The Matchstick That Kept Burning
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When Rose ran away from home, she didn't anticipate that she would enter into a world that was more challenging and dangerous than the one she'd left behind.
As she constantly talked to herself for solutions, one would believe that she was going insane.
Coming to England, in search of what she had hoped would
TBD
Patsy Stanley is an artist, illustrator and author and a mother, grandmother and great grandmother. She has authored both nonfiction and fiction books including novels, children's books, energy books, art books, and more. She can reached at:patsystanley123@gmail.com for questions and comments.
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The Matchstick That Kept Burning - TBD
ACKNOWLEDGMENT
I have so many people to acknowledge and thank, people who have been there when I felt like throwing in the towel. I write how I speak fast and unstructured, but I believe that I express myself much better on paper. First, I want to thank the creator, for sending good people into my life. I would like to thank members of the family who had been super supportive since day one, especially my sister Jennifer. I call on her when it comes to details and time frame, she has the sharpest memory ever. My friends, Jacqueline, Diana, and Michelle are amazing people, thank you guys for believing me. I have nothing but love for you.
My four sons have motivated and inspired me, in being a better person, it is never too late to follow your dreams, no matter how long or where you are from Keep believing. To those who are battling mental health, hang in there it will get better with time and help. And especially to you my readers, wherever and whoever you are thanks for your support.
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"An inspiring read which is both invigorating and captivating. It depicts the real essence of trying your best to improve and be supportive of others.
Michelle Victoria (NHS Nurse)
The matchstick That Kept Burning, is a refreshing and detailed memoir. It embarked on Rose`s journey and struggles as a young girl, her triumph and ability to overcome, beating all odds. Filled with humor, suspense, and drama…It’s a must-read
.
Christine Green (Autism Carer)
The book is refreshing as the reader; I was able to see the book through the writer’s eyes. The challenges that made her who she is. This book shows that once you’re determined, you`ll receive what want through hard work
.
Nicholas Haze (University Student)
Having gone through my own struggles, this book has opened my eyes about a young girl’s journey. With determination, she rises above a and motivation, Rose rises above it all making what seems impossible possible. It’s a must-read
.
Diana Nyamu Danda ( Student)
Contents
Acknowledgment
The Morning Awaits
The Earlier Years
The Beginning Of The Dark Days
The Journey To Clarendon
The Unknown City
Moving Into The Slum
The Undiscovered Songbird
A New World Of Motherhood
Decision Time, No Return
A Trip To Foreign Land
The Beginning And The End
Where Are They Now?
Chapter 1
THE MORNING AWAITS
I
t was the early 1980s, as things were different about customs and beliefs. Jamaica has always been a beautiful small island surrounded by the Caribbean Sea. The blue seas and white sands, combined with the tropical weather, were amazing among other attractions. In one of its parishes, Manchester was a small district called Sawyer Tow. It was surrounded by tall pine trees and acres of land for farming. There lived a family of ten—John the father, Jane his wife, and their eight children. Early mornings felt like midday, as the sun rose into the skies, taking its position of choice. Its strength glared through the windowpane, but the curtains, being the protector, were no match, not even close enough to hold it back.
The dogs were barking, overjoyed to see the dawn, while a rooster flew to a height of contentment, spreading its colourful feathers and stretching its neck like a swan. Cock a-doodle-doo was the melody of his song; it was an everyday morning routine. Oh! This must be Groundhog Day, thought Rose. Stepping outside, you could feel the fresh air caressing your skin, sending chills down your spine, and embracing a combination of both worlds. Time for school, children
, their mother would call out to Rose and her siblings. You could hear her coming through the hall, dragging her bed slippers along the floor behind her, sounding like she wasn’t lifting her feet. Wake up! Wake up! You need to fetch water from the spring and fill the drums before you leave for school
, she shouted at them. Rose and the others had to ensure that they did their chores before leaving each day. That was the norm for them every morning, even though Rose didn’t like it. She much preferred the evening time.
The pathway that led to the spring bed was, at times, slippery and damp due to overnight dew. The path was narrow and filled with tiny thorns that would pierce through your skin if you weren’t careful. Rose and her brother walked past a huge mango tree, which had been there for centuries but never seemed to bear any fruit. They believed that the water came from underground; no one knew its true origin. It flows up from the ground in a unique and mysterious way.
