More Than a Conquer0r: Take It by Force

By Bill Graybeal

It Was For A Purpose

On May 13, 2006 I had a heart attack that was suppose to take my life. Even if I did survive I would be like a vegetable as what my family told.
It would have been an end to a very defeated life in the purpose the Lord had for me.
The devil meant it to take me out defeated in the purpose the Lord bad for me.
The Lord has used it to take me in to the purpose and plans He has for my life.
It has taken me from very negative attitudes, positions and postures in the things the Lord had for me to do. To a very persistent person in attitudes, positions and postures in what the Lord has for me to do.
Yes the heart attack happened to me and it is a great testimony of what the Lord can do.
But I have found it was also a set up to position me and prepare me for the things the Lord has for me to do.
It is not all about what the Lord is taking us through its all about the purpose the Lord is Taking us to.
What the Lord has taken me through has so positioned me for what God has for me to do.
Your attitude always determines the altitude you go in your purpose. Your position always determines your condition in the purpose the Lord has for you.


Its All In The Attitude

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Jan 21, 2009
• ISBN: 9781462822843

Bill Graybeal

It Was For A Purpose On May 13, 2006 I had a heart attack that was suppose to take my life. Even if I did survive I would be like a vegetable as what my family told. It would have been an end to a very defeated life in the purpose the Lord had for me. The devil meant it to take me out defeated in the purpose the Lord bad for me. The Lord has used it to take me in to the purpose and plans He has for my life. It has taken me from very negative attitudes, positions and postures in the things the Lord had for me to do. To a very persistent person in attitudes, positions and postures in what the Lord has for me to do. Yes the heart attack happened to me and it is a great testimony of what the Lord can do. But I have found it was also a set up to position me and prepare me for the things the Lord has for me to do. It is not all about what the Lord is taking us through it’s all about the purpose the Lord is Taking us to. What the Lord has taken me through has so positioned me for what God has for me to do. Your attitude always determines the altitude you go in your purpose. Your position always determines your condition in the purpose the Lord has for you. It’s All In The Attitude

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MORE THAN

A CONQUEROR

Take It by Force

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Contents

Foreword

Conquer

Acknowledgements

Devil You Were There Too

That Makes Me Mad

You Can’t Make Me

My Testimony

My Heart Attack

That’s How I Felt

My Recovery

My Porn Addiction

Where Would I Be?

False Evidence Appear

Real

It Was In Me &

He was Around Me

I See No Negative

Positive Is What The Lord

Is Looking For And Can Work With Negative Is What The Devil Is Looking For And Can Work With

Looking At It Positive Means

You Will Live It Positive

Promise

Persistence

Patience

Preparation

Positioning

Possession

There Is A Purpose In This

It’s Just A Set Up

It’s Just A Challenge

To Position You

Who Am I

I Am I Can Therefore I Will

Or

I’m Not I Can’t Therefore

I Won’t

You Have What It Takes

The Tough Is

In The Rough

You Will Have To Fight

To Fulfill Your Purpose

Preparation Puts Us In

Position For Possession

Endure

Under The Circumstances

Set Your Mind

If You Give In Or Give Up

You Give Way

Not Just

Just Not

You Got My Word

A Word Of Warning

If God Be For You

Who

Can Be Against You?

You

Get Over It

Talk To Yourself

About Yourself

He Will Keep His Mind In Peace

Whose Mind Is Stayed On Me

Set Your Mind

Thinking And Giving Place To

The Devil

Who’s Got The Power?

What’s Got The Power?

If You Confess It

You Will Possess It

Yeah But What If?

Where Was My Confidence

What Did You Expect

Are You Going To Take It?

Or

Are You Going To Take It

And Use It?

You Have To Get It

And Let It

Words

Visualize It In Your Heart Visualize Your Dreams

Bless the Handicapped

No Weapon Formed

Against Me Will Prosper

And

All Things Work Together To Them

That Love The Lord

I Got It Because I was Taught It

Afterword

Romans 8:37

My Testimony

Bill Graybeal

As A Man Thinketh In He Heart So Is He

God Is Good All the time.

Greater is he that is in you than he in the world

No weapon formed against you will prosper.

God will make a message out of your mess.

No Pain No gain.

Focus on what you’re going to not what you’re going through.

If your eyes are on the giant you will fail.

If your Eyes are on the Lord your giants will fail.

Enemy should fear us not we him.

Right straight at you devil.

