Who Am I? I Am His

By Fabienne Marie Volcy and Martyne Anne Volcy

Many times on the journey of life, one doesn't stop to find love, let alone stop to find who they really are or why there were birthed. We hope that you would take this journey with us as we share our own personal stories, journal entries, poetry/songs and conversation about what we've learned along the way. Our lives have been forever changed since giving our lives fully to HIM!

• Language: English
• Publisher: Lulu.com
• Release date: Jan 30, 2013
• ISBN: 9781300691600

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Who Am I? I Am His

WHO AM I? I AM HIS

This is a book about finding peace. We are bringing people on our spiritual journey back to the Garden of Eden.

Fabienne Marie Volcy

and

Martyne Anne Volcy

One Voice for Him

Copyright

WHO AM I? I AM HIS

Copyright © 2012 by Fabienne Marie Volcy, Martyne Anne Volcy

ISBN: 978-1-300-69160-0

All rights reserved. No part of this publication may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted in any for or by any means- electronic, mechanical, photocopy, recording, or any other without the prior permission in writing from the Publisher.

Edited by: Fabienne Marie Volcy, Martyne Anne Volcy

Published by: Fabienne Marie Volcy, Martyne Anne Volcy

Scripture quotations marked AMP are taken from the Amplified® Bible,
Copyright © 1954, 1958, 1962, 1964, 1965, 1987 by The Lockman Foundation.
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Scripture quotations marked NKJV are taken from the New King James Version®. Copyright © 1982 by Thomas Nelson, Inc. Used by permission. All rights reserved.

Scripture quotations marked KJV are taken from the Holy Bible, King James Version, Cambridge, 1769.

Definitions are taken from the Merriam-Webster Dictionary Copyright © 2004 by Merriam-Webster, Incorporated

Painting on the cover by Jean Dominique Volcy

Painting on the cover photographed by Joe Lin

Cover design by Fabienne Marie Volcy, Martyne Anne Volcy

Dedication

This book is dedicated to God.

Thank You for Your love and Your patience.

All that we have, we lay at Your altar.

Acknowledgements

Thank you Mom and Poppy for your constant support and love. Thank you for not discouraging us and allowing us to be free to follow our dreams. We love you always.

A special thank you to our cousin Daniel Duval, for his selfless love towards us

Prologue

I realized that I was so busy chasing the life that I thought I should have. I was working hard at creating the life I thought was best for me. What I failed to see was that God was trying to get my attention. He was chasing me too. He was calling me but I didn't listen. I thought I had all the answers. I thought I knew what was best. I never gave God a chance to speak. It was not until my life began not to feel so fulfilling that I started to wonder. There had to be more for me. This could not be it. Why was God not giving me everything that I asked for? I thought that's what the relationship was about. If I go to church and I am a good person, then I get what I want. I could not have been more wrong. God was calling me because it was time. Time to find out my purpose. Time to find out why I had been birthed. Time to find out who I truly was, who God had called me to be before I was ever born. And now, I was ready to listen because I knew something was missing. Something did not feel right anymore. I had tried it my way and I was ready to surrender to God's will for my life because everything was falling apart before my very eyes. I had pains and hurts so deep inside that I didn't even know existed. It was time to be healed from my past. It was time to learn the truth and figure out the mysteries of life. I did not know what to expect but I knew that I wanted more out of life. I started to seek God out more. He let me know that He was there in very subtle ways, through a song, a word at church, a conversation with a friend. He caused me to start seeking Him out. I wanted more of Him. Who was this God? Who is it that knows all about me, that could give me peace, and make me better? I wanted to know. The more I sought Him out, the more I would find. God started to show His face to me because I was ready to be made whole. He knew I was ready to walk into the life He prepared for me. God was patient with me. He met me where I was. I didn't become a new person overnight, but slowly the things that were a part of me that were not in God’s will for me started to appear strange. I desired what He wanted for me. I no longer did what I used to do. I wanted to be closer and closer to Him. The more I drew close to Him, the more I started feeling His presence in my life. It just flowed naturally. I realized that what I was looking for was love, peace, and joy. But the ways of this world only gave me that temporary satisfaction and I was tired. I needed more I wanted what would last and God had the promise of things that would stay as long as I stayed in Him. I began to trust Him. The more I trusted Him, the more He showed me. The more He showed me, the more I fell in love, and our relationship just continued to develop. He gave me peace and comfort as I never felt before. I cried, but He was always there to dry my tears. I felt pain but it was always followed by the assurance that it would not last always. I knew that none of my pain was in vain because I had a story to tell and I knew if I could make it through I could go back and save my brothers and sisters in Christ. It was not easy and there were many dark days but God was always there

