Organic Awakening: The Great Secret of Living Freedom

By Kosi

This little book packs a punch and contains a surprising twist about the real nature of Sri Ramana Maharshi's teaching. It provides a detailed description of the genetics of suffering and the path that leads to freedom from fear, sadness, anxiety, stress, and many other forms of suffering.

• Language: English
• Publisher: BookBaby
• Release date: Jul 31, 2019
• ISBN: 9780974880556

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©Copyright 2017 by Kosi

All Rights Reserved. No part of this book shall be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted by any means; electronic, mechanical, photocopying, recording or otherwise without the written permission of the author and publisher.

ISBN: 9780974880556

Third Edition

This third edition has gone through a deep and thorough editing process; however, due to the speed at which has been released, and the fact that the even the best editors and proof readers are prone to missing small errors, we humbly request that you forgive any of the spelling or punctuation errors you might discover while reading edition.

Organic Awakening is a humble offering to those who seek the eternal happiness of self-realization. This book would not have been possible without the eternal grace of his Holiness Sri Bhagavan Ramana Maharshi who is the great seer who forever changed this life.

Organic Awakening is a humble offering to those who seek the eternal happiness of self-realization. This book would not have been possible without the eternal grace of his Holiness Sri Bhagavan Ramana Maharshi who is the great seer who forever changed this life.

Table of Contents

Introduction

Chapter 1 – Who Are You … Really?

Chapter 2 – The Longing

Chapter 3 – The Essential Experience

Chapter 4 – Organic Awakening

Chapter 5 – Finding the Diamond

Chapter 6 – The Burning Ground

Chapter 7 – The Silence Supreme

Chapter 8 – The Essential Teaching

Chapter 9 – Emergence of Wisdom

Chapter 10 – The Supreme Clarity

Chapter 11 – The Rosetta Stone

Chapter 12 – The Great Secret

About the Author

Bibliography & Recommended Reading

Introduction

Have you ever wondered why you seem to lose the peace or freedom you discover during a spiritual retreat or satsang? Or why you never seem to find any peace or freedom even during a spiritual retreat? Or have you ever wondered why, no matter what you’ve done to try and prevent it, old patterns of fear, sadness, anxiety, and many other forms of suffering keep happening over and over again in your life?

Organic Awakening represents the synthesis of over twenty years of spiritual practice, deep inquiry, and, since meeting Gangaji in 2001, countless hours spent in satsang with her. During this long and, at times painful, process it became clear that the western perspective of the life and teaching of his Holiness Sri Ramana Maharshi, the world renowned saint of Tiruvannamalai India, is extremely powerful and also deeply flawed. The simple and direct pointing the teaching of Sri Ramana Maharshi represents provides you with the immediacy of awakening and supports the direct discovery of the freedom in the core of your being. Often, it also leaves you with old stubborn patterns of suffering that always seems to re-emerge even after the most profound realizations or states of bliss.

Most people are not even aware just how much they participate in their suffering. You actually have to practice suffering for it to continue. Life is painful, and the pain you experience generates sensations, emotions, and thoughts. Usually, your thoughts drift from your circumstances, to your pain, your future, your past, and all of the different strategies you develop to protect yourself, and avoid what you don’t want. You also might endlessly ponder how to get rid of your pain or try to figure out how to stop the endless swirl of thought rolling through your mind. You might even actively engage in the endless process of blaming people in your life about the suffering you are certain that they cause or continue to blame your suffering on unwanted circumstances that constantly emerge in your life. Rarely, do you stop and notice that perhaps you are the only one responsible for generating any negativity you might be experiencing.

Perhaps you’ve been on the spiritual path for a while and have developed various spiritual practices to still or calm your mind. Maybe you meditate and inquire into various emotions in an attempt to stop these never ending movements of your mind. You might have had some success with various practices, but find you only experience moments of bliss. You feel like you found the bliss, or peace, but somehow you always seem to lose it.

