my members were written, which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was none of them. ¹⁷How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! How great is the sum of them!

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