Musings of Desire: Poems
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Within the corners of our living rooms
Memories are sweetly nesting.
They have made a house within our houses,
basking in the glorious light, or reclining
upon the soft couch in the shed.
From examining the nostalgia of love, to muse upon the memories of losses and pains, this, Amits third collection of poems and verses, is even richer and poignant. While at times, it is engaging, devotional and philosophical, at other times, it also observes quietly the nature of our contemporary world.
Amit Radha Krishna Nigam
Amit Radha Krishna Nigam is the Author of English Poetry collections ‘Pilgrims’ and ‘Awake Wonder and lost’. This is his third poetry book. Amit works in an MNC, currently based out of Hyderabad. He can be reached at arknbooks@gmail.com and he tweets at @imaginovationz
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Musings of Desire - Amit Radha Krishna Nigam
Copyright © 2015 by Amit Radha Krishna Nigam.
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Contents
Acknowledgements
Preface to this collection
I. NOT Sonnets
II. Musings of Desire
1. After a long time
2. Farewell my friend
3. This much and more
4. An old sigh
5. On imagining you
6. Without a word
7. The loss of a church
8. Your Absence
9. Saturday Afternoon
10. Your memories
11. Soon the world shall blind your memory
12. Apprehensions of Mistrust
13. Homeless birds
14. Stubborn love
15. How long before your memory would cease?
16. You don’t leave me
17. Pampering
18. I crave for you
19. Your sweet memory
20. The Mender of Heart
21. Musings of Desire
22. You hold my soul
23. You cannot lie to me
24. As I knew her a long time ago
25. A broken necessity
26. Memories still know
27. Nostalgia
28. Distractions of Void
29. Giving up on apartment hunting
30. This valentine, in the happiest hour
31. ExMeeting
32. Timestamps of words
33. Just a waste emotion now
34. From here and nowhere else
35. A painful wait
36. Your Words
37. Visiting your place once
38. After a Separation
39. Go
40. No More
41. Distances
42. A Loss compensated
43. I was awake
44. When you left
45. Winter Night
46. Breaking the glasses of winds
47. An Exchanged kiss
48. Sixty years from now.
49. I am Happy
50. I have loved you.
51. With you
52. Only a few days remain
53. A Lost struggle
54. If you fail to come today
55. A cry of my soul
56. My hands are busy rasping my heart
57. A walk with you
58. Talk to me
59. Forgetfulness
60. Is it a wound that can be healed?
61. Memory is a city of unrecalled layers
62. Phonebook
63. Stonehearts
64. Once I was in love with her
65. Memory shifts
III. By the docks
1. Reconstructing Square
2. A Witness Tree
3. Goodbyes
4. Treasure.
5. An Introduction to Friendship
6. End of summers
7. An overflow
8. Recollected and Repaired
9. End of a beautiful relation
10. A Cry
11. The gift of love - 1
12. It is impossible to love and to be wise
13. Partings
14. The Gift of love - II
15. But we can always be near.
16. Let’s pick up those trashed letters from the bin
17. Mornings without you
18. Threshold of Memories
19. Todays and yesterday’s memories
20. Little kisses of fondness.
21. Possessions
22. To my Friend
23. You and I, and the things that bind us.
24. Ignorance
25. I forgive you
26. One cloistered night
IV. Our World
1. Upon the porch*
2. More Divine
3. A Privileged voice
4. Fear not, for I am here.
5. An another scam
6. A story of our comforts
7. Where are my roots?
8. Reminiscence of Civilizations
9. At the beginning of Indian Philosophy
10. Divorce
11. Some tempered faiths
12. Recycling
13. A daily routine
14. A Poor Master
15. I stopped killing mosquitoes because I can’t.
16. Questions on Unethical Progress
17. Preventing Malaria
18. Awards
19. Fantasy
20. City’s Horizon.
21. Karma
22. Helicopter
V. From The Book of Poetry
1. Only If
2. Let me savor every drop of this nether hour
3. When I am not reading poetry
4. A matter of rhyme
5. How do I begin writing poetry?
6. Rubies for us
7. The final resting place
VI. From the Book of Krishna and other verses
1. Vrindavandesha
2. From the Book of Krishna
3. God’s faithful
4. A beloved’s messenger
5. The essence of a Kshatriya
6. The Essence of the mystic devout Sudama
7. The Essence of Prahalad
8. The Essence of Radhika
9. The Essence of the Matsya Avatar
10. The essence of celibacy
11. The essence of Ramayana
12. The Essence of Peace
VII. Untitled
1. On Egoism
2. Indifferences
3. The trouble with hobbies
4. Snake Dreams
5. Then step into your father’s shoe
6. Happiness (for otherwise sake)
7. Curator of Hope
8. Death is a silent hum in the music of life
9. Idleness
10. A Moment
11. Land of quicksand
12. Septic Thoughts
13. At the Conveyor belt
14. For Nick Vujicic and others
15. Brahamachari
16. Dorothy Parker
17. The story of two primeval Elements - Hydrogen and Oxygen.
18. A girl is singing in my head
19. All things will die
VIII. My Heart Cries Today
1. O’ howling dog
2. On Sorrows
3. A Substantial loss
4. Before winters
5. Before a Suicide
IX. Musing on Obituaries
