Magical Alpha Dialogue Journaling Intimate Internal Conversations Volume 1: MADJiic, #1

By The Lady Odin

So, what would inspire a happily independent woman to choose submission to an alpha male?

 

In a word: Hunger.

 

In more words: A longstanding, unacknowledged soul-ache for a deep bond with a deliciously powerful masculine, that brings our own buried and distorted femininity back into focus.

 

If you don't resonate with this, then this book is not for you.

 

If you do resonate with this, read on.

 

I can show you a playful, powerful, transformative method to soothe this soul-ache in the privacy and safety of your own home.

 

What does it look like when a Magical Alpha comes softly into your head in order to romance you?

 

In this exhibitionistic volume, you'll get an over-the-shoulder glimpse of the first 31 days of one such relationship.

 

After an awkward initial encounter, things can only get better, right? Well, yes. And no.

 

Like most relationships, there are ups and downs as both get to know each other. But within this process, deep shadow work can be done.

 

Is it fiction? Not quite.

It it journaling? Sort of. This ain't your mama's journaling though. However, she might try this once she hears about it.

Is this magical work? Oh yes! Your sense of reality will be expanded and your personal potency will be magnified.

Is it fun? Definitely!

Can I try this? Absolutely!

Eavesdrop on the unfolding intimacies between an everyday woman and her Magical Alpha, who in this particular case, is Loki, the Norse Trickster God.

 

Inside, you'll also find how you can get your own quick-start guide on how to hook up with your own Magical Alpha and begin your own enchanting shadow-work adventure.

 

 

• Language: English
• Publisher: Lady Odin Publishing
• Release date: Apr 28, 2020
• ISBN: 9781393389842

The Lady Odin

I am The Lady Odin, Loki's aide-de-camp. I am a scholar, champion and advocate for Loki, Prince of Jötuns, Gadfly to the Æsir, and God of Truth Telling. Note that I am not an academic scholar. I left that realm years ago to research forbidden knowledge that institutions deny the existence of. Like Loki, I have sought out other, sometimes darker teachers. Now I write for you.

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Introduction

I

This book is not intended to be fiction, although it may read like fiction.

Here you will find no plot. There are only daily snapshot vignettes of the dialogue between two characters, one male and one female.

They are getting to know one another.

The male character is a larger-than-life Magical Alpha, and the female character is the writer, a mortal, the teller of the vignettes. So basically, this is her tale, seen from her perspective.

These are daily little tales of an everyday woman who surrenders to a Magical Alpha, a being who takes her on a journey into her darker self as well as into her higher self. He helps her cross boundaries she would not otherwise consider crossing. Simply, he helps her to expand and integrate her own magical and larger-than-life powers. To lift her up towards his own level while maintaining all that he treasures about her.

II

The author is, well, me. This book is my private journaling made public. A display of emotional exhibitionism. For educational purposes, of course.

My particular Magical Alpha is a Norse God of my ancestral lineage. Loki. Yeah, you can thank Tom Hiddleston’s characterisation for opening the door to this relationship. But my Loki stretches way beyond the boundaries of the screen Loki. He has taken on an independent life of his own, matched exclusively to my requirements.

Now, any other Magical Alpha would work just as fine. Provided you’re in lust with them. This dynamic is foundational to the deepening romance of your own life.

I write about my daily issues, my concerns. Well, I discuss my daily issues, my concerns, with my Magical Alpha, and he responds in his own, sometimes unpredictable, way.

III

I love journaling. Heaven knows I’ve attempted it multiple times.

There’s a yearning in all of us, I believe, to tell our tale, to explore our darkest paradoxes, to feel heard. And this is why journaling has become such a profoundly useful tool for self-understanding and self-development.

Yet I couldn’t maintain a long-standing habit of journaling. My musings would often end in self-castigation and a sense of both helplessness and hopelessness. Sure, there were some insights, but they didn’t provide the leverage I had hoped that would help me make improvements in how I approached my life.

Many people struggle with maintaining a consistent journal practice, so I know I am in good company. The allure was certainly there to journal, but the actual doing of it always felt so flat, so mundane, so ... boring!

