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It culminates with the last poem designed to make you think------
Is there still hope? You decide.
Raelein MB Haley
Raelein MB Haley has been writing poetry for most of her life, including as a young child. She is a mixed blood Tsalagi (Cherokee) Indian. She writes free-verse poetry, and has had some success with it. This is her first published book. She hopes you enjoy it, and thanks you for purchasing and reading her book.
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Heat Lightning - Raelein MB Haley
Copyright © 2009 by Raelein MB Haley.
Library of Congress Control Number: 2009911696
ISBN: Hardcover 978-1-4415-8889-0
Softcover 978-1-4415-8662-9
Ebook 978-1-4500-0262-2
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This book is dedicated to my Mother
Frances June Parker Olsen
January 4, 1933 - March 12, 1999
With Much Love
Xlibris-18.jpgThe Seventh Year
Dedicated to: my God, who gave me Life,
And to my children:
William Blake Wallace
and
Tabitha Cheryl Haley,
Who make my life worth living.
They are my miracles.
Special thanks to: my beloved husband, Anthony Haley, who stands beside me always, even through all The Seventh Years
;
In memory of Erma Young Gagle, for her unconditional love, which taught me so much;
In memory of Duane Gagle, who believed in me until I could believe in myself;
And to Dennis, for all the memories: for being my brother, lover, friend—
For all the laughter and tears—
For all the years we had together.
I will always love you!
This book is for all the people who touched my life, and never made it to The Seventh Year
, and for all of us who survived it, and keep surviving it, again and again.
Love that has no ears—
Makes love that speaks in words—
Mute.
-Raelein MB Haley
seperates.jpgThe Seventh Year
It starts like any other, I suppose:
always from one November to the next.
It changes then,
in that first month.
I have come to recognize the signs
along the way.
Always a year of extreme loss,
and losses relived:
Lives, loves, time, sanity.
Stretched to the limit:
skin feels like it just fits
around the pain—
Like the hide stretched tight
on a child’s baseball.
Pitched through the air:
free-falling.
Waiting for the blow to come
once again;
For the bat to connect
CRACK:
Waiting to see if it
even will.
On edge.
Sharp-edged.
Over the edge.
It is not such a long distance,
as you can see.
From there, to there, to there.
It can take nothing more
than a day of not speaking;
Tongue numbed by grief.
A hot oppressive summer night:
spirit-wild.
Ready to explode at the pull of a pin.
Grenade.
And it’s all gone again.
Spring days, inside looking out:
all the new beginnings
and all you feel inside
is a knot of longing
lodged in the pit of your stomach:
like a fist.
Autumn just happens.
So much death.
You look around
and it doesn’t look so bad, you know?
The Death.
In fact, it looks beautiful.
Tempting, inviting, peaceful.
Winter.
Cold, dreary, dead.
Silent.
You almost wish for it.
Not the cold,
but the silence, the emptiness—
the stop in time,
so that the sick feeling inside
will freeze
and melt away like the snow.
The pain always seems worse,
the loss always greater,
the world always sadder,
life always harder.
The mind a bit wobbly
like a toddler’s uncertain steps;
looking for someone or something
to grasp onto.
Out in this air
alone-
the fall seems not so far.
Not so bad.
The fight to stay on one’s feet
seems tenuous, at best:
Teetering on the edge—
thin china of tea cup rattling
against saucer.
Light shining through,
milky blue in the dusk.
Just let go!
It seems the only way—
no choices left.
Take the fall,
Drop the ball,
Let it go.
But then there is the struggle back
for those who survive.
And always, there comes
another Seventh Year.
Each time—
it just gets harder.
4/7/1995
seperates.jpgseperates.jpgBlood Relations
(For Tony)
Having almost lost you-
left you—
I cherish you more than ever.
Such a strange thing
this heart of mine.
It beats in rhythm with some
life-force
that I don’t understand.
It changes directions,
blood coursing first this way,
and then that.
You are asleep next to me.
Trying not to wake you,
but longing to touch you,
I lightly run my fingertips
over your eyelids,
your mouth,
down your throat—
Rest my hand in yours
which is relaxed with sleep—
The drug of desire sated.
The bottom half of my hand
rests across the back of your wrist,
and I feel your pulse against my skin.
I am suddenly overtaken with gratitude
for your very existence.
Somehow, this makes me feel stupid—
dumbly sentimental—
But I keep my hand there
and begin counting.
This is how I finally sleep
after all our days of warring
and our night of loving.
Counting out the beats of your pulse—
78, 79, 80, 81—
My blood courses through my veins
and seeps slowly
through my bleeding wounds,
to join yours.
To take us both away
from this world
for awhile.
2/1/1995
seperates.jpgseperates.jpgVoices of the Dead
(For Dennis 1948-1993)
The dead speak to me.
I hear their voices and
their laughter.
When I am lonely,
when I am sad,
they come to me.
Perhaps unbidden, but not
unwanted.
These voices,
they know who I am.
They know I am not who you see;
you with your human eyes,
your empty voice.
They are a comfort to me.
They lull me to sleep
better than any narcotic,
and much sweeter too.
They cradle my forever aching head.
I forget the pain for awhile.
You-
you sometimes silence me in this World,
so I become quiet.
I retreat and am very still,
knowing that if I do this
they will come.
And they do.
The voices of the dead,
they speak to me.
When I am dead,
perhaps I will also
speak to you.
2/1/1995
seperates.jpgseperates.jpgListen
Place your head here
against my chest.
Do you hear my heart beat?
You think it pumps blood,
this heart of mine,
do you not?
It pumps words,
thoughts and feelings.
Too many to grasp.
Place your head here.
What do you hear, feel?
Nothing? Right!
This is the spot
where my womb used to be.