The Great Awakening of An Average Girl

By E. L. Chart

Imagine being able to look in a mirror and see the reflection of pure joy in your own features.

The Great Awakening of an Average Girl will explore the depths of your subconscious mind and beliefs, challenging your perspective on the way you have been living your life. Discover the interconnectedness of humanity and how each experience within your life had purpose behind it. Conquer your fears with new, empowering beliefs. Watch how your life will begin to shape into the reality you desire for yourself. Author E. L. Chart, a self-proclaimed "average girl," relates her own experiences to the advice in this book, proving that anyone can release the past and find their true identity.

Through this book, you will learn how to reduce conflict, overcome barriers, enjoy life, and awaken to who you truly are. This book serves as a provocative guide into your own spiritual journey and awakening, as you begin aligning yourself to pure bliss and joy. Become the best version of yourself and find your inner strength once again with The Great Awakening of an Average Girl.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Tablo Publishing
• Release date: Jan 5, 2021
• ISBN: 9781649694423

Book preview

Introduction

Somewhere out there is another average person just like me. Hiding their pain behind a fake smile, afraid to show themselves to the world, and scared of what the future holds for them. It is not by chance that you are reading this. In the grand scheme of things, the Universe aligned you here in this moment, ensuring that you were ready to take in a new perspective on how to expand within your reality, and how to move beyond your current outlook of life. Of course, this does sound very esoteric and bold, but I ask you to set the intention that you will read this book with an open mind. Such an open mind that you may finish reading this book with a different perspective entirely. 

As you are reading this introduction, you may find yourself in a position where you do not know where life is taking you, you may find yourself ruminating over past memories like a song on repeat, and you may even find yourself feeling stuck. I wrote this book with the intention that anyone who reads it may be able to see clearly the past memories that have been holding them back, and finally move beyond the physical and emotional pain they have experienced, within these memories, to better understand their life from a higher perspective.

By the end of this book, you will better understand why the same reoccurring patterns have happened within your life, why you experienced trauma, and how it may have shaped the way you view other people, genders, nationalities, and archetypes. It will help you understand the importance of facing your fears and the chatter within your mind that holds you back.

I have been there myself, running away from my feelings, unable to find a reason that I should love myself, and continuously telling myself that I am not worthy. It did not matter how hard I worked out at the gym, it did not matter what I achieved in my personal life, as long as I was looking into that mirror and seeing the empty vessel in that reflection; I did not believe I was worthy of love.

Until one day, I had a great awakening. I realised that life was happening right now, and I was completely missing it. I knew I was not alone, and neither are you. It is time to stop standing in your own shadow and start living the life that you truly deserve.

I started learning, studying, researching, and integrating every way I have been holding myself back. Every fear I held onto and all of the reasons that I was not living my life authentically. This complete disintegration of who I was made way for a new and transformed me, one that takes risks when she is guided to, that reassures herself when she needs it, and the version of me that allows past pain to be observed and integrated. 

My process of observing, healing, integrating, and shedding to become a transformed version of myself allowed for the words you will soon read to be able to pour out from my Soul, with the intention that at least one person reading this book will come out feeling the same newfound peace that I have been able to find.

As you read this book, you will hear parts of my awakening story, you will discover theories that explain why certain cycles keep reoccurring in your life, and you will uncover how to finally overcome these patterns once and for all. This book will take you through the depths of your own subconscious mind, through your childhood, up into the ether, and back into the present moment.

Chapter One

Your Body

We often see our bodies as the biggest aspect of ourselves, to the point we spend so much energy emulating the ideal image of what we desire to look like. Whether it is the many Instagram models you may come across on your news feed or the top hundred sexiest men and women on the planet list, our image has become the prime concern in today’s day and age. 

As humans, we go as far as working multiple jobs to have the image of being wealthy and spend thousands of dollars to change our appearance. We spend many hours a week at the gym, trying the latest diet fad, as well as going on prolonged periods of fasting in order to be the shape of Beyoncé Knowles or Chris Hemsworth.  

I believe there is no issue with wanting a personal best for yourself, but when do you start asking, Is this desire to look my best, be the richest, or be popular coming from a belief I created or a standard I have been told to have? 

Did I want to have a perfectly toned body because that was a desire of mine? Or was it because I previously felt I was not desirable without it? 

Did I want the latest Gucci and Prada bags to appear that I have value to other people? 

Did I need a six-figure job to finally earn respect and value in the eyes of my parents or my romantic partner? 

That is the problem with standards and expectations. They are always based off of what other people’s opinions and beliefs are, as well as fear-based limitations, rather than what you believe at the core. I can use myself as an example; I always knew that I wanted to help other people right down to the core of me. I fought it off my entire life because it is not a typical life path that is acknowledged by others. This fear of expressing my truest self haunted me until the day I was ready to embark on this awakening journey.