Period…

Author My Lord Jesus Christ

As Told Through William Graybeal

Hebrews 12:2

He Is The Author And Finisher

Foreword

BEFORE I BEGIN writing this I just wanted to say some things about having this heart attack.

At no time during this ordeal did I feel God was punishing me or that He brought this on me because of my sinful ways. God was not punishing me for anything. I did not do the things I needed to do to take care of myself. But God has been so with me through it. This heart attack was brought on by me not watching my weight and my Cholesterol. There were many warning signs and I did not heed them. Because of my upbringing I felt God would take care of me. That He would not let anything bad happen to me. If anything did He would heal me.

However God expects us to take care of ourselves and eat right and do the things that we need to do to stay healthy. Although I had many signs of something wrong I did not do what I was told. I had problems although they did not seem serious with my breathing and my sleeping. My wife would wake me up saying I would sometimes gasp for breathe. Or I would get winded real easy if I exerted myself.

I was told to go to Anchorage and to get checked out by a heart doctor (we do not have them here in Fairbanks). But I would say I’m alright. First of all we cannot afford that and if there is anything wrong God will take care of me. But you cannot ignore the things God has put in place for us to care for ourselves and think God will take care of it.

My heart attack was caused by a clogged artery in my heart. When they did go in and clean my artery it was only a procedure that took less then an hour as I remember. They put an incision down by my groin and went up through my artery and cleaned it out. I was wide awake and they were talking to me and I to them. One of my arteries had been completely blocked. And all I would have had to do was go and have it cleaned and went home. And not have had to go through all this.

God put doctors in place for a reason. And all the vast knowledge they have. Listen and heed what they say. God has given them a wonderful gift.

In saying that I am not saying we have to take all the things the devil brings and tries to put on us. There are consequences that we have to deal with because we did not do something right or are not doing something right. I have been dealing with the consequences of not eating right and exercising right for almost 2 years as I write this.

The first part of my testimony is just kind of an overview of how I was raised and to kind of to let you understand where I was coming from in my decisions. And also to let you know how God has changed me from a very weak person to a very strong person in Him.

The purpose of writing this is maybe through it I can help others to understand how God cares for us. And also to help some one else to understand the authority we have in Christ Jesus. To let you know God is good all the time and that no weapon formed against you will prosper. Don’t focus on the giant in front of you. Focus on He that is greater than the giant. Don’t focus on the mountain. Focus on the creator of the mountain. Focus on what you are going to not what you are going through.

For those who are going through very hard times. Please realize the message God is trying to put in you. God is putting things in you to equip you for the things He has to for you to do. And yes it hurts so much and is so hard. But believe me when I say if you keep your eyes on Him you will come out on the other side victorious. And believe me you will be so much stronger.

Each of us is unique. God has given us unique gifts that only you can do for Him. You are special. What ever your gift. Some of us understand how to do this or that good. The gift of being a great cook. The gift to repair things. What ever your gift. Give it away. It is there for a reason. Not only to benefit you but to give to others.

You that are normal do not understand the weight that is on those who are handicapped or old or are just going through hard times. Sometimes that helping hand is like gold to people in need. It speaks more than you can understand. And let me tell you God thinks very highly of that. I never understood it till it happened to me. Just to have some one around to help me to deal with the effects of the drugs I was on in my recovery helped. You that see others going through something and criticize be careful. If you have not been through it believe me you do not understand the hurt the pain the difficulty. I do not say this for myself but to encourage you help others who are down. It is hard being down. So don’t put them down lift them up.

You may have the gift or the ability to encourage people to lift them up in their battles. You may have the gift of taking care of old people or to help handicapped people. To me having been handicapped I know what your helping hand means. Sometimes just that big smile coming into the room is so welcome. To me and in my mind that is a very high calling. You may not be a minister or some one that is out winning a lot of souls. But believe me when I say God looks very highly on what you are doing. And your rewards in heaven are going to be great. As is any thing you do for the Lord. I have this lady I see all the time at a place I work she is always smiling. I don’t think I have ever seen her without a smile. She is not a Christian but I swear God has given her the gift of smile. That’s what God has given her and she uses it well. It is so uplifting to see that. Whatever your gift it is God given. The job God gives you to do only you can do. When you see a handicapped or older person or anyone you know is struggling with something. Give a smile if that’s all you can do. You don’t know how far that goes to a struggling person.

Something I have learned is either the words of your mouth put people down or they build them up. They are strong and powerful and sharper than a 2 edged sword. That harsh word to your spouse your child or to others is so harmful. So many times in my recovery and dealing with people and situations and with my family God has told me to shut up. Correct the words you speak. It is hard for me sometimes.

