Want to Love You: Volume 1

By Zhenyinfang

yearning for love

• Language: English
• Publisher: Funstory
• Release date: Feb 5, 2020
• ISBN: 9781648145438

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CONTENTS

CHAPTER 1 - HAVE DISSATISFACTION WITH THE HEART

CHAPTER 2 - ABOUT MAFENIN

CHAPTER 3 - RECOLLECTION

CHAPTER 4 - MISUNDERSTANDING

CHAPTER 5 - DIVORCE

CHAPTER 6 - WINTER AND WINTER

CHAPTER 7 - PARENTS

CHAPTER 8 - FANG HUAXI'S THOUGHTS

CHAPTER 9 - NEW LIFE

CHAPTER 10 - SICK

CHAPTER 11 - FANG HUIQI AND LI TIANMING

CHAPTER 12 - FANG HUIQI'S ERROR

CHAPTER 13 - HIS ANGER

CHAPTER 14 - DRUNKENNESS

CHAPTER 15 - HER VULNERABILITY

CHAPTER 16 - SORRY

CHAPTER 17 - FOREVER

CHAPTER 18 - CASE

CHAPTER 19 - LIKE

CHAPTER 20 - DAY

CHAPTER 21 - BREAKFAST

CHAPTER 22 - MARRIAGE

CHAPTER 23 - NO MORE

CHAPTER 24 - IT'S NOT THAT I DON'T LOVE YOU

CHAPTER 25 - IT'S NOT THAT I DON'T LOVE YOU(2)

CHAPTER 26 - FUTURE IT'S JUST A LIE YOU SAID

CHAPTER 27 - FUTURE IT'S JUST A LIE YOU SAID

CHAPTER 28 - FUTURE IT'S JUST A LIE YOU SAID(2)

CHAPTER 29 - PAIN

CHAPTER 30 - A DARK NIGHT WITHOUT DIRECTION

CHAPTER 31 - ENDOPHTHALMOS

CHAPTER 32 - EXTRANEOUS SOMNOLENCE

CHAPTER 33 - AMES

CHAPTER 34 - A DULL LIFE

CHAPTER 35 - REASSURANCE

CHAPTER 36 - HEAVENLY PAIN IS NOT THE SAME AS BEFORE

CHAPTER 37 - RESCUE

CHAPTER 38 - OR DID HE LEAVE

CHAPTER 39 - LAUNDRY

CHAPTER 40 - PAST

CHAPTER 41 - GOOD NOW

CHAPTER 42 - HOW TO EXPLAIN

CHAPTER 43 - DEADLOCK

CHAPTER 44 - IT'S OVER

CHAPTER 45 - DEPENDENCE OR LOVE

CHAPTER 46 - DO YOU BELIEVE ME

CHAPTER 47 - A STRANGE PLACE

CHAPTER 48 - ESTRANGEMENT

CHAPTER 49 - LAST WORDS 1

CHAPTER 50 - WORDS WRITTEN AT THE END 2

CHAPTER 51 - END

CHAPTER 1 - HAVE DISSATISFACTION WITH THE HEART

On the surface, she didn't show it on the surface, but she was secretly complaining in secret. The work that was already done by an outsider was not only the same as before, but also much more, as she watched Ma Fenglan's group drinking tea and chatting for them while she still had to do all the work for them, she couldn't help but feel irritated. With the family's money, she could still live in such a carefree and easy manner, and she could not help but sigh at the bleak life of the world. Liu Yuling thought that she was trying her best to get a lawyer's license or something like that, so her back became stiff. She could go anywhere and find a job, but she wouldn't be so bored. Before getting off work in the evening, he went to Xinhua Bookstore to buy a lot of books. Now that there were people taking the adult examinations outside, he had some backing in university. If he could put in more time, getting a certificate shouldn't be a problem.

When they arrived home, Li Tianming indeed did as he had promised. The household chores were all taken care of by him, and his son was also taking him out to play, so he couldn't help but feel a burst of gratitude in his heart. Although he had suffered a lot of leisure outside, her husband was still pretty good to her, and he treated her very well, after all, after so many years of love, he no longer had the passion of love, so she believed their relationship would last even longer.

