I Survived to Testify: Refined to Shine

By Corinthia Hall

“He shall be like a tree planted by the rivers ...” - Psalm 1:3 ​

This book is a compelling, prophetic message, calling for repentance and deliverance of leaders in the house of God. It is a timely declaration that must not be ignored, which promises hope and transformation if heeded. Your life will not be the same! It is one that ALL ministry leaders on both large and small platforms, should read. As should all who desire to see the anointing of God returned to the churches and leadership.

This book is an outward cry for leaders in the house of God to return to the love, care, and concern for the souls of God’s people, and be held accountable for the afflictions THEY have caused. Consider this a clarion call in the wilderness, speaking in truth to power and to empower. It not only shines a light on spiritual malpractice in the pulpits across the world, but also to bring about radical holiness, truth, and Christian love to those who lead God's flock. Get your copy of this book now!

• Language: English
• Publisher: Corinthia Hall
• Release date: Jun 20, 2020
• ISBN: 9780463628171

Corinthia Hall

CORINTHIA LENOIR HALL is a licensed minister, carrying and ministering the word of God since her elementary years. She's also a certified Surgical Technologist and works in labor and delivery. Helping to birth and bring forth life into the world is a special work of God that has been assigned to her hands, both naturally and spiritually.The desire of her heart is to see every man, woman, boy, and girl that has been raped physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually, which has left them bound by the enemy, be made whole, set free, be delivered, and bring forth their seed walking in their God-given purpose.She has been married to Juan, her high school sweetheart, for twenty-four years. They have three beautiful children: Juan Jr., Brandon, and Jasmine, and six wonderful grandchildren that are a true joy in their lives.

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INTRODUCTION

People experience many things in life, some harder to get over than others. Situations and circumstances in one’s life can stagnate their life or even cause some to fail. Not everyone is as strong as the next person.

My story is about rape. The spiritual and demonic abuse experienced in the church. Spiritual and demonic rape feels just the same as physical rape. in fact, I believe it is worse. The reason I say this is because we turn to the church to escape the hurt, pain, and disappointments of the world and we believe that we are safe until the church leaders mishandle us.

Rape can and will rob a person in many aspects of life. It can strongly stagnate you, weigh you down, and make it difficult for some people to live a full life. Rape is sometimes hard to prove and hard to believe, especially when the person to blame is well known.

What do you do when you have been violated by the hands of your church leader? What will happen to you when you speak out about the wickedness and perversion of church leaders? Sexual immorality, spiritual rape, spiritual abortionist, and spiritual contamination live in the church as men and women of God in leadership. These are men and women standing before the people of God, laying hands on the people of God.

Where can the people of God go or turn to for refuge without them being rebuked, scorned, talked about and driven out of the church? There was a time when you could confide in the church mothers. There was a time when church mothers would listen and give you sound advice, both natural and spiritual. Nowadays, we must proceed with caution when seeking help with some church mothers. Today, the church mothers are simply mothers that go to church in need of counsel and deliverance themselves. Where is the help within our churches today?

The Bible says, Touch not my anointed, but what happens when His anointed touches you? What happens when God’s anointed touch their members in the wrong way? Who do these leaders, pastors, and Bishops answer to?

I believe that passage of scripture has been strongly taken out of context by some of these anointed ones. I believe that these pastors have perverted that passage of scripture to put fear in the people of God to allow them to continue in their sin without their sin being exposed.

Today, spiritual leaders turn a deaf ear and address only that which is comfortable to them and ignore certain cries for help. Perhaps, it could be that not speaking about the sins and demons of the pulpit will keep the sin and demons in their own pulpit hidden.

A lot of these pastors and leaders today is too concerned about their image and their name, while so many of Gods sheep are being misled, contaminated, infected, and shamed in the church.

People tend to look at you differently when you cry rape and eventually disassociate themselves and walk out of your life. The church then labels you, ostracizes and categorizes you, set you aside until you are pushed outside of the church because you have put your mouth on the man of god. Which is one of the reasons some victims choose to keep silent. Fearing being labeled and not being believed, along with the fear of retaliation associated behind this crime.