Hurry up, or you’ll be late for school. I don’t know why you didn’t fill the drums yesterday
, Rose’s mother said, looking annoyed. Rose glanced in her mother’s direction, and then she said, But mama, we went to the spring yesterday and poured water into the drum
. Her mother rolled her eyes at her.
Stop talking and go
.
Yes, mama
, she grinned. It wasn’t worth the beating. It was best just to obey and stop wasting time. Well, Rose and her brother, Willy, had the most responsibilities. Willy was older than Rose but was the youngest of the three brothers. It was up to them to be productive, so off they went. Del would stay back and wash the dishes. She would often pretend to be feeling unwell—that was her way of escaping her chores. Mama, I’m not feeling well
, she said, hoping for sympathy, but mama knew her all too well. Child, go and wash the dishes
, their mother would yell at her. Okay, mama. I’m going to do it now
, she would mumble under her breath, still pretending about how ill she was feeling.
What did you say?
their mother asked Del.
Nothing, mama. I didn’t say anything
, she replied, walking off to wash the dishes, clearly displaying her disappointment. Also, remember
, Rose’s mother, Ms Jane, would say as she continued to speak, when you return home this evening, you’ll fetch water from the spring and refill the drums again
. Rose’s mum had a lot to do about using the water supply, but they already knew that she was in the right mood, Rose thought to herself. Jena was the youngest, so she got away with the chores during the morning hours. Apart from being the youngest, she wasn’t well enough to help most of the time. Jena would put her uniform on before everyone else. Due to her asthmatic condition, she was like a delicate flower and was often unwell. Her favourite drink was Milo tea, or sometimes milk; that was all she demanded as a child. Mama used to try her best, making sure she had both in the house. Rose was protective of Jena, but she wasn’t the only one. It was the same with all the inhabitants of the house. The asthmatic attacks were severe, and at times, wore heavily upon her tiny frame. It wasn’t easy being unsure about her survival, but somehow, she did.
Rose’s mother always knew what to do to get Jena back on her feet, even during her worse days, when Rose and the others would scream that she was dying. Ms Jane had to rush off to the hospital in a panic, probably crying her eyes out over the tiny frame. Rose had three brothers and four sisters, including herself, numbering eight. Tom was the oldest, followed by Joe, and Verna—the oldest sister. Maria came after; then Willy. Rose was next in line. Del followed, and Jenna was the youngest. Del was chubby, short, and amusing. She always had jokes up her sleeve or played tricks on whoever was available. She, too, suffered from poor health. The doctors believed she had a hole in her heart (atrial septal defect), but it was never severe. However, that didn’t stop her from being the troublesome one. She would get herself into the worst situation with her siblings but then use her heart condition to get out of it. Rose was sometimes annoyed with her behaviour and occasionally gave her a telling-off, in defending Jena’s honour. The poor little thing was frightened of Del. They were like normal siblings, fighting now and then. Playing together was always something they enjoyed, and they had no other technology or gadgets.
Rose and her sisters invented their own games. Skipping rope was fun: I want to go first
, demanded Del, looking excited. Rose stared at her, surprised.
Why do you think you’ll be first?
Jena asked Del, sounding annoyed as she kept on biting her nails. You could tell she was hoping Rose might say something!
Del, you won’t be going first today. Every time you do the same thing
, Rose interrupted her before she had a chance to say anything else. I’m not joking with you
, Rose continued, Jena is right
, and in that instant, Del looked defeated but wouldn’t dare argue. Instead, she took the other end of the rope gladly.
Is second going to be all right, Rose?
she asked timidly.
Yes, that’s fine by me
, Rose replied, nodding her head in agreement. She could see Jena was pleased to get the first choice at skipping today. After that, they’ll all get their turns as they laugh and joke around.
Rose’s yard had many unusual plants and flowers, right at the front where everyone could see them. The pine tree, with its arch shape, is cut to perfection. Then, one day, while it was raining and hail was beating down upon the ground like an ice storm, thunders roared through the sky like the voice of many lions. Suddenly, the lightning came flashing with a vengeance, striking the pine tree in half.