He had been working hard for days now, and every night when he came home, he would feel very tired. He thought of his son and his husband, who were his strong backers and had nothing to worry about, wholeheartedly focusing on their work and their examination documents, and heard that something had happened to Ma Fenglan's family, as if they had been hiding it from her for several years now. Although it was a little immoral of him to think about it, when he thought about how much he had almost lost his job, he would gloat Liu Lin's misfortune. After she had cried enough, Ma Fenglan consoled him, Big Sis Ma, I've heard all about you. Don't be sad, I believe your husband will turn back. Let's talk slowly if we have something to say. Don't cry at the gate, it's not good. Ma Fenglan gradually restrained her crying and said in an intermittent manner, Yuling, it's still you who should stick to the hearts of the people, the people from the editorial department. I know, it's a good show for me behind the scenes, me. Why didn't I see it before, us? Let's go in first. After wiping away her tears, she walked into the editorial office with Liu Yuling by her hand. Liu Yuling couldn't help laughing in her heart. What a great friendship! She felt as if she had flown back to heaven from hell.

When she returned to the editorial office, Ma Fenglan purposely moved a chair next to her desk and gestured for Liu Yuling to sit down. Liu Yuling didn't want to listen to her, so she used her work as an excuse and said that she had to go back to work, but she didn't expect that Ma Fenglan would stop Liu Yuling. 'Yuling, come with me today, don't worry, you will be here, no one dares to say anything. When he said the last few words, he even raised his voice, as if he was afraid that no one would hear him, and used him as a gun? After sitting down, she began to complain incessantly, Yu Ling, I actually know about all of this, but I didn't say anything about it. I just hope that he can turn back, and now that little demon has already made a call in front of me, her guts are really too big, right? The little girl these days really isn't ashamed. Destroying someone's family and even saying that it's because she genuinely loves our Old Li is just a show, how can she really bring this kind of woman back home to be his wife? I don't think she even knows how to cook. Do you want to be a vase? Oh, Yu Ling, don't you think that's possible? Liu Yuling didn't know how to reply, so she could only go along with it and say yes, yes, yes. However, she was thinking of something else. Let's not talk about what this girl was thinking. If the fly didn't land on the seamless egg, this slap wouldn't work. However, she had a request, so she could only stand on Ma Fenglan's side. Ma Fenglan was still unceasingly talking to him, but he was feeling a bit sleepy at this time. He had no choice but to muster up his strength to listen to Ma Fenglan's rambling. She didn't know what to say, so she just agreed, Big Sis Ma, you have to be at ease. You have been a couple for decades already, and this bit of trouble isn't really that much. You've survived all these storms, are you scared of this? Oh, Yu Ling, you really spoke about what kind of person I am. I know who Old Li is, but he's only been lost for a short while, so he'll be back soon. Big Sis, don't be sad, just work hard. Yu Ling, I didn't treat you too well in the past. Now that something has really happened, you should tell me the truth. They are laughing at me from the back. Didn't your family go to school during the winter? I will do it for you as my sincerity. In the future, we will stick together and let others talk about it. Liu Yuling was shocked. Back then, she had to take the ticket in her hand to be willing to work for her, but now she took the initiative to ask for it. Wasn't this as lucky as getting the six lottery? Just a few words from him made her feel like she had won a prize. In spite of this, Ma Fenglan continued to hold Liu Yuling's hand, Yuling, don't worry. We are old friends. Don't take it to heart if it's just a matter of a few words. Thank you, Big Sis Ma. He happily agreed, and pretended to be calm. Ma Fenglan was overjoyed to see that Liu Yuling had agreed. She quickly sent her off.

When he returned home, he reported the good news to Li Tianming. Li Tianming saw his wife's smiling appearance and felt happy in his heart, it had been several days, it was rare to see her smiling appearance, so he cooked a few good dishes to reward her. Liu Yuling returned home after work, and when she saw her son, she felt happy for the pie that fell from the sky. She picked him up and fiercely kissed him on the cheek, Dong Dong, mom will take you to KFC in a few days, ok? Thank you, Mom. Can we go with Dad? His son was suffering alongside him, and he had never once brought up any requests. His son could only play behind other people's butts when they played electric toys, and as far as he was concerned, his heart was sore, but he was also helpless. Bringing his son out to eat KFC once was a rare luxury.

