"US": You think you know someone. Think again.

By Carla LaShan Rawls

A cautionary tale about never looking back, only forward.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Carla's Care
• Release date: Jul 14, 2021
• ISBN: 9781639440344

Carla LaShan Rawls

I am a Evergreen, Alabama native. I am also a single mother who has made the best out of the most difficult situations. I am alone, however, I am brave and strong . I welcome obstacles so I can knock them down and keep it moving. I love my babies and love to travel.

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Carla LaShan Rawls

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THE MIDDLE

Chapter 1

THE MIDDLE

Living in a small town, and having a childhood crush and feelings for them for years and years and following up on the crush through adulthood. You would think things would be awesome right? Come to find out, he was everybody’s crush! A young, unwed mother of a three month old son. Postpartum depression, hurt, and lonely.

I thought it was fate. After all, he was my childhood crush! This was perfect I thought. My family and I had just moved back to our hometown. After running a few errands, I saw a lot of familiar faces. No doubt that the word had gotten around that I had moved back to town. This led to new pull-ups and hang out situations. That was fine though.

Hearing a voice say Hey!, I turned around and it was Max. Looking at my ass groaning. Not even feeling disrespected, I laughed. He was super stupid. Cracking any kind of joke or throwing a joking notion was how I always remembered him. We embraced each other and he went on to ask about my mom. How's Miss Michelle? I replied, She was doing good. You're a mama now huh? he asked? Yes! I replied, A baby boy. Well, you're gonna have to let me see him! he said.

Of course! I said. Parting ways, he said he would see me later. A few days later he pulled up to my sister's apartment. We were sitting outside already. He gets out of the car and greets everyone. They instantly took to him. He would joke and laugh with us. It was the best thing for me. This is my childhood crush, right here in my presence.

I was overjoyed. After being left pregnant by a married man, I was a broken spirit. This was the very thing I needed to lift me up and it did. After about a week or two, we end up having sex. It was the most love I felt in forever, so of course, I was so gone. He knew that though. I partially felt the care, compassion and willingness to want to receive what we had. There was something holding him back though.

On Friday nights, we would sit around and play spades. Drinking and smoking weed was a definite yes. We would get so high and laugh. Max cracking jokes with my brother-in-law and sister, the other company too. We had the best times together. It was unbelievable how content I was.

After a couple of months, things were still good. Max will come over and hang out on Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday, hardly any on Sunday. Mondays, Wednesday’s, Friday’s, he’d just come by and hang out and leave. I never wanted him to leave. I know he had work though. Some nights I just noticed a change.

His reply will always be, The boss worked the hell out of me. I'm just a little tired baby. He’d say. I always asked if you needed me to do anything for him. His response was always, No, I’m good. In the midst of all the lovemaking he taught me how to be a superior headmaster. Me being young, naïve and gullible, I performed. We will start each one of our sexual escapades with oral sex.

Given and returned. I actually started to love doing it. After all, I loved him. I would have done almost anything he asked me to. It was like he was my motivation in life. Those long, sweaty sex filled nights were so passionate and