Some might even view my story as someone who is coming against church leaders because maybe things did not go my way in the church. My way was not to have been wounded and violated by my church leader. My way was not to have been mis-shepherded by the one I sat under and respected as the man of God. So, no, I am not coming against the church, but I am coming against certain church leaders.

In 1 Corinthians 6:1 (NIV) says, If any of you have a dispute with another, do you dare take it before the ungodly for judgment, instead of before the Lord’s people? And if you are to judge the world, are you not competent to judge trivial cases?

What do you do when you have taken your complaints to the Lord’s people as the word of God tells us, (as I have done) over and over again, and you are messed up by the spiritual leaders you sought help from? Some great and powerful men of God. And your problem worsens. What do you do then? What we have today in a lot of church’s are leaders that are bringing shame to the name of Jesus. A perverted and a sexually immoral group of leaders.

Matthew 18:6 says, "If anyone causes one of these little ones--those who believe in me--to stumble, it would be better for them to have a large millstone hung around their neck and to be drowned in the depths of the sea. God’s word does not change, and God’s word is for you, me, and church leaders as well. In fact, church leaders are the first partakers of the word they minister to God’s people.

Church is a place for all to come for spiritual healing, church is the hospital for sin sick souls. Nothing is worse than going into the hospital for one thing and leaving the hospital being contaminated and infected with something you did not walk in there with. WOW!

I know that my story is one that many women and men in the church have experienced, but they are too ashamed and too afraid to speak about it. I am not afraid nor am I ashamed. I have been through too much not to tell my story.

My prayer for all of you who are spirit filled, (Holy Spirit filled that is), is for you to tap into your spiritual discernment and know that I speak truthfully, and to know I speak in soundness of mind.

The reason I am still here today to tell my story, is because God kept me. God allowed me to go through these things because He knew I would not give up the fight. God allowed it so that each of you who are too ashamed to tell your story will know that you are not alone. You are not the only one that has dealt with this sin, pain and shame in the church.

My story is not to make the church look bad, but rather in hopes of the making the church to open their eyes and take a closer look at why so many of God’s people are being wounded in the church.

My story is not about all church leaders, nor is it to bring shame to those that are truly walking with our Lord and Savior. There is a remnant of church leaders left today that still stand for righteousness, holding fast to their confession and the oath they made before God and before man. There are still a remnant of leaders holding on and holding up the blood- stained banner. There are still wonderful, loving and watchful shepherds that watch carefully over their flocks, walking up right in and out of the house of God, and among the people of God. However, these leaders that are living a holy and faithful life MUST stand up and speak up about these shameful acts in the church. We are helpers one to the other in every way and not just ways that are comfortable with them.

My story is unchartered territory. It is unchartered because people are apprehensive about discussing this topic publicly. It is unchartered because one may look at the contents of this story as unbelievable and may view me as mentally unstable. It is unchartered because the church pulpit refuses to address the subject, but this is happening in the church, and God’s people are being strongly infected and driven out into the wilderness, bound by this deceptive perverted spirit.

I have experienced hurt and disappointment in my life, we all have, but none could come close to what I have experienced from the hands of those who are supposed to be God’s shepherds, the ones who were supposed to help lead and direct the people of God safely across their Jordan.

There is an old saying that says, there is no hurt like church hurt, this is true. I write my story to tell how the love among many leaders have waxed cold, and hearts has turned evil against their sheep in many ways.

The purpose of my story is to Enlighten, Encourage, and to bring Awareness to the people of the faith, and to let you know that you are not what they have tried to label you as; crazy, insane, mentally unstable and unfit for the Kingdom of God, and unfit to carry out God’s assignment on your life

St. John 8: 3-11 talks about an adulterous woman being caught in the very act of adultery. The Bible says that the scribes and Pharisees brought her before Jesus. Where were they at and what were they doing to catch her? Where was the man she was laying with? Why wasn’t that man she was laying with brought also before Jesus? Could it have been perhaps that he, the adulterous man was indeed a religious leader himself?

It was the custom back then to be stoned to death for such an act. Each of those men holding the stone was a group of religious leaders. The only reason they tried to quickly stone her is so they would not be found to be lying, hypocritical and adulterous church leaders themselves. I believe they were trying to cover up their secrets. There is nothing new under the sun. We experience and face the same sins of old, and with pretty much the same people, but just in a different age and time.