Alright, alright. We'll go with dad. Year, that's great. You can go to KFC now. Mom's the best. Dong Dong loves Mom the most. Seeing her son so happy, as if there were more good things for her to do, Li Dong Dong jumped up and down causing Liu Yuling to giggle. It had been a long time since her son had been so lively. After a few days, Liu Yuling took the kids and Li Tianming to KFC for a meal. It was not like before where she saved and saved here and there. At first, Liu Yuling was worried that her son wouldn't be able to eat enough. However, when she thought about it, her son, who usually didn't have a lot of food, actually ate all the food, her heart started to feel more guilty. In any case, after so many years of admiration, Li Tianming held his hand, feeling a warm feeling in his heart, and after dinner, Liu Yuling sighed with emotion, and swore that she would give her son proof that he was better than her son. She could at least let him eat better, but she didn't reluctantly agree to her son's expenses.

It was already very late when he got home. He could tell that his son was very happy today and had already fallen asleep before he even got home. Li Tianming gently put his son on the bed and covered him with the blanket before leaving. Daylight, sometimes I really feel that I have let my son down. Looking at his son, then looking at my own son, I feel an indescribable sense of resentment towards myself. My son isn't any worse than anyone else. It's just that we failed to fulfill our responsibilities as parents. Sigh. Oh, Yu Ling, it's all my fault for not being able to let the two of you live a good life and even let you go out to work. As a father, it's useless to be a husband. I don't blame you, I really don't blame you. You are a very responsible mother. It's all my responsibility. Daylight, sometimes I even think, how does the world change now? When we first graduated, we were always on the job, relying on our own abilities to survive. But what about now? They are all family connections, we can squeeze one here and another there, how can there be a way for us commoners to survive? Yu Ling, if it wasn't for me stubbornly guarding the pedantic nature of a scholar, perhaps we would already be living in a big house and could make our son's life better. You don't need to go to the unit and get bored. In short, it's me who has let you and my son down. Daylight, we have no way to change others. We are all people who have studied, and have ink in their bodies. No matter what, they are still considered knowledgeable. How could we give up our principles for a little money? Although we are living a poor life, our principles cannot be changed. We cannot be the same as our relatives. Otherwise, is there any difference between us and them? Yu Ling, the greatest blessing of my life is that I'll be able to marry you and have you as my wife. I feel especially happy to have you around, truly, although I don't usually say it, but in my heart, I have always been especially grateful to you for always being by my side. 'Don't say it like that, being able to marry you is already my greatest fortune. We've been together for so many years, and you've always accepted me for my playful ways. Not mentioning me, I feel that I'm much happier than those rich wives. Tears welled up in the husband and wife's eyes as they spoke. They embraced each other and spoke encouraging words. They knew that half an hour had passed and they still had not settled down. However, when they thought of the work they still had to do tomorrow, they washed up and went to sleep.

CHAPTER 2 - ABOUT MAFENIN

She curiously asked Editor-in-Chief Wang, who pouted in the direction of Ma Fenglan, meaning that Ma Fenglan had helped her solve the problem. Editor-in-Chief Wang whispered in Liu Yuling's ear, If you want to become an insider again, you have to rely on Ma Fenglan's mouth. If you have a good relationship with him, perhaps something good will happen to you in the future. I know you might not want to, but at this critical moment, you can't bring yourself to do it. Aren't you saying that you have no choice but to lower your head? Just keep your head down like this once in a while. It's not that big of a deal. After all, you're the one who's enjoying the blessings. After leaving the editor's office, Liu Yuling didn't know what to do, so she said thank you as if you were trying to get something from him. She didn't say anything, but she felt like she was being rude, so when she saw Liu Yuling walk out of the editor's office, she immediately went to her and asked, Oh, Yuling, did the editor say something? Big Sis Ma, what do you expect me to say? You've done me such a big favor, and not only have you helped me with my work, but I also don't have anything good for you. How embarrassing is that? Other than the editor, you are the most hardworking person in the editorial department. If we were to put it nicely, we would be working here and wouldn't be afraid of your jokes, but in fact, we are just having a casual meal. In the past, we thought they were pretty good, but now we know that what they did on the surface might not be good, and we don't know how to ruin you. Big Sis, I really want to thank you too much. I'll treat you to dinner in a few days. Otherwise, I wouldn't even know how to thank you." That's good. I don't have many friends, but I don't have any place to go. At this time, Ma Fenglan was like a benefactor in his eyes. Although this look was a little popular, but he had reaped some benefits after all. That afternoon, Liu Yuling received a call from the Experimental Primary School saying that she could directly register on September 1st, without having to pay the tuition fee, which was equivalent to joining the school together with the children of that school.