Our Letter

Dear Reader,

This is our story. This is our song. Please don’t use this book as a Bible. Feel free to reference any point that touches your heart or speaks directly to your spirit.  This is our testimony and we pray that it helps you to see things through another person’s eyes. We pray that each page you read blesses you. Be a blessing to others as well and share what you’ve learned.

-Fabienne and Martyne

Introduction

By Fabienne Marie Volcy

It is simply amazing what can happen when you follow that voice within. For me, that voice started out as a whisper, gently guiding my path in very subtle ways. That voice guided me throughout my life and somehow everything would always work itself out. I would say, I was just following my mind or my conscience. As time went on, I started to question what the point of it all was. The more I followed and trusted the voice within, the clearer and more apparent it became to me. This inner voice was finding a comfortable place to rest in me and I suddenly was able to identify my voice. It was God all along, leading me, guiding me, protecting me every step of the way. Even when I did not really know who He was, He knew who I was. He just wanted me to figure it out for myself, when I was ready. He was not overbearing or intrusive. He did not make me feel like I didn't have a choice but to follow. He appeared as my inner voice, and the more I trusted that voice, the more He revealed Himself. When I was ready, He started me on a journey to finding out who I was and why I was birthed. I was ready to find out about myself through His eyes, the One who formed me. I now know God's voice and I follow it every day because I would be lost without Him.

We have realized that everything in life comes around full circle as long as you allow it to. Nothing happens in vain and there are no coincidences. Coming to this realization has brought us peace with so many situations that have occurred in our lives that seemed to have served no purpose. What we've realized with God is that His timing is so perfect and He sees our end from our beginning. So something that seems so insignificant at the time has been strategically placed by our Heavenly Father and does in fact serve a grand purpose. Facts like the place that you were born, the parents that you were born to, the elementary school you attended, the friend you made in ninth grade, the first job you had, the traumatic event that you witnessed, the church your friend invited you to, your greatest accomplishment, your biggest disappointment, all play a significant role in the person you are and who you will become. Everything in life matters. Some memories are good and you cherish them forever while other memories you must learn from and let go, to walk into a better tomorrow and become a better you. God works all these things out in your life, good or bad, and uses it for His glory as long as you allow Him the chance.

My sister Martyne and I were born and raised in the Flatbush section of Brooklyn, New York. We grew up in a middle class home with both of our parents along with our two other sisters. Our parents had four girls in total, Martyne and I being right in the middle. There is a three-year age gap between us, the closest age gap of all my sisters. This may explain our close relationship growing up, even to this day. I remember my mom used to dress us like twins when we went on family outings or for the holidays. It's kind of funny to look back at old pictures of this. We attended a predominately black Catholic School from first grade to eighth grade. I remember the day I made my first communion. I did not quite understand it but it was so special to me. As a child, my faith as I knew it was important to me. I had a conservative church upbringing and it brought me peace. I remember at eight years old, my sister and I used to sleep at my grandmother's house, which was three blocks away from my school church. I would walk to church alone on a Sunday morning, not because anyone told me to, but because I simply wanted to.

My sister and I are Haitian-American with our dad being born and raised in Haiti and our mom being the first generation born in America from Haitian parents. My parents were never too strict on us but they always taught us to follow a standard of good morals and values. Although my parents did not attend church every Sunday, as a child our Catholic religion was