Your Inner God: Who Is the Real You?

By Carmina Harr

I can certainly state that writing can change your life. It is one of the therapies I practised and it had very good results. That is how I began to write the book. Initially, out of impulse. Afterwards, I realized how much it helped me writing everything I felt in my heart. The miracle offered by writing is that you get the answers to all your questions. Those questions to which only your heart can answer. Once you find answers to everything you did not even think you would come up with solutions, you are absolutely healed. I feel that only a person completely healed can help the others. The rest is just dust in the wind. The message of the book is practically beyond words. If you open yourself, the God within you will write with your own hand everything your mind would not even think possible.
A few words about me. Following my inner transformation, I have become what I am now. What are the fundamental features that define me?
I am a determined woman, very active. I relish the experiences full of action. I always know what I want and where I want to get. I act for what I want. I am an expansive woman, full of life. I attract people around me by the intelligence and refinement I have. I am attracted to powerful persons with a sparkling intelligence. I have spiritual aspirations and I have the spontaneous quality of leading those around me on the path of self-discovery.

• Language: English
• Publisher: AuthorHouse
• Release date: Nov 7, 2014
• ISBN: 9781496946690

Carmina Harr

I like the change, and the others have nothing to do it and they have to accept this side of me. Life means evolution. I change my activity, my job, my residence, I specialize in something, and then I find that studying another area it would be more useful. I am brave. I have a strong character. I don’t stumble in details, I prefer to go straight to the target. I have specific goals and don’t move further away from them. When I start something I finish it. I like to take a walk and to see foreign countries, and if I like what I find, I might move there, of course I don’t know for how long. Curiosity pushes me to find out everything that moves. I am always active and open to new experiences. I am very correct, I can’t stand injustice and I keep my verticality, even when there is pressure on me. I don’t know what compromise is. I am a rational person. I don’t give in to impulses. Intuition helps me a lot, and I count on it when I’m in contact with other people. I’m good of making jokes and bring people out of their numbness. I enjoy what I have, yet I always seem to want something else. I love everything new and travelling is for me the best solution to recharge my batteries. If there are limits imposed to me or I feel I can’t stay blocked in a particular place or job that doesn’t satisfy me, I turn 180 degrees without blinking, because I am flexible and I adapt easily anywhere. Now, few opinions with regards to the attitude a winner feels when they are for a long time outside their comfort zone: ? “Every foot in the back became a step forward! This is the reason I appreciate the ones who always had obstacles in front of them! The cozy comfort is not a trampoline, neither it motivates sufficiently (we are quiet OK this way!), but we have to be honest and to admit that “self-infliction” sound a bit masochistic and very few of us have the courage to do this consciously. I would say there are very few of us in this category, but if we at least try to understand the meaning of the losses and to use the best of the situation, we are already winners.

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1.   The Time Has Come to Get to Know Each Other!

I have known since my childhood that I am a remarkable, special person, as it is each person on Earth. But most of the times, it takes a lot of work with yourself to find out who you really are and what your purpose on this Earth is.

I have known that in this life I would find out the answer to these questions and with joy in my soul, I want to share it with you, as well.

I would like to make a short summary of my life in order to understand better what I want to share to those around me who have dedicated their lives to discover who they really are.

I can tell you sincerely that I can remember very few things from my childhood. I can say that I have an extraordinary family who has supported me, mostly financially. My parents helped me a great deal on this road of self-discovery. I am their first child. To my brother I feel a special energetic bond. The difference of age between us is only one year and two months. After six more years my sweet sister was born. She has been for me as an elder sister, as she has a strong personality, with the attitude of a leader and she is very determined regarding what she wants to do with her life.

I used to be a very withdrawn, isolated person, as my only goal was to be the best in school. I used to have some very clear and rigid life principles, which in time made me suffer an awful lot. I borrowed all these stiff stereotypes from the people around me and especially from my family. My mother comes from a family of Catholic priests and she paid enough attention to the fact of raising us in a religious and sober environment. Her grandmother’s brother had a PhD in the history of religions. His name was Neculaes Dominic. Consequently I grew up as a very religious person, being convinced that the Church will give the answers to all my questions.