This matter had greatly deepened Liu Yuling's good impression of Ma Fenglan. When he returned home at night and told Li Tianming about this matter, Li Tianming wasn't too excited, he just said a few good words and there was no response. Liu Yuling thought that Li Tianming had been involved in something unpleasant, so she didn't care and even coaxed Li Tianming in a good mood. Li Tianming seemed to have realized something, and he smiled and said, Then invite her over to our house for a meal in a few days. Li Tianming's face turned red, and he urged Liu Yuling to prepare the next year's bar exam with her study materials, yelling that she shouldn't let her wife disturb his cooking. Liu Yuling happily went to her bedroom to study, leaving a bewildered Li Tianming behind, Ma Fenglan, what are you doing?

Of course, Liu Yuling didn't hear Li Tianming's words, she only felt that her husband was very considerate, that he had taken care of all the household chores, and that she wouldn't have to worry about anything else. From the bottom of her heart, she was glad that she had married such a good husband, and when she thought of Ma Fenglan and her husband, although her family didn't live such a rich life, at least they were happy. At this time, Liu Yuling no longer had the resentment she had when she just lost her job, so she entered into her study state very quickly. Unknowingly, it was already time for dinner, so Li Dong called for his mother to eat. Why are you so depressed? No. Nothing. I was thinking about what kind of food to buy in a few days. So that's how it is. For such a small matter, why would it make things difficult for our family's chef? It's alright, as long as it's a regular dish. I've never eaten anything good before. I'm fine as long as it's something casual. It's good enough that you've helped my family out so much. Oh. Oh. I got it, I will see to it. Hehe, is son hungry? Let's start. Mom, let's start. The family seemed to be enjoying their meal.

Not all happiness can be so good

I don't know when, but the person sleeping next to you had another thought, and you didn't even realize it

This is not a lie

It's just that after a while, the hormones in my body started to change, so I started to change as well …

A seemingly peaceful life is buried under a great disaster

And the consequences are unforeseeable to us. As the days went by, Liu Yuling became more and more relaxed, thanks to Ma Fenglan's help. As time passed, she began to regard Ma Fenglan as a good sister of hers, not because she did not think of her goal, but because the resources available to her were too few, instead, she enjoyed more benefits than this and obtained more benefits for herself. Instead of constantly guessing the intentions of the enemy, she decided to take the initiative and take it one step at a time, since she was not stupid, how could she not see through what the enemy was plotting?

After a few days, Liu Yuling finally had time to invite Ma Fenglan to the house for dinner. She even specially selected a day when her husband and son were both at home. This way, it would be easier to introduce her husband and son to Ma Fenglan.

Ma Fenglin carried a lot of things to Liu Yuling's house and even bought some modern electric toys for her son, Li Dong, Big Sis Ma, how embarrassing would it be for you to spend these? I don't have much money, but the key is that the child is happy, so nothing else is important. Moreover, we are all on the same side now, so why are you being polite? Aren't I just here to earn some food? What are you talking about? I should be, oh thank you so much for your help. Let me introduce you, this is my husband, Li Tianming. He is also a small official in the XU department, unfortunately, he can only support his family. What are you saying? You're all cultured people, so gold will definitely shine. I also believe that your husband will have a great career in the future. Just wait for him to enjoy the good fortune. Hahahaha, hahahahahaha, I hope with your blessings, I hope it's like this. When Liu Yuling saw her son eagerly gazing at the electric toy Ma Fenglan brought with her, the guest didn't say anything more. Ma Fenglan followed Liu Yuling's gaze and understood a bit more. Dong Dong, do you like the toy Auntie bought for you? Happy. I like it. Then why don't you just call me auntie and go play with some toys? Li Dong timidly looked at his mother. When he saw Liu Yuling nod her head slightly, he happily called out for his auntie and took his treasure to the side to play with it. Liu Yuling looked at Ma Fenglan helplessly, This kid is getting more and more unruly. This is what you said is wrong. Kids like toys when they see one, there's nothing we can do about it. Besides, your son has already called me auntie. As an aunt, how can I not express anything? Big Sis Ma, you are too polite. We are on the same side, so why are you being so courteous? If you say these words, I will get angry. This is too foreign, are you treating me as an outsider? That's not what I meant. I'll remember your kindness in my heart, Big Sis Ma. Really." Li Tianming had also finished cooking, and the four of them were happily eating lunch together. Liu Yuling noticed that Li Tianming was talking very little today, otherwise, he would definitely tell many jokes at the dinner table to make her and her son laugh. He said that this would increase her appetite, and since Ma Fenglan was here, she didn't want to say it out loud.

