She Chased The World: The Tragedies Of Trauma

By Papikins Poetry and Cyrus Ahmadnia

She chased the world is a tragic yet poetic take on trauma. The story follows a girl through experiences that leave her breathless. She could never see herself as worthy, and it was the part of life that hurt the most. She lived within the confines of who she was rather than move forward with the world. She was haunted by her tragedies, as she tried to find herself beyond what her eyes could see. There was love and there was hate, but nothing seemed to fade. She could feel it on her skin while the memories still remained. No one could see her clearly, because she was hidden behind fragile eyes and a painted smile, as she chased the world unwillingly.

This book contains themes such as sexual abuse, gaslighting, heartbreak, loss of a loved one, and touches upon suicide. Reader discretion is advised.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Papikins Publishing
• Release date: Jul 21, 2021
• ISBN: 9781916883239

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She Chased The World

The tragedies of trauma

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Papikins

Cyrus Ahmadnia

Copyright © 2021 by Cyrus Ahmadnia (Papikins)

All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced in any form or by any electronic or mechanical means, including information storage and retrieval systems, without permission in writing from the publisher, except by a reviewer who may quote brief passages in a review.

This book is a creative work of poetic prose, which has been derived from various experiences and observations. However, some instances have been created from the imagination.

ISBN 978-1-9168832-2-2 (Paperback)

ISBN 978-1-9168832-3-9 (eBook)

Published by Papikins Publishing

www.papikins.com

Artist

Piyapong Saydaung

www.instagram.com/saydung.89

This is dedicated to those who chase the world unwillingly. I’m sorry.

Table of contents

Chase the world

Rose full of thorns

Beautiful disaster

Turned to stone

Into the blue

Smiling at catastrophe

Sadness behind her eyes

Perfect Person

Conflicted

Picturesque

Starry skies

Showing teeth

Imperfect

Destruction

Keeping distance

Distractions

Trust

Vibrant yet chaotic

Demons

To be real

Selfish

Betrayed by blood

Fragile eyes

Scars

Broken heart

Venom and regret

Behind the mask

Fairy tales

She held the universe

The cycle

The wolves

A touch of sadness

Wronged

Afterthought

Fallen angel

Hurts like hell

Predator in disguise

Burden

Keeping quiet

Ruined

Somewhere to belong

The sun and the moon

Death

Empty space

Staring into heaven

Ghosts

Left the world

Sanity

Always ticking

Meaningless desires

Snakes

Friendship

Surrounded by lies

Nothing in return

Two-faced

Prying eyes

Damaged

The silence

The thinning crowd

The unheard

The beginning of the end

Self-belief

Revisiting the past

Someone else’s sin

Voiceless

Ripped apart by wolves

A place within the world

Defenceless

Helpless

Validation

Another body

What once was

Break

Weightless wings

Painted smile

Intertwine

He gave her hope

Stories of a life once lived

Building trust

Fight through storms

Safe

Stories in her head

City lights

Just a dream

Part of sadness

The dates of surrender

Trapped

Loss of love

Cold embrace

Obscurity

Falling out of love

Neglected

’I love you’

Grown apart

The death of love

Someone else

Betrayal

Hiding deceit

Wolves among us

Another story

Back to loneliness

Keeping love alive

Repairing what love did

Only one in colour

Disposable

Tears full of memories

Beautiful yet flawed

Life of misery

Surrender to the night

A life to take

Spiral into madness

The canvas of life

One to blame

Goodbye and a simple lullaby

Running through time

Guilty

Vacant

Dreams

Losing strength

Misdirection

Paralysed

Beyond the scars

Fade

Drowning

Time

Short of breath

Normality

The last goodbye

The end of what she knew

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We try to chase the world. It isn’t our intention to stay seated in one place, but it all becomes the same. It’s the tragedies of trauma that make us feel a certain way. We’re struck by disaster and our minds begin to fade. We fear for the worst to happen, but sometimes, we forget that life is made of pain. It’s a sad realisation that none of us can ever come to terms with. We fight the tears every single day, but the ache never goes away. It’s humanity, isn’t it? We’re individually flawed beyond what words can say. I just wish I didn’t have to be the one to remind you of the reasons why we break.

This is the story of the girl who chased the world. She was a beautiful disaster through and through, and oh my god, she had emotions that no one dared to ever feel. She wanted to be real but was never satisfied with the cards that she’d been dealt. She was beautifully designed yet a tragedy that no one