I had no social life, as I used to believe that any form of joy and happiness was in fact a sin, as the Church claimed.

In high school my only concern was to study. I was admitted as first, having the best grades to an economic high school and after four years I finished as the second best student. Already then I felt I was somehow special, because I was different from the other kids. I felt very mature at that age and I knew I didn’t come accidentally into this world. Afterwards, I continued my studies at a famous university in Iași. During my years at the university my priorities were, as always, to study and my first boyfriend, who appeared in my life. It was love at first sight, a strong attraction from both sides, without knowing how much this relationship of approximately five years would change me. My lack of experience and my narrow way of approaching life have brought me a lot of pain and suffering. Due to the fact that I was living according to the rules imposed by my family and those promoted by the Church, I went on living an unhappy and senseless life. Only after having graduated from university I did impose to myself to break this dysfunctional relationship and to start a new life. I have suffered tremendously, as I was left with a very deep wound that healed very difficultly. My suffering was getting bigger and bigger, as I was observing that I was breaking the strict rules of the Church and I was considering myself a more and more sinful person. For approximately five years I have lived in my own Hell, because I used to believe that humiliation and suffering are normal if you wanted to be loved and cared for by God. I knew it was a huge sin to have a lover without being married, and because this inevitable incident had occurred, I had to endure absolutely everything to get to the sacred marriage.

I slowly started to release these old stereotypes which were causing me so much suffering.

After having graduated from the university, I continued my studies for four more years, to get specialized in the field where I wanted to become the best. I finished a master program in commerce, after which another one specializing in human resources. In the meantime I met the person who soon became my husband. Forced by my old beliefs and my family, I have made the innocent decision to take this important step. One of my outdated beliefs was not to live in sin. Especially as I knew I have already sinned once, in the sense of a Christian life. After a relatively short period of time my husband has decided to be next to another woman, who probably brought him more happiness and joy. I found myself forced to face the facts and I was surprised by his attitude, as he was a chl alm and good-hearted man. It was very difficult for me to accept the reality, which caused me even more pain. My suffering had two sources. Firstly, divorce was a huge sin, and secondly I have been disappointed because I trusted people a lot. I suffered deeply because of the two partners. The wound was getting deeper and deeper. Few years of introspection and meditation on everything that had happened followed then. I continuously questioned myself why all of this was happening to me if I was a religious person who had been observing the rules strictly. My eternal question was: Why? Then came a moment when I realised that the God I had been praying to all this time couldn’t give me joy and happiness because I had been praying to a false God, a God created by religion, an external God.

At that moment I was very confused, as I could not conceive that I had believed in something that didn’t even exist. Then, I realized that there was a powerful force in the Universe, but I couldn’t define yet what it was exactly, but for sure not the God promoted by the Church. Since that moment, I have chosen, with all my heart, to find out about this force of the Universe of which I was sure it worked.

In my own self I knew that God was not evil, he didn’t punish people, didn’t judge them and didn’t condemn them. At that moment I have realized that religion promotes a God who punishes you if you make a mistake, guarantees you a life in Hell, as it affirms that humans are sinners since their birth, regardless of what one does, as we are the descendants of Adam and Eve.

I have realised I was living in my own prison which had huge walls. Now I should bring down these walls, after having constructed them for years with such tenacity, if I wanted to be free. I was aware of the fact that these walls were in fact my beliefs, my ideas taken over from everything that surrounded me since the moment I was born. I was aware of the fact that it would take a lot of work with myself if I wanted to find out who I really was and why I really came onto this Earth, why did I experience so many things causing me so much suffering.

After my divorce a few years of loneliness followed, because the suffering was overwhelming me and I felt it was time to go deep down in my heart and discover who God really was, where was He when I needed him, why was He so cruel to me after having dedicated my life to him.

