Secrets of My Heart

By Imania Margria

The deepest desires hidden in the depth of my eyes,
These are just a few secrets taking refuge in my heart ...

Everyone has secrets hidden somewhere deep inside of them. Not everyone has the courage to reveal the secrets hidden deep inside them because they are afraid they might negatively affect their lives. But when the risk is worth taking, releasing the burden of secrets can provide rewards greater than our fears.

In her collection of poetry and prose, Imania Margria shares long-hidden secrets of her heart with the hope that she will inspire others to do the same. Within verse that explores secrets of love, forbidden desire, hope, loss, and passion offered in English, Italian, and Spanish, Margria candidly reflects on her emotions as she searches for answers, her purpose, and her true love. Included in her poignant collection is an excerpt of Margria’s soon-to-be-released romance novel, Eyes.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Lulu Publishing Services
• Release date: Jun 21, 2016
• ISBN: 9781483452517

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Secrets

of my

Heart

IMANIA MARGRIA

Copyright © 2016 Imania Margria.

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ISBN: 978-1-4834-5252-4 (sc)

ISBN: 978-1-4834-5251-7 (e)

Library of Congress Control Number: 2016908419

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Lulu Publishing Services rev. date: 06/06/2016

Contents

Introduction

I Need You

Prisoner

Be My

My Deepest Secret

Wait For Me

My Fantasy

In Another World

Mystical Night

Kissing Raindrops

Goddess Of The Night

No Matter

Mis Deseos Prohibidos

My Forbidden Desires

My Desires

Kibou (Hope)

In A Few Words

To The One Who Has My Heart

She Longs For Him

Waiting

This Should Not Be

My Broken Heart

My Heart Is Yours

Her Mind Of Shadows

Mystery Man

A Forbidden Love

The One I Met In The Park

Love Is Like A Flower

El Regalo De Ti

The Gift Of You

A Sorry Letter

The Broken Child

Little Life

I Belong To You

Always Here

Light

Away Is A Soul Set Free

Wrong

Forever Yours

Dreams

Please

Heartbroken

Revealing love

Our Secret Place

My Inner Demon

I Try

Kisses

Distant Lover

Doubts

The White Castle

Deception Part 1

Deception Part 2

Suffering Baby

Strawberry Kisses

With You

Tearful Nights

Sweet-Sweet Harmony

Burning Love

How A Voice Can Kill You

Ecstasy

My Tears

How Could You?

Thinking Of You

My Sorrow

Realization

You Are

Lost

Painful Night

Thoughts of You

Your pain My pain

Emotions

Alone

My Curse

Love Curse

Passion

Forgotten Feelings

Dance Me Into The Moonlight

Thank You

Will You?

My Dear Friends

Forgotten Tears

My Heart's Fortress

To My Love

My Pledge

The Unexpected Kiss

Oh Heavenly Father

A Forbidden Kiss

Limbo

El Hombre De Mis Sueños

The Man Of My Dreams

Michael

Gabriel

Uriel

Raphael

Our Dance

The Dream

The Reasons I Push You Away

Eyes Of Water

Secret Feelings

Spanish Angel

Our Nation's Tears (December 14, 2012)

Kawaii -- chan

The True Me

Where Are You?

Treasured Heart

Live Forever

Shooting Star

Il Nostro Viaggio

Our Journey

Sensual Desires

My Only Christmas Wish

Secrets Of My Heart

About the Author

Dedicated to: My guardian angels and grandmothers Dee Dee and Jennie. May they continue to watch over me from their perches in heaven.

Special Thanks to: Photographer Bradley Thornber for shooting my cover and author's photo IG: @fotobrad; Professor Donatelli for editing my poem Il Nostro Viaggio; and Professor Weinstein for looking over and editing my poems.

Dear Reader,

I hope you enjoy reading my collection of poetry and short stories. They express many parts of my heart and life since they were written from 2003 to present. They are not in chronological order, but you will most likely be able to decipher the origin of when they were written by reading them.

Some of my poems and stories are written in Spanish and Italian. They are accompanied by their English translations immediately after. I composed them when I was studying the languages, because I feel expressing myself through poetry, while learning a new language, helps me comprehend and cherish the language more easily. I truly hope you enjoy them and I apologize to any native speakers if there are any grammatical errors. I am still learning and perfecting my understanding and comprehension of the languages.