The natural tendency of your mind is to analyze your experience and have an internal conversation with yourself about your experience. You naturally give your attention to your thoughts, emotions, sensations, and stories that emerge in your mind about your pain, your circumstances, the people in your life, and whatever you imagine all of this means about you. Suffering is complicated. When you are willing to intimately examine how your suffering actually happens, you can see for yourself all the effort involved in your practice of suffering. You have to think, imagine, remember, think some more, project what you are thinking onto the future, or someone else, decide whatever you are thinking and feeling is true, imagine what it means about you, someone else, other people, and your circumstances. Whew, just thinking about the effort involved with suffering is a form of suffering—it is exhausting. Sound familiar?

Organic Awakening gives you real insights into the freedom that you are and reveals what is required to break free of the most stubborn forms of suffering that seem to be a barrier to your own direct realization of the living truth that you are. This book is the Rosetta stone that cracks the ancient code of enlightenment—revealing the natural organic process that leads to full and final self-realization. This simple teaching provides you with insights that enable you to decipher how your suffering happens and what is required to stop this seemingly endless cycle. As the title suggests, Organic Awakening is a natural effortless process that has the intrinsic power to burn through the very resilient neuro-net of your genetic mind—the root cause of all human suffering. This is good news, and bad news, it is very simple, but represents the challenge of a lifetime.

Organic Awakening is a simple pointing to something so nakedly intimate, so close to you, it easily overlooked. This eternal flame of living truth lives in your heart and is free of your heart. This infinite silence eternally calls you home to the freedom you are. That, which is eternally always already free of all suffering—that which needs no fixing deep inside of you. Your own direct discovery of this eternity supports the deep and endless realization that you are the freedom you are seeking. Organic Awakening is simple, direct, and ruthless support for anyone who is serious about the indescribable freedom and lasting happiness of full self-realization.

Chapter 1 – Who Are You … Really?

Right now we are traveling through space on a tiny blue planet in a universe so vast that it is incomprehensible—does that not make you wonder? It is mind-boggling how little we know about the universe and even less about where our precious planet is going. After all, what is the universe, really? The mind cannot comprehend this vastness. You might pause for a moment when you look up at the midnight sky and wonder at its infinitude, but usually we get so caught up in the circumstances of our lives that we are like ants on an anthill on this tiny blue planet in a vast unknowable galaxy and rarely, if ever, do we look up at a starlit sky and simply wonder. Our focus tends to migrate to what we did, what we are going to do, as well as what we believe about ourselves and other people. Most of us never stop for a moment to wonder about the majesty and mystery of life. We rarely, if ever, stop to contemplate who we really are deeper than our personal identity.

Even if you consider yourself to be a seeker of freedom, it is only natural to either, consciously or unconsciously, be so identified with your thoughts, feelings, and circumstances as a definition of who you are that you overlook the freedom that is simply always here. During your search for freedom, moments of awakening, or the bliss of freedom, can seem to vaporize when unwanted circumstances or old patterns of behavior reassert themselves. Even after the most sublime moments of bliss, you can find yourself seeking—but never really finding—the all illusive peace, freedom, and lasting happiness you long for. Perhaps you don’t see yourself as someone seeking freedom, but, instead, find yourself longing for happiness and fulfillment.

Organic awakening represents a natural evolution of your consciousness that reveals the natural freedom, peace, and happiness that you are, which is already fulfilled and has no need to be fixed or changed. This organic evolution occurs spontaneously once you are willing to plant the finite seed of your attention into the infinite ground of your heart. This awakening is an instantaneous shift in your perception that sparks a natural evolution. Just like a flower opens to the rays of the sun, this awaking is an effortless discovery of the infinite majesty of your being. One deep look into the very center of your heart is the essential glimpse, the miraculous shift in your perception, that enables you to see through all phenomenon—circumstances, feelings, memories, and projections—as illusory. Once you directly recognize this for yourself, you can begin to see who you really are—deeper than your name. You can see immediately for yourself that who you really are is the very substance of life itself, the stateless state of bliss, love, or pure unchanging happiness—that which perceives.

Organic awakening occurs effortlessly. Maybe you perceive that you must do something for your conscious awakening, or self-realization, or deepening, but what if you simply need to stop, be still, and be quiet? What if the great secret of your organic awakening is already alive in your heart? Possibly, you have heard these words before and find yourself wondering if what is known as awakening, self-realization, or enlightenment, is truly effortless, or do you actually need to make some effort in order to shift or evolve your perception?