I was born in the town of Roman, county Neamț. A beautiful city, but not as big as I would have wanted. Therefore I chose to leave my home town right after I graduated from high school to search for other opportunities and to get to know other people. I left a piece of my heart in each place I have ever been to.

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2.   Wake Up!

If the person next to you perceives God differently, don’t try to contradict him. Don’t try to hurt him. The perceptions of God differ. Although I have noticed that all the people associate the name of God with the Infinite Love. This is the answer. Beyond any perception, opinion or belief, let us find the mutual ground, Love and let us be aware of the fact that we are Its manifestation. The Infinite is One and the Same. The Infinite is Love."

It takes courage to be who you are, how you are! You need courage to throw out of the window all the conditioning and not to care about the things some people consider normal or abnormal. You need courage to stand face to face with yourself and to make peace with all your nuances. But when you do, you get unimaginable wings!

You have the free will to choose: to go on living your life from the point of view of a regular human perspective, where the single goal is to live feeling comfortable with the roles you are playing, or to realize that your inner world created by thoughts and emotions has a heavy impact on the outer world.

Your life may seem a mysterious journey but seen from the inside of your heart, it is like a child’s play.

Looking around, I have seen unhappy people. Why? Because we are always searching for external confirmation, we are waiting for the people around us to accept us, appreciate and love us. We seem to have the same habit when it comes to the divine force. We believe in an external God, in someone who is going to come and save us from all our problems and sufferings. Probably, most people observe that the situation does not change. The reality we are living in is the same, even if we are doing good deeds, even if we are constantly trying to please the others. We start feeling pity for ourselves and to act as victims, believing that this is the solution for all our inner anxieties.

One day I had a revelation that determined me to look even more for the answer to my questions. Something from my inner being was telling me that I was the solution, the salvation and everything I wanted. But how could I believe all these things which I was feeling, when I knew about myself that I was a small, insignificant, worthless human being, without the power to change the reality around me? It felt more comfortable to believe that the external God was dictating the life I was living and to blame the people around me for my unhappiness.

It was difficult to accept that I had to release all those beliefs I had been living with, to bring down the walls of my prison, to liberate myself and to become a free person.

It was hard to believe that I had created all those situations and the changing of reality depended on me alone. In order to get to be responsible for my own decisions, first I had to work an awful lot with myself. I started to release the past which was not easy. I realized that if I didn’t release the past, I couldn’t live in the present. And if I cannot live the present moment, I won’t be able to create a bright future. I released those people who have caused me so much pain, with love and forgiveness, because I realized that on a spiritual level, out of the biggest love, they behaved like that so that I could find out who I really was, they allowed me to enter the deepest possible into my conscience.

I realized that it was impossible for me to attract perfect relationships which would offer me harmony and happiness in my heart, if I didn’t have those things. I realized that I couldn’t really love someone, unconditionally, if I didn’t love myself and respect myself adequately.

I know that it is very hard to accept that the people around you whom you don’t like and who bother you are only a reflection of what needs to be balanced out in your soul.

I know how difficult it is the fact that you need to change yourself and not the ones around you, to love yourself, to accept that you must change if you don’t like what is around you and to examine the darkness within your being to be able to balance it out and to transform it into love.

The spiritual awakening usually happens due to a very profound suffering. I have realized that one must not necessarily crack one’s conscience open by this hard way, this can be done differently as well, easily, without drama.

I often meet people who declare themselves people in light. In other words, in their hearts there is nothing but kindness and love. All they do is refusing to admit their dark side, hiding it somewhere very deep in their inner being. They do not realize the fact the human being is complete. In it there exists both the female side and the male side, both the dark side as well as the bright side. Indeed, some people use more their dark side, because they are here in a regular life, to accumulate experience on a spiritual level. But some of us are in our last life here on Earth, because we are very old souls, which have had at least one thousand lives so far and have experienced absolutely everything to help enrich our soul. In this last life, which you have chosen on a spiritual level, although you might not realize it, you will always have the instinct to ask yourself: Who are you in fact? Why are you again on this Earth?