1. Sky’s Leak – For the people of Bhopal
2. A hawker’s eyes
3. A slumber that will never break
4. Attacks
5. Loosing Will
6. On Farmers Suicide
7. A Crying Gaijatra
8. This is the point where he left his words
X. The Nature of a Seeker
XI. From the Notebook
XII. Some SONGS and VERSES
For my family.
For Krishiv (duggu), the new one.
And for those around the world who suffer, endure
and come out better.
Acknowledgements
This has been a long journey. Thanks to my family, Smt Shobha Nigam, Dr. Radha Krishna Nigam, Rahul (chotu), Pooja didi and Shri Mohit Srivastava for their ceaseless support and love throughout.
Heartfelt acknowledgement is also made to hundreds of readers around the world of the allpoetry.com site where few poems of this collection have previously appeared and appreciated. It gave me good courage to include them in this book.
To the four pillars of a writer’s atelier – MS word (or open Office as in my case), Laptop, coffee and solitude.
I would also like to thank the Editors and designers of this book, who worked to give it the best look possible.
To my god, Krishna, I thank you last but not the least.
Preface to this collection
I believe that there is no other artistic expression closer to soul as poetry. At times it speaks to us in the most saddest or happiest ways possible, but then, at other times, it speaks none at all. It crawls deepest yet remains afloat. It wrenches yet soothes. It hurts yet medicates. It cries to our wounds yet offers them a delight. It listens to our heart and let it speak, yet remains a mute spectator and gambles with our thoughts.
And in poetry, Love, Longings and nostalgia are perhaps the most realized, beautifully experimented and caressed upon themes that poets have used to express themselves all over the world and not just in recent times, but since the time modern poetry entered its renaissance. These emotions conquer our memory like no other will of nature. They command our dreams and shape our thoughts and even our convictions of right and wrong, our notions of morality and sympathy and what not. Emotions, when they touch us deep, become a hunter that whip as they want and we dance, and signatures of our moves appear in the poems that we write. Poetry contains the flesh and blood of the rhythm in poet’s lives and the characters of their dreams and nightmares.
And Wonderment. And craziness.
And often poets have passed their skills on to the generations, as the permanent losses or gains of inheritance and poetry, then seem to live forever.
Although, so much of their craftsmanship and wealth do poets have spent on the poetry of love, sadness, wars, and nostalgia in emotionally charged and powerfully intense ways, yet I find there is no ending of the ways in which poets write still and will continue to write about love. Even today, every love poem attempts to alter or expand the previously rich imagery of the love, if not more but must, in the minds of its readers. At times sweet-as-honey and at times sour-as-bitter-melon, love can be both nectar to the throat and a venom. And as such, we, as poets, love to drink it full whatever its taste may be. Also because love, both as a subject and a theme, presents to us an infinite vast canvas for our imagination to take unconventional shapes. And hence, Poems of love (and memories that are borne out of it) dominates this collection as well.
As far as the question of ‘How this collection is organized’, I begin this collection with 5 poems that are written in Shakespearean sonnet structure (3 quatrains and 1 voila couplet in the end). But since they do not follow either an iambic-pentameter or any other specific sonnet metric pattern and hence I have called them ‘Not sonnets’ for they are as such. The biggest section of this collection, ‘Musings of desire’, is the heart and soul of this collection. Poems of love, separation, nostalgia, lamenting, loss, and of course of memories are predominant. It mostly contains lyrical poems as against descriptive or epic (narrative) forms for the simple reason that short impulses of thoughts are best described by this form of poetry. It includes my work over the last one and a half year after Pilgrims was published in Feb ’14. I did not stopped writing love poems when Pilgrims was out and so in many ways, I felt as if I am writing Pilgrims all over again just with different words and fresh emotions. However, there are a few differences in this collection in the way poems are organized and presented.
First, as unlike before, they are now divided and categorized into sections to emphatically suit their mood and tone. Another minor difference is that the titles of all the poems appear afterwards. This may look a little crazy and experimental, I know, but I have my own reasons for that (as all craziness does).
One thing that is not changed though is that I have again avoided, as far as possible, using pretentious words. Not because it’s a part of my craft, but simply because I don’t know enough still. Pity me. But also because one of the feedbacks for Pilgrims was that