Broken and Still Mending: Broken and Still Mending

By Tina

At a young age, a lady started off in the wrong direction, always feeling she was never good enough. Allowed low self-esteem and loneliness to dictate her life. Not valuing her womans worth, it caused her to be taken advantage of, taken for granted, and misunderstood. She wanted to be loved by someone but knew she couldnt love anyone without loving herself first. In the end, she realized the ultimate love is Christ.

• Language: English
• Publisher: AuthorHouse
• Release date: Jul 16, 2012
• ISBN: 9781477229262

Tina

I feel as though I am qualified to write this book because the experiences I’ve been through in my lifetime need to be heard. I am a single woman and mother of one, and I have struggled financially, emotionally, and physically. I want to help others to make better choices early on in life. I reside in Pocomoke City, Maryland, where I work as a dental assistant. Currently I am still single, struggling to live a Christian life, but determined to live a holy and righteous for GOD.

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Broken 

and Still 

Mending

TINA

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Published by AuthorHouse   07/03/2012

ISBN: 978-1-4772-2927-9 (sc)

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Library of Congress Control Number: 2012911449

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Contents

Acknowledgments

Introduction

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Chapter 6

Chapter 7

Chapter 8

Now to Sum It Up

Words of Encouragement To All My Beautiful Women

Acknowledgments

First, I want to give all the glory to my heavenly father, JESUS CHRIST, for allowing all things possible. Thank God for my son and my family. Special thanks to all my friends, especially those that have been there, through one relationship or another. Special thanks to my church family. Special thanks to all the men that were a part of my life. If I hadn’t dealt with you, I would not been able to tell my story, so thank you all and may God bless you. TO GOD BE THE GLORY!!!!

Introduction

Today is the first day of my life new life. Everything in 07 and years before are done. Even though, I’m just getting over another break-up (me and my men). By the way, I am a thirty-four-year-old, African-American, Christian woman and a single mom of one fine fourteen-year-old young man. Okay, back to my life. What I mean by me and my men, I should probably say me and my men problems. Feeling or thinking I always had to have a man, and this started as young as fourteen years old.

Chapter 1

My first boyfriend—oh my God he was so sweet. Not the finest thing, but really nice and sweet. My best friend introduced him and me—they went to the same school. She lived in another town about thirty to forty miles away from me. I really don’t remember exactly how the story went. I think she had a picture of me and she showed it to him, and he thought I was cute. My best friend let me know what he thought, so I told her to give him my number. He called after a couple of days; he had a nice phone voice. We started talking on the phone regularly for about a month.

One weekend my best friend and I decided to go to the movies. When we got to the movies, we saw three guys walking toward us. My best friend never gave me a clue that he might be one of the three or that she told him to meet us there. And yes, he was one of the three. I’m going to play it safe by saying his looks didn’t compare to his voice. It really didn’t matter at this point anyway, because I had already started liking him a lot through our conversations. We ended up having a good time that night.

After that night, we made it official that we were a couple. We were together about one and a half to two years, and guess what NO SEX.WOW! The reason I emphasize no sex is because it’s not too many men out there that don’t want sex (young or old). It’s probably some people saying, What does she know about sex anyway at that age? since I was only fourteen years old. And some are saying, He was probably getting it somewhere else. Well, for those saying, What do you know? my answer is that it wasn’t a whole lot, but I wasn’t a virgin. I only had sex once, but back then, and even now at that age, you were made fun of (punked) if you were a virgin. (Not that it was a good thing.) Had I known then what I know now, I would have waited and done it the right way. Now for those saying, Probably getting it somewhere else, you are pretty much right.

One night he called me and told me he had been to a party. I asked, Was it fun? He answered, Yeah, but I could tell from his voice something was bothering him. I asked several times, What’s wrong? The last time I asked, he said to me, I have something to tell you, and I said, What’s wrong? What is it? Then I got it. He said to me, I messed up with (he gave the girl’s name, but I didn’t know her since we didn’t live in the same town). This is when the needy side of me began. I said to him, Okay, we can get past this because it won’t happen again, right? See, in the back of my mind I felt it was my fault because I didn’t have sex with him. He did tell me it wouldn’t happen again, but he still ended up breaking up with me because he was hurt that he had hurt me. That was something he never wanted to do or take the chance of happening again.

Now back then, that was so sweet that he was hurt by hurting me. Now at thirty-four years old, I realize he only said that because it was the right thing to say to get out of the