In this life, you will balance out the darkness and the light within you, the male and the female in you, because you acknowledge the fact that you are a complete being, both human and divine. It is time to merge with your divine Self, to bring home all the aspects, all the roles played in your other lives. In this life, you admit you are no longer a common person living a usual life, probably controlled by karma, but the royal aspect. Which means that you have reached that level of spiritual evolution and you realize it is time for the Human inside of you to merge with the Divine. Your soul has been waiting for the moment when you are ready to become one. It has kept all the experiences of past lives, good ones or not so good ones. Therefore, in this life, which you have chosen as royal life you have assumed the responsibility to release all the aspects (lives) where you played negative roles. In this life, when you admit to being Divine Human these wounded aspects get to be freed. That is why it is very likely to have inexplicable bad moods.

As soon as you manage to reach an inner balance, your reality may change according to your inner change. Why do I say all these? Because your soul which is present through your breath is in fact the divine spark, the Source, which connects absolutely all people, as long as they are alive and have not passed onto the other world, the world we cannot see. This Source, the divine spark is everywhere around you. It exists in everything that is alive. It exists in people, through their breath; it exists in the animals, trees, flowers, birds. Absolutely everywhere. We all are ONE. We are a spark of God, who is in everything. God has come through us, people, through the lives which exist and surround us, to extend the Creation, to be able to transpose the divine into the human body. Thus that veil which separates us from the invisible world disappears and probably, at some point, we will not step any more continuously in and out of the invisible world.

When you are in a process of spiritual evolution, it is very likely to have several relationships, because each time you will draw a person corresponding to your vibration level. But some people may choose to go down this road alone, until they reach that inner balance, that peace and love. At the moment when you realize that only when you will love yourself you will accept yourself entirely, you will stop judging, criticizing yourself and the huge inner transformation will start. Surely, at the right time, a person having the same inner balance as you will appear, to bond into a harmonious relationship that will bring you satisfaction and happiness. Only at that moment will you be able to love unconditionally, without the desire of trying to change the people around you the way you like it, without trying to choke them.

I noticed that most of us love conditionally: I’ll love you, if …. you sacrifice yourself for me, if you suffer because of me, if you become the way I want you to be, if you help me find my inner peace, if … etc. Such relationships reflect a low self-esteem, they indicate that you feel incomplete; you don’t realize that you are a complete being. Thus the manipulation appears the control of the loved one or of the very close persons. You are always looking for something external to bring you that state of peace and comfort. But unfortunately, this waiting is an illusion, as it is the fact that there is an external God who can save you.

You create the reality in which you are living, according to your thoughts and beliefs on life. In the first instance, you need to become the „observer" of your life and to detect the thoughts you are inevitably having. And at that moment you will realize that your reality is shaped according to these stereotypes. Now it is time to make the decision to change your way of thinking and your attitude towards life.

Your mind may often fool you or manipulate you up to the moment when you will really want to take over the control of your life. Why do I say all this? Your mind loves drama, it likes when you keep repeating those unpleasant situations you have experienced in your life, infinitely, changing only the characters. You must reach a balance with this game of swinging to and fro, ensuring your mind that everything will be OK if it releases those old stereotypes. The mind can take a break and rest, so that the divine in you can take over the control of your life. Your mind doesn’t want to give in and leave its place to your Spirit. The Divine in you always communicates with you, but you don’t manage to hear the message due to the noise made by your mind. Your mind is your ego. It is the one repeating infinitely that you are weak, that you are no good, that you must sacrifice yourself to reach the proposed objectives. Instead, the divine in you can communicate through intuition, through instinct.

