Sleeping with the devil, Awakened by God

By Nicole M. Freeling

This book is about healing and deliverance. It is my real testimony. In addition to the many trials and tribulations of life, the book expresses both personal and spiritual growth through the grace of God. I expose personal details and situations that most Christians are afraid to discuss or examine in the open. I share how God has given me reve

• Language: English
• Publisher: Palmetto Publishing
• Release date: Dec 18, 2020
• ISBN: 9781649905529

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INTRODUCTION

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his book is a short but very detailed, true story about my life from childhood into my adulthood. I took the revelations God has given me to look back on my life and see the source behind the scenes. Behind every bad choice and disappointment was a demonic influence pulling the strings. The reader is not here by accident, its; the anointing of God that will break the yokes of the enemy. I hope each reader would have their own awakening from God to get to the root causes of all the issues that are causing various problems, setbacks, and delays in their lives from the beginning and still showing present today. And most importantly I pray that this book would bring deliverance and healing to all. I dedicate this book to my Lord and savior, Jesus Christ, who gave me the courage to tell my story without shame or condemnation.

Through knowledge shall the just be delivered.

—Proverbs 11:9

Childhood Fears

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remember as a young child, sleeping next to my grandmother, I would have dreams of fire, almost as if the world was ending in the dream, and I would wake up terrified. Although my grandma would comfort me and tell me it was just a dream, I felt very afraid. I can honestly say that was when the door was open for fear to enter my life.

For the most part my childhood was good. Although we were poor, I still had the clothes, shelter, and food I needed as a child and, oh, lots of toys. My mother had me young, as a teen, and my dad was not in the household, but he was around. We lived in one big house with my grandmother, aunts, uncles, and cousins. Our household was chaotic, but it was the norm for us. I loved to play Barbies, go to the park, take hikes through the woods, and swim—all the typical things kids loved to do back then.

I was the little girl who was shy around people other than my family. When people visited our home, they always would say to my mom and grandmother that I looked like I didn’t belong to the family. I was very creative and loved to tell stories. Because we didn’t have much, I learned to hustle at an early age. I would bake cookies and brownies then sell them; I would come up with creative ways to make money with my cousins. I was always searching or seeking attention, trying to fill a gap or void I never knew was missing. I always wanted more attention as a kid, so I was very creative at getting that attention. I would entertain my family with dancing, stand-up comedy, or even singing—although I couldn’t sing a lick. I also realized that my entertainment was bringing my family joy. I still can see the smiles on their faces.

We lived as one big family, although I wouldn’t say happy. Growing up I saw dysfunctional behaviors and a lot of rebellion within my family, consistent fighting, quarrels, struggles, and other things I’d rather not share in this book, but the things I was prone to at an early age played a huge part in the directions I would take later in life. I think we had a Bible in the household, but it was never read or