I named this book More Than A Conqueror Yes, to proclaim it over my life. But more so for my own personal enjoyment. So that when the devil comes against me that title stares him in the face. So I can say wait a minute devil did you not get the title of this book. More Than A Conqueror. That’s all you need to know here devil. To conqueror means to take by force. And that is just exactly what I plan on doing here. I will not just set here and take what you throw at me. Hit me and knock me down and all you are doing is making me madder and more determined. Every time someone reads this and it helps even just one person. I will be laughing and stepping all over you devil.

You know the scriptures behind that word conqueror and I know them even though I don’t know the chapter and verse that doesn’t matter. All I and you need to understand is Conqueror… He, He, He. Couldn’t resist that. I’m having too much fun here.

I have tried to write this very light hearted and even having fun with dealing with the devil to show how worried we should be about him and the things he brings to defeat us. To me it is fun and even funny at time the things he brings against me to defeat me. And instead they strengthen me. When he tries to set me up and I end up setting him up.

He should be worried about me. I should not be worried about what he brought. He should be worried about what I got. The persistent no give up no give in attitude that I got. The Word and attitudes I got are way more powerful than anything he has brought. As long as I stay stayed in the attitudes I got.

The Word and my attitudes as I act in and on that Word is what has got me through no matter what he has brought. What you got beats his brought any and every time as long as you stay stayed in what you got.

No matter what he has brought I have acted on and in what I got and never ever on what he has brought period no discussion.

If we are not persuade (convinced) of what we got in the Word and power of the Holy Spirit how will we ever be able to persuade or convince the devil of what we got.

The devil brought many hard difficult things at me but my attitude was always one of looks to me like devil you need convincing therefore I will convince you. I always said to the devil I would be here and still here no matter what is brought. But the convincing was in the always being right there and still there no matter what he brought.

The purpose of this book is to encourage you to the purpose that God has got for you no matter what is brought.

God Bless You Fight With Everything

You Got To Achieve Your Purpose

BECAUSE YOU ARE A CONQUEROR

Conquer

BEFORE I GET started writing my testimony here I wanted to talk here a little bit about conquer and what it means.

The definition of conquer is to put down by force or authority to subdue. To take possession of by force.

To conquer is not something you set back and watch it is something you get out and do. Yes the Word works and it will work every time if you work it meaning act on it and in it through the power of the Holy Spirit that’s in you. You are not working it unless after you speak it you don’t get out and work it. By taking possession of those things it says you can have. And by doing the things it says you can do. And being what it says you are.

When I woke up from the coma one of the first things the Lord told me was Bill there is you’re healing out in front of you now you go out and take it. I am not giving it to you Bill you have to take it. One of the first scriptures God gave me was Matthew 11:12 tells us that the kingdom of heaven suffered violence and the violent takes by force.

Believe me at the time He gave me that Word I did not feel like I had very much force in my body. But in my spirit I had all the force it would take. Because devil all I need to beat you in this is already in me and you will have to deal with it.

The days were very, very hard but when this all happened it made me very, very angry at the devil. He pushed me so hard to give into his lies and the things he tried to put on me. It was unbearable the weakness and dizziness. But as hard as he pushed on me I responded with the Word and persisted in it against him.

I know devil you are not going to give me one inch in my recovery. But I want to let you know one thing here as we start to go through this battle. I will not give up. You will only see me devil coming right at you with the Word. And when you tell me I cannot do something. Or will not do something ever again. I will get up and do it. And if I can’t I will do my best. And those things that are farther down the road in my recovery I will persist until I reach them and possess them. And devil I will possess them and there is nothing you can do about it. Day by day step by step. But devil I will posses them.

I have had to look only at that which the Lord was taking me to… Nothing else…

I don’t care what is going on around me or how it all looks. I could care less because I know where it is coming from. I am looking only at God from whence cometh my help… Nothing else and you can’t make me devil.

If you don’t go take it from the devil you will not get it back.

For me that meant as I spoke the Word I got up out of bed and did the things I needed to do to possess my healings. God did not give them to me I took them by force from the devil. Every inch I got I took by force from the devil.

I always understood what the Lord was building in this weak fearful defeated old boy. He was building a conqueror. Nothing that I have gone through would I trade for what it has produced.

Another scripture I have stood on was 2 Corinthians 2:14 Thanks be to God who always causes us to triumph in Christ Jesus. If we stand on this Word and work it how in the world can we loose? How do we work the Word? We get out and act on it and in it.