The most difficult part comes when you have to let go of the ego, which means you have to let go of absolutely everything that is old, to be able to make other choices, at another level, with your soul. It is difficult to let go of the people familiar to you, of your job, of your home. But you should understand that the only purpose of these releases is to make room for the divine in you. If, inexplicably, everything disappears from your life, you must be confident that everything is all right with you and everything will be fine. Then follows a period in which absolutely nothing happens, a hollow space has been created in your life and you cannot find a meaning for it. You just have to confide in yourself that the divine is preparing something new for you. From this moment on you will start to perceive life from a different angle. When you are in balance with yourself and you know you are not alone, but with the divinity in you, with that spark from God which has been waiting for your call for a long time, you will make choices at another level, in accordance with your soul. You will attract a job or an activity you like, a person as balanced as you, who doesn’t cause you any pain. If you just manage to ease your mind, you will be able to choose only those situations which will bring peace and joy to your heart, giving you power and strength, instead of exhausting you and consuming your energy.

It is well known that we only use 8-10% of our brain. Only the famous geniuses have used 12% of its capacity. Approximately 90% is free. Your soul wants you to use the rest of 90% as well and wants to transform the mind from a limited one into a boundless one. Your mind is afraid to give up its place for the divine in you, because it thinks you will exclude it totally. That is why it offers so much resistance, it is afraid of everything that is new. It thinks that it will lose control of you entirely. In all your lives, it has guided and coordinated you. That is why you have to have a great deal of patience with it and to make it understand that you will use it, but differently, without limits.

Please do with me a short exercise and use your imagination.

Imagine that in a room you have a library. The library is your Self. There are all your experiences of all of your lives, including the present one. Each experience is written in a book. All those books are your aspects. But in this life you have chosen to merge with the divine in you to become a whole. The moment has come to find in that library a book with blank pages, in which only a few lines are written: Your Inner God! You are the Creator of your life!!!

Each human being is unique, meaning that you have your own story and reality, according to your beliefs, your way of thinking, your way of contemplating life.

I want to tell you the story of my soul. When and how I have awakened, realizing that I have come here to experience and to live in happiness.

I have always been looking for something, but I never knew exactly for what. As most people, for a long time I have been looking for the answers from the outside, until a certain moment. In the summer of 2009, my long waited answer came from inside. With great excitement and an immense joy in my heart, I found out who I was and why I was here. It has been like a revelation.

Because during my life I have made a lot of releases, the majority taken from me, inexplicably, when everything was perfect or without a realistic cause, I never stopped asking myself: „Why?"

Only the moment when I have found peace and tranquillity in my heart, the answers started coming slowly, to all my questions. I had all the experiences from the past to help me open my conscience. Because I offered resistance, I inevitably found myself in a drama, until one day I decided: Enough! I surrender! I got tired! Now I understood the fact that I had to give up the old to be replaced by the new.

In the spring of 2009, by a mistake, my neighbour gave me his entire messenger list. I hit accept, even though I didn’t know exactly to what. By accident I came into contact with two people who had a part of the answers I was looking for. One of them, on one morning sent me the books spiritual master online. At that moment I felt a great joy, as if a huge load had been taken off my heart.

I read, with the instruments of the old energy, day by day, entire book collection in maximum two weeks. But on the recommendation of my second family from Năvodari, I started to re-read the books, in another way. A lesson per week. This time with the tools of the new energy, with the heart, understanding the message beyond the written words. I had the sensation that absolutely everything was written especially for me. I was so happy that I couldn’t express my joy in words for those around me, because I knew they wouldn’t understand. This is when I started to draw the people who were resonating with my inner truth. Due to my inner voice, which was continuously repeating me that I have to meet these people, I decided to go to a presentation of my second family in Constanţa. I felt a great joy in my heart.

Soon, I have received the obvious confirmation, by the existence of other people, that what I have been feeling is abnormally normal. Years ago, on a spiritual level, I got a lot of answers to my inner questions, but I couldn’t understand them with my mind until I opened my heart. Then I became aware and I discovered the BREATH, the simplest way to get in touch with my higher Self, with the Divinity in me, in the Now moment.