The journey of self-discovery becomes a path that not everyone is willing to take. This process means facing the darkest parts of you, without fear, in order to transcend and become the greatest version of yourself. When you face the limitations that have kept you small, silence the voice inside your mind that wants to belittle you, and realise your true potential; this can make you a dangerous powerhouse standing in your own truth. 

This book will make you look at all of the aspects of yourself that you have hidden away in your secret closet, the parts of you that you have rejected, abandoned, disregarded, let down, the parts of you that have yet to be explored or that you have not allowed to show itself. This will make you feel vulnerable. Hey, it may even make you throw this book across the room and blame my existence for all of your sorrows. That is okay; that is the natural process in grieving the old you. This past version of you will later thank me and even pick up this book once again.

This book will make you better understand how to silence that loud voice in your mind that repetitively tells you that you are not lovable or worthy. You will better understand that the choices you make in each and every moment continue to, and will forever, make up the story that you are playing out. You may even find some peace from the previous experiences that had such a tight hold over your thoughts, life patterns, and subconscious conditioning. This will even bring you the inner peace you have longed for your entire life. 

Of course, this sounds like I am selling you a dream in the form of false promises. The reality is, this dream can only be achieved through your choice to change your patterns, through your choice to look at the ways you have let yourself down, and your choice to make a difference in your life moving forward. 

So, before you make the choice to read on, ask yourself this simple question. Are you ready for your great awakening?

You could be the moon and still be jealous of the stars. 

- Gary Allen

Your Inner Child and the Poison called Envy

We spend so much time watching what others do, how they look, and watch the life that they live that we give no energy to what we truly desire or where we could expand within our own lives. This is the energy of envy, but where does this envy truly stem from?

Your body holds the container of your mind, which is a wondrous thing. To tap into the true nature and potential that you harness, you first must understand that envy and jealousy are simply external reflections of core wounds and concerns that have yet to be healed within yourself. 

When you have been told you must be smart and dedicated, you envy those who have freedom and are carefree.

When you have been told you are free to do as you wish, you envy those who have parents who disciplined them.

When you have been told you are the quiet one, you fear expressing yourself and envy the people who openly express themselves.

When you have been told you are the rebellious one, you fear being good and yet envy those who have these qualities.

The list goes on and on, and on, and on...

Inside everyone, is an Inner Child. This child has grown up to believe what their parents have told them is ‘right’ and ‘wrong’ in the world. This child has had threats, inconsistent behaviour, unreliable parenting, and emotional manipulation thrown in their face with no justification of how they should feel. This child has had its voice belittled and degraded, and this child has felt unsafe and unworthy. 

We all know that as humans, we have a natural fight or flight instinct within us. However, most people believe this is only triggered when faced with action-orientated fears; this is not the case. Most often, it is the emotional triggers that create an internal disruption causing your emotional body to react in a certain way. Have you ever felt your stomach knot when you heard a certain phrase being spoken? Or a song on the radio? That is your emotional body reacting from a prior memory.

Your Inner Child is the aspect of you that still reacts to memories that causes its emotional body to trigger its fight or flight reaction. It is the aspect of you that may have felt unsafe, unsure, unworthy, uncomfortable, not heard, hurt, and wounded when you were a child and continues to manifest this reaction throughout your life as an adult.

To learn more about your own Inner Child and its requirements, you must understand that this Inner Child is not easily heard over your ego-mind (more on this later). Your Inner Child is the soft-spoken, inner voice and feeling that resigns within your subconscious. It is the fragments of you that were hurt, injured, wounded, misguided, and misled from such an early age that you most likely cannot consciously recall these wounds; you simply are reactive to similar experiences. This may sound strange at first; however, there is a smaller version of you living inside of your body that has never been able to develop beyond your earlier years in life.

During the first three years of life, a child will begin to have cognitive self-awareness. This is the process of understanding who they are, what their needs are, who they see in the mirror, and what their likes and dislikes are. A child begins to develop this awareness of themselves through their interactions with their parents, siblings, peers, and their surroundings. This awareness grows with time through new interactions and experiences as they continue to learn about the world they live in and how they should be navigating within it.

Try to think of it this way—a child can look into a mirror and become aware that it is them they are looking at without ever knowing who or what they are. This is very important to note because a child will be looking to their own parents, siblings, and caretakers to better understand who the person they see in the mirror is and why they are attached to it.

When a child perceives of emotional fear during these initial stages of self-awareness, it cannot verbalise what is being triggered and why. This causes the Inner Child within you to internalise other people’s perceptions of you and allow of it to become a truth. So, when a child gets called naughty, it takes that perception of itself and believes it to be a truth. It will walk over to the mirror and unconsciously see the reflection of someone that is naughty. This is why a child’s perception of itself is a very important process during its earliest years of life. 

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