I have always known this was a set up for God to get me into position for the purpose He had for me.

Congratulations Devil Now You Done It.

You Have Help Create

That Which You Fear Most

A CONQUEROR

Thanks Devil I Appreciate It

OOOOOPPPPSSS

You Been Set Up

Acknowledgements

Thanks Mom & Dad

I FEEL THIS would not be complete without me writing a little about my parents and all they put in me and did for me. They are both gone now. They are in heaven with the Lord. But thanks to them I will get to thank them when I get there. And as I have said elsewhere in this writing I will be there because of their prayers. Because of all the prayers they prayed. But also because of all the positive uplifting faith and encouragement they taught me. Because of the positive faith words they spoke of me and to me. Those words have helped to produce my destiny and purpose. If they had put other words of hate defeat doubt and things like that in me. That would have shaped my destiny. So parents be very careful what you put in your kids. Because what you put in is what as time goes on is what is going to come out.

My parents all my life were trying to put the things in me to make me a success and to not be defeated by the enemy. It has taken many years but I finally get it. I let fear and doubt rule my life for so many years. All I had to do was to stand on the Word they taught me nothing staggering or wavering just like they taught me.

I was not supposed to make it when I was born. But they stood for me nothing wavering in their belief that I would make it. And I did. And I was always a very healthy person growing up.

Also in my upbringing they taught me discipline.

Because of this firm discipline I never had difficulty with authority or having good work habits. My dad was always a hard working and taught that to me. I always heard from those he worked with that he was a hard worker. So that was what I learned. And that has made it easy for me.

Also I was in church all my life. They understood how important it was to get that Word in me. In my battles the Word is what I was taught to use to fight my challenges. In my challenges the Word was so in me that when I faced the storms the Word is what immediately popped up. Even in all my years not really serving the Lord that is what popped up. It was still in me they made sure of that. I was not following it but it was in me.

My upbringing was always firm when needed to be but also loving and very helpful in my bad times.

In my growing up years in addition to instilling the Word in me the prayer I heard my mom pray the most was I will not allow my sons to go hell I will lay here on my face for as long as it takes. That prayer right there is the one that saved my life in my heart attack. That is why I did not die. And the other reason being God had a purpose for me in this. And although the enemy tried to destroy it he has not stopped it. That purpose is still in my heart as strong as ever.

Thanks mom and dad I can’t wait till I get to thank you face to face.

And my kids also have turned out great also because of you.

It has helped me get through all the difficulty, weakness and dizziness and all the loss of memory. All of the Word you have instilled in my heart has made this so easy. I can say your love and persistent and encouragement has even made it so much fun for me.

I never heard words that put each other down in my family. I always heard my mom and dad say great things about each other. And also us kids. Sure there were arguments and disagreements, but they were never done in such a way as to put the other person down. I can remember my parents saying to me if you ever come home from school and I heard you put down another race or another person you are going to get your butt kicked. (Excuse me for saying it that way but that is what they told me.) Thanks mom and dad for not giving me that baggage. Some of my closest friends’ parents did have that baggage and tried to give it to their kids. But thank God it did not take in my friends.

And even in my own divorce they had instilled in me the Word and things that helped me to not have bitterness and hate for what happened. Yes I dealt with a lot of hurt but you had taught me how to heal that through your Word. Through the Word I knew how to deal with it so there was no bitterness and hate. But that is because of you mom and dad. I never had to deal with it because I never seen it in our family. And I never confessed it so I never possessed it.

Mom and dad that was because of you every where I have ever went, the good place and the bad places I have always felt your prayers following me. As I have said before they were just there with me nothing I could do about it. There was nothing I could do to make them go away. I can remember going into bars and those bad sexual places and feeling so down on myself because I could not stop. And I would hear the voice of God and feel His spirit. I can remember thinking Lord what are you doing in here. Thought you stopped being with me when I came in here. He said no I am with you Always Even Until The End Of the World. Always means always and everywhere. All that is because of you mom and dad thanks.

Had you not seen and understand there was a real gift in me of having faith and an encouraging uplifting spirit. I would not have made it in my life. You saw those gifts that were in me and encouraged me in them. Now in this battle it has not been hard to operate in them and speak it against the devil, against all odds and when the enemy comes so hard against me. Now that I get what I got through all that you taught this has been so easy and fun. Don’t you think devil? Gotcha devil right were I wantcha.

Because you have worked so hard to cultivate that and the Lord has let Satan put things in my way to help me to learn it that is what is in me so that is what comes out of me in my challenges now.