With patience, perseverance and confidence, all the answers have come from the inner of my being, the answers which I longed for at the respective moment. I have understood that if you want to be happy, you need to release the disequilibrium of your being. When you offer resistance, you find yourself in a drama. And if you breathe consciously, you release the disequilibrium.

I have understood that the past is no longer mine. The past helped me reach to this point of the evolution of my soul. The present moment and the breath are the basic instruments in the new spiritual age.

I became aware that I was perfect, loved, valuable and complete. I am God, as well and I was created to exist in the joy of life.

Most people, even if they don’t know it, are asleep. Nowadays, lots of people are living unconsciously, satisfying their primary instincts and finding much pleasure in their satisfaction. They were born asleep, they live asleep, they get married in their dreams and have children asleep, die asleep, without ever waking up.

All mystics, Christian, non-Christian, regardless of belief, regardless of religion, agree on one thing: everything is well in the Creation! Even if everything seems a mess, all is well. But most people don’t get to see that everything is all right, because they are asleep, and as in a dream, they are living a nightmare. The nightmare of their lives, the drama and the suffering they are living in.

You have to get out of this phase of conscience development and to ascend to higher levels of conscience, towards Self-Realisation, to discover who you really are. So is life, most people wish not to play any more as children, but it is hard. All you want to do for them is to repair their broken toys. Give my wife back. Give my job back. Give my money back. Give my reputation and success back. This is their only wish to replace their toys. That’s it. People don’t really want to be healed. All they want is comfort and compassion. A healing would be painful and they don’t want that.

The spiritual awakening is unpleasant, I now it quite well. You feel good and comfortable in the bed. It is annoying to be awakened. I know. That is why the enlightened wise man will not try to wake you up.

A guru or a confessor cannot carry out the awakening. They can show you the path you have to follow towards self-discovery. The awakening itself will be done by you. The duty of the enlightened person is to help you, if you let him, to guide you, to support you, but you are the one who needs to get up from the bed and not to go through life as a sleep walker any more.

3.   The Invisible World

A few years ago I was in a terrible depression. I was fighting against my dark side which had started to manipulate me because I couldn’t trust myself. I thought I was an insignificant being and I was still waiting for a miracle from the God projected by the Church. But, unfortunately, I noticed that the situation got from bad to worse. I couldn’t believe that God had something against me and was causing me so much pain unjustly. Until the day I said enough to that entire labyrinth in which I was circling and of which I couldn’t get out. I got so tired that I gave up and decided to renounce to the Ego and let myself in the hands of the divine. But the fear was huge. How could I entrust myself into the hands of someone who doesn’t exist, whom you can’t see or confirm? Then a rather long period followed during which absolutely nothing happened. I lost everything inexplicably: my job, my husband, even old friends. I was left alone with myself. There was only me with myself, it was the period when I was confronting with the side of me I didn’t like, with all my old-fashioned beliefs on people and life in general.

There were moments when I wished to leave behind this human territory because the confrontation with me seemed too difficult. On the day when I made this decision, from all my heart, a miraculous thing happened. At night, in my dream, I major change took place in my conscience. My soul detached itself from my body and left together with my guides into a universe difficult to be seen with human eyes. I left with my guides because at that moment I needed support, I hadn’t reached yet the phase where I could support myself alone. Your angels and your guides will support you until the moment when you will be able to take the responsibility of your life into your own hands. There is a thick photonic cover between the visible and invisible world which doesn’t allow you to see and to feel what is happening beyond, only if you open your heart and your senses. I was very happy to have reached the other side, I really didn’t want to return. But my Spirit, together with my guides, brought me back because on a spiritual level I chose to come into this life to find out who I really was. When I woke up and noticed that I had come back, I was very sad and disappointed, I couldn’t grasp with my mind why my Spirit wouldn’t leave me there.