When Jesus stooped down and began writing in the dirt as each one of the leaders that brought her before Jesus looked on. The Bible does not say what Jesus wrote, but as those religious leaders started walking off one by one, I am made to believe that he wrote each one of their names. Each one of them walked away, they quickly tipped away filled with shame. I believe even tried to leave before Jesus wrote their names in the dirt, and made it known that he was aware of their secrets as well.

What you have suffered in the church from the hands of leadership, is nothing you did wrong. I write to you from personal experience and not from a story told to me. This book is also written to show the length, depth, and the extinct that church leaders will try and go to, just to try and cover themselves from the wicked and evil acts they committed against God’s people. They are not any different than the sinner man that commit rape and try to cover it up out in the world, by any means necessary.

This book came forth through strong warfare by me being attacked almost daily as I wrote. This book came forth despite of great and powerful leaders coming against me wickedly, picking it apart and using some of it contents as their own. the enemy threw everything my way to prevent me from writing this book, and to try and silence me so that their magical arts, sorcery acts, and sexually perverted ways be not revealed. If I speak falsely against my brethren, I shall give an account of every lie when I stand before Christ on that Great day, for God hates and will judge all liars.

The Bible says in Revelation 12:11 (NLT), And they have defeated him (that ole serpent) by the blood of the Lamb and by their testimony. And they did not love their lives so much that they were afraid to die. The way we defeat our enemy is by telling our testimony. If you do not tell your testimony, the enemy will testify and tell a different story of you and give a different account of you. If you do not tell your story, the enemy will continue to come after you to wound, torment and mock what you have experienced from his hands.

There is nothing to be ashamed of. We do not get to pick and choose our trials in life, but we do get to choose how we handle our trials. We do get to choose how we come through our adversities. I choose to come back strong, in fact, I choose to come back even stronger than before.

I write this book for the freedom of my daughter and for the strengthening of my granddaughter’s future. I write this book for every person whether male or female that has ever been raped or molested in or out of church, whether it be natural or spiritual, mentally or emotionally, and the enemy has tried to intimidate you with fear to keep you silent.

Everyone does not make it out, everyone does not win and walk away in victory. So, for each of you that have survived and walked away in victory from whatever type of rape that tried to kill you or silence you, I tip my hat to you. I say To God Be the Glory. Everyone has a testimony to give, your testimony is not my testimony and my testimony is not yours. These are MY experiences of what I went through and witnessed. So, allow me to share my story with you.

Maya Angelo once said, There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside of you. Tell your story and defeat your enemy.

Journey with me as I tell my story of how I survived to testify.

And they overcame him by the blood of the lamb and the words of their testimony (Revelation 12:11).

Chapter 1

Forbidden fruit

Second Samuel tells a story of a girl name Tamar (Tamar is a female name of Hebrew origin, meaning date, the fruit) used as a symbolic oriental name, due to its beauty and fruitfulness of the tree. Tamar was the daughter of King David. Tamar had a half-brother name Amnon. The Bible says that Amnon loved his sister, but the very next verse says that Amnon was sorely vexed, he wanted her so badly, that he fell sick for his sister Tamar daily. Amnon had developed a violent lust for Tamar and wanted to be with her sexually.

First John 2:16 (KJV), For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life, is not of the Father, but is of the world. This is how this shameful rape act begins, with lust. The Lust of the eye, the lust of a person always desires something that is off limits to them. Amnon had a friend named Jonadab, the Bible describes him as a very subtle man, a crafty man. Jonadab helped Amnon to derive a plot to rape his sister. This sounds a lot like the serpent in the garden, how it slithered subtly up to Eve and talked her into touching that which was forbidden.

Tamar was forbidden fruit, for she was a young virgin and Amnon sister, which means Amnon was in strong violation against his family and against the law. The lust of the flesh. Amnon lied to his father to get Tamar alone in his room. When his sister came to his room to nurture him for his supposedly illness, he grabbed his virgin sister and raped her. Tamar pleaded