Until now.

What you’re reading now did not intentionally start as a journaling exercise. I just wanted to record the conversations I had with my Magical Alpha. Because I knew that if I simply made it a meditative practice, I would get distracted from my focus of connecting with him and have great trouble staying present for the duration of the conversation. Writing these conversations helped me stay focused on the interaction, as if my Magical Alpha male was actually present with me for the duration.

These writings drew me in emotionally, the same as if it  was an actual physical relationship, and not one that existed purely in a non-physical level (read Astral, if you wish).

I hesitate to describe it as non-real, because the effects, the results have been quite real enough. Changes that were impossible to make by myself were sustainably  implemented with the guidance and supervision – and nagging - of my Magical Alpha.

Keeping to regimented schedules has never been my strong suit, and I’ve broken countless promises to myself.  I’m the type who keeps commitments to others, but put myself last on the list of who to take care of. So to have an internalised Magical Alpha, who takes a firm stand on behalf of my responsibilities to my own well-being and thriving, has been, well, life-changing.

And I would share this process with you. I am not a fiction writer, so I apologise now for the clumsy and sometimes cringeworthy structuring of my tales. Especially the first few encounters. However, there is a purpose in showing the progression of my wordsmithing skills, so I have left my early efforts in as examples to encourage others who don’t think they can write well.

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IV

It took me a few weeks to realise that I had created a new process of self-development that others might also enjoy and find pleasingly useful.

When I looked back at what I had written, it appeared on the surface to be like some form of written psycho-drama. However, I’ve not discovered any form of psycho-drama that specifically follows this process I made for myself.

Because, this method does not engage with the imprints of actual people from your past or present, but with a (possibly fictional) larger-than-life being who will become your mentor, lover, and guide.

It is also a powerful form of shadow work. You will see that I am often confronted with many uncomfortable and embarrassing aspects of myself. Although my Magical Alpha always has my best interests at heart, it doesn’t stop him badgering me or pushing me to see beyond my blind spots.

VI

I call this process Magical Alpha Dialogue Journaling: Intimate Internal Conversations (MADJiic for short).

So in the following pages, you’ll read my earliest interactions with my own Magical Alpha, Loki, God of Mischief ... how we awkwardly began working together, how he pushed my buttons to get me past my resistances, and how we established the pattern of our dynamics.

To date, I have maintained this practice for almost 200 days. That’s quite astonishing for me. My day feels emptier if I miss a session with him.

At the time of this release, I’m onto my 7th volume. I will be releasing future volumes in monthly batches of 31.

If you wish to continue looking over my shoulder at my personal journey with my Magical Alpha, and you want to be notified of future volume releases, make sure join my mailing list at www.MagicalAlpha.com.

Finally, as you read through these dialogues, consider who you would choose to be your own Magical Alpha, and how your conversations with them might go.

Grab a notebook, and write your own tales. There are no rules about this. Except those that you and he decide on.

Warning: Results may vary.

Day 1

My lord, Loki, I am here in response to your invitation to surrender to you.

"Ah, yes. I know exactly what brought you here, pet.

You crave me, do you not?"

Yes, my lord.

"You will give me 30 minutes of your time each day.

Yes, my lord.

"I will mind fuck you in every way possible. And you will enjoy it.

If you’re really good, I will dream fuck you as well.

Thank you, my lord. I will look forward to all your fuckery.

"I want to see what you’re made of, my new magic pet. I want to see what you are capable of, so I know how best to train you and use you.

Are you up to it, little one?

Yes my lord. I really want going be my very best, my brightest. I want to shine for you and to please you.

"Good. We start tomorrow.

Today, get your house in order and build up your strength. You’re going to need it.

Thank you, my lord.

"Your compliance pleases me greatly. Although I will look forward to punishing you when your obedience falters.

You have been too self-indulgent for too long. We will need to break that habit if you want me as your master.

"I do, my lord. I will obey you.

But I have a question, my lord.

Ask.