After this revelation I felt like another person, as if my old identity had died. My conscience was much wider, I had ideas and thoughts which I hadn’t had before that moment and I was wondering how I could know so many things. I knew I hadn’t read them in books or seen them in different documentaries. At that moment, I knew for sure that I was more than a single person having a body and a mind. But I was confused by the incredible change that had occurred to me, I simply couldn’t recognise myself. I found myself talking to different people in another language, that of the soul and I noticed they were looking at me surprised and very odd. It was then when I realised that not all people around me are the same, and the majority of them could consider me lunatic or far-fetched. That is why at a certain moment I decided to talk only when asked, to avoid that state of unease they were causing me. After that dream I realised that I hadn’t returned completely into my body, into the real world, I wasn’t entirely aware of the fact that I was here. Until the moment I decided not to continue living in this confusion between the two worlds.

For a long period of time I was asking myself how come I knew so many things and what should I do with so much information coming to me instantaneously when I wasn’t connected to my mind.

I started reading even more books than before, on spirituality and other religions, in order to see whether others were thinking like me, or perhaps, unconsciously I had taken over the ideas of others. Reading all those books, I realised that each had an own vision and expressed its own truth. I realised that there are several truths, according to the spiritual evolution of each individual and there were several ways to discover the Self, the god in you. It is not mandatory that someone’s truth and vision to coincide with your truth. Each person must find its own way of self-discovery, because all the answers to your questions dwell within you and are waiting for you to open your heart and soul to be able to access them. I present my own experience through which I have managed to find out who I really am and my purpose on this Earth.

I was very surprised to discover that I was living in a big illusion, based on the ego and the material side. I was left disappointed when I gained clarity regarding the world we were living in. I couldn’t believe that everything around me was an illusion, starting with the church, who was promoting a God external to us, having the role of punishing you for each idea or fact that promoted a negative attitude towards people and always transmitting that state of fear from God. Fear is the only thing that doesn’t allow you to open up your soul. Only LOVE can open your soul.

In the invisible world there is no such thing as the Hell promoted by the Church or the stories telling that you will burn. Actually, there are people who know that when they die they will reach the Hell they believed in when living on the Earth. Their souls cannot detach themselves entirely from Earth and they linger somewhere between the worlds. Better said, they are neither here in the world visible to the human eyes, nor there, in the invisible world. They can create their own Hell where they will stay and judge themselves for the deeds committed on Earth, suffering, repenting and crying. Actually, they don’t want to go beyond, to the invisible world, because they are stopped by fear and their belief. Of course I know there are people who will ask: ok, ok, but I can’t believe that a terrorist, a criminal or a thief will end up in the same place with me, who I used to be a good and honest person. Can you understand that a Soul may have several lives which I call aspects? It also wants to experience everything from the human point of view. The Soul and not the aspect reaches the other side, the invisible world. On the spiritual level we are all great, masters who have the courage to experiment different roles. Those people who choose to become murderers, criminals, rapists, have a young soul, they are rebels, and they haven’t reached the maturity on a spiritual level. But they are the ones who will eventually return and play another role, create a different aspect of their souls and balance out what they have done in another life. For example, a terrorist was left unpunished in the previous life and people considered it was unfair. In this life he will probably be an honest, quiet person and will stay behind bars unjustly. That is why we cannot understand with our mind why are so many unfair things happening to us. It might as well be a balancing out on a spiritual level. Our Soul keeps the record of all our lives. It wants to reach a balance at a certain moment, especially when it already is an old soul and has experienced at least one thousand lives. That is why I am convinced that there is no one always punishing us to suffer.

I call bad karma the negative experiences of other lives. At a certain moment, the negative karma wishes to be freed playing in other lives roles causing only positive karma. At some point your soul will reach a balance.