I dedicate this collection of poetry and short stories to my grandmother, Dee Dee, from whom I inherited my love for writing poetry and short stories. When she was alive, she longed to have her own works of poetry published, but could not when they were destroyed in a fire, originating in her bedroom. All of her precious writings were devoured by the flames; and with a heavy heart, she refused to write again. Instead, she turned to painting to express her creative urges.

Unfortunately, I did not discover my own love for writing until after her death; but I would like to believe that she is forever by my side, helping to guide my hand and heart as I pursue my own dreams. I would like to believe that a little bit of her essence is within all I create. Therefore, in truth, these are not only the secrets of my heart, but they are the secrets of her heart as well.

Following my little collection, there is a sneak peek of my romance novel, Eyes, which will be published and available September 29, 2016. I hope you will enjoy it and get your copy of it when it's released. For more updates, please follow me on Twitter/ Instagram: @imaniamargria, my Instagram literary page: @imania_margria, www.facebook.com/scarletimania, and tumblr:@scarletimania99. Thank you once again for reading my book, Secrets of My Heart. I am truly grateful. Blessed Be.

                                    Love Always,

                                             Imania Margria

Introduction

Everyone has secrets hidden somewhere deep inside of them. Some are great and some are small. Some are deep and some are shallow. Some are dark and some are light. Yet not everyone can reveal their secrets in fear of how they will affect those involved in the secrets or those to whom they reveal their secrets. It takes a lot of strength and courage to bare the secrets we keep hidden away for we are risking a great deal. However, some risks are worth taking. For once the burden of our secrets is lifted, we realize the reward of our revelation is greater than our fears.

This is why I choose to reveal to you these secrets I have kept hidden away for so many years. I have finally found the strength and courage in my heart to reveal them to you. I want you to know them in hopes that you will use some secrets in your own life situations and heed the warning of others. These are my heart's secrets. Secrets of love, loss, desire, hope, and passion. Secrets that are so vast I cannot even contain them all in just one volume. Secrets that are better left hidden, but must be revealed for I can no longer contain them.

From this moment on, you now have the key to open and discover the secrets of my heart.

I Need You

          Every day I dream about you,

          Every day I want to tell you that I secretly love you.

          But every time I get the chance I blow it.

          I would tell you in person but I'm afraid.

          I need your help and guidance.

          I guess what I'm trying to say I need you.

Let your innocence show as brilliant as your dreams because only then can you discover the true beauty of love. -- I.M.

Prisoner

Whenever my body is touched,

I pretend it is you.

I pretend you are the one caressing,

Holding me.

I close my eyes and pretend you are the one penetrating me.

I speak no word,

I utter no sound,

I just take a breath and pretend.

My shackles I cannot break,

Until I get you back.

I only see you among the darkness of my mind,

Penetrating me.

You are the one holding me.

You are the one I belong to,

But when my eyes open you are not there.

I am once again alone restrained to the wall.

I am a prisoner,

A prisoner of my true desires,

A prisoner of my true intentions,

A prisoner of fate,

A prisoner of my heart.

Our hearts may be strong and resilient against the trials of life, but they become weak and fragile against the trials of love. -- I.M.

Be My

                            Strength be my legs,

                            Desire be my mouth,

                            Kindness be my hands,

                            Love be my heart,

                            Wisdom be my head,

                            And hope be my wings.

To dream is to desire, to desire is to long for, to long for is to want, and to want you must work to attain all you dream of, desire, long for, and want. -- I.M.

My Deepest Secret

Night takes over and my heart soars,

I close my eyes with the hope to dream,

For in those dreams is where the deepest secret of my heart lies.

I pray a soft prayer,

Praying to hear just a whisper of your voice,

To satisfy my longing heart.

As the shadows loom over my room,

I fear my prayers are trapped in their dark clutches,

They disperse,

Failing to reach heaven's ears.

I close my eyes once more,

This time to think of you.

I summon the vision of you to my consciousness.

Your defined-divine beauty,

Your lovable smile,

And hypnotizing eyes,

Sends my heart into a frenzy.

I cannot breathe,

With only the thought of your mesmerizing voice.

It warms my heart,

And my body as it echoes through