That would not have been in me to understand if you had not taught me. And as I have said when I get to heaven I hope the Lord will allow me to thank you first. Not to esteem you higher than Him. But because you are the reason I’m there. And I believe He will let me because He is a loving God and He understands you are the reason. And He has known what He was doing all along. And even in all my rebellion you knew what you were doing and never faltered in that. Thanks mom and dad you created a conqueror.

Thanks to you mom and dad when this and many battles I have faced came I was able say to the devil. Watch out devil I been trained for this battle. I know the strategy to win this battle.

Mom and dad you have put an anchor of God’s Word in my heart that has weathered many storms and many sins. Although I have strayed very far from it I have never been able to get away from it no matter what. That anchor is still there and still holding. Thanks so much mom and dad.

Thanks Mom And Dad

See You Soon

In God’s Time Of Course

P.S. Not real soon though I have work to do here he, he. Right devil? Whoops there I go again.

I also wanted to give a special thanks to my step mom who although I was not raised by her I have known her all my life. Her prayers have also been there to bring me through. She is the one who encouraged me to write this book. And she has encouraged me in all through the writing of this book. I felt weak in writing this some times her words of encouragement helped put the strength in me to keep on keeping on.

Thanks Evelyn

Another thanks to my step aunt Laverne and also Evelyn’s and Laverne’s Anna Frye. These are the ones who helped me so much in the hard times in Barrow. These people plus my immediate family are also why I’m still here. Thanks

All Of These People Are Why I’m Still Standing

I also wanted to thank and pay tribute to all the parents that have raised their kids up in the way they should go. In this world and how it is you have made it so much easier for them to deal with the challenges of life. You have put the Word in them. And it will follow them all their life. You are to be honored for giving them that. When I woke from my coma the Word was still there in me and it still worked even though I had been away from God along time.

I see so many kids now days struggling with life because of what their parents have put in them. Hate, defeat, no self worth, alcoholism, drug addiction, stress, anxiety whatever you as a parent put in them is what is going to come out. And they will have to deal with the rest of their life. But God is there to turn all that around and to make your weakness your strength.

For those who have weathered those storms for their family and kids. And have come out the other side victorious I take my hat of to you. Your rewards will be great.

For those who are just going into these types of storms or in the middle of the storms the key in this battle is faith and relentless persistence against the devil and no give up or give in.

But even if you have not done such a good job as I feel I have not in some areas. God has it covered. He can turn things around for the good. Or if you feel you have failed in some areas. Are you not trying and doing your best. That’s to be honored to. God sees that and will reward that.

You who are going through hard times and have prayed for a long time and it seems your prayers are not going no where. I would say you are as I said before releasing your prayers and faith for them. And it does not just stop there. Those prayers are right there no matter where they are or where they go. Or what they do. As I said before the prayer I remember my mom praying the most was my sons will not go to hell devil I will not let them. I cannot count the times that as I was living in sin and not doing the things I should that I felt mom and dads prayers. And often times would set there and cry in those bad places I was because I felt those prayers.

You might say I pray and pray and pray for them and nothing happens. Remember those prayers have no expiration date. They are following them all the days of their lives.

I would say as the devil tries to put his lies about your family on you. Resist with every bone in your body and persist in your belief in what you believe for. It depends on you and your persistence in the spirit for them.

So for me if you ask me if you think I will make it in this challenge whatever it is not just for your family but for anything. I would say to you. It depends on you. Are you willing to having done all to stand persistently solidly in your beliefs? Do you have the no give up it takes? And also do you have the patience it is going to take? Do you have the persistence to go up against all the devil will throw at you? Let me tell you it takes a whole lot of persistent prayer and interceding for them. But in the end the devil has no chance.

In my battle with all the things I have had to battle with over the last year I have had to persist against the devil daily. I think I have become the most dog headed person when it comes to dealing with him. He says I can’t do that I say watch me.

As far as I am concerned devil enough is enough.

You cannot deal with the devil with meekness and fearfulness or with doubtfulness but it must be with boldness. You knock me down devil I get right back up and right back at you devil. Funny thing here though devil you have not knocked me down. I know you can’t And you know you can’t.

And although my kids are going through many different things at different stages in their lives they are not going through what you have tried to put them through devil because I would not let you.

And mom and dad that can be traced back to you and what you have put in me.

Remember mom and dad it is a battle for their lives. It is a battle you cannot loose if you stand firm with no give up… And persist and having done all to persist, persist.

In