Naturally, you go through life thinking you are a particular person with a particular past. At birth, you are given a name and, over time, become identified with your name, your body, and your past. This identification consciously and unconsciously defines who you think you are. As a result, you spend most of your life thinking you know who you are, but have you ever stopped to wonder—who am I…really?

The natural identification with your body evolves gradually from the moment you were born. Over time, your identification with your body solidifies into a powerful egoic identification infused with the genetics and feeling nature of your body, which informs all of your actions and reactions to your thoughts, memories, feelings, and circumstances. Your identification—or the deep feeling ‘I am me’ as an individual in a body with a past and a potential future—is the genetic identity known simply as your ego. From the perspective of the ego, or this deep sense that you are an individual separate from everyone else, your natural tendency is to focus on whatever you are thinking, which causes your pain to continue and even intensify over time.

Your natural tendency, as you move through life, is to focus your attention on the story that is constantly unfolding in your mind about you—your past, future, and circumstances. Without even paying much attention you believe this story about you is not only true—it’s real. The story defines who you think you are. Combine that with the innate powers of your mind to think, imagine, remember, and project—and you can begin to notice the source and nature of all forms of suffering you experience throughout your life. Whatever you focus on generates your experience. The natural tendency is to focus on your own internal conversation, then imagine what that means about you, the people in your life, and your circumstances. Based on this internal conversation you develop all kinds of strategies to protect yourself and get whatever it is you think you want. The genetics of your physical body, combined with these innate powers of your mind, is the deeply ingrained survival mechanism designed to keep your body alive. This is what is known as the genetic mind. The genetic mind is infused with your genetic instinct to survive or the natural impulse to protect yourself. This feeling nature of thought combined with the mechanical and instinctual aspects of your mind is the source of stubborn patterns of suffering. To end the genetics of your suffering requires the intimate discovery of who suffers. What is the nature of suffering?

Many years ago, not long after I met Gangaji, I would listen to her cassette tapes while I drove to work. Her articulate instructions illustrated how to break free of the suffering nature of mind. At the time, a deep nagging longing for freedom was a constant ache inside my chest. This deep longing kept me looking for the happiness that true freedom promises, but it always seemed just out of reach. As I drove along listening to her voice I kept hitting the rewind button. Her voice was like a radiant light, but she spoke a language I could barely understand. Her resonant voice simply stated, Suffering is complex and must be practiced to continue. Truth is simple and cannot be practiced. I played this over and over again wanting to unlock its secret message. Something deep inside knew the truth of her words, but, at the time, it was a foreign language to my ears. What was suffering? I had no idea.

All forms of suffering result from giving your attention to—and believing in—the story that is constantly unfolding in your mind about your life and circumstances. Freedom is the simple realization that you are that which perceives the story of your life as well as the complex movements of your mind and sensations of your body. Freedom is the awareness that is aware of the endless thoughts rolling through your mind. Your awareness is infinitely still inside of you—the peaceful unmoving one who perceives, the one constant presence that was here every single moment of your life. Basically, just like Gangaji intimated so many years ago, suffering is complex, changes, and requires your effort along with the energy of your attention. In other words, you must practice suffering in order for it to continue. It takes work and your participation.

When you are willing to intimately examine how your suffering actually happens, you can see for yourself all the effort involved in your practice of suffering. You have to think, imagine, remember, think some more, project what you are thinking onto the future or someone else, decide whatever you are thinking and feeling is true, and then imagine what it means about you, someone else, other people, and your circumstances. Just thinking about the effort involved with suffering is a form of suffering—it is exhausting. The story of you, steals your time, energy, and robs you of the pure joy of living. It is simply exhausting for you to create and maintain. Perhaps, more importantly it is exhausting for everyone in your life that you either, consciously or unconsciously, attempt to enroll in your story.

Freedom, on the other hand, is extraordinarily simple, does not require any effort, never changes, and is simply always here—the most sublime peace and happiness of your true nature. In fact, freedom needs no words at all to express its endless happiness. Freedom is who you are before your breath. Your mind, in and of itself, does not cause suffering. Instead, your genetically strong tendency to focus on whatever you think and feel, as well as whatever you imagine and believe is true about what you think and feel, combined with your identification with these constantly changing movements of mind, feelings, and beliefs as a definition of who you are, causes your pain to continue over time—this is suffering. This complexity of your mind and body is the very essence of the suffering nature of life. The deeply ingrained belief in your core identity as the primary definition of who you are, is also the root cause of all of your attachments and desires, which is, as the Buddha discovered, the root cause of all of your suffering.

