When I Lost My Parents: My Loving Mother Gave Me Wings and My Father Taught Me to Fly
By Tirlok Malik
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Parents remain the most influential adults throughout one's lives. This book is about the relationship of a son whose parents were also his best friends.
The author Tirlok Malik says "I was considered successful and mature," but when I was faced with the dilemma of losing my parents inside I felt like a small boy scared at the thought of losing my parents.
This book prepares you for that moment when you face the reality of losing aging parents. This book is a healing journey for anyone who have lost parents or who still has parents.
Tirlok Malik
Tirlok Malik is a New York Emmy Award nominated filmmaker, and restauranter (Ayuveda Cafe). All of his films have been about relationships and has won many awards worldwide. Tirlok was born in India but now lives in New York City. He calls America his home. As an immigrant he brought his parents to New York where they lived for 17 years before they died at 80. When his parents needed him in their old age he was there for his parents. But when the time came to say the final "goodbye" Malik as a little boy in him felt vulnerable that is what inspired him to write this memoir. His memoir will take you to a journey of understanding and healing.
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When I Lost My Parents - Tirlok Malik
© 2014 Tirlok Malik. All rights reserved.
No part of this book may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted by any means without the written permission of the author.
Published by AuthorHouse 07/08/2014
ISBN: 978-1-4969-1674-7 (sc)
ISBN: 978-1-4969-1673-0 (e)
Library of Congress Control Number: 2014911122
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CONTENTS
1. Acknowledgements
2. Why Did I Write This Memoir?
3. Why Should You Read This Book?
4. Introduction
5. I Have Mother
6. Hospital Journey
7. Life On The 7Th Floor Icu
8. From Hope To No Hope
9. A Heart-Broken Man
10. Amrit And Amrit
11. Out Of The Hospital And Into Rehab
12. Back To The Hospital
13. Nursing Home
14. Amrit Says Goodbye To Tara
15. My Last Day With Mother
16. August 2Nd 2004, Monday
17. Numbness
18. The Funeral Day
19. Human Error Vs Destiny
20. My First Birthday Without Mother
21. Thanksgiving
22. Back To Work
23. Hospital To Kateri Residence
24. The Day Pope Died
25. A Drive With My Father
26. August 29Th, Another Sad Monday
27. Father’s Funeral
28. Eulogy For Amrit
29. Aftermath
30. Family Support After Funeral
31. Visit To India, The Healing Begins
32. Visit To Tara’s Hometown
33. One Hundred Funerals
34. One Hundred Massages
35. Holi To Haridawar
36. A Check List
37. Back In New York
38. A Note On Hospitals
39. Ayurveda Café – A Place For Balance, A Mother’s Kitchen
40. Khushiyaan, The Film
41. A Gift
42. If Today Was Your Last Day
Dedicated to:
Tara and Amrit Malik
My loving Mother who gave me wings,
&
My brave Father who taught me to fly.
When I Lost My Parents
A Memoir By Tirlok Malik
The author Tirlok Malik says, I was considered successful and mature, but when I was faced with the dilemma of losing my parents, inside I felt I was a small boy who was sacred by the thought of losing my parents.
This book prepares you for that moment when you face the reality of losing your aging parents.
This book is a healing journey for anyone who have lost parents or who still has parents.
Acknowledgements
Over the years I have met many people from all walks of life and all nationalities.
Some of them have taught me things, some of them gave me love, some of them showed me their kindness, and some of them caused me pain as well.
I thank all of them for making me grow.
I thank all my friends who have stood by me like angels during my times of need.
I thank all my well wishers, you know who you are.
I thank my family for being a part of my journey.
As well as my friends who helped me with this book
I especially thank Tita Beal and Jordan Barsky for double-checking my Indian American English.
Wishing everyone the best in all aspects of life,
Tirlok Malik
Why Did I Write This Memoir?
I was considered successful and mature, but when I was faced with the dilemma of losing my mother, inside I felt I was a small boy who was scared by the thought of losing my mother. When parents are at that stage where they could die, you as a child become the parent and they become the child. I was lonely and scared. I needed an outlet for what I was feeling so I started to write this. When I finished in 2006, I felt healed.
Only much later, some friends read what I had written and said I should share this with others because the feelings are universal and it could be helpful for others as well.
Tirlok Malik
Why should you read this book?
To live life fully, we often need the courage to look directly at our fear of loss.
If your parents are still on the planet, you may not want to imagine their deaths. Tirlok Malik’s story reminds us to use our time together fully – to resolve breaks
If you have faced loss of parents or other loved ones, this book is healing as Malik has the courage to work through the pain to the beauty in our moments of connection… even when those moments may include the need to re-connect.
As I took the journey in this book, I followed Malik’s path through the anguish of saying goodbye to a courageous and joyful celebration of life.
—Tita Theodora Beal, a reader who, like you, came onto this planet through parents
INTRODUCTION
It was a Friday evening, December 12, 2003. I walked into the restaurant (Ayurveda Café). My mother, Tara, was sitting at her regular table. She looked at me and smiled gently.
I asked her, Kaya hal hai? Bibi
(How are you, mother.)
She extended her hand to me, Look what has happened. I get tired after walking one block.
I saw her hand was swollen. I took her hand in my hand, put my other hand on top of hers, looking straight at her and said, I will take you to the doctor. It will be okay.
While I was looking into her eyes, I realized our roles have been reversed.
All these years whenever anything happened to me, I would tell her and she would respond by saying, Don’t worry everything will be okay. God will bless you
and I believed her every time, no matter what was the outcome. Just merely listening to her say that everything will be okay, I felt everything will be okay. Her words to me were like God speaking. She represented to me the form of God. But that evening when I looked at her face, I realized she has become old and now I will have to be the parent.
On Dec. 15th, Monday, my father Amrit and I took my mother Tara to her regular doctor and setup appointments with other doctors for various tests to be done during the week. After the doctor visit, I took her to see the new restaurant our group was opening. So that she could give her blessings to the new restaurant.
After various tests on December 18th, which was a Thursday afternoon, we were in the cardiologist’s office on Central Park West. After doing her checkup, the doctor called me to his office while she was in the waiting room. The doctor informed me that she needed to be taken to the emergency room in the hospital. He said her heart valves were not functioning properly, and liquid had been collecting in her lungs causing her swelling. He said he had called the ambulance already.
I went into the other room and informed my mother that we will have to go to the hospital. She said, I don’t want to go to the hospital.
I extended my hand, touched her face and said, Mother, in order to get better, we will have to take you to hospital. Don’t worry, it will be okay.
While we are waiting for the ambulance, she takes off her gold jewelry and hands it over to me, saying, Keep it safe.
Then she also says she has made four gold bangles for my wife to-be. Those bangles are lying in her bank locker.
Why did she mention this to me at that time? I said, Don’t worry, you will give them to her whenever the time comes.
She said, Yes, whenever…
While my father and I were waiting for the ambulance to come, I was looking at my mother’s face and realized I have never ever seen her sick before. She is 78 years old.
We reached the emergency room at Lenox Hill hospital at 6:30 PM. They attended to her immediately; we were there till 1:00 in the morning. For dinner, I brought some fruit for her. She shared part of the fruit with my father and joked around with him. She was in good spirits. The doctors were going to keep her the whole night in the emergency room. She told us to go home.
Next morning, my father and I went to the hospital. She was still in the emergency room and she looked fine. She told me she already had breakfast. Sometime later she was given a room on the regular floor. They were going to keep her a few days in the hospital.
During the day, my brother Chander and one of our partners, Bansal, visited her. (My parents treated Bansal like a son.) We spent most of the day in the