Prison Diary: Inside Stories
By Olive Lawson
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This is the inspirational diary of a retired schoolteacher in her seventies who has found a ministry to those incarcerated in a men’s prison. Olive’s honest account of her interactions with convicted criminals will grip her readers. She challenges us to look for the inherent goodness in every person. She makes us question whether each of us may also have a significant ministry that is only limited by our availability
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Prison Diary - Olive Lawson
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‘Prison Diary – Inside Stories’
Written by Olive Lawson
First Edition published 2018 by Olive Lawson
This Second edition © July 2019 Kereru Publishing Ltd
Text Copyright © Olive Lawson
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This book is dedicated to all those prisoners who serve their sentence with courage, remorse and hope for a better future.
Thank you to Barbara Taylor, Julie Kennedy, Pauline Taylor and my loving husband, Don Rowlands, for support and encouragement.
Names and places have been changed to protect identities.
I was naked and you gave me clothing. I was sick and you took care of me. I was in prison and you visited me… Truly I tell you, just as you did it to the least of these who are members of my family, you did it to me.
Matthew 25:36, 40.
Introduction
Sitting at the dining room table, wondering what I should do with my life, I flicked open the Bible. My eyes fell on these lines:
"Remember those who are in prison, as though you
were in prison with them." Hebrews 13:3.
I pondered over this verse for some time. How could I, an older pākehā retired female teacher gain access to prison? What could I do? I would like to help prisoners, but how could I go about it?
Ten years prior my youngest son, Nicholas, died from a drug overdose. He was twenty nine years old, engaged to be married and an addict in remission. He had been clean, to my knowledge, for nearly two years following time in Queen Mary Hospital in Hanmer. My grief at his almost unexpected death was boundless. I tried to deal with it in so many ways: prayer, writing, a memorial seat, acknowledging anniversaries, talking about addiction at a meeting, and walking the Camino in Spain; a pilgrimage in memory of Nick. My husband was patient and kind and one day remarked that he thought I enjoyed working with young men because it helped me in my healing process. His words rang true in my heart. I knew he was right. I knew it was only through the grace of God that Nicholas had not ended up in prison. Whenever I saw young mums with little boys in tow at the supermarket I often felt like calling to them; Watch out! Enjoy them! They may not be with you long! Take good care how you bring them up. At the school where I taught I devoted myself to many at risk teenagers in my care. I really wanted to help young men walk a safe path.
The following Sunday, after the usual church service, during cup of tea time, a woman I scarcely knew, sat beside me.
Would you like to join a church team that takes a prison service monthly?
she said.
Yes,
I replied without a moment of hesitation. And so began my prison ministry.
It took time to get my volunteer identification card. I had to attend a training course and have a thorough police check. We were constantly warned during training of the dangers of ‘getting got’ which in prison terms means being taken in, manipulated and blackmailed in some illegal way. The short films we saw showed the frightening ease with which a cunning prisoner can manoeuvre a naïve volunteer. We were cautioned about the dangers of giving out personal information; where you live, the names of people in your family, your age, your phone number, your surname and so on.
My first visit was traumatic. I returned home emotionally drained and completely exhausted. I was amazed that only a fifteen minutes drive from our comfortable home in a beautiful suburb hundreds of men were confined in claustrophobic concrete cells far from the beauties of nature, suffering a kind of purgatory I could scarcely imagine. The knowledge helped me enjoy all the small freedoms of every day. A moment in the garden, hopping into my car on a whim and buzzing off to see someone, shopping, going to bed whenever I felt like it, enjoying wide open spaces, walking away from a person who was annoying me… prisoners cannot do any of these things. Prison volunteering reminded me that I was free to do and experience such small joys and achievements while the young men were denied all this. On each visit fresh things disturbed me. No visit was ever the same. But I was never going to stop. I felt that perhaps in some small way I could assist the young men, or at least some of them.
Entering through the gate house the first few times was not pleasant. First the identification card is electronically checked, shoes removed, belts, jewellery and jackets and Bibles go through the x-ray machine. This machine is far more particular than those at the airport. Time and again I have been compelled to go through more than once. It’s because I have left my watch on, or my jeans have extra studs or there’s a metal clasp on my top. Once my husband was refused entry and finally had to remove his metal rimmed glasses. We can take with us paper, but no pens, or pencils, compact discs, memory sticks, or flowers.
Next we enter a large stainless steel room with surveillance cameras where shoes and belts are put on, clothing adjusted and the exit button pushed to allow us to enter the prison grounds. I always feel a pang of sadness leaving this room for directly outside there is a fleet of dilapidated pushchairs lined up for visiting mothers. It’s a long walk to most parts of the prison and these tatty pushchairs are for any mums with babies or toddlers.
Returning home one day particularly emotionally drained, my husband suggested that it might help if I kept a diary writing down what occurred at each visit. Thus began this ‘Prison Diary’.
The diary tells some of the story of my three years of prison volunteering which both challenged and deepened my faith. The courage of some of the men against all odds gave me hope. This diary is a personal record of both my journey and those of a few of the prisoners with whom I worked and talked.
First Year
February
Chapel Service
My First Service
I was nervous. I didn’t know what to expect. After the long walk through the prison grounds surrounded by grim buildings, the long concrete corridors, the high grilled gates on time alarms, stepping into the chapel is a refreshing change: a breath of fresh air, an oasis in the desert, a sanctuary. Carpeted in rich blue with cream walls, I was first struck by the huge carved Māori Jesus on the wall right front some seven feet tall. He has distinctly Māori facial features looking out at you through paua shell eyes. On a two step raised dais there is a small unadorned altar with a plain wooden cross. Behind the altar there are two ‘wings’ of plain stained glass, red and green. This room has colour, which