When you cut through this root with your attention and intimately examine this core identity, you can discover directly, intimately, that it is simply a thought. You can see for yourself that your name and this feeling I am me has no real substance. The core identity that you have based your entire life on is simply nothing at all. The moment you see through the root identity as an illusion, neither attachment nor desire is even possible. In other words, if you are the pure consciousness that is looking through the lens of your eyes, with no name or form, how could you be attached to anything or desire anything? When you stop giving your attention to the ever-changing movement of the story unfolding in your mind and deeply see through this core identity as illusory, all that remains is the pure happiness of your inherent nature. Cutting through this root cause of suffering is the beginning of a natural organic awakening.

Whether you are aware of it or not, it is your core identification and the very powerful movements of your mind to get whatever you think you want—even if what you want is freedom or self-realization—as well as your attachments, or the desire to keep whatever you think you have, is the root cause of the suffering nature of mind. When you are unaware of the source of the life that animates your body, your deep identification with your physical form and the story that moves through your mind works in unison with the feeling nature of your body to extend your pain over time. This is the nature of ignorance—the nature of suffering.

Even the pursuit of freedom can transform into suffering as long as you continue to ‘think’ you are this person who is looking for freedom that is somewhere else or will arrive at some point in the future, instead of the deeper realization that freedom is the living truth of who you already are. In fact, by its very nature, your mind is so powerful that whatever you think actually manifests as your experience of reality. It does not matter whether you have a good self-image or bad self-image the essence of all suffering lives in this identification with your body, and your past, as the primary definition of who you are.

Deep down, if you told the truth, the unconscious and conscious definitions of yourself can create a deep feeling of worthlessness. You might even feel like you hate yourself, even if you have what most people consider to be a good life and a relatively innocuous past. If you tell an even deeper truth, you might be able to admit that your deepest fear is the death of your precious body, which you are deeply convinced, is who you actually are. If the body dies, then you die. This can evoke a tremendous sense of fear and even terror, which most of us will go to great lengths to avoid.

It is an all too common experience to move through life without even contemplating your death—you live your life in the comfortable mirage of a tomorrow. The truth is, no one knows what day will be their last day. This avoidance of death keeps you in varying states of conscious and unconscious fear. This primal fear is so deeply rooted in your identification with the body that you are often completely unaware of this primal fear. Most people die without ever having truly lived, simply because, either consciously or unconsciously, they were doing everything in their power to avoid the uncomfortable reality of the inevitable death of their physical body. The natural tendency of your mind is to live your life in the comfortable bubble that you will always have a tomorrow. Meeting your physical death is the divine arrow that pops this bubble revealing the eternal life that is always free, happy, and fulfilled. To live a happy life requires the essential courage to meet your death and, strangely, meeting your death begins the natural evolution of your life as freedom, lasting happiness, and true fulfillment.

Using my own life as an example, when I was thirty-five years old, I focused entirely on gathering as much money as humanly possible. Money was freedom, security, and enabled me to do whatever I wanted in life—or so I thought. Death was not at all on my radar. Without much effort, I found myself in the Silicon Valley making more money than I ever imagined possible. I was also profoundly unhappy and deeply disillusioned with life. At that time, it was clear no amount of money would ever make me happy, but I had no plan or strategy for discovering true freedom or happiness. I was not even aware that lasting happiness or freedom was in the realm of possibility for an ordinary person. Everyone in my life was living a life of the same suffering. The only gauge for how well you were doing was how much money you were making, whether or not you had good relationship, good sex, and were saving enough money for retirement. No gauge, litmus test, or wisdom existed to lead you out of the suffering that no one even knew was suffering. How could it?

The journey to find freedom started completely by accident—or so it seemed. Through pure luck, or divine grace, a friend invited me to attend Radiant Light Ministries, a local San Francisco church he aptly nicknamed the disco church—every service began with the heart thumping base of disco music. The moment I walked through the doors of this eclectic little church, it immediately felt like my life would never be the same again. The radiant message