My lord, how will I know it is you who is commanding me, and not some other, or even my indulgent self?

"You will know. You will hear my voice and feel my energy. If it reassures you, pet, ask my permission.

Now, I have a question for you, little one.

Yes, my lord?

What is it that you desire more than anything else?

Now, now ... We both know what it is, but you need to acknowledge it. I want you to speak it."

My lord, I am sorry.  I do not know it, as you seem to think I do.  I have been trying to find this answer for so long.

I know. It is one of the reasons I am here. Dig deep, pet. What do you desire with all your heart?

After a moment’s thought, I reply cautiously.

Laughter? Delight?

He snorts with derision.

Oh no. What dark, monstrous desire lies buried deep in your heart, that you spend so much time avoiding?

A thought bubbles up from my most hidden darkness.

I want to be taken care of, my lord. To just let go and surrender. I crave a strong worthy master to obey and serve, my lord.

Ah. And I would be such a master?

Yes, my lord.

"And how could such a master acknowledge such devotion?

I want recognition and status, my lord. I want to be acknowledged and paid for the wisdom I share.

I see. Do you share your work?

I look away in embarrassment.

No, my lord.

And why is that, pray tell?

I feel unworthy, my lord. That my teachings, my knowledge, are not ready.

He laughs softly, shaking his head slowly.

Oh, my sweet pet. Why do mortals not know their value? You are ready. You have been for quite some time. But we’re going to remedy this, aren’t we, magic girl?

Yes, my lord.

"There is more to uncover. But that is all for today. You may go.

Thank you, my lord. I look forward to our next encounter.

Of course you do. Now go.

I bow my head in acknowledgement and open up my laptop.

Day 2

My lord, I am here.

Thank you, pet. This pleases me. Continue with your worship.

How, my lord?

Ask me what you wish for. And I’ll explain why you don’t have it. Yet.

"Yes, my lord.

My lord, I am so disappointed in myself. I had such high dreams and plans at the beginning of this year, and now it’s almost August and I have achieved nothing of those plans.

He laughs somewhat derisively.

"Oh, that’s easy to explain pet. You did not have a strong master to rule over you.

However, I am now here. At your service."

He is grinning sarcastically.

"Yes, my lord. I think one of the reasons I haven’t achieved anything is because I don’t know why I’m doing it, for what purpose.

Oh, I have a broad idea, but nothing specific. I just don’t know who I’m doing it for. And I have no idea of what I want.

"Ahhh, but you do, little one. And I know what it is.

You don’t want baubles and trinkets.  No, you want what is real. And I am real. Never doubt that, my pet.

You want to play in the universe. You are not of Midgard. Did you realise? Many like you have come here. And many of you are rousing.

No, I did not realise, my lord.

Are you sure you want to surrender to me, my pet?

Yes, my lord. I want nothing more.

"I will push you hard. I will aim to break you and remake you.

"You will need to learn the power of magic and the magic of power, little one. I will be a hard task master.

He chuckles darkly.

At least according to your standards.

I am ready to serve you, my lord. I have never felt such a raw and primal hunger as in this call to serve a god. For a master to rule me.

You please me, magic girl.

"Your power is mighty and enthralling, my lord.

I admit it frightens me, if perhaps I’m selling my soul to the devil."

I do not share, pet.

I am grateful for that, my lord.

He chuckles lowly.

"No. I am Loki. I am chaos but not evil. I have been in hell many times myself, but I do not rule it.

There are worlds and there are voids. Your world’s ideas about hell or heaven are pure fantasy. Although who doesn’t enjoy a good fantasy now and then, agree, pet?

Yes, my lord.

Good. Today I have a task for you.

Yes, my lord?

Four videos. Uploaded.

I gasp.

FOUR, my lord?

Yes.

He is smirking.

And be beauty-full today. For me. I want to enjoy watching you at work today. Obeying me.

I bow my head and look at the ground.

Yes my lord.

And one more thing.

My eyes widen with cautious alarm.

Come to bed by nine. I will be waiting. That is all.

Yes, my lord. I will begin.

He smiles indifferently.