Liu Yuling wanted to ask her to stay for a while longer, but when she thought of Li Tianming's performance at the table, she could only politely say that she welcomed him to come again the next time. Ma Fenglan thoughtfully looked at Li Tianming for a while, then suddenly thought of something and left. After Ma Fenglan left, Liu Yuling asked Li Tianming what was wrong, but Li Tianming just said that he had a headache, so he didn't say anything more. Liu Yuling thought that since the unit had been under a lot of pressure recently, taking care of the child and doing household chores, she had tired him out, so she didn't blame Li Tianming. Dong Dong was still playing with the electric toy. After settling everything at home, Liu Yuling went into her bedroom, hoping to take advantage of the time she had now to learn more. After all, she was running a race against time, and when she went in, Li Tianming was already napping on his bed. She was still a little curious, since when did Li Tianming have such a habit, why didn't she know? It was strange, but he didn't say anything. He continued to study his own lawyer.

Unexpectedly, Liu Yuling did not expect to return to her former job and become a member of the editorial board when she went to work the next day. With a doubtful Zou Ji's office, Editor Wang happily patted Liu Yuling on the shoulder and said, Yuling, now you really listen to me. Look how much help Ma Fenglan has given you, you have to thank her well. Liu Yuling was so shocked by the sudden good news that she couldn't speak anymore. She blurrily walked out of the editor's office, her mind still thinking about what Editor-in-Chief Wang had said. How did she turn back into the editor so easily? He had worked so hard for so long. He got such great benefits just by listening to her complain to him? This was really strange. Ma Fenglan walked over, smiling as she pointed to a brand-new table and said, Yuling, it's great to be able to work with you again. Big Sis Ma, you've helped me so much. Why didn't you tell me? I would also like to thank you. Didn't you invite me to your house for dinner last time? Isn't this the same as thanking me? What's more, I was being selfish by helping you. This way, I won't be getting any closer to you. It's also convenient for us to chat. It was unknown if it was unintentional or intentional, but Du Chunhua, who happened to pass by them, interjected: It's good to have a backer. Those who were eliminated, they stayed and became non-staff, but now they have been righted. How could they not work? Could it be that the current editorial department's job is just to chat with them? Elder sister Chun Hua, no … It's not like that, Spring..."

CHAPTER 3 - RECOLLECTION

Hmph, how amazing? I don't care. Du Chunhua took his cup and coldly snorted. He didn't pay any more attention to Liu Yuling and Ma Fenglin as he left. Big Sis Ma, isn't this too much of a misunderstanding? Oh, don't take it to heart, there are people these days who can't eat grapes and say they're sour. Just ignore them, as if they were very tired and bitter. Aren't they playing around with the money from the Gong family? Big Sis Ma, I really don't know what to say anymore. Really, you're really good. I was always petty before, I misunderstood you. It's all in the past, why bring it up now? I don't know how to explain it, but let's stop talking. We are on the same side. Remember, if there's anything I can help you with in the future, just say it. Ai, thank you, Big Sis Ma. From now on, you are my sister. Whoever bullies you will first have to ask me, your sister, if I agree."

Every time she asked, she would only say that she was too busy and didn't have the time to eat with Ma Fenglan. Liu Yuling thought that the couple probably hadn't gotten over the incident with Little San, so she didn't ask them about it several times later. Since Ma Fenglan didn't have a son of her own, Liu Yuling told Li Dong to call her mother, but Ma Fenglan was smiling from the bottom of her heart, saying repeatedly that she got a cute and clever son, while Li Dong was still just a child. Liu Yu Ling stood at the side and felt a little awkward, so she broke the awkward atmosphere. Thus, Liu Yu Ling asked Li Tianming to cook: "Oh, it's daylight now, I just bought some food. Big Sis Ma is eating dinner at my house today, you cook better than me. Li Tianming knew that he had lost his composure. His