Thank God
, Rose’s mother said, no one was standing under the tree at the time; otherwise, they would be struck dead
.
There were few palm trees, with fine cutting edges, in the form of a gate, surrounding the half pyramid of their house, blocking out peering eyes. Rose’s mother, who took pride in her flower beds, had never seen such beauty: unusual colours and shapes; she had it all. It was like walking through the forbidden garden; she was the only one who could give away plants, and that wasn’t often. She even had pots of flowers on the outside under her bedroom window. Rose and her sisters always thought it was a clever idea, considering how low the windows of the house were made.
It was too transparent, ‘as clear as glass, so the old saying goes. They never had regular toys, dolls, or girlie objects to play with—not that they weren’t allowed. Rose’s parents believed that their money could be better spent on things of more value, like sending them to school. Rose had two younger sisters and her brother, including herself, going to school at that time, so there wasn’t much to spare. They had imaginary friends, which was quite normal, plus they knew how to be creative. Back then, marble games were mostly for boys, but Rose and her sisters knew how to play with other makeshift toys. They would gather the corn silks from the fields and play with them in place of dolls. They would add a tiny piece of cloth to the golden silk, pretending it was a ribbon. How sad, you might think, but for them, it was fun and laughter.
The journey to primary school was like walking a marathon, running too, considering thirteen miles on foot if they decided to walk on the main road. While walking through the forest was a shorter distance, about seven miles; still, it wasn’t like licking an ice cream cone. But their choices were limited, and God knows neither was better, but they could either walk and save a few pennies to buy lunch, or they could go hungry and take the bus. The forest was filled with pine trees, and it was like visiting the witch’s hut in the Hansel and Gretel story. The hills were steep to climb, and it was always worse for them when it rained the day before. Willy was protective of his sisters, ensuring they were safe whenever he was around.
Rose!
he shouted, we’ve got to leave now; remember the sun is rising, and it’s going to be warmer soon
. To get to school on time, they had to wake up early in the morning. Even the chirpings of the night crickets were audible in the distance. They all would leave home together: We can’t take the bus this morning; otherwise, we won’t have enough money left for food
, Willy told them. Rose looked at Jena, and Del could see how disappointed they were but kept quiet.
Come on, let’s go
, said Rose as they walked towards the old stone road from their house. They kept walking until they got to the main road, which seemed well made, laced in black tar. For as long as they could remember, whenever it got hot, they could smell the odour flowing through the air—a dirty, gritty scent that never seems to go away. Rose and the others were saying good morning to everyone they met. If they didn’t, their parents would surely hear about it. A few more minutes to go, not far now, and looking ahead, they saw a small wooden hut under the hill. As they continued to move closer to the foot of the forest, it seemed relentless. The pine trees were tall, bending, and adjoined, like they were communicating in whispers.
They had now left the main road. As they continued their journey through the forest, the path was narrow and steep; the ground was of red clay dirt but almost moist. Rose began to move slowly with carefulness, hoping not to slip. She held her sister’s hands as they started climbing the slope, and by the time they got to the top, Jena’s breathing became unsteady, leaving her nearly breathless. Willy took Jena’s arm from Rose; he was now walking at a slower pace, but it didn’t help much. He then knelt on the ground and told her to climb onto his back, and he went ahead to carry her. Unfortunately, she was getting worse, and her crying wasn’t making her condition any better. Willy became frightened, and so did everyone else.
I have to take her back home
, he said with great concern.
Yes, you’ll have to. Mama knows what to do
, Rose replied. Please, don’t let her die on us, Rose’s thoughts were going into overdrive, and she could see that they were all scared. Willy and Rose decided it was best for Willy to take her back home, and as she could not walk, he would have to carry her on his back. Rose and Del would continue to school. The sun was getting hotter, beating down upon their bodies.
Do you think she’ll be okay?
Del asked Rose. She was miles away, deep in thoughts, and because of that, she didn’t hear what her sister said. Can you please answer me?
she begged, seemly confused.
Sorry Del
, Rose replied, what did you say?