In spite of this, although a lot of people have both negative and positive karma registered on a spiritual level, you can choose consciously to stop the karma when you are a royal being. You have realised that you are not that aspect from the past, but much more than that, you are a SOVEREIGN BEING. Now the most painful aspects or lives haunting somewhere on another plan may come forward. They have been waiting for you to wake up and call them home. You, the sovereign being are all your lives registered on a spiritual level. Meaning you are experiencing the ROYAL LIFE in which you realize that you are not a simple being left abandoned, but that spark of god who came to experiment here, in human form, with the purpose of merging the divine in the human body.

Practically, the visible and invisible worlds are in the same place, but some people cannot feel or see what is happening beyond, because they haven’t opened their heart and haven’t realised who they really are. After you free the ego, you can receive with your soul the things being so close to you.

In my opinion, death is not such a tragic phenomenon as people think. The body is simply the home housing your soul. At a certain moment, the body may deteriorate, become old or sick and the soul wants to get out of it. Your soul is eternal, it never dies, it can come back when it considers it has something more to experience and it will borrow a new body. That is why it is important to take care of your body, because it is the temple housing the soul. Your Inner God wants to live in a nice and healthy home.

Some people may indeed say: why do young people die so young if they have a healthy body? Because they might be souls who have chosen a certain experience in this life. If that experience has been enough, they consider to have reached their goal and they see no point, on a spiritual level, in remaining on Earth. They prefer to come back in another body, to choose another family and other experiences, maybe more challenging.

Your spirit is very curious by nature and very rebel. It wants to experiment absolutely everything, even if it is told it is something that puts his life in danger. It wants to know how that experience is, no matter how tragic it will seem for those around. For it is very simple to die, considering that you have already done this a lot of times.

In conclusion, nothing is what it seems and nothing is as tragic as it seems if you look at things beyond what is visible to the human eye. Even when a person dies in a car accident, the body doesn’t feel pain, because the soul is already detached from the body a few seconds before that accident happens. This is a frequent way through which, on a spiritual level, unconsciously, you can choose to leave behind the physical plan, because you consider that you have learned what it was to learn in this life. Not the human in you considers this, but your Spirit.

I could offer a lot of examples in this sense, because the answers come automatically when you have clarity and are watching as an observer, detached, though the eyes of the soul. It is not necessary to die once again to remember who you really are.

The moment you wake up and you realize that you are the divine spark, life can be lived differently, on another level. You can release those stereotypes which have been printed in your mind since your birth, that you are immortal and that your life here is senseless. You can take more care of your body, your soul in order to extend your human life. You must be conscious of the fact that you are more than these roles you choose to play in life: the role of a wife/husband, employer, woman/man, etc. On a spiritual level you are a whole. You are both woman and man, both darkness and light. Darkness pushes light to the surface, and, at a certain moment they reach a perfect balance. As there is no night without day, in the same way there cannot be light without darkness. You can choose the role of a woman in this life if you still have to balance and accept the male part. That is why it often happens that women don’t have very good relationships with their partners. They are a reflection, a mirror of what is left to be balanced out. Also, the same thing happens to those who have chosen to play the role of a man in this life. The women in their lives will reflect what they don’t like, exactly for them to accept the part of them they used to dislike at some point.

At the moment when you will reach a balance in your soul, you will attract a person as balanced as you to experience love on another level, more profoundly and more uplifting. You will be able to experience the unconditional love, without control and manipulation, because you don’t need any more someone to cover those holes in your soul, or to complete you because you feel incomplete. Unconditional love is when you don’t try to change those around you arbitrarily, but accept them exactly as they are, because you can see their greatness.

You have to understand that you are going through a process of permanent inner change, which is why you must have compassion both towards yourself and towards the ones around you.

You learn to love on a more profound level, to feel beyond what a simple physical contact between two bodies can offer. You will learn to connect from soul to soul. Don’t forget that you are at school Earth.

A spiritual mentor posted on a social network the following affirmation:

If you are looking for your happiness, loves, in other people or things, remember that these are continuously changing. You can read hundreds, thousand, millions of books, unless you get beyond the mind, unless you penetrate into your inner self to see who you really