She repeated, I said do you believe Jena will be all right?
her voice was filled with emotion. Rose glanced at her face. Listen, Del
, she nodded her head and continued to reassure her sister, oh yes! Mama is going to make her better. When we get home, you’ll see; she will be as good as new
.
The sun shone down in all its brightness and heat, and they were sweating mildly under their armpits. The rest of their journey was mostly in silence, although Rose would say something to check that Del was okay now and then. When they got home from school that day, Jena was lying in bed but was looking better than when they last saw her. Jena hardly attended the next few years of primary school due to her illness, but she was brilliant at it when she got the chance. By the time she was old enough to attend high school, her asthma condition had reduced to an incredible level, making her more active and healthier. Unfortunately, whenever the weather changed to cooler temperatures, especially nearer to Christmas, despite being a tropical country, that was when Jena would become ill.
It would seem almost impossible to achieve anything other than a hazardous outcome whenever it rained. Rose and the others would have to remove their wet school shoes, carrying them in their hands unless they didn’t need to wear them the following day. As they struggled to find their grip on the ground, Rose and her sisters were disgusted by the sodden mud accumulating between their toes.
Oh my God!
Del shouted, I’m going to fall
.
Sorry
, Rose replied, I can’t help much, but I’ll try and find a suitable spot to put my own feet down so that you can follow my lead
.
Try coming closer towards me. I’ll be digging bigger holes in the ground with my feet. Just put your feet in my footsteps; follow mine
, she said. Del did what Rose asked of her and wasn’t complaining so much anymore. Thank God for small mercies, Rose thought happily. Rose smiled, reassuring her sister as they continued down the steep hill. The hardest work was for Willy if Jena were there. It was his duty to keep her safe. Rose had to carry their school bags, but that was the least she could do. On a few occasions, Rose or one of the others would fall over, leaving no room for anything else but mud, perhaps dog poo, too, if the truth be known. At times, they looked as if they were buried alive in the mud. Sadly, only one bus serviced the entire area, including all the outlying communities. It was designed to carry adults, and they were given the utmost priority. Once in a blue moon, minors have the opportunity to sit if the old blue bus had no adults on. If you’re holding your breath for that to happen, surely you might die in the process. Even so, they were often packed like sardines in a tin, filled with sweaty armpits and foul body odour, pushing you back and forth. It was better walking, but to avoid the treacherous journey through the forest after the rain, walking the long way home was their only choice and salvation when they had no money left to spare. There were others who were far shabbier than Rose and her siblings. It was an everyday struggle for everyone.
Occasionally, whenever they were extra late for school, Rose and her siblings would stop at a house that belonged to a friend of their father’s until it was lunchtime; then they would sneak onto the school premises. No one ever really noticed except a few of their friends, who would normally behave as if they had been there all the time. Mobile phones were non-existent at that time, making communication almost impossible, so they could give the teachers any excuse on why they came late.
Rose was a loner; she never had many friends during her school years but was friendly enough to stay visible. Willy was the popular one. Everyone knew him. He took part in all the sports activities and was friends with the elite groups of boys. He was very chatty, always talking, especially around his friends. Del wasn’t such a confident person. Sometimes, she felt intimidated because of her weight issues, but she, too, knew how to survive in an unpleasant world. As a child, you held in the hurt and pain others inflicted on you. When the hurt is too much to bear, you will inevitably unleash your anger upon them, predicting the moment until the right time comes along. Rose didn’t like school very much, especially in her earlier years. She got into a few fights after being bullied too often. She was too afraid to defend her honour, until one day, she wasn’t afraid anymore. Eventually, the bullying stopped. At that moment, she determined that she wouldn’t allow herself to be weak and scared anymore.
Rose and her sisters were expected to keep certain principles, and that was to learn the domestic arts of washing, cooking, and keeping the house clean. These were their priorities, even if they could not do anything else. That was a massive accomplishment. Rose was cooking for the entire family at the age of thirteen; her mother taught them all the best way she could. Rose was a soup specialist; at least, that was what her papa would say to the others when he was in one of his good moods. She felt proud of herself, as it was unusual for her to be given admiration for anything, but that was typical for